CHAPTER XVIII.

No one has greater respect and admiration for Ascher than I have.

I respect his ability. I admire his cool detachment of mind and his

unfailing feeling for justice. I recognise in him a magnanimity, a

certain knightliness which is very rare. But it is vain to pretend

that I can ever regard Ascher as an intimate friend. I am never quite

comfortable in his company. He lacks something, something essential. He

lacks a sense of humour.

No one in England--no one I suppose in Europe--wanted to make jokes

during that critical week which followed my interview with Ascher. The

most abandoned buffoon shrank from jesting when every morning brought a

fresh declaration of war by one great power on another. But even under

such circumstances the sense of the ridiculous survives--a thing to be

carefully concealed--in those who are fortunate enough to possess it.

Ascher has no sense of the ridiculous. He sees men and women clad in

long, stately robes moving through life with grave dignity like Arab

chiefs or caliphs of Bagdad. He sees their actions conditioned and to

some extent controlled by the influences of majestic inhuman powers,

the genii of eastern tales, huge, cloud-girt spirits of oppressive

solemnity. In reality most people wear motley all day long and the fairy

powers are leprechauns, tricksy, irresponsible sprites, willing enough

to make merry with those who can laugh with them; but players of all

Puck’s tricks on “wisest aunts telling saddest tales.”

I sometimes think that it is Ascher’s chivalry, his fine knightliness,

which has killed his sense of humour. I cannot suppose that Sir Galahad

found any delight in the quips of fools. His owl-like eyes, large

with the wonder of Holy Grails, looked stupidly on faces wrinkled

with merriment. King Arthur could never have talked as he did to

Guinevere--Tennyson is my authority for the things he said--if he

had not had in him the soul of an earnest member of a league for the

sympathetic study of social problems. Ascher is as chivalrous as any

member of King Arthur’s fellowship, and humour, if he ever had the sense

of it, is dead in him. But perhaps he was born without it and is by

nature hopelessly serious because he is a German. For the Germans never

seem to be able to appreciate the fact that the grandiose is invariably

comic, and that nothing in the world is more difficult than to stand

toes to the line of the high heroic without stepping across it into the

region of the ridiculous. I think of Wagner’s “Parsifal,” of Nietzsche’s

“Zarathrusta,” of the Kaiser Wilhelm’s amazing “Weltauffassung,” and

it seems to me that such things could not be in any nation where one

single man knew how to laugh.

If Ascher had in him the faintest glimmering of a sense of humour he

would never have appealed to me, choosing the silent and ghostly middle

of the night for the performance, to decide his point of honour for him.

What am I that he should imagine me capable of settling high questions

of that kind? An expatriated Irishman, a dispossessed landlord, a man

without one high ambition, a mere mocker of enthusiasm of every kind.

No one, unless he were absolutely blind to the ridiculous, would have

consulted me on such a subject as the honour of a gentleman.

Yet, in her total lack of humour, Mrs. Ascher is as bad as her husband

is. If such a thing were possible I should say that she is worse. There

is, at all events, less excuse for her. She is not knightly, not very

knightly, though she did champion the cause of poor, oppressed Ireland.

She is an American, not a German, and the Americans pay high honour to

their humourists. Perhaps she has lived too long with Ascher. Perhaps

she has devoted herself too much to art and her steady contemplation of

the sublime has killed her sense of the ridiculous. At all events it is

dead. She has no humour now.

It is almost impossible to imagine that any woman would have been

capable of calling in Gorman and me as advisers and helpers at a

critical moment of her life. Yet that is what Mrs. Ascher did.

We obeyed the summons of course, both of us.

Gorman got there first. I found him seated opposite Mrs. Ascher in the

large drawing-room of the house in Hampstead. Mrs. Ascher is lacking in

humour, but she has a fine sense of dramatic propriety. Great decisions

can only be come to fittingly, mighty spiritual tragedies can only be

satisfactorily enacted, in spacious rooms. And there must be emptiness.

Knick-knacks and pretty ornaments kill high emotion. The chamber of a

dainty woman, the room which delicate feminity has made its own, will

suit a light flirtation, the love-making of a summer afternoon, but deep

passion is out of place in it.

