A DISMISSAL
The far from gentle orchestra at the Gayety was playing with a vivacity
which set the pulses leaping, while the densely packed audience,
scarcely breathing from intensity of awakened interest, were focussing
their eager eyes upon a slender, scarlet-robed figure, an enveloping
cloud of gossamer floating mistily about her, her black hair and eyes
vividly contrasting against the clear whiteness of her skin, as she
yielded herself completely to the strange convolutions of her weird
dance. The wide stage was a yellow flood of light, and she the very
witch of motion. This was her third encore, but, as wildly grotesque
as ever, her full skirts shimmering in the glare of the foot-lights,
her tripping feet barely touching the sanded floor, her young, supple
figure, light as a fairy, weaving in the perfect rhythm of music, the
tireless child of Mexico leaped and spun, wheeled and twirled,--at
times apparently floated upon the very air, her bare white arms
extended, her wonderful eyes blazing from the exhilaration of this
moment of supreme triumph.
Beth Norvell, neatly gowned for the street, her own more sedate
performance already concluded, had paused for a single curious instant
in the shadow of the wings, and remained looking out upon that scarlet
figure, flitting here and there like some tropical bird, through the
gaudy glare of the stage. Winston, waiting patiently for twenty
minutes amid the denser gloom just inside the stage door, watched the
young girl's unconsciously interested face, wondering alike at both
himself and her. This entire adventure remained an unsolved problem to
his mystified mind--how it was she yet continued to retain his
interest; why it was he could never wholly succeed in divorcing her
from his life. He endeavored now to imagine her a mere ordinary woman
of the stage, whom he might idly flirt with to-night, and quite as
easily forget to-morrow. Yet from some cause the mind failed to
respond to such suggestion. There was something within the calm,
womanly face as revealed beneath the reflection of garish light,
something in the very poise of the slender figure bending slightly
forward in aroused enthusiasm, which compelled his respect, aroused his
admiration. She was not a common woman, and he could not succeed in
blinding himself to that fact. Even the garish, cheap environments,
the glitter and tinsel, the noise and brutality, had utterly failed to
tarnish Beth Norvell. She stood forth different, distinct, a perfectly
developed flower, rarely beautiful, although blooming in muck that was
overgrown with noxious weeds. Winston remained clearly conscious that
some peculiar essence of her native character had mysteriously perfumed
the whole place--it glorified her slight bit of stage work, and had
already indelibly impressed itself upon those rough, boisterous Western
spirits out in front. Before her parting lips uttered a line she had
thoroughly mastered them, the innate purity of her perfected womanhood,
the evident innocence of her purpose, shielding her against all
indecency and insult. The ribald scoffing, the insolent shuffling of
feet, the half-drunken uneasiness, ceased as if by magic; and as her
simple act proceeded, the stillness out in front became positively
solemn, the startled faces picturing an awakening to higher things. It
was a triumph far exceeding the noisy outburst that greeted the
Mexican--a moral victory over unrestrained lawlessness won simply by
true womanliness, unaided and alone. That earlier scene had brought to
Winston a deeper realization of this girl's genius, a fresher
appreciation of the true worth of her esteem. No struggle of heart or
head could ever again lower her in his secret thought to the common
level.
The swinging strains of the dancer's accompaniment concluded with a
blare of noisy triumph, the mad enthusiasts out in front wildly
shouting her name above the frantic din of applause, while, flushed and
panting, the agile Mexican dancer swept into the darkened wings like a
scarlet bird.
"Ah, de Americana!" she exclaimed, her eyes yet blazing from
excitement, poising herself directly in front of her silent watcher.
"Señorita, it ees not de same as yours--dey like you, si; but dey lofe
Mercedes."
Miss Norvell smiled gently, her gaze on the other's flushed, childish
face, and extended her hand.
"There seems ample room for both of us," she replied, pleasantly, "yet
your dancing is truly wonderful. It is an art, and you must let me
thank you."
It is difficult to understand why, but the untamed, passionate girl,
stung in some mysterious manner by these quietly spoken words of
appreciation, instantly drew her slight form erect.
"You nevar forget you not one of us, do you?" she questioned in sudden
bitterness of spirit. "Pah! maybe you tink I care what you like. I
dance because I lofe to; because it sets my blood on fire. I no care
for all your airs of fine lady."
