SMALL TIMOTHY
A year and more than a year passed by, during which time some pure
sunshine brightened the life of Blanchard. Chagford laughed at his
sustained good fortune, declared him to have as many lives as a cat, and
secretly regretted its outspoken criticism of Miller Lyddon before the
event of his generosity. Life at Monks Barton was at least wholly happy
for Will himself. No whisper or rumour of renewed tribulation reached
his ear; early and late he worked, with whole-hearted energy; he
differed from Mr. Blee as seldom as possible; he wearied the miller with
new designs, tremendous enterprises, particulars concerning novel
machinery, and much information relating to nitrates. Newtake had
vanished out of his life, like an old coat put off for the last time. He
never mentioned the place and there was now but one farm in all Devon
for him.
Meantime a strange cloud increased above him, though as yet he had not
discerned so much as the shadow of it. This circumstance possessed no
connection with John Grimbal. Time passed and still he did not take
action, though he continued to nurse his wrongs through winter, spring,
and summer, as a child nurses a sick animal. The matter tainted his life
but did not dominate it. His existence continued to be soured and
discoloured, yet not entirely spoiled. Now a new stone of stumbling lay
ahead and Grimbal's interest had shifted a little.
Like the rest of Chagford he heard the rumour of little Timothy's
parentage--a rumour that grew as the resemblance ripened between
Blanchard and the child. Interested by this thought and its
significance, he devoted some time to it; and then, upon an early
October morning, chance hurried the man into action. On the spur of an
opportunity he played the coward, as many another man has done, only to
mourn his weakness too late.
There came a misty autumn sunrise beside the river and Grimbal,
hastening through the valley of Teign, suddenly found himself face to
face with Phoebe. She had been upon the meadows since grey dawn, where
many mushrooms set in silvery dew glimmered like pearls through the
mist; and now, with a full basket, she was returning to Monks Barton for
breakfast. As she rested for a moment at a stile between two fields,
Grimbal loomed large from the foggy atmosphere and stood beside her. She
moved her basket for him to pass and her pulses quickened but slightly,
for she had met him on numerous occasions during past years and they
were now as strangers. To Phoebe he had long been nothing, and any
slight emotion he might awaken was in the nature of resentment that the
man could still harden his heart against her husband and remain thus
stubborn and obdurate after such lapse of time. When, therefore, John
Grimbal, moved thereto by some sudden prompting, addressed Will's wife,
she started in astonishment and a blush of warm blood leapt to her face.
He himself was surprised at his own voice; for it sounded unfamiliar, as
though some intelligent thing had suddenly possessed him and was using
his vocal organs for its own ends.
"Don't move. Why, 't is a year since we met alone, I think. So you are
back at Monks Barton. Does it bring thoughts? Is it all sweet? By your
face I should judge not."
She stared and her mouth trembled, but she did not answer.
"You needn't tell me you're happy," he continued, with hurried words.
"Nobody is, for that matter. But you might have been. Looking at your
ruined life and my own, I can find it in my heart to be sorry for us
both."
"Who dares to say my life is ruined?" she flashed out. "D' you think I
would change Will for the noblest in the land? He _is_ the noblest. I
want no pity--least of all yourn. I've been a very lucky
woman--and--everybody knaws it whatever they may say here an' theer."
She was strong before him now; her temper appeared in her voice and she
took her basket and rose to leave him.
"Wait one moment. Chance threw us here, and I'll never speak to you
again if you resent it. But, meeting you like this, something seemed to
tell me to say a word and let you know. I'm sorry you are so
wretched--honestly."
"I ban't wretched! Never was a happier wife."
"Never was a better one, I know; but happy? Think. I was fond of you
once and I can read between the lines--the little thin lines on your
forehead. They are newcomers. I'm not deceived. Nor is it hidden. That
the man has proved faithless is common knowledge now. Facts are hard
things and you've got the fact under your eyes. The child's his living
image."
"Who told you, and how dare you foul my ears and thoughts with such
lies?" she asked, her bosom heaving. "You'm a coward, as you always was,
but never more a coward than this minute."