I walked cautiously across a wide space of slippery floor in order to

shake hands with Mrs. Ascher. I saw that Gorman was sitting in a huge

straight-backed chair with heavily carved elbow rests. It was the

sort of chair which would have suited a bishop--in the chancel of his

cathedral, not in his private room--and a major excommunication might

very suitably have been delivered from it.

“I am in great trouble,” said Mrs. Ascher, “and I have asked you two to

come to me because you are my friends. I was right to call you, was I

not?”

She looked at Gorman and then at me, evidently expecting us to make a

confession of friendship for her. Gorman wriggled in a way that made me

think the carving of the chair must be sticking into him somewhere. But

he did not fail Mrs. Ascher.

“You were right,” he said with deep feeling, “altogether right.”

I was not going to be outdone by Gorman.

“‘A friend,’” I said, “‘must bear a friend’s infirmities.’”

The quotation was not wholly happy, but Mrs. Ascher seemed to like it.

She smiled gratefully.

“My husband,” she said.

I knew it must be her husband’s affairs which were troubling her.

“He is in a very difficult position,” I said. “I had a long talk with

him the other night. It seems to me that he has to choose between----”

Gorman interrupted me.

“He’s in an infernally awkward hole,” he said. “The English people will

lose their tempers to a certainty, not at first perhaps, but as soon as

anything goes against them. When they do they’ll make things damnably

unpleasant for any one who’s suspected of being German or even remotely

connected with Germany. That’s the sort of people the English are.

And Ascher is just the man they’ll fasten on at once. They’ll hunt him

down.”

Mrs. Ascher looked at Gorman while he spoke. Her face expressed a quiet

dignity.

“That is not the difficulty,” she said. “What people say or think of us

or do to us does not matter. We live our own lives. We can always live

them, apart from, above the bitter voices of the crowd.”

“All the same,” said Gorman, “it will be unpleasant. It will be a great

deal worse than merely unpleasant. If I were Ascher I should get on the

safe side at once. I should give a thumping big subscription--£50,000

or something that will attract attention--to some popular fund. I should

offer to present the War Office with half a dozen aeroplanes to be

called ‘The Ascher Flying Fleet’; or a first-rate cannon of the largest

size. A good deal can be done to shut people’s mouths in that sort of

way.”

“You do not understand,” said Mrs. Ascher.

She turned to me, evidently hoping that I would explain Ascher’s real

difficulty to Gorman. I hesitated for a moment. It was plain to me that

though Gorman did not appreciate the reality of the spiritual crisis, he

did understand something which had escaped me and, so far as I knew,

had escaped Ascher also. I had a vivid recollection of the unenviable

position of men suspected of lukewarm patriotism during the Boer War.

In the struggle we were then entering upon popular passion would be far

more highly excited. The position of the Aschers in England might become

impossible.

Gorman with his highly developed faculty for gauging the force and

direction of popular opinion understood at once and thoroughly the

difficulties that lay before Ascher. What he did not understand was

the peculiar difficulty which Ascher felt. I responded to Mrs. Ascher’s

glance of appeal and tried to explain things to Gorman.

“Ascher,” I said, “is pulled two ways. His country is pulling him.

That’s the call of patriotism. You ought to understand that, Gorman.

You’re a tremendous patriot yourself. But if he goes back to his country

now he absolutely ruins his business. That means a lot more than merely

losing his money. It means more even than losing other people’s money,

the money of the men who trusted him. It means that he must be false

to his commercial honour. You see that, don’t you, Gorman? And there

doesn’t seem any way out of the dilemma. He has got to go back on his

patriotism or on his honour. There is no other course.”

I looked at Mrs. Ascher for approval. I had stated her husband’s dilemma

clearly, I believed fairly. Gorman could hardly fail to understand. I

thought Mrs. Ascher would have been pleased with me. To my amazement she

acknowledged my efforts with a burst of indignation.

“Oh,” she cried, “you do not understand, either of you. You do not even

begin to understand. I suppose you cannot, because you are men and not

women. You men! All of you, my husband, too, though he is far above the

rest of you--but even he! You concern yourselves about things which

are nothing. You argue about phantoms and discuss them as if they

were realities. And all the time you miss the things which are. You

think”--she spoke directly to Gorman and her voice expressed the utmost

scorn--“you think about reputation, the way men babble about each other

and will babble about us. Why should we care? Even if we were afraid of

what men say there are places in the world to which the voices of Europe

cannot reach. There are islands in the sea where the sun shines and palm

trees grow, to which the talk of men who dwell in cities never comes.”

