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THE SPLENDID
FAIRING
BY
CONSTANCE HOLME
"All night long the water is crying to me."
MILLS & BOON, LIMITED
49 RUPERT STREET
LONDON, W.1
_Published 1919_
TO
MABEL AND JIMMY
Boscombe, March 28th--April 5th, 1919
CONTENTS
SIMON AND SARAH
ELIZA
MAY
GEORDIE-AN'-JIM
PART I
SIMON AND SARAH
I
Perhaps it would never have happened but for the day. A brave, buoyant
day, with a racing wind, might have scattered the clinging obsession
just in time. A tender, laughing day might have laid a healing finger
on old sores. A clean, frosty day might have braced the naturally sane
old mind. But Fate, out of all the days in the year, took upon itself
to send just this.
The human soul, which seems so utterly out of reach, is only shut away
from every other soul. In every other respect it is like a harp hung on
a tree. Even the actual day as it comes is itself a lever in many a
fate. Deeds are done on certain days which on others would be mere
passing impulses easily dead before the night. This blind Martinmas Day
went all day long with its head among the clouds, as if it thought that
never again would there be any sun. Indeed, it was out of the lack of
every sort of sight that the evil grew; since, otherwise--"Mothers
couldn't have done those things," as Geordie would have said.
All day the earth retained that stillness which it keeps as a rule only
for the last hour before the dawn. Everywhere in the morning there was
mist,--that strange, wandering, thinking mist that seems to have nothing
to do with either earth or air; and when the slow dark drew back there
would be mist everywhere again. Between those shadowy tide-marks of the
air there was a space when the white mist shredded above the trees,
leaving the atmosphere with the look of a glass that has been breathed
upon and never clears.
The Simon Thornthwaites were going to market simply because they did not
know how to stay away. They went as naturally as the sun comes out of
the east, but with a good deal less of decision about the journey. They
looked dull and tired, too, less indeed as if they were setting out than
as if they were wearily trundling home again. Both horse and trap
looked as though they might fall to pieces after an extra jolt, and the
jumble of harness was mended here and there with string. There was
neither butter nor fowl in the market-basket behind; there was not even
a limp rabbit dangling over the wheel. But all the time they were part
of a chain which gave them a motive and impulse not their own, since
others, more sure of their errand, were taking the same road. Sometimes
a horseman on a young Shire went past with a flash of feather and a
clumping of hoofs. Livelier traps spun by at a trot and gave them a
hail. Behind and before them they had an occasional glimpse of the
procession stretching to the town.
They had climbed from the marsh, leaving it dropped like a colourless
cloth beside the sea, and already they seemed to have been a long time
on the road. They had not slept much, and, waking, had had the cheated
feeling, common to the weary, that the foregoing day had never really
ended nor the incoming morning ever quite begun. Indeed, the strange,
dreamlike day had never really seemed to come awake. Looking back and
west, they saw everything grey, with just a lightened shadow marking the
far sea, and the marsh lying down on its face like a figure flung down
to die. Houses sat low to the earth as if they crouched, and the trees
were vague, bodiless wisps, without backbone or sap. When they had
their first glimpse of Witham, they saw the town on the fell-side like a
fortress through smoked glass, and the Castle alone on its hill was of
shadow-stones poised on a poised cloud.
The Simon Thornthwaites were old now, and under-dogs in the tussle of
life, but they had once been as strong and confident as most. Sometimes
they had a vision of their former selves, and wondered how this could
ever have been that. The old man was thin and bent, the sort that shows
the flame through the lantern long before the end, but the woman was
stronger-boned, squarer, and still straight. Most of her life she had
worked like a horse, but she was still straight. Her face was mask-like
and her mouth close. Only her hands betrayed her at times,--old,
over-done hands that would not always be still. Her eyes seemed to look
straight before her at something only she could see,--staring and
staring at the image which she had set up.
They farmed Sandholes down on the marsh, a lonely bit of a spot that
looked as if it had been left there for a winter's tide to take away. It
had always had an unlucky name, and, like many unlucky people and
things, seemed to have the trick of attracting to itself those who were
equally ill-starred. Certainly, Sandholes and the Thornthwaites between
them had achieved amazing things in the way of ill-luck. No doubt both
farm and folk would have done better apart, but then they had never
succeeded in getting apart. It was just as if Fate had thrown and kept
them together in order to do each other down. Luck to luck--there
seemed nothing else to be said about the Thornthwaites' plight. They
even carried the stamp of each other plain to be seen. You had only to
look at the farm to know how its tenants looked; you had only to see the
folk to know what their home was like. Perhaps it was just that the
double weight of misfortune was too big a thing to lift. Perhaps the
canker at the heart of it all would allow nothing to prosper and grow
sweet.
They had an easy landlord, easy and rich; too easy and rich, perhaps,
for the Thornthwaites' good. That farm had money--landlord's and
tenant's--spent on it above its due; yes, and a certain amount of
borrowed brass as well. It had work put into it, thought and courage
sufficient to run a colony, and good-will enough to build a church. And
all that it did in return was to go back and back and be a deadhead and
a chapter of accidents and an everlasting disappointment and surprise.
It was a standing contradiction of the saying--"Be honest with the land,
and it will be honest with you." Everything went wrong with that farm
that could go wrong, as well as other things that couldn't by any chance
have gone anything but right. Most people would have thrown a stone at
it at an early stage, but it was part of the Thornthwaite doom that they
could not tear themselves away. Even when there seemed no longer a
reason for staying, still they stayed. The one streak of sentiment in
them that survived the dismal years held them there captive by its
silken string.
