On the Other Side.
"Happy are they who learn at last,--
Though silent suffering teach
The secret of enduring strength,
And praise too deep for speech,--
Peace that no pressure from without,
No storm within can reach.
"There is no death for me to fear,
For Christ my Lord hath died;
There is no curse in all my pain,
For he was crucified;
And it is fellowship with him
That keeps me near his side."--A. L. Waring
When the light of the next morning streamed in through the narrow
grating of his cell, Carlos was there once more, lying on his bed of
rushes. But was it indeed the next morning, or was it ten years, twenty
years afterwards? Without a painful effort of thought and memory, he
himself could scarcely have told. That last night was like a great
gulf, fixed between his present and all his past. The moment when he
entered that torch-lit subterranean room seemed a sharp, black dividing
line, sundering his life into two halves. And the latter half seemed
longer than that which had gone before.
Nor could years of suffering have left a sadder impress on the young
face, out of which the look of youth had passed, apparently for ever.
Brow and lips were pale; but two crimson spots, still telling of
feverish pain, burned on the hollow cheeks, while the large lustrous
eyes beamed with even unnatural brilliance.
The poor woman, who was doing the work of God's bright angels in that
dismal prison, came softly in. How she obtained entrance there Carlos
did not know, and was far too weak to ask, or even to wonder. But
probably she was sent by Benevidio, who knew that, in his present
condition, some human help was indispensable to the prisoner.
Maria Gonsalez was too well accustomed to scenes of horror to be
over-much surprised or shocked by what she saw. Silently, though with a
heart full of compassion, she rendered the few little services in her
power. She placed the broken frame in as easy a position as she could,
and once and again she raised to the parched lips the "cup of cold
water" so eagerly desired.
He roused himself to murmur a word of thanks; then, as she prepared to
leave him, his eyes followed her wistfully.
"Can I do anything more for you, senor?" she asked.
"Yes, mother. Tell me--have you spoken to my brother?"
"Ay de mi! no, senor," said the poor woman, whose ability was not equal
to her good-will. "I have tried, God wot; but I could not get from my
master the name of the place where he lives without making him suspect
something, and never since have I had the good fortune to see his face."
"I know you have done--what you could. My message does not matter now.
Not so much. Still, best he should go. Tell him so, when you find him.
But, remember, tell him nought of this. You promise, mother! He must
never know it--_never_!"
She spoke a few words of pity and condolence.
"It _was_ horrible!" he faltered, in faint, broken tones. "Worst of
all--the return to life. For I thought all was over, and that I should
awake face to face with Christ. But--I cannot speak of it."
There was a long silence; then his eye kindled, and a look of joy--ay,
even of triumph--flashed across the wasted, suffering face. "But _I
have overcome_! No; not I. Christ has overcome in me, the weakest of
his members. Now I am beyond it--on the other side."
To the poor tortured captive there had been given a foretaste, strange
and sweet, of what they feel who stand on the sea of glass, having the
harps of God in their hands. Men had done their worst--their very
worst. He knew now all "the dread mystery of pain;" all that flesh
could accomplish in its fiercest conflict with spirit. Yet not one word
that could injure any one he loved had been wrung from his lips.
_All_ was over now. In that there was mercy--far more mercy than was
shown to others. He had been permitted to drain the cup at a single
draught. _Now_ he could feel grateful to the physicians, who with truly
kind cruelty (and not without some risk to themselves) had prevented, in
his case, that fiendish device, "the suspension of the torture." Even
according to the execrable laws of the Inquisition, he had won his right
to die in peace.
As time passed on, a blessed sense that he was now out of the hands of
man, and in those of God alone, sank like balm upon his weary spirit.
Fear was gone; grief had passed away; even memory had almost ceased to
give him a pang. For how could he long for the loved faces of former
days, when day and night Christ himself was near him? So strangely
near, so intimately present, that he sometimes thought that if, through
some wonderful relenting of his persecutors, Juan were permitted to come
and stand beside him, that loved brother would still seem further away,
less real, than the unseen Friend who was keeping watch by his couch.
And even the bodily pain, that so seldom left him, was not hard to bear,
for it was only the touch of His finger.