"D' you pretend that nobody has told you this? Aren't your own eyes
bright enough to see it?"
The man was in a pitiful mood, and now he grew hot and forgot himself
wholly before her stinging contempt. She did not reply to his question
and he continued,--
"Your silence is an answer. You know well enough. Who's the mother?
Perhaps you know that, too. Is she more to him than you are?"
Phoebe made a great effort to keep herself from screaming. Then she
moved hastily away, but Grimbal stopped her and dared her to proceed.
"Wait. I'll have this out. Why don't you face him with it and make him
tell you the truth? Any plucky woman would. The scandal grows into a
disgrace and your father's a fool to stand it. You can tell him so from
me."
"Mind your awn business an' let me pass, you hulking, gert, venomous
wretch!" she cried. Then a blackguard inspiration came to the man, and,
suffering under a growing irritation with himself as much as with
Phoebe, he conceived an idea by which his secret might after all be made
a bitter weapon. He assured himself, even while he hated the sight of
her, that justice to Phoebe must be done. She had dwelt in ignorance
long enough. He determined to tell her that she was the wife of a
deserter. The end gained was the real idea in his mind, though he tried
to delude himself. The sudden idea that he might inform Blanchard
through Phoebe of his knowledge really actuated him.
"You may turn your head away as if I was dirt, you little fool, and you
may call me what names you please; but I'm raising this question for
your good, not my own. What do I care? Only it's a man's part to step in
when he sees a woman being trampled on."
"A man!" she said. "You'm not in our lives any more, an' we doan't want
'e in 'em. More like to a meddlin' auld woman than a man, if you ax me."
"You can say that? Then we'll put you out of the question. I, at least,
shall do my duty."
"Is it part of your duty to bully me here alone? Why doan't 'e faace the
man, like a man, 'stead of blusterin' to me 'bout it? Out on you! Let me
pass, I tell 'e."
"Doan't make that noise. Just listen and stand still. I'm in earnest. It
pleases me to know the true history of this child, and I mean to. As a
Justice of the Peace I mean to."
"Ax Will Blanchard then an' let him answer. Maybe you'll be sorry you
spoke arter."
"You can tell him I want to see him; you can say I order him to come to
the Red House between eight and nine next Monday."
"Be you a fule? Who's he, to come at your bidding?"
"He's a--well, no matter. You've got enough to trouble you. But I think
he will come. Tell him that I know where he was during the autumn and
winter of the year that I returned home from Africa. Tell him I know
where he came from to marry you. Tell him the grey suit of clothes
reached the owner safely--remember, the grey suit of clothes. That will
refresh his memory. Then I think he will come fast enough and let me
have the truth concerning this brat. If he refuses, I shall take steps
to see justice done."
"I lay he's never put himself in the power of a black-hearted, cruel
beast like you," blazed out the woman, furious and frightened at once.
"Has he not? Ask him. You don't know where he was during those months? I
thought you didn't. I do. Perhaps this child--perhaps the other woman's
the married one--"
Phoebe dropped her basket and her face grew very pale before the horrors
thus coarsely spread before her. She staggered and felt sick at the
man's last speech. Then, with one great sob of breath, she turned her
back on him, nerved herself to use her shaking legs, and set off at her
best speed, as one running from some dangerous beast of the field.
Grimbal made no attempt to follow, but watched her fade into the mist,
then turned and pursued his way through the dripping woodlands. Sunrise
fires gleamed along the upper layers of the fading vapours and gilded
autumn's handiwork. Ripe seeds fell tapping through the gold of the
horse-chestnuts, and many acorns also pattered down upon a growing
carpet of leaves. Webs and gossamers twinkled in the sunlight, and the
flaming foliage made a pageant of colour through waning mists where red
leaves and yellow fell at every breath along the thinning woods. Beneath
trees and hedgerows the ripe mosses gleamed, and coral and amber fungi,
with amanita and other hooded folk. In companies and clusters they
sprang or arose misshapen, sinister, and alone. Some were orange and
orange-tawny; others white and purple; not a few peered forth livid,
blotched, and speckled, as with venom spattered from some reptile's
jaws. On the wreck of the year they flourished, sucked strange life from
rotten stick and hollow tree, opened gills on lofty branch and bough,
shone in the green grass rings of the meadows, thrust cup and cowl from
the concourse of the dead leaves in ditches, clustered like the uprising
roof-trees of a fairy village in dingle and in dene.
