A DISCOURSE ON SALARIES
Until Miss Winthrop allowed Pendleton to spend with her that afternoon
in the park, the period between the close of business on Saturday and
the opening on Monday had furnished her with a natural protective
barrier. On one side of this stood the business world of Carter, Rand
& Seagraves, to which Pendleton himself belonged; on the other side
was her own private, personal world. Now that barrier was down.
Without realizing at the time the significance of his request,--a
request so honestly and smilingly made that it took her off her
guard,--she had allowed him, for a period of a couple of hours, to
enter that personal world. By her side he had explored with her the
familiar paths in the park which until then had been all her own. He
had made himself a part of them. Never again could she follow them
without, in a sense, having him with her.
She realized this because when, at five o'clock, she had told him to
leave her at the foot of the Elevated, she had watched him out of
sight, and then, instead of going home as she intended, she had turned
and gone back to the park. She had a vague notion that she must put
her life back upon its normal basis before returning to her room. If
only for a few moments, she must go over the old paths alone.
It was impossible. Everywhere she turned, it was to recall some
careless phrase or gesture or expression of his--to react to them
again exactly as when he had been with her. And this man had nothing
whatever to do with the office of Carter, Rand & Seagraves. She could
not force him back there; he insisted upon remaining on the personal
side of the barrier.
It was curious how quickly she accepted the situation after her first
startled surprise. After all, if she was going to retain her interest
in him in any way, it was as necessary to help him outside the office
as within. One opportunity had been offered her that very afternoon in
making him understand that it was perfectly possible to enjoy a
half-holiday without spending all the money in his pocket.
His attitude toward money puzzled her. In one way he seemed to
place too much value upon it, and in another way not enough. He
overemphasized the importance of a ten-thousand-dollar salary,
making that the one goal of his business efforts, and then calmly
proposed squandering dollar bills on confectionery and what not as
an incident to as simple an amusement as a walk in the park. He
neither knew how little a dollar was worth, nor how much. She herself
had learned out of hard experience, and if she could only make him
understand--well, that at least furnished her with some sort of
excuse for allowing this new relationship to continue.
For all any one knows, there may be some divine reason that prompts
women to find excuses in such matters--which, in a way, forces them
willy-nilly to the making of such excuses.
And yet, she had to admit that it was stretching the excuse pretty far
when, a week later, she meekly allowed him to come with her on her
usual Sunday outing into the country. By steady cross-examination he
had made her divulge the fact that it was her interesting habit to
prepare a luncheon of bread and butter and cake, and, taking a train,
to spend the day by the side of a brook she had discovered.
"Fine," he nodded. "Next Sunday I'll go with you."
That afternoon he started making his preparations.
Obviously, the first thing necessary was a luncheon basket, and on his
way uptown he saw one of English wicker that took his fancy. It had
compartments with bottles and a whole outfit of knives and forks and
plates and little drinking-cups and what not. What it cost is nobody's
business. Then he stopped at a very nice grocery store on Fifth Avenue
and asked the advice of the clerk about the more substantial contents,
and the clerk gave his advice very willingly. He bought some French
sardines and English marmalade, and some fruit and confectionery and
some strictly fresh eggs and dainty crackers and some jelly and olives
and cheese and several other little things.
"Now," suggested the clerk, "a small chicken roasted and served cold
would be very nice."
"Right," nodded Don.
"I could order it for you from here."
"Right again," agreed Don.
It was to be sent to the house, so that Nora could have it roasted
that afternoon.
He accomplished these things on his way uptown, and felt quite
satisfied with himself. This preparing of a picnic basket was, after
all, a very simple matter.
When Miss Winthrop came into the station for the nine-thirty, he was
waiting for her with the big wicker basket in his hand.
They rode to a little village hardly large enough to have a name, and
getting out there took to the open road.
Don enjoyed the tramp of three miles that followed, but, on the whole,
he was glad when they reached the border of the brook. The walking and
the flowers and the scenery occupied too much of the girl's attention.
Not only that, but this English wicker basket became heavy in the
course of time. At the end of a mile or so it seemed as if the clerk
must have lined the bottom of his basket with stones. Don meant to
investigate at the first opportunity.
The stream that she had discovered only after several seasons of
ardent exploration was not, geographically considered, of any especial
importance to the world at large. But behind the clump of alders out
of which it crept was a bit of pasture greensward about as big as a
room. Here one might lunch in as complete seclusion as if in the
Canadian woods or in the heart of Africa.
She was as eager to have him pleased as if this were some house of her
planning. "It's a better dining-place than any in town, isn't it?" she
asked.
"I should say so," he nodded.
With her permission, he lighted a cigarette and, stretching himself
out on the grass, enjoyed it as only a man can who has limited his
smokes to so many a day. She sat near the brook, and she too was quite
content and very comfortable.
"I don't see why you didn't tell me about this place before," he
observed.
"I wasn't quite sure you'd like it here, for one thing," she
answered.
"Why not?"
"It isn't a very gay place, is it?"
"It's considerably gayer than my house on a Sunday," he answered.
"It's your own fault you don't enjoy your house more," she declared.
"How is it?"
"Why, it's a wonderful thing to have a house all of your own. I used
to pretend this was a house all of my own."
"Don't you any longer?"