"I exceedingly regret you should feel so. I certainly spoke in
kindness and appreciation. Would you permit me to pass?"
The angry young Mexican swept back her scarlet skirts as though in
disdain, her white shoulders uplifted. She did not know why she felt
thus vindictive; to save her soul she could not have told the reason,
yet deep down within her passionate heart there existed a hatred for
this white, silent American, whose slightest word sounded to her like
rebuke. She stood there still, watching suspiciously, smouldering
dislike burning in her black eyes, when Winston suddenly stepped from
the concealing shadows with a word of unexpected greeting. She noticed
the sudden flush sweep into Miss Norvell's cheek, the quick uplifting
of her eyes, the almost instant drooping again of veiling lashes, and,
quickly comprehending it all, stepped promptly forward just far enough
to obtain a clear view of the young man's face. The next moment the
two had vanished into the night without. Mercedes laughed unpleasantly
to herself, her white teeth gleaming.
"Ah, Merciful Mother! so my ver' fine lady has found herself a lofer
here already. _Sapristi_, an' he is well worth lookin' at! I vill ask
of de stage manager his name."
Outside, beneath the faint glimmer of the stars, Winston offered his
arm, and Miss Norvell accepted it silently. It was no more than a
short stroll to the hotel, and the street at that particular hour was
sufficiently deserted, so the young man rather keenly felt the evident
constraint of his companion. It impressed him as unnatural, and he
felt inclined to attribute her state of mind to the unpleasant scene he
had just beheld.
"Señorita Mercedes does not appear very kindly disposed toward you," he
ventured. "Have you quarrelled already?"
"You refer to the Mexican dancer?" she questioned, glancing aside at
him curiously. "Really, I did not remember having heard the girl's
name mentioned before. Do you know her?"
"Only as she is announced on the bills, and having seen her dance from
the front of the house. She is certainly a true artist in her line,
the most expert I recall ever having seen. What has ever made her your
enemy?"
"I am sure I do not know. Her words were a complete surprise; I was
too greatly astonished even to resent them. I have never spoken to the
girl until to-night, and then merely uttered a sentence of sincere
congratulation. She is extremely pretty, and it seems quite too bad
she should be compelled to lead such a life. She does not appear older
than seventeen."
He glanced about at her in surprise.
"Such a life," he echoed, recklessly. "So then you actually pity
others while remaining totally unconcerned regarding yourself?"
"Oh, no; you greatly mistake, or else wilfully misconstrue. I am not
unconcerned, yet there is a very wide difference, I am sure. This girl
is at the Gayety from deliberate choice; she as much as told me so.
She is in love with that sort of life. Probably she has never known
anything better, while I am merely fighting out a bit of hard luck,
and, within two weeks, at the longest, shall again be free. Surely,
you cannot hint that we stand upon the same level."
"God forbid!" fervently. "Yet just as sincerely I wish you did not
deem it necessary to remain for even that brief length of time. It is
a shock to me to realize your intimate association with such depraved
characters. You are surely aware that my purse remains at your
disposal, if you will only cut the whole thing."
She lifted her eyes reproachfully to his face.
"Yes, I know; and possibly you are justified according to your code for
feeling in that way. But I do not believe I am becoming in the least
contaminated by evil associations, nor do I feel any lowering of moral
ideals. I am doing what I imagine to be right under the circumstances,
and have already given you my final decision, as well as my reason for
it. You say 'such depraved characters.' Can you refer to this
Mercedes? Strange as it may seem, I confess feeling an interest in
this beautiful Mexican girl. What is it you know regarding her?"
The young man impulsively started to speak, but as instantly paused.
An instinctive dread of uttering those plain words he would much prefer
she should never hear served to soften his language.
"There is not a great deal of reserve about the Gayety," he explained
lightly, "and indiscriminate gossip is a part of its advertising
equipment. As to Señorita Mercedes, my only informant is common rumor
out in front. That connects her name quite familiarly with one of the
proprietors of the gambling rooms."
"You have no reason to know this?"
"None whatever. As I say, it has come to me in the form of common
rumor. The man referred to is the special faro expert, a fellow named
Farnham."
Miss Norvell started violently, her fingers clutching his arm as if to
keep her body from falling, her face grown suddenly white.
"Farnham, did you say? What--what Farnham?"
"I believe I have heard him familiarly spoken of as 'Biff.'"