At the edge of the woods John Grimbal stood, and the hour was very dark
for him and he cursed at the loss of his manhood. His heart turned to
gall before the thought of the thing he had done, as he blankly
marvelled what unsuspected base instinct had thus disgraced him. He had
plumbed a possibility unknown within his own character, and before his
shattered self-respect he stood half passionate, half amazed. Chance had
thus wrecked him; an impulse had altered the whole face of the problem;
and he gritted his teeth as he thought of Blanchard's feelings when
Phoebe should tell her story. As for her, she at least had respected him
during the past years; but what must henceforth be her estimate of him?
He heaped bitter contempt upon himself for this brutality to a woman; he
raged, as he pursued long chains of consequences begot of this single
lapse of self-control. His eye was cleared from passion; he saw the base
nature of his action and judged himself as others would judge him. This
spectacle produced a definite mental issue and aroused long-stagnant
emotions from their troubled slumbers. He discovered that a frank hatred
of Will Blanchard awoke and lived. He told himself this man was to blame
for all, and not content with poisoning his life, now ravaged his soul
also and blighted every outlook of his being. Like a speck upon an
eyeball, which blots the survey of the whole eye, so this wretch had
fastened upon him, ruined his ambitions, wrecked his life, and now
dragged his honour and his very manhood into the dust. John Grimbal
found himself near choked by a raging fit of passion at last. He burnt
into sheer frenzy against Blanchard; and the fuel of the fire was the
consciousness of his own craven performance of that morning. Flying from
self-contemplation, he sought distraction and even oblivion at any
source where his mind could win it; and now he laid all blame on his
enemy and suffered the passion of his own shame and remorse to rise, as
it had been a red mist, against this man who was playing havoc with his
body and soul. He trembled under the loneliness of the woods in a
debauch of mere brute rage that exhausted him and left a mark on the
rest of his life. Even his present powers appeared trifling and their
exercise a deed unsatisfying before this frenzy. What happiness could be
achieved by flinging Blanchard into prison for a few months at most?
What salve could be won from thought of this man's disgrace and social
ruin? The spectacle sank into pettiness now. His blood was surging
through his veins and crying for action. Primitive passion gripped him
and craved primitive outlet. At that hour, in his own deepest
degradation, the man came near madness, and every savage voice in him
shouted for blood and blows and batterings in the flesh.
Phoebe Blauchard hastened home, meanwhile, and kept her own counsel upon
the subject of the dawn's sensational incidents. Her first instinct was
to tell her husband everything at the earliest opportunity, but Will had
departed to his work before she reached the farm, and on second thoughts
she hesitated to speak or give John Grimbal's message. She feared to
precipitate the inevitable. In her own heart what mystery revolved about
Will's past performances undoubtedly embraced the child fashioned in his
likeness; and though she had long fought against the rumour and deceived
herself by pretending to believe Chris, whose opinion differed from that
of most people, yet at her heart she felt truth must lie hidden
somewhere in the tangle. Will and Mr. Lyddon alone knew nothing of the
report, and Phoebe hesitated to break it to her husband. He was
happy--perhaps in the consciousness that nobody realised the truth; and
yet at his very gates a bitter foe guessed at part of his secret and
knew the rest. Still Phoebe could not bring herself to speak
immediately. A day of mental stress and strain ended, and she retired
and lay beside Will very sad. Under darkness of night the threats of the
enemy grew into an imminent disaster of terrific dimensions, and with
haunting fear she finally slept, to waken in a nightmare.
