ACTION
Time passed, and Mrs. Blanchard made a slow return to health. Her
daughter assumed control of the sick-room, and Martin Grimbal was denied
the satisfaction of seeing Chris settled in her future home for a period
of nearly two months. Then, when the invalid became sufficiently
restored to leave Chagford for change of air, both Martin and Chris
accompanied her and spent a few weeks by the sea.
Will, meantime, revolved upon his own affairs and suffered torments long
drawn out. For these protracted troubles those of his own house were
responsible, and both Phoebe and the miller greatly erred in their
treatment of him at this season. For the woman there were indeed
excuses, but Mr. Lyddon might have been expected to show more wisdom and
better knowledge of a character at all times transparent enough. Phoebe,
nearing maternal tribulation, threw a new obstacle in her husband's way,
and implored him by all holy things, now that he had desisted from
confession thus far, to keep his secret yet a little longer and wait for
the birth of the child. She used every possible expedient to win this
new undertaking from Will, and her father added his voice to hers. The
miller's expressed wish, strongly urged, frequently repeated, at last
triumphed, and against his own desire and mental promptings, Blanchard,
at terrible cost to himself, had promised patience until June.
Life, thus clouded and choked, wrought havoc with the man. His natural
safety-valves were blocked, his nerves shattered, his temper poisoned.
Primitive characteristics appeared as a result of this position, and he
exhibited the ferocity of an over-driven tame beast, or a hunted wild
one. In days long removed from this crisis he looked back with chill of
body and shudder of mind to that nightmare springtime; and he never
willingly permitted even those dearest to him to retrace the period.
The struggle lasted long, but his nature beat Blanchard before the end,
burst its bonds, shattered promises and undertakings, weakened marital
love for a while, and set him free by one tremendous explosion and
victory of natural force. There had come into his head of late a new
sensation, as of busy fingers weaving threads within his skull and iron
hands moulding the matter of his brain into new patterns. The demon
things responsible for his torment only slept when he slept, or when, as
had happened once or twice, he drank himself indifferent to all mundane
matters. Yet he could not still them for long, and even Phoebe had heard
mutterings and threats of the thread-spinners who were driving her
husband mad.
On an evening in late May she became seriously alarmed for his reason.
Circumstances suddenly combined to strangle the last flickering breath
of patience in Will, and the slender barriers were swept away in such a
storm as even Phoebe's wide experience of him had never parallelled.
Miller Lyddon was out, at a meeting in the village convened to determine
after what fashion Chagford should celebrate the Sovereign's Jubilee;
Billy also departed about private concerns, and Will and his wife had
Monks Barton much to themselves. Even she irritated the suffering man at
this season, and her sunken face and chatter about her own condition and
future hopes of a son often worried him into sheer frenzy. His promise
once exacted she rarely touched upon that matter, believing the less
said the better, but he misunderstood her reticence and held it selfish.
Indeed, Blanchard fretted and chafed alone now; for John Grimbal's
sustained silence had long ago convinced Mr. Lyddon that the master of
the Red House meant no active harm, and Phoebe readily grasped at the
same conclusion.
This night, however, the flood-gates crumbled, and Will, before a futile
assertion from Phoebe touching the happy promise of the time to come and
the cheerful spring weather, dashed down his pipe with an oath, clenched
his hands, then leapt to his feet, shook his head, and strode about like
a maniac.
"Will! You've brawk un to shivers--the butivul wood pipe wi' amber that
I gived 'e last birthday!"
"Damn my birthday--a wisht day for me 't was! I've lived tu long--tu
long by all my years, an' nobody cares wan salt tear that I be roastin'
in hell-fire afore my time. I caan't stand it no more--no more at
all--not for you or your faither or angels in heaven or ten million
babies to be born into this blasted world--not if I was faither to 'em
all. I must live my life free, or else I'll go in a madhouse. Free--do
'e hear me? I've suffered enough and waited more 'n enough. Ban't months
nor weeks neither--'t is a long, long lifetime. You talk o' time
dragging! If you knawed--if you knawed! An' these devil-spinners allus
knotting an' twisting. I could do things--I could--things man never
dreamed. An' I will--for they 'm grawing and grawing, an' they'll burst
my skull if I let 'em bide in it. Months ago I've sat on a fence
unbeknawnst wheer men was shooting, an' whistled for death. So help me,
't is true. Me to do that! Theer 's a cur for 'e; an' yet ban't me
neither, but the spinners in my head. Death 's a party easily called,
mind you. A knife, or a pinch o' powder, or a drop o' deep water--they
'll bring un to your elbow in a moment. Awnly, if I done that, I'd go in
company. Nobody should bide to laugh. Them as would cry might cry, but
him as would laugh should come along o' me--he should, by God!"
