THE LAW
For Dinah Waycott the sole difficulty of her position began to clear
itself; and since she was now convinced that she and Lawrence saw the
future with the same vision, she felt that future approach quickly.
It seemed, however, that for her, pure joy could only be reached
through sorrow, and on an occasion of meeting Maynard upon the moor,
she said so.
"Nothing ever do run quite smooth, and out of my misfortune my
fortune comes. For it's only a terrible sad thing that be clearing
the road for us and leaving nobody in my life to think of but you."
She had assumed somewhat more than her lover at this point, and in a
sense, taken the lead.
"Your foster-father?" he said.
"Yes; it's a pretty dark cloud against my happiness, and if it was
only for that, I'd be glad to be gone. You can't say yet he don't
know me; but you can say he very soon won't. We seem to slip away
from him according as he cared for us. He don't know Jane no more at
all, and asks her what he can do for her when she comes in the room.
But he knows Johnny off and on, and he knows me off and on too. His
wife he still knows, and I can see it's life and death to her that he
shall go on knowing her; because it will be a great triumph for her
if, when he's forgot everybody, he still remembers her."
"I dare say it would be."
"I'd have been jealous as fire that he shouldn't forget me, if it
hadn't been for you. But not now. I won't be sorry to leave him
now, and just love to remember what he was to me. To think I could
ever say that! It's cruel sad, poor old dear."
"There's a bright side, however," he answered. "And though you might
say no man could be worse off than to lose his wits, yet for poor old
Ben there's one good thing: he'll never know you've gone, or how
you've gone."
"I've thought of that; but how can you be sure, if he'd had the mind
left to understand, he wouldn't have been glad for me? He liked you."
"You know different, Dinah. He liked me; but he'd never have been
glad, given the facts."
She was silent and Lawrence spoke again.
"He's only a shadow of a man now and will grow more and more faint,
till he fades away. But you'll have the grateful memory of him."
"Yes; and if ever we get a son, Lawrence, he must be called
Benjamin--I will have it so."
He fell silent. Dinah often spoke with delight of children; and it
was at those times the man felt the drag on his heart hardest. They
had argued much, but her frank puzzlement and even amusement at his
problems and doubts began to wear them down. She knew it, but,
behind her assumption of certainty, still suspected him a little. He
varied and seemed more inclined to listen than to talk. But things
were rushing to a conclusion and there could only be one.
It was agreed that they must now hide their friendship and their
purpose for the sake of other people. Dinah grew full of plans, and
Lawrence listened while she ran on; but she knew that the real plans
would be made by him. A sort of vagueness came into their relation
and its cause was in his head, not his heart. That, too, she knew.
But certain things to-day he told her and certain things, unknown to
him, she now determined to do. Impatience must have been created for
Dinah this evening, but that she understood his doubts were solely on
her account. She believed that nothing but questions of law remained
to deter Maynard, and of their utter insignificance she had often
assured him.
"I've got the facts," he said, "and I'd like for you to hear them.
And, after to-night, we mustn't see each other so often. To make it
easier for us when we go, we'd better keep as far apart as need be
till then. There's a lot must pass between us and we can't post
letters very well--not in the pillar-boxes; but we may want a
pillar-box of our own presently."
"What I hate about life," she cried, "is that you've got to pretend
such a lot. If this had happened to Jane, she'd love the hiding up
and the plotting and turning and twisting, like a hare running away
from the hounds. But I hate it. I hate to think the world's full of
people, who look at life in such a way that what we're going to do
must be wrong."
"They've been brought up with fixed ideas about marriage and think
it's got more to do with God than with men and women. The interests
of the Church are put high above right and justice for the people.
They always were; and them that claim marriage is God's plan, also
claim that He would chain wretched, mistaken creatures together for
life, quite regardless of their honour and decency and self-respect.
It's funny that educated men should write the stuff I read; but the
moment you see the word 'God' in a newspaper, you can say good-bye to
reason and pity. We're punished--we who make a mistake--for what?
Oft for nothing but misreading character, or because truth's withheld
from us on purpose. Palk was telling of a man he knew who went
courting and was never told his intended's mother was in a mad-house.
And he married, and his wife went out of her mind with her first
child. Now she's got to be put away and may live for fifty years,
and sane, well-meaning people tell the man he must bide a widower for
ever-more--at the will of God! God wills he should go alone to his
dying day, because his wife's people hid the truth from him."
"But the law--surely the law----?"
"The law's with the Church so far. They hunt in couples. But the
law's like to be altered 'tis thought; though no doubt the Church
will call down fire from Heaven if any human mercy and common sense
and decency is brought to bear on marriage."
"Can't the religious people see that lots quite as good as them, and
quite as willing and wishful to do right are being put in the wrong?
And can't they see tortured men and women won't be patient for ever?"
"No; they put us in the wrong and they keep us in the wrong, for
God's sake--so He shan't be vexed. They don't understand it isn't
only adultery that breaks up marriage, but a thousand other things
beside. It's human progress and education and understanding; and
these pious people only leave one door to escape through. And they
don't seem to see that to decent thinking and self-respecting men and
women that's a door they won't enter. They say, 'If you want to
right your mistake, you must sin.' But if Almighty God made
marriage, He never made such filth to be thrust down the throats of
them that fail in marriage. Thus, any way, it stands with Minnie
Courtier at present--and with me. This is the law and clear enough.