"Here? Here in San Juan? 'Biff' Farnham here?" The startled words
appeared to stick in the swelling white throat, and she stood staring
at him, her slender figure swaying as though he had struck her a
physical blow. "Oh, I never knew that!"
Winston, shocked and surprised by this unexpected outburst, did not
speak, his face slowly hardening to the dim suspicion thus suddenly
aroused by her agitation and her impetuous exclamation. She must have
taken instant warning from the expression of his eyes, for, with an
effort, she faced him in regained calmness, a slight tremor in her low
voice alone betraying the lack of complete self-control.
"Your information certainly startled me greatly," she exclaimed slowly.
"It was so unexpected, and so much has happened of late to affect my
nerves."
They walked on in silence, and as he ventured to glance aside at her,
uncertain regarding his future course, her eyes were lowered and hidden
behind the drooping lashes.
"And is that all?" he asked.
"All? Why, what more is there?"
He compressed his lips, striving not to exhibit openly his impatience.
"Nothing, of course," he acquiesced quietly, "if the lady prefers
keeping silent. Only, as matters now stand, the result may prove an
unpleasant misunderstanding."
They were now at the bottom of the few steps leading up toward the
hotel entrance, and Miss Norvell, removing her hand from the support of
his arm, stood before him outwardly calm.
"Beyond doubt, you refer to my apparent surprise at first hearing Mr.
Farnham's name mentioned?"
He bowed quietly, again fascinated and disarmed by the revelation in
those dark eyes.
"The explanation is quite simple," and the voice exhibited a touch of
coolness easily perceptible. "I chanced to be somewhat acquainted with
this man in the East before--well, before he became a gambler. Of
course, I do not know him now, have not the slightest desire to do so,
but the sudden information that he was actually here, and--and all the
rest--came to me with a shock. Is that sufficient?"
The young man was unsatisfied, and, without doubt, his face quite
clearly exhibited his true feeling. Yet there was that about her
constrained manner which held him to respectful silence, so that for a
moment the hesitation between them grew almost painful. Miss Norvell,
realizing this new danger, struggled weakly against sudden temptation
to throw herself unreservedly upon the mercy of this new friend,
confide wholly in him, accept his proffered aid, and flee from possible
coming trouble. But pride proved even stronger than fear, and her lips
closed in firm resolution.
"Mr. Winston," she said, and now her eyes were uplifted unfaltering to
his own. "I find myself obliged to speak with a frankness I have hoped
to avoid. It was never my desire that you should call for me at the
theatre to-night."
"Indeed?" His surprised tone clearly exhibited the sudden hurt of the
wound.
"Yes; yet, pray do not misunderstand me. I find it exceedingly
difficult to say this, and I confess I have even prayed that you would
be led to go away voluntarily, and without its being necessary for me
to appear discourteous. I appreciate your kindness, your gentlemanly
conduct. I--I greatly value your friendship, prize it more highly,
possibly, than you will ever be able to realize; yet, believe me, there
are reasons why I cannot permit you to--to be with me any longer in
this way. It is for your sake, as well as my own, that I am driven to
speak thus frankly, and I am certain you will not add to my pain, my
embarrassment, by asking more definite explanation."
His heart beating like a trip-hammer, Winston stood motionless, staring
into the girl's appealing face, suddenly aroused to her full meaning,
and as thoroughly awakened to a conception of what she really had
become to him. The thought of losing her, losing her perhaps to
another, seemed to chill his very soul.
"Assuredly, I will respect your secret," he answered, mastering his
voice with an effort. "I understand when I am bowled out. What is it
you desire me to do?"
He could not perceive in that dim light the sudden mist of tears
clouding her eyes, but she lifted her gloved hand and swept them aside.
"It is not easy to say such things, yet I must. I wish you to go away;
go back to Denver," she exclaimed; then, all at once, her strained
voice broke into a little sob. "I cannot stand your presence here!"
That last impetuous sentence burst through his armor of constraint, and
for the instant he forgot everything but that thoughtless confession.
She read it in his face, and as quickly flung forth her hand in
warning, but he only grasped it tightly within his own.
"You cannot stand it!" he cried in passionate eagerness. "Then you
must care for me? You must love me, Beth?"
"No, no!" Her eyes were full of agony, and she sought to free her
imprisoned hand. "Oh, hush! I beg of you, hush! You--you hurt me so.