"Will, Will! It isn't my Will talking so?"
"It be me, an' it ban't me. But I'm in earnest at last, an' speakin'
truth. The spinners knaw, an' they 'm right. I'm sick to sheer hate o'
my life; and you've helped to make me so--you and your faither likewise.
This thing doan't tear your heart out of you an' grind your nerves to
pulp as it should do if you was a true wife."
"Oh, my dear, my lovey, how can 'e say or think it? You knaw what it has
been to me."
"I knaw you've thought all wrong 'pon it when you've thought at all. An'
Miller, tu. You've prevailed wi' me to go on livin' a coward's life for
countless ages o' time--me--me--creepin' on the earth wi' my tail
between my legs an' knawin' I never set eyes on a man as ban't braver
than myself. An' him--Grimbal--laughing, like the devil he is, to think
on what my life must be!"
"I caan't be no quicker. The cheel's movin' an' bracin' itself up an'
makin' ready to come in the world, ban't it? I've told 'e so fifty
times. It's little longer to wait."
"It's no longer. It's nearer than sleep or food or drink. It's comin'
'fore the moon sets. 'T is that or the madhouse--nothin' else. If you'd
felt the fire as have been eatin' my thinking paarts o' late days you'd
knaw. Ban't no use your cryin', for 't isn't love of me makes you.
Rivers o' tears doan't turn me no more. I'm steel now--fust time for a
month--an' while I'm steel I'll act like steel an' strike like steel.
I've had shaky nights an' silly nights an' haunted nights, but my head
's clear for wance, an' I'll use it while 'tis."
"Not to do no rash thing, Will? For Christ's sake, you won't hurt
yourself or any other?"
"I must meet him wance for all."
"He 'm at the council 'bout Jubilee wi' faither an' parson an' the
rest."
"But he'll go home arter. An' I'll have 'Yes' or 'No' to-night--I will,
if I've got to shake the word out of his sawl. I ban't gwaine to be
driven lunatic for him or you or any. Death's a sight better than a soft
head an' a lifetime o' dirt an' drivelling an' babbling, like the
brainless beasts they feed an' fatten in asylums. That's worse cruelty
than any I be gwaine to suffer at human hands--to be mewed in wan of
them gashly mad-holes wi' the rack an' ruins o' empty flesh grinning an'
gibbering 'pon me from all the corners o' the airth. I be sane now--sane
enough to knaw I'm gwaine mad fast--an' I won't suffer it another hour.
It's come crying and howling upon my mind like a storm this night, an'
this night I'll end it."
"Wait at least until the morning. See him then."
"Go to bed, an' doan't goad me to more waiting, if you ever loved me.
Get to bed--out of my sight! I've had enough of 'e and of all human
things this many days. An' that's as near madness as I'm gwaine. What I
do, I do to-night."
She rose from her chair in sudden anger at his strange harshness, for
the wife who has never heard an unkind word resents with passionate
protest the sting of the first when it falls. Now genuine indignation
inflamed Phoebe, and she spoke bitterly.
"'Enough of me'! Ess fay! Like enough you have--a poor, patient creature
sweatin' for 'e, an' thinkin' for 'e, an' blotting her eyes with tears
for 'e, an' bearin' your childer an' your troubles, tu! 'Enough of me.'
Ess, I'll get gone to my bed an' stiffen my joints wi' kneelin' in
prayer for 'e, an' weary God's ear for a fule!"
His answer was an action, and before she had done speaking he stretched
above him and took his gun from its place on an old beam that extended
across the ceiling.
"What in God's name be that for? You wouldn't--?"
"Shoot a fox? Why not? I'm a farmer now, and I'd kill best auld red Moor
fox as ever gave a field forty minutes an' beat it. You was whinin'
'bout the chicks awnly this marnin'. I'll sit under the woodstack a bit
an' think 'fore I starts. Ban't no gude gwaine yet."
Will's explanation of his deed was the true one, but Phoebe realised in
some dim fashion that she stood within the shadow of a critical night
and that action was called upon from her. Her anger waned a little, and
her heart began to beat fast, but she acted with courage and
promptitude.
"Let un be to-night--auld fox, I mean. Theer 'm more chicks than young
foxes, come to think of it; an' he 'm awnly doin' what you forget to
do--fighting for his vixen an' cubs."