A man disappears and blots himself out of life, you may say, and,
what's more important, blots himself out of the lives of everybody
who knew him, including his wife. And the question is, what can the
wife do about it? I've looked into this very close, and I find the
issue is like a lot of other things in the law. It often depends on
the judge, and how he reads the facts of the case, and whether he's
all for the letter of the law, or one of the larger-minded sort, who
give the spirit a chance. A man not heard about for seven years may
be counted dead in the eyes of the law; but there's no presumption he
died at any particular time in the seven years, and it isn't enough
to say, 'Seven years are past and I'm in the right to presume
somebody dead.' You must have legal permission, and judges differ.
You've got to prove that diligent inquiries were made to find the
vanished person before you apply to the Court, and a human sort of
judge is satisfied as a rule and doesn't torment the public and sets
a man or woman free. But if circumstances show that the vanished
party wouldn't be heard of, even if he was alive, then many
frost-bound judges won't allow he's dead, or grant freedom to a
deserted partner even after seven years. So, now, though the seven
years are up, even if application was made to assume my death, it
rests on the character of the judge whether Mrs. Courtier would be
allowed to do so."
"She may not care a button about it one way or the other," said
Dinah--"any more than I do."
"Very likely. It's only of late that I've spared a thought to her.
There's very little doubt in my mind that she's settled down to being
a widow--had enough of men I reckon."
"You don't know, however?"
"I don't know--and it's time I did, I suppose. But how?"
Dinah considered.
"She's a clever woman and she may find herself very well content to
keep herself to herself as you say. Or she may not. One thing's
sure; she'll never forgive you, and she wouldn't do nothing to help
you if she could."
"She can't help, any more than she can hinder."
"'Tis a great thought--that woman. I'd give a lot to know a bit
about her," said Dinah. "Suppose, for example----"
Then she broke off, for her mind had suddenly opened a path which
must be followed alone, if followed at all. A possibility had
occurred to Dinah--a possibility of vague and shadowy outline, but
still not quite devoid of substance. She wondered intensely about a
certain thing, and since, when she wondered, her spirit never rested
until some answer to her wonderment was forthcoming, she felt now
that this problem must be approached. Indeed it was no sooner
created than it possessed her, to the destruction of every lesser
idea. She was on the verge of uttering it to Lawrence, but
controlled herself. He might disagree, and she could brook no
disagreement, even from him, before this sudden impulse. There was
hope in it for them both. She acknowledged to herself that the hope
must be small; but it existed.
She changed the subject with suspicious abruptness, but Maynard,
following his own thoughts, which led in a different direction, did
not observe that after her hiatus and a silence following on it,
Dinah resumed about something else. He had also left the facts and
drifted to the future. The suggestion that he himself had raised: to
attempt some inquiry concerning his wife, though obvious enough to
any third person, did not impress itself upon him as important. He
mentioned it and dismissed it. He felt sufficiently certain of her
and her present state. The details of his own future presented more
attractive and pressing problems. For he was now affirmed to
go--either with Dinah, or before her, on an understanding that she
would follow. For the present they must certainly part and be
associated no more--either by rumour or in reality.
Upon these thoughts she struck, so naturally that it seemed they were
unconsciously communicating in their minds.
"We must set up a post office, Lawrence, where the letters won't need
stamps; and for the minute I'd be glad if you could give me a few
shillings for pocket-money. I've got a hatred now of Bamsey money
and the five shillings a week Mrs. Bamsey gives me, because
foster-father's past doing it himself. And I've told them that I'm
not going to take any of his money in the future. I've told them
very clear about that and I mean it."
"I'm glad you have. But they won't agree."
"So they say; but I shall be far ways off, beyond their reach or
knowledge, long before then. And Jane knows clearly I won't touch
it."
Maynard brought out a little leathern purse and gave Dinah the
contents--some thirty shillings.
She thanked him and assured him that would be enough. They parted
soon afterwards and arranged to meet once more, on a date a fortnight
hence, in late evening, at a certain gate not above a mile from Green
Hayes.
"I may have something to tell you by then," she said, "and I'll find
a post office. It'll be a year till I see you again."
He took a lingering leave of her and was moved by a last word she
spoke at parting.
"We never get no time to love each other," she said, "'tis all hard,
hateful talk and plotting. But we'll make up to each other some day."
Then he went his way, leaving her to develop her secret determination.
Conscience smote Dinah that she should enter upon any such adventure
without telling him; but the fear that he might forbid her was too
great, for she felt very positive the step she designed must be to
the good. Certain precious and definite knowledge at least would
follow; and the worst that could happen would only leave them where
they were.
She meant to go to Barnstaple. When she had broken off her speech,
she was about to put it to Maynard whether the woman there might not
be in his own position--desirous to marry and perhaps even already
seeking the aid of the law to free herself from a vanished spouse.
It seemed intensely possible to Dinah; but evidently in the mind of
Lawrence no such likelihood existed. That he should not have
followed the thought showed how little importance he attached to
it--so little that she felt sure he would not have supported her
sudden desire to learn more. Therefore she kept the inspiration from
him and determined he should know nothing until her quest was
accomplished.
And, he, having left her, now endeavoured, as he had endeavoured for
many days, to shake his mind clear of cobwebs and traditions and
prevenient fears. Even his thoughts for her seemed petty when he was
with her. Deeply he longed for Dinah, and the peace that she must
bring to his mind, and the contentment inevitable out of a life
shared with hers.
Perhaps for the first time he now resolutely banished every doubt,
thrust them behind him, and devoted all future thought to their
departure from England. He inclined to Australia now from all that
he had read and heard about it. There he would take Dinah, and
there, as "Lawrence Maynard," he would marry her.
He began to look back upon his doubts as unmanly and mawkish; he
began to marvel that, for so many painful months, he had entertained
them. He assured himself that the air was clean and cloudless at
last, and designed to advance the situation by definite preliminary
steps before he met Dinah again.