She was wondering how it would be about that, now that she had allowed
him to enter. Of course, she might treat him merely as a guest here;
but that was difficult, because the only thing she based her sense of
ownership on was the fact that no one else knew anything about the
place. She shook her head.
"It's hard to pretend anything except when you're alone," she
answered.
He sat up.
"Then you oughtn't to have let me come here with you."
She smiled.
"How could I help it? You just came."
"I know it," he admitted. "I'm always butting in, and you ought to
tell me so every now and then."
"Would that make any difference?"
"I don't know as it would," he admitted. "But it might make me
uncomfortable."
"I don't want to make you uncomfortable. I think you manage to make
yourself uncomfortable enough, as it is. And that's absurd, because
just being a man ought to keep you happy all the time."
"I don't see how you figure that," he answered.
"Being a man is being able to do about anything you wish."
"Don't you believe it," he replied. "Having money is the only thing
that makes you able to do what you wish."
"Oh, dear!" she exclaimed. "Are you going back to that ten thousand a
year?"
"Pretty soon now it will be September," he reflected irrelevantly.
"And then?"
"I had rather hoped to get it by then."
"Well, you won't, so you'd better forget it. I shouldn't wonder but
what you received a raise to two thousand if Farnsworth gets you out
selling, and that ought to satisfy you."
Don looked up. Somehow, every time she put it that way it did sound
enough. Beside the brook it sounded like plenty.
"Look here," he exclaimed. "Would you marry a man who was only drawing
a salary of two thousand?"
For a moment the question confused her, but only for a moment.
"If I was willing to take my chance with a man," she said, "his salary
of two thousand would be the least of my troubles."
"You mean you think two could live on that?"
"Of course they could," she answered shortly.
"And have enough to buy clothes and all those things?"
"And put money in the bank if they weren't two fools," she replied.
"But look here," he continued, clinging to the subject when it was
quite evident she was willing to drop it. "I've heard that hats cost
fifty dollars and more apiece, and gowns anywhere from two hundred to
five."
"Yes," she nodded; "I've heard that."
"Well, don't they?" he persisted.
"I don't remember ever getting any bill of that size," she answered
with a smile.
"What do your bills amount to?" he inquired.
Miss Winthrop hesitated a moment.
"If you want to know," she answered finally, "this hat cost me some
three dollars with the trimmings. And if I ever paid more than
twenty-five dollars for a suit, I'd want some one to appoint a
guardian for me."
There certainly was a wide margin of difference here in the estimates
made by two women--a difference not accounted for, as far as Don could
see, in the visible results. He would have liked to continue more into
details, but Miss Winthrop rose as if to put an end to this subject.
"I'm hungry," she announced.
"Right," he nodded. "There's my basket over there, and I'll let you
set the table."
Her idea had been that he was to eat his luncheon and she hers.
However, she had no objection to making things ready for him. So she
brought the basket over in front of him and opened it. She gave one
look into it.
"Did you buy all this?" she demanded.
"Why, yes," he answered.
She removed the napkin and saw the cold chicken.
"Didn't you know any better, or were you just trying to see how much
money you could throw away?" she inquired.
"Don't you like chicken?"
"Yes, I like chicken," she answered.
"There are other things underneath, and hot coffee in the bottles," he
announced.
Just to see how far he had gone, she took out the other things. She
caught her breath.
"Well, it's your own affair," she commented. "But, if you eat all
this, I'm sorry for you."
She spread a napkin before him and placed the chicken on it,
surrounding it with the tin of sardines, the boxes of crackers, the
jar of marmalade, the cheese, the confectionery, and other things.
Then she unrolled her own package of sandwiches, and proceeded to
munch one.
"Look here!" he exclaimed. "You didn't think I bought this all for
myself?"
"I'd rather think that than to think you thought I was silly enough to
want you to throw away your money."
He was carving the chicken, and he handed her a portion upon one of
the bright aluminum plates. But she shook her head in refusal.
"You aren't going to have any of this?"
"No, thank you."
"I call that rather too bad, because if you don't it will be wasted."
"It was wasted when you bought it."
"But you didn't tell me what to get."
"I told you we'd each bring our own luncheon," she reminded him.
"And so we did; but I don't call it very friendly of you not to share
with me."
"I have quite enough of my own."
She seemed determined about the matter, so he put all the things back
again in the basket, closed and fastened the lid, and, placing it to
one side, lighted a fresh cigarette. She watched him in amazement.
"Aren't you going to eat your lunch?" she demanded.
"I refuse to eat alone."
"I'm the one who is eating alone," she said.
"That seems to be what you want."
"You've no right to do things and then blame me for them," she
protested.
"You're doing all the blaming yourself," he returned.
For a moment she continued to eat her sandwich in silence and to watch
his set face. She was quite sure he would remain stubborn in the stand
he had taken.
"It was silly enough to buy all those expensive things, but it would
be even sillier to throw them away," she asserted.
"It would at least be too bad," he confessed. "But I can't help it,
can I? I can't _make_ you eat, you know."
There he went again, placing the whole blame on her.
"Hand me that basket," she ordered.
He handed her the basket, and she brought out the delicacies.
"Next time I shall prepare both lunches," she declared.
"That will be very nice," he nodded.