But to-day, as they jogged and jolted endlessly towards Witham, the
whole, drear, long business came to an end. No matter what they had
thought of the probable future to themselves, they had hitherto shut
their mouths obstinately and clung close. They had never even said to
each other that some day they would have to quit. They had put it off
so long that it seemed the least little push would always put it further
still. But to-day the matter suddenly settled itself for good; almost,
it seemed, between one telegraph-post and the next.
Martinmas hirings would be in full swing when they got in, but there was
no need now for Simon to enter the ring. Their hired man had seen them
through the busiest time, but they could manage without him through the
winter months. Their hired men had never stayed very long, because the
depression of the place seemed to get into their bones. They tired of
crops which seemed to make a point of 'finger and toe,' and of waiting
through dismal weeks to get in the hay. Now the Thornthwaites would
never have the worry of hay-time on their own account again,--never open
the door to catch the scent from their waiting fields,--never watch the
carts coming back on the golden evening to the barn. 'Never again'
would be written over many things after to-day, but perhaps it was there
that they saw it written first. After all this time things had somehow
stopped of themselves, and after all this time there was nothing to do
but go.
Lads and lasses went by them on cycles, or tugging bundles as they
walked; youth with bright cheeks and strong shoulders and clear eyes,
taking its health and strength to the market to be hired. Some of them
greeted the old folks as they passed, but others did not as much as know
their names. Both Simon and Sarah came of old and respectable stock,
but to the young generation skimming by on wheels these two had been as
good as buried years ago. Sarah's eyes strained themselves after the
lithe bodies of the lads, while Simon looked at the lasses with their
loads. He would have liked to have offered some of them a lift, but he
knew he would catch it from Sarah if he did. Sarah hated the younger
end of folk, she always said, and the fly-away lasses she hated most of
all. She saw them going past her into beautiful life, just as their
swifter wheels went past the trap. Always they were leaving her behind
as it seemed to her that she had always been left. It was true, of
course, that she had had her turn, but now it seemed so far away it
might never have been. All she could see in the background when she
looked behind was the cheerless desert which she had had to cover since.
They were about half-way to Witham when the moment of spoken decision
caught them unawares. All their stolid resistance and obstinate
clinging to the farm gave in that instant as easily as a pushed door.
It was as if a rock at the mouth of a cave had suddenly proved no more
than a cloud pausing before it in the act of drifting by. The end came
as nearly always after a prolonged fight,--smoothly, painlessly, with a
curious lack of interest or personal will. The burden had been so heavy
that the last straw passed almost unnoticed which brought them finally
to the ground. They had lived so close to the edge for so many years
that the step which carried them over it scarcely jarred.
They were climbing the long hill that runs from Doestone Hall, the Tudor
house standing close to the cross-roads. By turning their heads they
could see its gabled front with the larches set like lances beside its
door. The river ran swift below the beech-covered slope of the park,
reaching impatiently after the ebbed tide. The house, for all the
weight of its age, looked unsubstantial in the filmy air. Fast as the
river flowed below, from above it looked like a sheeted but still
faintly moving corpse.
The road was damp and shadowy under the overhanging trees, and padded
with the hoof-welded carpet of the autumn leaves. The fields on either
side were formless and wet, and seemed to stretch away to unknown
lengths. The hedges appeared to wander and wind across the land without
purpose and without end. Under all the hedges and trees there were
leaves, wet splashes of crushed colour on the misted grass. Simon lifted
his whip to point at the hips and haws, and said it would be a hard
winter when it came, but Sarah did not so much as turn her head.
"I'm bothered a deal wi' my eyes, Simon," she said in a quiet tone. "I
thought I'd best see doctor about 'em to-day."
He dropped his gaze from the hedges with a startled stare. "Oh, ay?
That's summat fresh, isn't it?" he enquired. "You've never said nowt
about it afore."
"Nay, what, I thought it was likely just old age. But I've gitten a
deal worse these last few week. I can't shape to do a bit o' sewing or
owt."
"Ay, well, you'd best see doctor right off," Simon said, and the horse
crawled a little further up the hill. They did not speak again for some
time, but those who live together in a great loneliness grow to speak
together in thought as much as in words. That was why his next speech
seemed to come out placidly enough. "I doubt it's about time for us to
quit."
"I doubt it is."
"I never meant to gang till I was carried," Simon said, "and then I
doubt there'd still ha' been some o' me left. But I've seen the end o'
things coming for a while back now. It seems kind o' meant, you being
bothered wi' your eyes an' all."
"Happen it is," she said again, and sighed. Then she laughed, a slight
laugh, but bitter and grim. "It nobbut wanted that on top o' the rest!"
Simon threw her an uneasy glance.
"Nay, now, you mustn't get down about it, missis," he said hastily. "It
waint do to get down. Doctor'll likely see his way to put you right.
But we've had a terble poor time wi' it all," he went on glumly,
forgetting his own advice. "Seems like as if we'd been overlooked by
summat, you and me. 'Tisn't as if we'd made such a bad start at things,
neither. We were both on us strong and willing when we was wed. It's
like as if there'd been a curse o' some sort on the danged spot!"
"There's been a curse on the lot of us right enough!" Sarah said. "Ay,
and we don't need telling where it come from, neither!"
Again he looked at her with that uncomfortable air, though he took no
notice of her bitter speech. He knew only too well that haunted corner
of her mind. That sour, irreclaimable pasture had been trodden in every
inch.