He had passed into the clear air upon the mountain top, where the sun
shines ever, and the storm winds cannot come. Nothing hurt him; nothing
disturbed him now. He had visitors; for what had really placed him
beyond the reach of his enemies was, not unnaturally, supposed by them
to have brought him into a fitting state to receive their exhortations.
So Inquisitors, monks, and friars--"persons of good learning and honest
repute"--came in due course to his lonely cell, armed with persuasions
and arguments, which were always weighted with threats and promises.
Their voices seemed to reach him faintly, from a great distance. Into
"the secret place of the Lord," where he dwelt now, they could not
enter. Threats and promises fell powerless on his ear. What more could
they do to him? As far as the mere facts of the case were concerned,
this security may have been misplaced--nay, it _was_ misplaced; but it
saved him from much suffering. And as for promises, had they thrown
open the door of his dungeon and bid him go forth free, only that one
intense longing to see his brother's face would have nerved him to make
the effort.
Arguments he was glad to answer when permitted. It was a joy to speak
for his Lord, who had done, and was doing, such great things for him.
As far as he could, he made use of those Scripture words with which his
memory was so richly stored. But more than once it happened that he was
forced to take up the weapons which he had learned in the schools to use
so skilfully. He tore sophisms to pieces with the dexterity of one who
knew how they were constructed, and astonished the students of Aristotle
and Thomas Aquinas by vanquishing them on their own ground.
Reproach and insult he met with a fearless meekness that nothing could
ruffle. Why should he feel anger? Rather did he pity those who stood
without in the darkness, not seeing the Face he saw, not hearing the
Voice he heard. Usually, however, those who visited him yielded to the
spell of his own sweet and perfect courtesy, and were kinder than they
intended to be to the "professed impenitent heretic."
His heart, now "at leisure from itself," was filled with sympathy for
his imprisoned brethren and sisters. But, except to Maria Gonsalez, he
dared not speak of them, lest the simplest remark or question might give
rise to some new suspicion, or supply some link, hitherto missing, in
the chain of evidence against them. But those who came to visit him
sometimes gave him unasked intelligence about them. He could not,
however, rely upon the truth of what reached him in this way. He was
told that Losada had retracted; he did not believe it. Equally did he
disbelieve a similar story of Don Juan Ponce de Leon, in which,
unhappily, there was some truth. The constancy of that gentle,
generous-hearted nobleman had yielded under torture and cruel
imprisonment, and concessions had been wrung from him that dimmed the
brightness of his martyr crown. On the other hand, the waverer, Garcias
Arias, known as the "White Doctor," had come forward with a hardihood
truly marvellous, and not only confessed his own faith, but mocked and
defied the Inquisitors.
Of Fray Constantino, the most contradictory stories were told him. At
one time he was assured that the great preacher had not only admitted
his own guilt, but also, on the rack, had informed against his brethren.
Again he was told, and this time with truth, that the Emperor's former
chaplain and favourite had been spared the horrors of the Question, but
that the eagerly desired evidence against him had been obtained by
accident. A lady of rank, one of his chief friends, was amongst the
prisoners; and the Inquisitors sent an Alguazil to her house to demand
possession of her jewels. Her son, without waiting to ascertain the
precise object of the officer's visit, surrendered to him in a panic
some books which Fray Constantino had given his mother to conceal.
Amongst them was a volume in his own handwriting, containing the most
explicit avowal of the principles of the Reformation. On this being
shown to the prisoner, he struggled no longer. "You have there a full
and candid confession of my belief," he said. And he was now in one of
the dark and loathsome subterranean cells of the Triana.
Amongst those who most frequently visited Carlos was the prior of the
Dominican convent. This man seemed to take a peculiar interest in the
young heretic's fate. He was a good specimen of a character oftener
talked about than met with in real life,--the genuine fanatic. When he
threatened Carlos, as he spared not to do, with the fire that is never
quenched, at least he believed with all his heart that he was in danger
of it. Carlos soon perceived this, and accepting his honest intention to
benefit him, came to regard him with a kind of friendliness. Besides,
the prior listened to what he said with more attention than did most of
the others, and even in the prison of the Inquisition a man likes to be
listened to, especially when his opportunities of speaking are few and
brief.