She looked straight into Will's eyes, took the gun out of his hands,
climbed on to a chair, and hung the weapon up again in its place.
He laughed curiously, and helped his wife to the ground again.
"Thank you," she said. "Now go an' do what you want to do, an' doan't
forget the future happiness of women an' childer lies upon it." Her
anger was nearly gone, as he spoke again.
"How little you onderstand me arter all these years--an' never
will--nobody never will but mother. What did 'e fear? That I'd draw
trigger on the man from behind a tree, p'r'aps?"
"No--not that, but that you might be driven to kill yourself along o'
having such a bad wife."
"Now we 'm both on the mad road," he said bitterly. Then he picked up
his stick and, a moment later, went out into the night.
Phoebe watched his tall figure pass over the river, and saw him
silhouetted against dead silver of moonlit waters as he crossed the
stepping-stones. Then she climbed for the gun again, hid it, and
presently prepared for her father's return.
"What butivul peace an quiet theer be in ministerin' to a gude faither,"
she thought, "as compared wi' servin' a stormy husband!" Then sorrow
changed to active fear, and that, in its turn, sank into a desolate
weariness and indifference. She detected no semblance of justice in her
husband's outburst; she failed to see how circumstances must sooner or
late have precipitated his revolt; and she felt herself very cruelly
misjudged, very gravely wronged.
Meantime Blanchard passed through a hurricane of rage against his enemy
much akin to that formerly recorded of John Grimbal himself, when the
brute won to the top of him and he yearned for physical conflict. That
night Will was resolved to get a definite response or come to some
conclusion by force of arms. His thoughts carried him far, and before he
took up his station within the grounds of the Red House, at a point from
which the avenue approach might be controlled, he had already fallen
into a frantic hunger for fight and a hope that his enemy would prove of
like mind. He itched for assault and battery, and his heart clamoured to
be clean in his breast again.
Whatever might happen, he was determined to give himself up on the
following day. He had done all he could for those he loved, but he was
powerless to suffer more. He longed now to trample his foe into the
dust, and, that accomplished, he would depart, well satisfied, and
receive what punishment was due. His accumulated wrongs must be paid at
last, and he fully determined, an hour before John Grimbal came
homewards, that the payment should be such as he himself had received
long years before on Rushford Bridge. His muscles throbbed for action as
he sat and waited at the top of a sloping bank dotted with hawthorns
that extended upwards from the edge of the avenue and terminated on the
fringe of young coverts.
And now, by a chance not uncommon, two separate series of circumstances
were about to clash, while the shock engendered was destined to
precipitate the climax of Will Blanchard's fortunes, in so far as this
record is concerned. On the night that he thus raged and suffered the
gall bred of long inaction to overflow, John Grimbal likewise came to a
sudden conclusion with himself, and committed a deed of nature definite
so far as it went.
In connection with the approaching Jubilee rejoicings a spirit in some
sense martial filled the air, and Grimbal with his yeomanry was destined
to play a part. A transient comet-blaze of militarism often sparkles
over fighting nations at any season of universal joy, and that more
especially if the keystone of the land's constitution be a crown. This
fire found material inflammable enough in the hearts of many Devonshire
men, and before its warm impulse John Grimbal, inspired by a particular
occasion, compounded with his soul at last. Rumoured on long tongues
from the village ale-house, there had come to his ears the report of
certain ill-considered utterances made by his enemy upon the events of
the hour. They were only a hot-headed and very miserable man's foolish
comments upon things in general and the approaching festival in
particular, and they served but to illustrate the fact that no
ill-educated and passionate soul can tolerate universal rejoicings,
itself wretched; but Grimbal clutched at this proven disloyalty of an
old deserter, and told himself that personal questions must weigh with
him no more.
"The sort of discontented brute that drifts into Socialism and all
manner of wickedness," he thought. "The rascal must be muzzled once for
all, and as a friend to the community I shall act, not as an enemy to
him."
This conclusion he came to on the evening of the day which saw
Blanchard's final eruption, and he was amazed to find how
straightforward and simple his course appeared when viewed from the
impersonal standpoint of duty. His brother was due to dine with John
Grimbal in half an hour, for both men were serving on a committee to
meet that night upon the question of the local celebrations at Chagford,
and they were going together. Time, however, remained for John to put
his decision into action. He turned to his desk, therefore, and wrote.