"Ay, well, we're through on t'far side on't now," he said morosely.
"Sandholes can grind the soul out o' some other poor body for the next
forty year! I never hear tell o' such a spot!" he went on crossly, with
that puzzled exasperation which he always showed when discussing the
marsh-farm. "It'd be summat to laugh at if only it didn't make you
dancin' mad! What, it's like as if even slates had gitten a spite agen
sticking to t'roof! We've had t'tide in t'house more nor once, and sure
an' certain it'd be when we'd summat new in the way o' gear. We'd a
fire an' all, you'll think on, and it took us a couple o' year getting
to rights agen. Burned out and drownded out,--why, it's right silly,
that's what it is! As for t'land, what it fair swallers up lime an'
slag and any mak' o' manure, and does as lile or nowt as it can for it
in return. Nigh every crop we've had yet was some sort of a
let-down,--that's if we'd happen luck to get it at all! Kitchen
garden's near as bad; lile or nowt'll come up in't, nobbut you set by it
and hod its hand! Ay, and the stock, now,--if there was sickness about,
sure an' certain it'd fix on us. You'd nobbut just to hear o' tell o'
foot and mouth, or anthrax, or summat o' the sort, an' it'd be showing
at Sandholes inside a week! Same wi' t'folk in t'house as wi' folk in
t'shuppon,--fever, fluenzy, diphthery,--the whole doctor's bag o'
tricks. Nay, there's summat queer about spot, and that's Bible truth!
We should ha' made up our minds to get shot of it long since, and tried
our luck somewheres else."
"We'd likely just ha' taken our luck along wi' us," Sarah said, "and
there was yon brass we'd sunk in the spot,--ay, and other folks' brass
an' all." (Simon growled "Ay, ay," to this, but in a reproachful tone,
as if he thought it might well have been left unsaid.) "We were set
enough on Sandholes when we was wed, think on; and when Geordie was
running about as a bit of a lad."
"Ay, and Jim."
"Nay, then, I want nowt about Jim!"
"Ay, well, it's a bit since now," Simon said hastily, thinking that it
seemed as long ago as when there was firm land stretching from Ireland
to the marsh.
"Over forty year."
"It's a bit since," he said again, just as he said equally of the
Creation of the world, or his own boyhood, or the last time he was at
Witham Show.
"Surely to goodness we were right enough then? We shouldn't ha' said
thank you for any other spot. Nay, and we wouldn't ha' gone later on,
neither, if we'd gitten chanst. It would never ha' done for Geordie to
come back and find the old folks quit."
"Nay, nor for Jim----" he began again thoughtlessly, and bit it off.
"Ay, well, I doubt he'll never come back now!"
"He's likely best where he is." Sarah shut her mouth with a hard snap.
Once again she stared straight in front of her over the horse's head,
staring and staring at the image which she had set up.
A motor-horn challenged them presently from behind, and Simon pulled
aside without even turning his head. He had never really grown used to
the cars and the stricter rule of the road. He belonged to the days when
the highway to Witham saw a leisurely procession of farmers'
shandrydans, peat-carts, and carriers' carts with curved hoods; with
here and there a country gentleman's pair of steppers flashing their way
through. He never took to the cars with their raucous voices and trains
of dust, their sudden gusts of passage which sent his heart into his
mouth. His slack-reined driving forced him to keep to the crown of the
road, and only an always forthcoming miracle got him out of the way in
time. He used to shrink a little when the cars drew level, and the
occupants turned their curious heads. Somehow the whole occurrence had
the effect of a definite personal attack. Sometimes he thought they
laughed at the jolting trap, the shabby old couple and the harness tied
with string. The rush of the cars seemed to bring a crescendo of
mocking voices and leave a trail of diminishing mirth. But as a matter
of fact he did not often look at them when they looked at him. There
was nothing to link their hurrying world with his.
This particular car, however, seemed an unusually long time in getting
past. The horn sounded again, and, muttering indignantly, he pulled
still further into the hedge-side. He held his breath for the usual
disturbance and rush, but they did not come. The car kept closely
behind him, but it did not pass. Round each corner, as they reached it,
he lost and then caught again the subdued purring of the engine and the
soft slurring of the wheels. When they met anything, it fell further
back, so that at times he felt sure that it must have stopped. Then he
would draw his breath, and drop into a walk, but almost at once it would
be at his back again. The note of it grew to have a stealthy, stalking
sound, as of something that waited to spring upon its prey.
The strangeness of this proceeding began suddenly to tell upon Simon's
nerves. Lack of interest had at first prevented him from turning his
head, but now it changed into sheer inability to look behind. Soon he
was in the grip of a panic fear that the car at his back might not be a
real car, after all. He began to think that he had only imagined the
horn, the gentle note of the engine and the soft sound of the wheels.
Perhaps, now that he was old, his ears were playing him false, just as
Sarah's eyes, so it seemed, were suddenly playing her false. Presently
he was sure, if he turned, he would see nothing at all, or that, instead
of nothing at all, he would see a ghost. Something that moved in
another world would be there, with spidery wheels and a body through
which he could see the fields; something that had once belonged to life
and gone out with a crash, or was only just coming into it on the
road....
It was quite true that there was something peculiar about the behaviour
of the car. From its number, it must have come from the county next
below, and it was splashed as if it had travelled far and fast. During
the last few miles, however, it had done nothing but crawl. More than
one farmer had heard it behind him and wondered why it took so long to
pass, but it had never dallied and dawdled so long before. Almost at
once it had gathered speed and slithered by, and the man inside had
turned with a friendly hail. He was a stranger, so they said
afterwards, with a puzzled air, but at the time they answered the hail
as if he were one of themselves.