Many weeks passed by, and still Carlos lay on his mat, in weakness and
suffering of body, though in calm gladness of spirit. Surgical and
medical aid had been afforded him in due course. And it was not the
fault of either surgeon or physician that he did not recover. They
could stanch wounds and set dislocated joints, but when the springs of
life were sapped, how could they renew them? How could they quicken the
feeble pulse, or send back life and energy into the broken, exhausted
frame? At this time Carlos himself felt certain--even more certain than
did his physician--that never again would his footsteps pass the limits
of that narrow cell.
Once, indeed, there came to him a brief and fleeting pang of regret. It
was in the spring-time; everywhere else so bright and fair, but making
little change in those gloomy cells. Maria Gonsalez now sometimes
obtained access to him, partly through Benevidio's increased inattention
to all his duties, partly because, any attempt at escape on the part of
the captive being obviously out of the question, he was somewhat less
jealously watched. And more than once the gaoler's little daughter
stole in timidly beside her nurse, bearing some trifling gift for the
sick prisoner. To Carlos these visits came like sunbeams; and in a very
short time he succeeded in establishing quite an intimate friendship
with the child.
One morning she entered his cell with Maria, carrying a basket, from
which she produced, with shy pleasure, a few golden oranges. "Look,
senor," she said, "they are good to eat now, for the blossoms are
out.[#] I gathered some to show you;" and filling both her hands with
the luscious wealth of the orange flowers, she flung them carelessly
down on the mat beside him. In her eyes they were of no value compared
with the fruit.
[#] The people of Seville do not think the oranges fit to eat until the
new blossoms come out in spring.
With Carlos it was far otherwise. The rich perfume that filled the cell
filled his heart also with sweet sad dreams, which lasted long after his
kindly visitors had left him. The orange-trees had just been in flower
last spring when all God's free earth and sky were shut out from his
sight for ever. Only a year ago! What a long, long year it seemed!
And only one year further back he was walking in the orange gardens with
Dona Beatriz, in all the delicious intoxication of his first and last
dream of youthful love. "Better here than there, better now than then,"
he murmured, though the tears gathered in his eyes. "But oh, for one
hour of the old free life, one look at orange-trees in flower, or blue
skies, or the grassy slopes and cork-trees of Nuera! Or"--and more
painfully intense the yearning grew--"one familiar face, belonging to
the past, to show me it was not all a dream, as I am sometimes tempted
to think it. Thine, Ruy, if it might be.--O Ruy, Ruy!--But, thank God,
I have not betrayed thee!"
In the afternoon of that day visitors were announced. Carlos was not
surprised to see the stern narrow face and white hair of the Dominican
prior. But he was a little surprised to observe that the person who
followed him wore the gray cowl of St. Francis. The prior merely
bestowed the customary salutation upon him, and then, stepping aside,
allowed his companion to approach.
But as soon as Carlos saw his face, he raised himself eagerly, and
stretching out both his hands, grasped those of the Franciscan. "Dear
Fray Sebastian!" he cried; "my good, kind tutor!"
"My lord the prior has been graciously pleased to allow me to visit your
Excellency."
"It is truly kind of you, my lord. I thank you heartily," said Carlos,
frankly and promptly turning towards the Dominican, who looked at him
with somewhat the air of one who is trying to be stern with a child.
"I have ventured to allow you this indulgence," he said, "in the hope
that the counsels of one whom you hold in honour may lead you to
repentance."
Carlos turned once more to Fray Sebastian, whose hand he still held.
"It is a great joy to see you," he said. "Only to-day I had been
longing for a familiar face. And you are changed never a whit since you
used to teach me my humanities. How have you come hither? Where have
you been all these years?"
Poor Fray Sebastian vainly tried to frame an answer to these simple
questions. He had come to that prison straight from Munebraga's
splendid patio, where, amidst the gleam of azulejos and of many-coloured
marbles, the scent of rare exotics and the music of rippling fountains,
he had partaken of a sumptuous mid-day repast. In this dark foul
dungeon there was nothing to please the senses, not even God's free air
and light. Everything on which his eye rested was coarse, painful,
loathsome. By the prisoner's side lay the remains of a meal, in great
contrast to his. And the sleeve, fallen back from the hand that held
his own, showed deep scars on the wrist. He knew whence they were. Yet
the face that was looking in his, with kindling eyes, and a smile on the
parted lips, might have been the face of the boy Carlos, when he praised
him for a successful task, only for the pain in it, and, far deeper than
pain, a look of assured peace that boyhood could scarcely know.
