CHAPTER X

While Nedda sat, long past midnight, writing her heart out in her

little, white, lilac-curtained room of the old house above the

Spaniard's Road, Derek, of whom she wrote, was walking along the Malvern

hills, hurrying upward in the darkness. The stars were his companions;

though he was no poet, having rather the fervid temper of the born

swordsman, that expresses itself in physical ecstasies. He had come

straight out from a stormy midnight talk with Sheila. What was he

doing—had been the burden of her cry—falling in love just at this moment

when they wanted all their wits and all their time and strength for this

struggle with the Mallorings? It was foolish, it was weak; and with a

sweet, soft sort of girl who could be no use. Hotly he had answered:

What business was it of hers? As if one fell in love when one wished!

She didn't know—her blood didn't run fast enough! Sheila had retorted,

“I've more blood in my big toe than Nedda in all her body! A lot of use

you'll be, with your heart mooning up in London!” And crouched together

on the end of her bed, gazing fixedly up at him through her hair, she

had chanted mockingly: “Here we go gathering wool and stars—wool and

stars—wool and stars!”

He had not deigned to answer, but had gone out, furious with her,

striding over the dark fields, scrambling his way through the hedges

toward the high loom of the hills. Up on the short grass in the cooler

air, with nothing between him and those swarming stars, he lost his

rage. It never lasted long—hers was more enduring. With the innate

lordliness of a brother he already put it down to jealousy. Sheila was

hurt that he should want any one but her; as if his love for Nedda would

make any difference to their resolution to get justice for Tryst and the

Gaunts, and show those landed tyrants once for all that they could not

ride roughshod.

Nedda! with her dark eyes, so quick and clear, so loving when they

looked at him! Nedda, soft and innocent, the touch of whose lips had

turned his heart to something strange within him, and wakened such

feelings of chivalry! Nedda! To see whom for half a minute he felt he

would walk a hundred miles.

This boy's education had been administered solely by his mother till

he was fourteen, and she had brought him up on mathematics, French,

and heroism. His extensive reading of history had been focussed on the

personality of heroes, chiefly knights errant, and revolutionaries. He

had carried the worship of them to the Agricultural College, where he

had spent four years; and a rather rough time there had not succeeded in

knocking romance out of him. He had found that you could not have such

beliefs comfortably without fighting for them, and though he ended his

career with the reputation of a rebel and a champion of the weak, he

had had to earn it. To this day he still fed himself on stories of

rebellions and fine deeds. The figures of Spartacus, Montrose, Hofer,

Garibaldi, Hampden, and John Nicholson, were more real to him than

the people among whom he lived, though he had learned never to

mention—especially not to the matter-of-fact Sheila—his encompassing

cloud of heroes; but, when he was alone, he pranced a bit with them, and

promised himself that he too would reach the stars. So you may sometimes

see a little, grave boy walking through a field, unwatched as he

believes, suddenly fling his feet and his head every which way. An

active nature, romantic, without being dreamy and book-loving, is

not too prone to the attacks of love; such a one is likely to survive

unscathed to a maturer age. But Nedda had seduced him, partly by the

appeal of her touchingly manifest love and admiration, and chiefly by

her eyes, through which he seemed to see such a loyal, and loving little

soul looking. She had that indefinable something which lovers know that

they can never throw away. And he had at once made of her, secretly, the

crown of his active romanticism—the lady waiting for the spoils of his

lance. Queer is the heart of a boy—strange its blending of reality and

idealism!

Climbing at a great pace, he reached Malvern Beacon just as it came

dawn, and stood there on the top, watching. He had not much aesthetic

sense; but he had enough to be impressed by the slow paling of the stars

over space that seemed infinite, so little were its dreamy confines

visible in the May morning haze, where the quivering crimson flags and

spears of sunrise were forging up in a march upon the sky. That vision

of the English land at dawn, wide and mysterious, hardly tallied with

Mr. Cuthcott's view of a future dedicate to Park and Garden City.