But Simon, at least, had no intention of hailing anybody just then.
Indeed, he was fast losing both his sense and his self-control. He
slapped the reins on the horse's back, making urgent, uncouth sounds,
and doing his best to yank it into a sharper trot. It plunged forward
with an air of surprise, so that the old folks bumped in their seats,
knocked against each other and were jerked back. Presently it bundled
itself into an aged gallop, while Simon clicked at it through his scanty
teeth.
"Nay, now, master, what are you at!" Sarah protested, gripping the rail.
"We've no call to hurry ourselves, think on."
"It's yon danged car!" Simon growled, feeling somehow as though he were
galloping, too. He was quite sure now that a boggle was hot on his
track, and the sweat stood on his brow as he slapped and lashed. Losing
his nerve completely, he got to his feet with a shout, at the same time
waving the car to pass ahead. It obeyed instantly, drawing level in a
breath, and just for a breath slowing again as it reached his side. The
hired driver was wearing a cheerful grin, but the man leaning out of the
back of the car was perfectly grave. He was a big man, tanned, with
steady grey-blue eyes, fixed on the old couple with an earnest gaze.
Simon, however, would not have looked at him for gold, and after its
momentary hesitation, the car shot on. The horse felt its master drop
back again in his seat, and subsided, panting, into its slowest crawl.
Sarah straightened her bonnet, and tugged at her mantle upon which Simon
had collapsed. "Whatever took you to act like yon?" she asked. "There
was nowt to put you about as I could see."
"It was yon danged car!" Simon muttered again, but beginning already to
feel rather ashamed. "It give me the jumps, taking so long to get by.
What, I got thinking after a bit it wasn't a motor-car at all! More
like a hearse it seemed, when it ganged past,--a gert, black hearse wi'
nid-noddin' feathers on top...." He let out a great sigh, mopping his
face as if he would never stop. "Danged if yon new strap baint gone and
give out first thing!"
He climbed down, grumbling at the new strap which had gone back on him
so soon, and began to add a fresh ornamentation to the mended gear. The
horse stood with drooped head, emitting great breaths which shook and
stirred the trap. Simon's hands trembled as he worked at his woolly
knot, his eyes still full of that vision of sweeping plumes. Further
down the road the car had stopped again, but as soon as Simon had
finished, it moved away. It went over the hill as if it indeed had
wings,--feathery, velvet-black and soft on the misty air....
II
Another thing happened to them on the road to Witham, though it was even
more trivial than the last. The first, perhaps, was meant for
Simon,--that face coming out of the void and trying to look him in the
eyes. The other,--a voice from the void,--was a call to the woman with
the failing sight. But to most people there come these days of slight,
blind, reasonless events. Something that is not so much memory as
re-vision reaches out of the past into the present; faint foretellings
shape themselves out of some far-off hour. And then on the following
morning there is sun, and clear outlines and a blowing sky. The firm
circlet of To-Day is bound again shining and hard about the narrow
earth.
For a short time they seemed almost alone on the processional road. No
more cars passed them, and only occasionally a bicycle or a trap. Simon
felt more than ever ashamed of himself as his nerve steadied and his
excitement cooled. He had made a bonny fool of himself, he thought,
standing up and shouting as if he was cracked. Witham would snap at the
tale like a meaty bone, and folk would be waiting to twit him when he
got in. It wasn't as if he were in the mood for a joke, either, seeing
how things were; he would find it hard to take it as it was meant. And
there was one person at least to whom the tale would be Balm in Gilead
for many a happy day. He hoped fervently that it might not reach her
ears.
Sooner or later it would reach her, of course; everything that made mock
of them always did. The most that could be hoped for was that they would
not meet her to-day, backed by her usual sycophantic crowd. Sarah would
never stand any nonsense from her to-day, depressed as she was by the
trouble about her eyes. There would be a scuffle between them, as sure
as eggs were eggs, and just when he wanted things smooth in that
quarter, too. He thought of giving her a hint to be careful, and opened
his mouth, and then decided to keep off the subject, and shut it again.
Not that they ever _did_ keep off it, as he knew perfectly well. Sooner
or later it was on their lips, and certainly always after a day at
market. They had discussed it so often from every possible point that
they did not always know which it was that spoke. They had long since
forgotten from which of their minds the bitter, perpetual speeches had
first been born. Often they waked in the night to talk of the hated
thing, and slept and wakened only to talk of it again. There was
nothing good that they had which it had not poisoned at the source, and
no sorrow but was made a double sorrow thereby. There was scarcely one
of their memories that did not ache because of that constant sword-point
in its heart.
It was on market-day each week that their fount of bitterness was
continually refreshed. They kept up the old habit for more reasons than
one, but most of all because of this thing which hurt and cramped their
lives. It was like a vice of some sort which had long become an
imperative need. Each week they came home with the iron fresh sunk in
their souls, and each week they went again to look on the thing that
they both loathed.
Now they were right away from the marsh and the sands, and would not see
them until they returned, although from the moor and fell-land
surrounding Witham it was always possible to see the bay. Indeed, in
this part of the little county it was hard to get away from the
knowledge of the sea, and even further in, among the shouldering peaks,
you had only to climb awhile to find the water almost within a throw.