The words to be employed he knew by heart, for he had composed his
letter many months before, and it was with him always; yet now, seen
thus set out upon paper for the first time, it looked strange.
"RED HOUSE, CHAGFORD, DEVON.
"_To the Commandant, Royal Artillery, Plymouth._
"SIR,--It has come to my knowledge that the man, William Blanchard,
who enlisted in the Royal Artillery under the name of Tom Newcombe
and deserted from his battery when it was stationed at Shorncliffe
some ten years ago, now resides at this place on the farm of Monks
Barton, Chagford. My duty demands that I should lodge this
information, and I can, of course, substantiate it, though I have
reason to believe the deserter will not attempt to evade his just
punishment if apprehended. I have the honour to be,
"Your obedient servant,
"JOHN GRIMBAL,
"Capt. Dev. Yeomanry."
He had just completed this communication when Martin arrived, and as his
brother entered he instinctively pushed the letter out of sight. But a
moment later he rebelled against himself for the act, knowing the ugly
tacit admission represented by it. He dragged forth the letter,
therefore, and greeted his brother by thrusting the note before him.
"Read that," he said darkly; "it will surprise you, I think. I want to
do nothing underhand, and as you're linked to these people for life
now, it is just that you should hear what is going to happen. There's
the knowledge I once hinted to you that I possessed concerning William
Blanchard. I have waited and given him rope enough. Now he's hanged
himself, as I knew he would, and I must act. A few days ago he spoke
disrespectfully of the Queen before a dozen other loafers in a
public-house. That's a sin I hold far greater than his sin against me.
Read what I have just written."
Martin gazed with mildness upon John's savage and defiant face. His
brother's expression and demeanour by no means chimed with the judicial
moderation of his speech. Then the antiquary perused the letter, and
there fell no sound upon the silence, except that of a spluttering pen
as John Grimbal addressed an envelope.
Presently Martin dropped the letter on the desk before him, and his face
was very white, his voice tremulous as he spoke.
"This thing happened more than ten years ago."
"It did; but don't imagine I have known it ten years."
"God forbid! I think better of you. Yet, if only for my sake, reflect
before you send this letter. Once done, you have ruined a life. I have
seen Will several times since I came home, and now I understand the
terrific change in him. He must have known that you know this. It was
the last straw. He seems quite broken on the wheel of the world, and no
wonder. To one of his nature, the past, since you discovered this
terrible secret, must have been sheer torment."
John Grimbal doubled up the letter and thrust it into the envelope,
while Martin continued:
"What do you reap? You're not a man to do an action of this sort and
live afterwards as though you had not done it. I warn you, you intend a
terribly dangerous thing. This may be the wreck of another soul besides
Blanchard's. I know your real nature, though you've hidden it so close
of late years. Post that letter, and your life's bitter for all time.
Look into your heart, and don't pretend to deceive yourself."
His brother lighted a match, burnt red wax, and sealed the letter with a
signet ring.
"Duty is duty," he said.
"Yes, yes; right shall be done and this extraordinary thing made known
in the right quarter. But don't let it come out through you; don't
darken your future by such an act. Your personal relations with the man,
John,--it's impossible you should do this after all these years."
The other affixed a stamp to his letter.
"Don't imagine personal considerations influence me. I'm a soldier, and
I know what becomes a soldier. If I find a traitor to his Queen and
country am I to pass upon the other side of the road and not do my duty
because the individual happens to be a private enemy? You rate me low
and misjudge me rather cruelly if you imagine that I am so weak."
Martin gasped at this view of the position, instantly believed himself
mistaken, and took John at his word. Thereon he came near blushing to
think that he should have read such baseness into a brother's character.
"I beg your pardon," he said. "I ought to be ashamed to have
misunderstood you so. I could not escape the personal factor in this
terrible business, but you, I see, have duly weighed it. I wronged you.
Yes, I wronged you, as you say. The writing of that letter was a very
courageous action, under the circumstances--as plucky a thing as ever
man did, perhaps. Forgive me for taking so mean a view of it, and
forgive me for even doubting your motives."
"I want justice, and if I am misunderstood for doing my duty--why, that
is no new thing. I can face that, as better men have done before me."
There was a moment or two of silence; then Martin spoke, almost
joyfully.
"Thank God, I see a way out! It seldom happens that I am quick in any
question of human actions, but for once, I detect a road by which right
may be done and you still spared this terrible task. I do, indeed,
because I know Blanchard better than you do. I can guess what he has
been enduring of late, and I will show him how he may end the torture
himself by doing the right thing even now."