I recollected the desire which Mrs. Ascher had once expressed to me of

getting “far, far away from everywhere.” She evidently hoped to be able

to try that experiment.

She turned from Gorman and faced me.

“You talk,” she said, “about honour and patriotism. What are they?

Words, just words. It is only you men, slaves of your own conventions,

who take them for realities. We women know better. You go about life

imagining that your limbs are bound with fetters. They are bound with

delusions. We women know. Love and beauty are real. Nothing else is. All

your fine words are like the flags under which your dupes go out to die;

fluttering rags to us whose eyes are open. You talk--oh, so finely you

talk--about the shadows your own imaginings cast, and you end in being

afraid of them. You talk--you dare to talk to me of money----”

This was a totally unjust accusation. I had not talked about money. I

had more sense than to mention money to a woman in Mrs. Ascher’s frame

of mind.

“I have money enough of my own,” she said. “He and I want very little.

What do we care for except just to love each other and to see beautiful

things and to escape from all this nightmare of blood and hate and

horror and hideousness?”

I felt helpless. Mrs. Ascher had undoubtedly hit on a new solution of

the problem. She proposed that Ascher should impale himself not on one

or other, but on both horns of the dilemma, be false to every kind of

honour and loyalty. It was, I suppose, possible for Ascher to pack a bag

and take to flight, simply to disappear, leaving everything behind

him. He and she might go to some valley in the Rocky Mountains, to some

unknown creek on the Californian coast, to some island in the South

Pacific. If she were right about honour and faithfulness and patriotism,

if these are, after all, only idols of the tribe, then she and Ascher

might be very happy. They would have all that either of them required.

I looked at Gorman. He shrugged his shoulders, helpless as I was. Mrs.

Ascher began to plead with us in a way that was very strange to listen

to.

“Life is so short,” she said. “Already most of it is gone from us. We

have only a few years more, he and I. Why should we be miserable? There

is happiness waiting for us. There is nothing between us and happiness

except words, honor, patriotism, right, wrong. These are words, only

words. They are gossamer threads which we break as we go, break without

feeling them if only we go boldly. Will you not help me? Tell him that

what I say is true. He will listen to you because you are men; and you

know in your hearts that I speak what is true, that I have hold upon

reality.”

There was a moment’s silence after she stopped speaking. Before either

Gorman or I attempted to make any answer Ascher himself came into the

room. I certainly did not expect to see him. Mrs. Ascher was, I am sure,

as much surprised as I was. It was about twelve o’clock and at that hour

Ascher is always in his office. He crossed the room quietly. He greeted

Gorman and me without a sign that our presence was unexpected or

unwelcome. He went to his wife and took her hand in his. She clung to

him, looking up into his face. She knew at once that he had something

very important to say to her.

“You have decided?” she said.

Ascher’s eyes met hers. His face seemed to me full of tenderness and

pity. He held her hand tightly. He bowed his head, a silent “yes” to the

question she asked.

“To leave it all and come with me?” she said; “away, away.”

Ascher did not speak; but she knew and I knew that his decision was not

that.

The scene was very painful. I felt that I had no right whatever to

witness it. Gorman, I am sure, would have been glad to escape. But it was

very difficult for us to get away. Neither Ascher nor his wife seemed,

conscious of our presence. We stood helpless a little apart from them.

Gorman, with that unfailing tact of his, did, or tried to do the only

thing which could have relieved the intolerable tension. He made an

effort to get us all back to the commonplace.

“You’re in a devil of an awkward situation, Ascher,” he said. “A good

deal seems to me to depend on whether you are a naturalised British

subject or not. If you have been naturalised you ought to be able to

pull through, though it won’t be pleasant even then.”

“I have not been naturalised,” said Ascher. “I never thought of it.”

“That’s a pity,” said Gorman. “Still--in the case of a man in your

position I daresay it can be managed even now. I’ll use my influence.