On days like this, however, even on the beach it was hard to tell which
was water and which mist, and when at last the tide drew silently from
beneath, those who looked at it from the hills could not tell whether it
went or stayed.
Simon, looking drearily around, thought that the whole earth had a
drowned appearance to-day. It reminded him of the marsh after it had
been swamped by a flood, and the miserable land emerged soddenly as the
sea drew back. Everything was so still, too, with the stillness of the
dead or drugged. Only the mist moved steadily and of set purpose,
though it was the purpose of a creature with shut eyes walking in its
sleep.
Out of the low vapour softly roofing the fields a gull came flying
slowly over their heads. First Simon saw the shadow of it huge upon the
mist, and then it came swooping and circling until it hung above the
road. Its long, pointed wings and drooping legs were magnified by the
distorting air, and presently he could see the colour of its bill and
the gleam of its expressionless eye. It moved in that lifeless
atmosphere as a ship that has lost the wind moves still by its gathered
momentum over a deadened sea, but when it came over the road it turned
to follow the trap, instead of making away at an angle towards the west.
Simon concluded that it must have lost its way in the mist, and was
following them as sea-birds follow a boat, but presently he was reminded
of the car in this leisurely gliding on their track. Like the car, too,
it drew level at last, but this time he was not afraid. He looked up at
it, indeed, but without much interest, watching its lone vagrancy with
apathetic eyes. It was silent at first as it circled and swooped,
looping its aimless, unnecessary curves, yet always travelling on. It
might have been a piece of the wandering mist that had taken shape, yet
the sluggish, unbuoyant atmosphere seemed scarcely to have sufficient
strength to carry its weight. So low it flew at last that it almost
brushed their faces and the horse's ears, and in fancy he felt the touch
of it damp and soft against his cheek. And then, as it dropped for the
hundredth time, it suddenly spoke.
Sarah started violently when the cry broke over her head, the harsh
wailing cry that makes all sands desolate and all moorland lone. She
lifted her face to search the curtained sky as well as she could, but
already the bird had left them and mounted higher, as if called and
turned to another road. Each cry as it came was fainter than the last,
like the speech of a passing soul ever further off. There was about it
something of the majesty and terror of all irrevocable retreats, of
those who go forth unhesitatingly when summoned, never to return. It
left behind it the same impulse to reach out passionate, yearning arms,
to cry aloud for the fainting answer that would still go on long after
the ear had ceased to take it in.
Sarah sat with her face lifted to the last, trembling and drawing short,
uneven breaths. Simon was silent until she had settled again, and
then--"It was nobbut a gull," he said, at length.
She gave a deep sigh, and folded her hands tightly before her in their
black cotton gloves.
"We've plenty on 'em, I'm sure, down on t'marsh.... I'm that used to
them, I never hear their noise."
She turned her head slightly towards him, as if in a vain attempt to see
his face.
"Ay, but it was _that like_," she answered in a suppressed tone. "Eh,
man, but it was terble like!"
He gave a grunt by way of reply, knowing well enough what she meant, but
knowing also that there was nothing to say. It was not true, of course,
that he never heard the gulls. He heard them always, and behind them
the voice that called across the years. But they had long since ceased
to talk about it or to take the voice of the present for the voice of
the past. Sometimes, indeed, when the cry came at the window on a stormy
night, they started and looked at each other, and then looked away. But
it was not often that they were deceived, as Sarah had been to-day.
Even now, he felt sure, she was straining after the voice, that would
never cease crying until it reached the tide.
They were passed again before they reached the town, but this time it
was by the cheerful rap of hoofs. It caught them as they creaked their
way up the last hill,--the smart going of a good horse that even on the
smothered highway managed to ring sharp. A whip was waved as the
dog-cart dashed by, and the driver turned back to give them a smile.
She was Fleming's motherless daughter from the 'Ship' Inn across the
sands, and Simon and Sarah had known her all her life. All her life she
had lived looking out across the bay, and half her life looking a
thousand miles beyond.
Simon threw up his hand to her with an answering smile, a sudden
sweetness changing his whole face. Even Sarah relaxed when she knew who
it was, and both of them brightened for a little while. They were fond
of May, a good girl who did not change, and who never made light of
those whom Fate was counting out. She had always had the power to
strengthen their hold on life, to blow their dying courage into a flame.
There was a serene yet pulsing strength about her that had the soothing
stimulus of a summer tide. Sarah had been jealous of her when she was
young, and had fended her off, but May had long since found her patient
way to her heart. Now she stood to both the old people as their one firm
link with the past, and as such she was more precious to them than
rubies and dearer than bright gold.
"A good lass!" Simon observed, with the smile still present on his lips.
"Ay."
"I've always thought a deal o' May."
"Ay, an' me."
"Geordie an' all," he added, with a faintly mischievous air.
Sarah did not speak.
"An' Jim----"
"Nay, then, I want nowt about Jim!"
Simon drew the lash gently along the horse's back.
"I hear Fleming's been none so well lately," he resumed, as they rumbled
into Witham. "We mun think on to ax. Happen I could slip across to t'
'Ship' after we've gitten back. Tide's about six, isn't it? I could
happen do it."
"Fleming's nobbut going the same road as t'rest on us," Sarah said.
"He'll be glad to see you, though, like enough. But it'll be dark soon,
think on, wi' all this fog."
"There's summat queer about t'weather," Simon said broodingly, knitting
his brows. "Tides is fairish big, and yet it's terble whyet. Happen
we'll have a change o' some sort afore so long."