Will, wholly ignorant of the facts, soothed Phoebe's alarm and calmed
her as she clung to him in hysterical tears.
"No ill shall come to 'e while I live," she sobbed: "not if all the
airth speaks evil of 'e. I'll cleave to 'e, and fight for 'e, an' be a
gude wife, tu,--a better wife than you've been husband."
"Bide easy, an' doan't cry no more. My arm's round 'e, dearie. Theer,
give awver, do! You've been dreamin' ugly along o' the poor supper you
made, I reckon. Doan't 'e think nobody's hand against me now, for ban't
so. Folks begin to see the manner of man I am; an' Miller knaws, which
is all I care about. He've got a strong right arm workin' for him an' a
tidy set o' brains, though I sez it; an' you might have a worse husband,
tu, Phoebe; but theer--shut your purty eyes--I knaw they 'm awpen still,
for I can hear your lashes against the sheet. An' doan't 'e go out in
the early dews mushrooming no more, for 't is cold work, an' you've got
to be strong these next months."
She thought for a moment of telling him boldly concerning the legend
spreading on every side; but, like others less near and dear to him, she
feared to do so.
Knowing Will Blanchard, not a man among the backbiters had cared to risk
a broken head by hinting openly at the startling likeness between the
child and himself; and Phoebe felt her own courage unequal to the task
just then. She racked her brains with his dangers long after he was
himself asleep, and finally she determined to seek Chris next morning
and hear her opinion before taking any definite step.
On the same night another pair of eyes were open, and trouble of a sort
only less deep than that of the wife kept her father awake. Billy had
taken an opportunity to tell his master of the general report and spread
before him the facts as he knew them.
The younger members of the household had retired early, and when Miller
Lyddon took the cards from the mantelpiece and made ready for their
customary game, Mr. Blee shook his head and refused to play.
"Got no heart for cards to-night," he said.
"What's amiss, then? Thank God I've heard little to call ill news for a
month or two. Not but what I've fancied a shadow on my gal's face more'n
wance."
"If not on hers, wheer should 'e see it?" asked Mr. Blee eagerly."
I've seed it, tu, an' for that matter theer's sour looks an' sighs
elsewheer. People ban't blind, worse luck. 'Tis grawed to be common
talk, an' I've fired myself to tell you, 'cause 'tis fitting an' right,
an' it might come more grievous from less careful lips."
"Go on then; an' doan't rack me longer'n you can help. Use few words."
"Many words must go to it, I reckon. 'Tis well knawn I unfolds a bit o'
news like the flower of the field--gradual and sure. You might have
noticed that love-cheel by the name of Timothy 'bout the plaace? Him as
be just of age to harry the ducks an' such-like."
"A nice li'l bwoy, tu, an' fond of me; an' you caan't say he'm a
love-cheel, knawin' nothin' 'bout him."
"Love-cheel or changeling, 'tis all wan. Have'e ever thought 'twas
coorious the way Blanchard comed by un?"
"Certainly 'twas--terrible coorious."
"You never doubted it?"
"Why for should I? Will's truthful as light, whatever else he may be."
"You believe as he went 'pon the Moor an' found that bwoy in a
roundy-poundy under the gloamin'?"
"Ess, I do."
"Have'e ever looked at the laddie close?"
"Oftentimes--so like Will as two peas."
"Theer 'tis! The picter of Will! How do'e read that?"
"Never tried to. An accident, no more."
"A damn queer accident, if you ax me. Burnish it all! You doan't see
yet, such a genius of a man as you tu! Why, Will Blanchard's the faither
of the li'l twoad! You've awnly got to know the laws of nature an'
such-like to swear to it. The way he walks an' holds his head, his
curls, his fashion of lording it awver the birds an' beasts, the sudden
laugh of un--he's Will's son, for a thousand pound, an' his mother's
alive, like as not."
"No mother would have gived up a child that way."
"'Zactly so! Onless she gived it to the faither!" said Billy
triumphantly.
Mr. Lyddon reflected and showed an evident disposition to scoff at the
whole story.