While Derek stood there gazing, the first lark soared up and began its

ecstatic praise. Save for that song, silence possessed all the driven

dark, right out to the Severn and the sea, and the fastnesses of the

Welsh hills, and the Wrekin, away in the north, a black point in the

gray. For a moment dark and light hovered and clung together. Would

victory wing back into night or on into day? Then, as a town is taken,

all was over in one overmastering rush, and light proclaimed. Derek

tightened his belt and took a bee-line down over the slippery grass. He

meant to reach the cottage of the laborer Tryst before that early bird

was away to the fields. He meditated as he went. Bob Tryst was all

right! If they only had a dozen or two like him! A dozen or two whom

they could trust, and who would trust each other and stand firm to form

the nucleus of a strike, which could be timed for hay harvest. What

slaves these laborers still were! If only they could be relied on, if

only they would stand together! Slavery! It WAS slavery; so long as

they could be turned out of their homes at will in this fashion. His

rebellion against the conditions of their lives, above all against the

manifold petty tyrannies that he knew they underwent, came from use of

his eyes and ears in daily contact with a class among whom he had been

more or less brought up. In sympathy with, and yet not of them, he had

the queer privilege of feeling their slights as if they were his own,

together with feelings of protection, and even of contempt that they

should let themselves be slighted. He was near enough to understand how

they must feel; not near enough to understand why, feeling as they

did, they did not act as he would have acted. In truth, he knew them no

better than he should.

He found Tryst washing at his pump. In the early morning light the big

laborer's square, stubborn face, with its strange, dog-like eyes, had a

sodden, hungry, lost look. Cutting short ablutions that certainly were

never protracted, he welcomed Derek, and motioned him to pass into the

kitchen. The young man went in, and perched himself on the window-sill

beside a pot of Bridal Wreath. The cottage was one of the Mallorings',

and recently repaired. A little fire was burning, and a teapot of stewed

tea sat there beside it. Four cups and spoons and some sugar were put

out on a deal table, for Tryst was, in fact, brewing the morning draught

of himself and children, who still lay abed up-stairs. The sight made

Derek shiver and his eyes darken. He knew the full significance of what

he saw.

“Did you ask him again, Bob?”

“Yes, I asked 'im.”

“What did he say?”

“Said as orders was plain. 'So long as you lives there,' he says, 'along

of yourself alone, you can't have her come back.'”

“Did you say the children wanted looking after badly? Did you make it

clear? Did you say Mrs. Tryst wished it, before she—”

“I said that.”

“What did he say then?”

“'Sorry for you, m'lad, but them's m'lady's orders, an' I can't go

contrary. I don't wish to go into things,' he says; 'you know better'n

I how far 'tis gone when she was 'ere before; but seein' as m'lady don't

never give in to deceased wife's sister marryin', if she come back 'tis

certain to be the other thing. So, as that won't do neither, you go

elsewhere,' he says.”

Having spoken thus at length, Tryst lifted the teapot and poured out the

dark tea into the three cups.

“Will 'ee have some, sir?”

Derek shook his head.

Taking the cups, Tryst departed up the narrow stairway. And Derek

remained motionless, staring at the Bridal Wreath, till the big man came

down again and, retiring into a far corner, sat sipping at his own cup.

“Bob,” said the boy suddenly, “do you LIKE being a dog; put to what

company your master wishes?”

Tryst set his cup down, stood up, and crossed his thick arms—the swift

movement from that stolid creature had in it something sinister; but he

did not speak.

“Do you like it, Bob?”

“I'll not say what I feels, Mr. Derek; that's for me. What I does'll be

for others, p'raps.”

And he lifted his strange, lowering eyes to Derek's. For a full minute

the two stared, then Derek said:

“Look out, then; be ready!” and, getting off the sill, he went out.