"I've noticed it's often whyet afore a big change. Seems like as if it
knew what was coming afore it was on t'road."
"Ay, but it's different, some way.... It's more nor that. There's a
blind look about things, seems to me."
"Blind weather for blind folk!" Sarah put in with a grim laugh. Simon
grunted a protest but she took no notice. "I never thought as I should
be blind," she went on, almost as if to herself. "I've always been
terble sharp wi' my eyes; likely that's why I've managed to wear 'em
out. And I've always been terble feared o' folk as couldn't see.
There's no telling what blind weather and a blind body's brain may
breed.... Ay, well, likely I'll know a bit more about they sort o'
things now...."
III
All old and historical towns seem older and richer in meaning on some
days than they do on others. But the old and the rich days are also the
most aloof. The towns withdraw, as it were, to ponder on their past.
By some magic of their own they eliminate all the latest features, such
as a library, a garage, or a new town hall, and show you nothing but
winding alleys filled with leaning walls and mossy roofs. The eye finds
for itself with ease things which it has seen for a lifetime and yet
never seen,--carved stone dates, colour-washed houses jutting out over
worn pillars, grey, mullioned houses tucked away between the shops. The
old pigments and figures stand out strangely on the well-known signs,
and the old names of the inns make a new music in the ear. The
mother-church by the river seems bowed to the earth with the weight of
the prayers that cling to her arched roof. The flags in the chancel
seem more fragile than they did last week. The whole spirit of the town
sinks, as the eyelids of the old sink on a twilit afternoon.
Witham wore this air of detachment when Simon and Sarah came to it
to-day, as if it held itself aloof from one of the busiest spectacles of
the year. The long main street, rising and dipping, but otherwise
running as if on a terrace cut in the side of the hill, was strung from
end to end with the scattered units of the road. The ambling traffic
blocked and dislocated itself with the automatic ease of a body of folk
who are all acquainted with each other's ways. Groups clustered on the
pavements, deep in talk, and overflowed carelessly into the street.
Horses' heads came up over their shoulders and car wheels against their
knees, without disturbing either their conversation or their nerves.
Sheepdogs hung closely at their masters' heels, or slipped with a cocked
eye between the hoofs. The shops were full, but those who wandered
outside to wait could always find a friend to fill their time. Simon's
personal cronies jerked their heads at him as he passed, and the busy
matrons nodded a greeting as they hurried in front of the horse's nose.
He made as if to draw up at the house of a well-known doctor in the
town, but Sarah stopped him before he reached the kerb. "Nay, nay," she
said nervously, "it'll likely bide. I don't know as I'm that fain to
hear what he's got to say. Anyway, I'd a deal sooner get my marketing
done first."
So instead of stopping they went straight to the inn where they had put
up on market-day for the last forty years, and where Simon's father had
put up before Simon was born. Turning suddenly across the pavement
through a narrow entry, they plunged sharply downhill into a sloping
yard. The back premises of old houses shut it in on every side, lifting
their top windows for a glimpse of the near moor. The inn itself, small
and dark, with winding staircases and innumerable doors, had also this
sudden vision of a lone, high world against the sky.
An ancient ostler came to help Simon with the horse, while Sarah waited
on the sloping stones. The steep yard was full of traps, pushed under
sheds or left in the open with their shafts against the ground.
Fleming's dog-cart was there, with its neat body and light wheels; but
May was already gone on her business in the town. Simon had an
affection for a particular spot of his own, and it always put him about
to find it filled. It was taken this morning, he found, though not by
May. May would never have played him a trick like that. It was a car
that was standing smugly in Simon's place, with a doubled-up driver busy
about its wheels. Cars were always intruders in the cobbled old yard,
but it was a personal insult to find one in his 'spot.' He went and
talked to the driver about it in rising tones, and the driver stood on
his head and made biting comments between his feet. A man came to one
of the inn windows while the scene was on, and listened attentively to
the feast of reason and the flow of soul.
Sarah looked rather white and shaky by the time Simon returned, thinking
of something new to say to the very last. He left the newest and best
unsaid, however, when he saw her face.
"You'd best set down for a bit," he observed, leading her anxiously
towards the inn. "You're fretting yourself about seeing doctor, that's
what it is. You'd ha' done better to call as we come in."
But Sarah insisted that she was not troubling about the doctor in the
least. She had been right as a bobbin, she said, and then she had
suddenly come over all queer. "Happen it's standing that long while you
and morter-man sauced each other about car!" she added, with shaky
spirit. "You made a terble song about it, I'm sure. Trap'll do well
enough where it is."
"I can't abide they morter-folk!" Simon muttered, crestfallen but still
vexed. "But never mind about yon. Gang in and set you down. If I
happen across May, I'll tell her to look you up."
A door opened at the end of the dark passage, showing a warm parlour
with flowers and crimson blinds. The stout landlady came swimming
towards them, speaking as she swam, so that the vibrations of her
welcoming voice reached them first like oncoming waves. Another door
opened in the wall on the right, and a man looked out from the dim
corner behind.
"That you, Mrs. Thornthet? What?--not so well? Nay, now, it'll never
do to start market-day feeling badly, I'm sure! Come along in and rest
yourself by t'fire, and a cup of tea'll happen set you right."