"'Tis stuff an' rubbish!" he said. "You might as well find a mare's nest
t'other side an' say 'twas Will's sister's child. 'Tis almost so like
her as him, an' got her brown eyes in the bargain."
"God forbid!" answered Billy, in horror. "That's flat libel, an' I'd be
the last to voice any such thing for money. If a man gets a cheel wrong
side the blanket 'tis just a passing sarcumstance, an' not to be took
too serious. Half-a-crown a week is its awn punishment like. But if a
gal do, 'tis destruction to the end of the chapter, an' shame
everlasting in the world to come, by all accounts. You didn't ought to
think o' such things, Miller,--takin' a pure, gude maiden's carater like
that. Surprised at 'e!"
"'Tis just as mad a thought wan way as t'other, and if you'm surprised
so be I. To be a tale-bearer at your time o' life!"
"That gormed Blanchard's bewitched 'e from fust to last!" burst out
Billy. "If a angel from heaven comed down-long and tawld 'e the truth
'bout un, you wouldn't b'lieve. God stiffen it! You make me mad! You'd
stand 'pon your head an' waggle your auld legs in the air for un if he
axed 'e."
"I'll speak to him straight an' take his word for it. If it's true, he
'm wickedly to blame, I knaw that."
"I was thinkin' of your darter. 'Tis black thoughts have kept her waking
since this reached her ears."
"Did you tell her what people were sayin'? I warrant you did!"
"You'm wrong then. No such thing. I may have just heaved a sigh when I
seed the bwoy playin' in front of her, an' looked at Blanchard, an'
shook my head, or some such gentle hint as that. But no more."
"Well, I doan't believe a word of it; an' I'll tell you this for your
bettering,--'tis poor religion in you, Blee, to root into other people's
troubles, like a pig in a trough; an' auld though you be, you 'm not tu
auld to mind what it felt like when the blood was hot an' quick to race
at the sight of a maid."
"I practice same as I preach, whether or no," said Billy stoutly, "an' I
can't lay claim to creating nothing lawful or unlawful in my Maker's
image. 'Tis something to say that, in these godless days. I've allus
kept my foot on the world, the flesh, an' the Devil so tight as the best
Christian in company; an' if that ban't a record for a stone, p'raps
you'll tell me a better. Your two-edged tongue do make me feel sometimes
as though I did ought to go right away from 'e, though God knaws--God,
He knaws--"
Billy hid his face and began to weep, while Mr. Lyddon watched the
candle-light converge to a shining point upon his bald skull.
"Doan't go against a word in season, my dear sawl. 'Tis our duty to set
each other right. That's what we'm put here for, I doubt. Many's the
time you've given me gude advice, an' I've thanked 'e an' took it."
Then he went for the spirits and mixed Mr. Blee a dose of more than
usual strength.
"You'm the most biting user of language in Chagford, when you mind to
speak sour," declared Billy. "If I thought you meant all you said, I'd
go an' hang myself in the barn this instant moment. But you doan't."
He snuffled and dried his scanty tears on a red handkerchief, then
cheered up and drank his liquor.
"It do take all sorts to make a world, an' a man must act accordin' as
he'm built," continued Mr. Lyddon. "Ban't no more use bein' angered wi'
a chap given to women than 'tis bein' angered wi' a fule, because he's a
fule. What do 'e expect from a fule but folly, or a crab tree but
useless fruit, or hot blood but the ways of it? This ban't to speak of
Will Blanchard, though. 'Pon him we'll say no more till he've heard
what's on folks' tongues. A maddening bwoy--I'll allow you that--an'
he've took a year or two off my life wan time an' another. 'Pears I
ban't never to graw to love un as I would; an' yet I caan't quite help
it when I sees his whole-hearted ferment to put money into my pocket; or
when I hears him talk of nitrates an' the ways o' the world; or watches
un playin' make-believe wi' the childer--himself the biggest cheel as
ever laughed at fulishness or wanted spankin' an' putting in the
corner."