On the bright, slimy surface of the pond three ducks were quietly

revelling in that hour before man and his damned soul, the dog, rose

to put the fear of God into them. In the sunlight, against the green

duckweed, their whiteness was truly marvellous; difficult to believe

that they were not white all through. Passing the three cottages, in the

last of which the Gaunts lived, he came next to his own home, but did

not turn in, and made on toward the church. It was a very little one,

very old, and had for him a curious fascination, never confessed to man

or beast. To his mother, and Sheila, more intolerant, as became women,

that little, lichened, gray stone building was the very emblem of

hypocrisy, of a creed preached, not practised; to his father it was

nothing, for it was not alive, and any tramp, dog, bird, or fruit-tree

meant far more. But in Derek it roused a peculiar feeling, such as a man

might have gazing at the shores of a native country, out of which he

had been thrown for no fault of his own—a yearning deeply muffled up in

pride and resentment. Not infrequently he would come and sit brooding

on the grassy hillock just above the churchyard. Church-going, with its

pageantry, its tradition, dogma, and demand for blind devotion, would

have suited him very well, if only blind devotion to his mother had not

stood across that threshold; he could not bring himself to bow to that

which viewed his rebellious mother as lost. And yet the deep fibres

of heredity from her papistic Highland ancestors, and from old pious

Moretons, drew him constantly to this spot at times when no one would

be about. It was his enemy, this little church, the fold of all the

instincts and all the qualities against which he had been brought up

to rebel; the very home of patronage and property and superiority; the

school where his friends the laborers were taught their place! And yet

it had that queer, ironical attraction for him. In some such sort had

his pet hero Montrose rebelled, and then been drawn despite himself once

more to the side of that against which he had taken arms.

While he leaned against the rail, gazing at that ancient edifice, he

saw a girl walk into the churchyard at the far end, sit down on a

gravestone, and begin digging a little hole in the grass with the toe

of her boot. She did not seem to see him, and at his ease he studied

her face, one of those broad, bright English country faces with deep-set

rogue eyes and red, thick, soft lips, smiling on little provocation. In

spite of her disgrace, in spite of the fact that she was sitting on her

mother's grave, she did not look depressed. And Derek thought: 'Wilmet

Gaunt is the jolliest of them all! She isn't a bit a bad girl, as they

say; it's only that she must have fun. If they drive her out of here,

she'll still want fun wherever she is; she'll go to a town and end up

like those girls I saw in Bristol.' And the memory of those night girls,

with their rouged faces and cringing boldness, came back to him with

horror.

He went across the grass toward her.

She looked round as he came, and her face livened.

“Well, Wilmet?”

“You're an early bird, Mr. Derek.”

“Haven't been to bed.”

“Oh!”

“Been up Malvern Beacon to see the sun rise.”

“You're tired, I expect!”

“No.”

“Must be fine up there. You'd see a long ways from there; near to London

I should think. Do you know London, Mr. Derek?”

“No.”

“They say 'tis a funny place, too.” Her rogue eyes gleamed from under

a heavy frown. “It'd not be all 'Do this' an' 'Do that'; an' 'You bad

girl' an' 'You little hussy!' in London. They say there's room for

more'n one sort of girl there.”

“All towns are beastly places, Wilmet.”

Again her rogue's eyes gleamed. “I don' know so much about that, Mr.

Derek. I'm going where I won't be chivied about and pointed at, like

what I am here.”

“Your dad's stuck to you; you ought to stick to him.”

“Ah, Dad! He's losin' his place for me, but that don't stop his tongue

at home. 'Tis no use to nag me—nag me. Suppose one of m'lady's daughters

had a bit of fun—they say there's lots as do—I've heard tales—there'd be

none comin' to chase her out of her home. 'No, my girl, you can't live

here no more, endangerin' the young men. You go away. Best for you's

where they'll teach you to be'ave. Go on! Out with you! I don't care

where you go; but you just go!' 'Tis as if girls were all pats o'

butter—same square, same pattern on it, same weight, an' all.”

Derek had come closer; he put his hand down and gripped her arm. Her

eloquence dried up before the intentness of his face, and she just

stared up at him.

“Now, look here, Wilmet; you promise me not to scoot without letting us

know. We'll get you a place to go to. Promise.”

A little sheepishly the rogue-girl answered:

“I promise; only, I'm goin'.”

Suddenly she dimpled and broke into her broad smile.

“Mr. Derek, d'you know what they say—they say you're in love. You was

seen in th' orchard. Ah! 'tis all right for you and her! But if any one

kiss and hug ME, I got to go!”

Derek drew back among the graves, as if he had been struck with a whip.

She looked up at him with coaxing sweetness.

“Don't you mind me, Mr. Derek, and don't you stay here neither. If they

saw you here with me, they'd say: 'Aw—look! Endangerin' another young

man—poor young man!' Good mornin', Mr. Derek!”

The rogue eyes followed him gravely, then once more began examining the

grass, and the toe of her boot again began kicking a little hole. But

Derek did not look back.

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