Sarah, shaken and faint, and longing to sit down, yet hesitated as if
afraid to step inside. It seemed to her, as she paused, that there was
some ordeal in front of her which she could not face. Her heart beat
and her throat was dry, and though she longed to go in, she was unable
to stir. The man inside saw her against a background of misty yard, a
white face and homely figure dressed in threadbare black. Once or twice
his gaze left her to dwell on Simon, but it was always to the more
dramatic figure that it returned. There was a current in the passage,
full and sweeping like the wind that went before the still, small Voice
of God. Sarah was caught by it, urged forward, filled with it with each
breath. But even as she lifted her foot she heard a woman's voice in
the room beyond.
"We've Mrs. Will here an' all," the landlady called, as she swam away.
"She'll see to you if there's anything you want, I'm sure."
She might just as well have slammed and locked the door in the old
folks' teeth. At once they made a simultaneous movement of recoil,
stiffening themselves as if against attack. The spirit in the passage
died down, leaving it filled to the ceiling with that heavy, chattering
voice. Sarah was well away from the doorstep before she opened her
mouth.
"Nay, I don't know as I won't go right on, thank ye, Mrs. Bond. I'm
feeling a deal better already,--I am that. If I set down, I'll likely
not feel like getting up again, and I've a deal to see to in t'town."
Mrs. Bond swam back, concerned and surprised, but Sarah was already well
across the yard. Simon, when appealed to, said nothing but, "Nay, I
reckon she'll do," and seemed equally bent upon getting himself away.
They retreated hurriedly through the arch that led to the street,
leaving Mrs. Bond to say, "Well, I never, now!" to the empty air. The
man's face came back to the window as they went, looking after this
sudden retirement with a troubled frown.
The driver was still working at his car when he found his passenger
suddenly at his side. He was a queer customer, he thought to himself,
looking up at the moody expression on his handsome face. He had behaved
like a boy on their early morning ride, continually stopping the car,
and then hustling it on again. He had sung and whistled and shouted at
people on the road, laughed without any apparent reason, and dug the
unfortunate driver in the back. He was clean off it, the man thought,
grinning and vexed by turn, and wondering when and where the expedition
would end. People as lively as that at blush of dawn were simply asking
for slaps before the sun was down. He had steadied a trifle when they
reached the Witham road, but the queerest thing of all that he did was
that checking behind the traps. The driver was sure he was cracked by
the time they got to the town, and he was surer than ever when he came
out now and told him to move the car. He might have refused if his fare
had not been so big and broad, and if he had not already shown himself
generous on the road. As it was, he found himself, after a moment of
sulky surprise, helping to push the trap into the disputed place. He
still wore his injured expression when he went back to his job, but it
was wasted on his employer, who never looked his way. Instead, he was
standing and staring at Simon's crazy rig, and he smiled as he stared,
but it was not a happy smile. Presently he, too, made his way to the
arch, and disappeared into the crowded street.
The old folks had seemed in a terrible hurry to be gone, but, as a
matter of fact, they halted as soon as they got outside. "I couldn't
ha' gone in there whatever," Sarah said, in an apologetic tone, and
Simon nodded, looking anxiously up and down.
"If I could nobbut catch a sight o' May," he muttered worriedly,
searching the crowd. "May'd see to you right off, and get you a snack o'
summat an' all. I've Mr. Dent to see about chucking t'farm, and I've a
two-three other things to do as well."
But instead of May, who was nowhere to be seen, a man came shyly towards
them from a neighbouring group. He was like Simon to look at, only
younger and better clad, showing none of the other's signs of trouble
and hard toil. His voice was like Simon's, too, when Simon was at his
best, but Sarah stiffened when she heard him speak.
"You'll not ha' seen Fleming's lass?" Simon asked, devouring the street,
and Will swung about at once to cast his own glance over the press.
"She was by a minute since," he said thoughtfully. "She can't ha' gone
far...." He hunted a moment longer, and turned shyly back. "Likely
you'll give us a call at Blindbeck this afternoon?"
Sarah said nothing in reply to the invitation, but Simon gave a nod.
"I could do wi' a word wi' you, Will, if you're not throng. It's about
time we were thinking o' making a change. Sarah's bothered wi' her
eyes."
"Nay, now, that's bad news, to be sure." Will was genuinely concerned.
He glanced at Sarah kindly, though with a diffident air. "Happen a pair
o' glasses'll fix you," he said, in his gentle tones. There was a
pause, and then he jerked his head towards the arch that led to the inn.
"I left my missis behind there, talking to Mrs. Bond. If you're
thinking o' seeing t'doctor, you'd best have a woman to come along."
"I meant to ax May," Simon said hurriedly, praying for May to spring out
of the ground, and, as if by way of reply, she came out of a shop on the
far side. He plunged forward, waving and calling her name, and she
stopped, smiling, as he caught her by the arm. She was grave at once,
however, when she heard what he had to say, and her eyes rested on Sarah
with a troubled look. She gave a nod of comprehension when he pointed
towards the arch, and, without waiting to hear more, crossed over to
Sarah's side. By the time the stranger appeared the women had vanished
down the street, while the brothers were making their way to the market
square. This was the second time that the Thornthwaites had fled at the
sound of a name, and this time, as it happened, May was sent speeding
away, too.
IV
May, however, was only thinking of how she could be of use, and was very
cheery and pleasant all along the street. Already she had come across
one or two pieces of news, and laughed about them to Sarah until Sarah
was laughing, too. Once or twice they met somebody who had something
else to tell, and they stood on the pavement together and thrashed the
matter out. May's laugh sounded young and gay, and a girlish colour
came into her cheeks. The old figure beside her seemed to draw vitality
from her generous warmth, her brave air which made an adventure of every
commonplace of life. Sarah even rose to a joke or two on her own
account, and was wonderfully heartened when they got to the doctor's
house. She would not hear of having a cup of tea or even a rest. Time
enough for such things, she said with spirit, when they were through.