"It's fear of me scorching the man, not shame of his own crime."
"Then, as the stronger, as a soldier, put him out of his misery and set
your mind at ease. Believe me, you may do it without any reflection on
yourself. Tell him you have decided to take no step in the affair, and
leave the rest to me. I will wager I can prevail upon him to give
himself up. I am singularly confident that I can bring it about. Then,
if I fail, do what you consider to be right; but first give me leave to
try and save you from this painful necessity."
There followed a long silence. John Grimbal saw how much easier it was
to deceive another than himself, and, before the spectacle of his
deluded brother, felt that he appreciated his own real motives and
incentives at their true worth. The more completely was Martin
hoodwinked, the more apparent did the truth grow within John's mind.
What was in reality responsible for his intended action never looked
clearer than then, and as Martin spoke in all innocence of the courage
that must be necessary to perform such a deed, Grimbal passed through
the flash of a white light and caught a glimpse of his recent mental
processes magnified by many degrees in the blinding ray. The spectacle
sickened him a little, weakened him, touched the depths of him, stirred
his nature. He answered presently in a voice harsh, abrupt, and deep.
"I've lied often enough in my life," he said, "and may again, but I
think never to you till to-day. You're such a clean-minded, big-hearted
man that you don't understand a mind of my build--a mind that can't
forgive, that can't forget, that's fed full for years on the thought of
revenging that frightful blow in the past. What you feared and hinted
just now was partly the truth, and I know it well enough. But that is
only to say my motives in this matter mixed."
"None but a brave man would admit so mucn, but now you wrong yourself,
as I wronged you. We are alike. I, too, have sometimes in dark moments
blamed myself for evil thoughts and evil deeds beyond my real deserts.
So you. I know nothing but your sense of duty would make you post that
letter."
"We've wrecked each other's lives, he and I; only he's a boy, and his
life's before him; I'm a man, and my life is lived, for I'm the sort
that grows old early, and he's helped Time more than anybody knows but
myself."
"Don't say that. Happiness never comes when you are hungering most for
it; sorrow never when you believe yourself best tuned to bear it. Once I
thought as you do now. I waited long for my good fortune, and said
'good-by' to all my hope of earthly delight."
"You were easier to satisfy than I should have been. Yet you were
constant, too,--constant as I was. We're built that way. More's the
pity."
"I have absolutely priceless blessings; my cup of happiness is full.
Sometimes I ask myself how it comes about that one so little deserving
has received so much; sometimes I waken in the very extremity of fear,
for joy like mine seems greater than any living thing has a right to."
"I'm glad one of us is happy."
"I shall live to see you equally blessed."
"It is impossible."
There was a pause, then a gong rumbled in the hall, and the brothers
went to dinner. Their conversation now ranged upon varied local topics,
and it was not until the cloth had been removed according to
old-fashioned custom, and fruit and wine set upon a shining table, that
John returned to the crucial subject of the moment.
He poured out a glass of port for Martin, and pushed the cigars towards
him, then spoke,--
"Drink. It's very good. And try one of those. I shall not post that
letter."
"Man, I knew it! I knew it well, without hearing so from you. Destroy
the thing, dear fellow, and so take the first step to a peace I fear you
have not known for many days. All this suffering will vanish quicker
than a dream then. Justice is great, but mercy is greater. Yours is the
privilege of mercy, and yet justice shall not suffer either--not if I
know Will Blanchard."
They talked long and drank more than usual, while the elder man's grim
and moody spirit lightened a little before his determination and his
wine. The reek of past passions, the wreckage of dead things, seemed to
be sweeping out of his mind. He forgot the hour and their engagement
until the time fixed for that conference was past. Then he looked at his
watch, rose from the table, and hurried to the hall.
"Let us not go," urged Martin. "They will do very well without us, I am
sure."
But John's only answer was to pull on his driving gloves. He anticipated
some satisfaction from the committee meeting; he suspected, indeed, that
he would be asked to take the chair at it, and, like most men, he was
not averse to the exercise of a little power in a small corner.
"We must go," he said. "I have important suggestions to make, especially
concerning the volunteers. A sham fight on Scorhill would be a happy
thought. We'll drive fast, and only be twenty minutes late."
A dog-cart had been waiting half an hour, and soon the brothers quickly
whirled down Red House avenue. A groom dropped from behind and opened
the gate; then it was all his agility could accomplish to scramble into
his seat again as a fine horse, swinging along at twenty miles an hour,
trotted towards Chagford.