I know most of the members of the Cabinet pretty well. I can put it to

them that, from an English point of view, considering the tremendous

importance of your business, considering the financial collapse which

would follow--oh, we’ll be able to manage.”

“Thank you,” said Ascher, “but that purely legal aspect of the matter

does not at the moment strike me as the most important or the most

pressing. No doubt it is important and your kindness will be helpful.

But just now I cannot speak about that. There is, you see, my country and

the loyalty I owe to it. I do not seem to escape from that obligation by

a process of law. I may legalise, but do I really justify, treachery to

the claim of patriotism?”

I have always felt,--felt rather than known,--that there is a queer

strain of mysticism in Gorman. His arid common sense, his politics, his

rhetoric, his tricky money-making, are the outside, visible things about

him. Behind them, deep down, seldom seen, is a strange, emotional

love for his country. When Ascher spoke as he did about the claim of

patriotism Gorman understood. The innermost part of the man was reached.

Without hesitating for an instant, without consideration or debate,

Gorman leaped to a solution of the problem.

“Loyalty to your country comes first,” he said; “it must. Everything

else goes by the board. I did not know you felt that way about Germany;

but since you do there is no more to be said. Go back to your own

country of course. You can’t help yourself.”

I have no doubt that Gorman meant exactly what he said. If he had been

in Ascher’s position, if once the issue became quite plain to him and

the tangle of political alliances were swept away, he would have thrown

all his interests and every other kind of honour to the wind. He would

have sacrificed his business, would if necessary have parted with his

wife; he would have been loyal to the land of his birth, entirely

contemptuous of any other call or any claim.

Mrs. Ascher clung tightly to her husband’s arm. “Words,” she said,

“words, only words. You must not listen to him.”

Ascher felt for her hands again, grasped them and held them pressed

close against him. He turned from Gorman to me.

“And you,” he said, “what are you going to do?”

The question took me by surprise. I had no difficult decision to make.

My course was in clear daylight. Besides, it did not matter to anyone

what I did.

“You, yourself,” said Ascher again. “What are you going to do?”

“Oh,” I said, “I’m going back to my regiment. I suppose they’ll take me.

Anyhow I shall offer myself.”

“And fight?” said Ascher.

“Well, yes. I suppose I shall fight. This war won’t be over in a week.

I’m pretty sure to get my turn. Yes, I shall almost certainly fight.”

“Why?” said Ascher. “What will you fight for?”

It was Gorman who answered the question. He had recovered from his brief

outburst, and had become the normal Gorman again.

“The war,” he said, “is for the liberation of Europe. It is a vast

struggle, an Armageddon in which the forces of reaction, absolutism,

tyranny, a military caste are ranged against democracy. It is their last

appearance upon the stage of history. Vindicated now, the principles of

democracy----”

“If you think,” I said, “that I’m going out to fight for the principles

of democracy, you’re making a big mistake. There’s nothing in the world

I dislike more than that absurd democracy of yours.”

“Then why?” said Ascher, mildly persistent. “Why are you going to

fight?”

“Well,” I said, “I don’t want to say anything offensive about your

people, Ascher. The Germans have a lot of fine qualities, but if

they were to win this war, if they were to succeed in imposing their

civilisation and their mentality on us all, if they were to Germanise

the world, the sense of humour would perish from among men. Nobody

would any longer be able to laugh. We--we should find ourselves taking

governments and officials seriously. Just imagine! To live under a

bureaucracy and not to see that it was funny! Surely it’s worth while

fighting for the right to laugh.”

“You Irish!” said Ascher. “Even in times like this your love of

paradox----”

“Don’t say it,” I said. “If you can possibly help it don’t say that. I

admit that I brought it on myself and deserve it. I apologise. That is

not my real reason for going back to my regiment. I only gave it to you

because I don’t know what my real reason is. It’s not patriotism. I

haven’t got any country to be patriotic about. It’s not any silly belief

in liberty or democracy. I don’t know why I’m doing it. I just have to.

That’s all.”

“_Noblesse oblige_,” said Ascher. “Your honour as a gentleman.”

I shuddered. Ascher--there is no other way of putting it--is grossly

indecent. A woman has a sense of modesty about her body. It would be

considered an outrage to strip her and leave her stark naked in the

middle of the room. I cannot see why a man should not be credited with

some feeling of modesty about his soul. I detest having my last garments

plucked from me in public. Complete spiritual nudity causes me very

great embarrassment.