Repressing a choking sensation, he faltered, "Senor Don Carlos, it
grieves me to the heart to see you here."
"Do not grieve for me, dear Fray Sebastian; for I tell you truly, I have
never known such happy hours as since I came here. At first, indeed, I
suffered; there was storm and darkness. But then"--here for a moment
his voice failed, and his flushed cheek and quivering lip betrayed the
anguish a too hasty movement cost the broken frame. But, recovering
himself quickly, he went on: "Then He arose and rebuked the wind and the
sea; and there was a great calm. That calm lasts still. And oftentimes
this narrow room seems to me the house of God, the very gate of heaven.
Moreover," he added, with a smile of strange brightness, "there is
heaven itself beyond."
"But, senor and your Excellency, consider the disgrace and sorrow of
your noble family--that is, I mean"--here the speaker paused in
perplexity, and met the keen eye of the prior, fixed somewhat
scornfully, as he thought, upon him. He was quite conscious that the
Dominican was thinking him incapable, and incompetent to the task he had
so earnestly solicited. He had sedulously prepared himself for this
important interview, had gone through it in imagination beforehand,
laying up in his memory several convincing and most pertinent
exhortations, which could not fail to benefit his old pupil. But these
were of no avail now; in fact, they all vanished from his recollection.
He had just begun something rather vague and incoherent about Holy
Church, when the prior broke in.
"Honoured brother," he said, addressing with scrupulous politeness the
member of a rival fraternity, "the prisoner may be more willing to
listen to your pious exhortations, and you may have more freedom in
addressing him, if you are left for a brief space alone together.
Therefore, though it is scarcely regular, I will visit a prisoner in a
neighbouring apartment, and return hither for you in due time."
Fray Sebastian thanked him, and he withdrew, saying as he did so, "It is
not necessary for me to remind my reverend brother that conversation
upon worldly matters is strictly forbidden in the Holy House."
Whether the prior visited the other prisoner or no, it is not for us to
inquire; but if he did, his visit was a short one; for it is certain
that for some time he paced the gloomy corridor with troubled footsteps.
He was thinking of a woman's face, a fair young face, to which that of
Don Carlos Alvarez wore a startling likeness. "Too harsh, needlessly
harsh," he murmured; "for, after all, _she_ was no heretic. But which
of us is always in the right? Ave Maria Sanctissima, ora pro me! But
if I can, I would fain make some reparation--to _him_. If ever there
was a true and sincere penitent, he is one."
After a little further delay, he summoned Fray Sebastian by a peremptory
knock at the inner door, the outer one of course remaining open. The
Franciscan came, his broad, good-humoured face bathed in tears, which he
scarcely made an effort to conceal.
The prior glanced at him for a moment, then signed to Herrera, who was
waiting in the gallery, to come and make the door fast. They walked on
together in silence, until at length Fray Sebastian said, in a trembling
voice, "My lord, you are very powerful here; can _you_ do nothing for
him?"
"I _have_ done much. At my intercession he had nine months of solitude,
in which to recollect himself and ponder his situation, ere he was
called on to make answer at all. Judge my amazement when, instead of
entering upon his defence, or calling witnesses to his character, he at
once confessed all. Judge my greater amazement at his continued
obstinacy since. When a man has broken a giant oak in two, he may feel
some surprise at being baffled by a sapling."
"He will not relent," said Fray Sebastian, hardly restraining his sobs.
"He will die."
"I see one chance to save him," returned the prior; "but it is a
hazardous experiment. The consent of the Supreme Council is necessary,
as well as that of my Lord Vice-Inquisitor, and neither may be very easy
to obtain."
"To save his body or his soul?" Fray Sebastian asked anxiously.
"Both, if it succeeds. But I can say no more," he added rather
haughtily; "for my plan is bound up with a secret, of which few living
men, save myself, are in possession."