I will not permit you to speak such words. Please release my hand."
He loosened his grasp, feeling bewildered, ashamed, dimly conscious
that he had been guilty of an ungentlemanly action, yet deep within his
own heart assured that he felt no regret.
"Do you mean that?" he questioned vaguely.
"Yes," and all the previous tremor had left her clear voice. "I did
not suppose you would ever say such a thing to me. I gave you no right
to speak those words."
"My own heart gave me the right."
Possibly the woman in her conquered; perhaps there was a nameless
hunger within her soul which made her long to hear the forbidden words
just once from his lips.
"The right, you say? What right?"
"To tell you that I love you."
She drew a quick, quivering breath, the rich color surging into her
cheeks, her gloved hands clasped across her heaving bosom as though to
still the fierce throbbing of her heart. An instant she stood as if
palsied, trembling, from head to foot, although he could perceive
nothing. Her lips smiled.
"Oh, indeed," she said archly, "and how very prettily you said it! The
only son of Colonel Winston, the wealthy banker of Denver, honors Miss
Norvell, actress, and she, of course, feels highly grateful!"
"Beth, stop!" His voice was indignantly earnest. "It is not that; you
must know it is not that!"
"I only know it is supremely ridiculous," she returned, more coldly;
"yet if I did not believe you spoke with some degree of honesty I
should deem your words a deliberate insult, and treat them accordingly.
As it is, I prefer regarding your speech merely as an evidence of
temporary insanity. Ned Winston making love to Beth Norvell! Why, you
do not even know my true name, the story of my life, or that I am in
any way worthy of your mere friendship. Love! You love me, an actress
in a fly-by-night company, a variety artist at the Gayety! What would
they say at home?"
"I know you."
"Ah, but you do not in the least," her voice grown steady and serious.
"That is the whole trouble. You do not in the least know me. I am not
even what you imagine me to be. I am a fraud, a cheat, a masquerader.
Know me! Why, if you did, instead of speaking words of love you would
despise; instead of seeking, you would run away. Oh, let us end this
farce forever; it is as painful to myself as to you. Promise me, Ned
Winston, that you will return to Denver."
She tantalized, tempted him even while she thus openly renounced. He
struggled madly with an almost overmastering desire to burst forth in
strenuous denial, to lay his whole life unreservedly at her feet. Yet
something within the girl's resolute face steadied him, made him feel
her decision as unchangeable.
"Beth--you--you will not listen?"
"No--not to another word."
"You do not believe me?"
He marked the quick restraining pressure of her lips, the tumultuous
rise and fall of her breast.
"Yes, I believe you," she admitted, almost wearily. "You mean it--now;
but--but it is impossible. I wish you to go."
An instant Winston stood looking straight into those dark, glowing
eyes, and all his inherited strength of manhood came trooping back to
aid him. He comprehended in that moment of intense resolution that
this woman had become the whole world to him. That one fact never
would change. It came over him as a distinct revelation untinged by
either despair or hope. It was merely an unalterable truth, which he
must henceforth face as fate willed. He was of fighting blood, and the
seeming obstacles in the way of success did not dismay; they merely
served to inspire him to greater efforts.
"Unfortunately, I am not at present free to go," he replied, more
quietly, "for the reason that I have already accepted some professional
work here. However, I agree not to trouble you again with my presence
until--"
He paused in uncertainty as to his next word.
"What?"
"You give me welcome."
She extended her hand.
"You certainly speak with sufficient confidence."
"'Fools rush in where angels fear to tread,'" he quoted lightly; "and I
herewith announce myself a firm believer in miracles."
"Then your faith is about to be put to a most severe test."
"I welcome that. Yet, if parting is insisted upon, we can, at least,
remain friends. You certainly do not hold my words against me?"
The flush, although fainter, again crept into the clear cheeks, and her
eyes fell before this questioning.
"No true woman ever remains wholly indifferent," she acknowledged with
swift frankness, "or neglects to think kindly in her secret heart of
any one who has told her that story; and I am a woman."
For a brief moment her hand rested warm and throbbing within his own,
and there passed an electric flash of the eyes between them. Then she
withdrew her fingers and opened the door.
"Good-bye," she whispered, the word lingering like perfume, and
vanished, even as he took a step toward her.