“You can put it that way if you like,” I said. “The plain fact is I

can’t help myself. I must go back to my regiment. I have no choice.”

“I have come to see,” said Ascher, “that I have no choice either. There

is such a thing--though perhaps Mr. Gorman will not believe me--there is

such a thing as the honour of a banker. It compels me.”

He put his arm round his wife’s waist as he spoke. Still holding her

hands in one of his, he led her from the room. Her head drooped against

his shoulder as they went out.

“I suppose that means,” said Gorman, “that he’s going to stick it out

and see the thing through. It will be infernally awkward for him. I

don’t think he realises how nasty it will be. He hasn’t considered that

side of it.”

“A man doesn’t consider that side of things,” I said, “when he’s up

against it as Ascher is.”

“Well, I’ll do my best about the naturalisation papers. That’ll be some

help.”

“It’s very hard to be sure,” I said, “but I’m inclined to think that

Ascher is right.”

“He’s utterly wrong,” said Gorman. “A man’s country ought to come

first always. You don’t understand that because you’re denationalised;

because, as you say yourself, you have no country. But it’s true,

whether you understand it or not.”

“When I think of that business of his,” I said, “the immense complexity

of it, the confidence of thousands of men in each other, all resting at

last on a faith in the integrity of one man, or rather of a firm--the

existence of such a business, world-wide, international, entirely

independent of all ties of race, nationality, language, religion, in a

certain sense wider than any of these--it’s a great, human affair,

not English nor German, not the white man’s nor the yellow man’s, not

Christian nor Buddhist nor Mohammedan, just human. Ascher owes some

kind of loyalty to a thing like that. It’s a frightfully complicated

question; but on the whole I think he is right.”

Gorman was not listening to me. He had ceased, for the time, to be

interested in Ascher’s decision. I tried to regain his attention.

“Ascher says,” I said, “that there is such a thing as the honour of a

banker, of a financier.”

That ought to have roused Gorman to a contradiction; but it did not.

“Do you think,” he said, “that we could get them to take on Tim in

any job connected with flying machines? This war will knock all his

inventions into a cocked hat. He will simply be left, and he has a real

turn for mechanics. If he got messing about with aeroplanes he might

do something big, something really valuable. But I don’t know how to go

about getting that sort of job for him. I’m not in with military people.

Look here, you’ve a lot of influence with the War Office----”

“No,” I said. “None.”

“Nonsense. You must have. A word from you---- I’ll tell you what we’ll

do. I’ll work Ascher’s naturalisation papers for him, and you get Tim

taken on by the Army Flying Corps people.”

“Perhaps,” I said, “you’d like me to get you a Staff appointment while

I’m at it.”

“Oh, no,” said Gorman. “I’m not a soldier, I’m a Member of Parliament.

My job is----”

Gorman hesitated. For a moment I thought that he was in real doubt, was

actually wondering what place he ought to take, what work he ought to

do.

“Yes,” I said. “You. Now, what is your idea for yourself?”

Gorman drew himself up to his full height, squared his shoulders and

puffed out his chest.

“My place,” he said, “is in the great council of the Empire.”

I gasped.

“Good Lord!” I said. “You don’t really think--you _can’t_ think, that

your silly old Parliament is going to matter now; that you politicians

will be allowed to go on talking, that there will be divisions in the

House, and elections and all that foolishness.”

Gorman, still heroically erect, still enormously swelled in chest,

winked at me with careful deliberation. I was immensely relieved.

“Thank God,” I said. “For a moment I thought you really meant it--all

that great-council-of-the-Empire business, you know. It would have been

a horrible disappointment to me if you had. I’ve come to have a high

regard for you, Gorman, and I really could not have borne it. But of

course I ought to have known better. You couldn’t have believed in

that stuff, simply couldn’t. Nobody with your intelligence could. But

seriously, now, I should like to know--I’m sure you won’t mind telling

me--what are you going to do? Your party, I mean. It seems to me

you’re in rather a hole. The Irish people will expect you to take the

regular line of backing the enemy.”

“The Irish people be damned,” said Gorman; “our game is to support the

Government.”

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