She had both of them, however, at the doctor's, because he would not let
her go away without. May took her into the dining-room by his orders,
and found her an easy chair beside the fire. A parlourmaid brought a
tray, and Sarah drank her tea cheerfully enough, soothed by the comfort
and quiet and the presence of some sweet-smelling flower. The doctor
had been kindness itself, and had felt a little depressed when he sent
the women away. He did not know that the last thing that was in their
minds as they sat by the fire was the terrible fact that Sarah was going
blind.
They spoke of it, indeed, but only casually, as it were, before passing
on to the greater thing at its back. Sarah's sense of courtesy forced
her at least to give the doctor a pat on the head.
"Ay, he was right kind," she said in a matter-of-fact tone, "and I will
say this for him that he seemed to know his job. I've had my doubts for
a while there was summat badly wrong. I don't know as it's news to me,
after all. As for yon operation he says might do summat for me, I doubt
I'm over old. We've no brass for notions o' that sort, neither, come to
that."
"There's hospitals," May said,--"homes and suchlike where they take you
free. Plenty of folk go to 'em, even at your age, and they'd see to you
well enough, I'm sure."
"Ay, doctor said that an' all," Sarah assented, though in an
uninterested tone. "But I'd only take badly to they sort o' spots now,"
she added, sipping her tea. "I'd be marching out agen, likely, as soon
as ever I'd set my foot inside of the door."
"They say folks settle wonderfully when they've made up their minds.
It's worth a bit of trouble, if they put you right."
"Happen," Sarah said casually, and withdrew it at once. "I don't know
as it is."
"You're down, that's what it is. You'll feel better after a bit."
"I don't know as I shall."
"You'll feel different about it in a day or two. You'd come through it
right as a bobbin. You've pluck enough for ten."
"Ay, well, I can't settle it one way or t'other," Sarah said stubbornly,
turning a deaf ear. "Things is a bit ham-sam just now," she added
evasively, fiddling with her cup, and wondering why she could not bring
herself to announce that they were leaving the farm. But as long as
they did not speak of it, it was just as if nothing had happened, as
though the words which had framed the decision had never been said. And
yet at that very moment Simon was probably telling Will and Mr. Dent,
and the news would be racing its way round Witham until it came to
Eliza's ear....
"We'll work it some way," May urged, not knowing of the big pause that
had come into Sarah's life. "You may have to get a word put in for you,
but that's easy done. I'll see the Squire and Mrs. Wilson and maybe a
few more, and it'll be all fixed up without you putting yourself about."
"You're right kind, you are that."
"It's worth it," May said again.
"Ay ... I don't know..." Sarah answered her absently, and then sat up
straight. "It'd ha' been worth it once," she broke out suddenly, as if
letting herself go. "There was a time when I'd a deal sooner ha' been
dead than blind, but it don't matter much now. There's not that much
left as I care to look at, I'm sure. It's the eyes make the heart sore
more nor half the time. But I'd ha' felt badly about it if Geordie was
coming back, and I couldn't ha' framed to see his face."
May said--"It's best not to think of such things," as cheerfully as she
could, but her own face clouded as she spoke, and suddenly she looked
old. Here was the old trouble, if the doctor had known, that was still
big enough to make the new one seem almost small. Blindness was not so
dreadful a thing to these two women, who had both of them lost the light
of their eyes so long before. Long ago they had known what it was to
rise and see no shine in the day, no blue in the sea for May who had
lost her lover, no sun in the sky for Sarah without her child.
It was twenty years now since Geordie had gone away, clearing out
over-seas as casually as if into the next field. Eliza's eldest from
Blindbeck had gone as well, as like him in face and voice as if hatched
in the same nest. They were too lively, too restless for the calm
machinery of English country life, and when the call came from over the
ocean they had vanished in a night. Canada, which has so many links
with Westmorland now, seemed farther away then than the world beyond the
grave. Death at least left you with bones in a green yard and a stone
with a graven name, but Canada made you childless, and there was no sign
of your grief beneath the church's wall. Geordie had written, indeed,
from time to time, but though the letters were light enough on the top,
there was heartache underneath. He was a failure there, they gathered,
after a while, just as they were failures here; as if the curse of the
Sandholes luck had followed even across the sea, Jim was a failure, too,
as far as they knew, though their impression of Jim's doings was always
vague. His very name on the page seemed to have the trick of dissolving
itself in invisible ink, and his own letters were never answered and
barely even read. He had been fond of his aunt, but Sarah had given him
only the scantiest tolerance in return. Sarah, indeed, would not have
cared if Jim had been burning in everlasting fire....
"We'd a letter from Geordie a month back," she said suddenly, after the
pause, "begging the loan of a pound o' two to fetch him home."
May started a little, and the colour came back to her cheek. It was a
long time now since anything fresh about Geordie had come her way. Once
she had been in the habit of going to Sandholes for news, asking for it
by indirect methods of which she was still rather ashamed. Sarah had
been jealous of her in those days and grudged her every word; and since
she had stopped being jealous there had been next to nothing to
grudge.....
"Ay, he axed for his fare, but we hadn't got it to send. I don't know
as we want him, neither, if he can't shape better than that."
May felt her heart shake as she leaned forward, clasping her hands.
"I've a bit put by I could spare," she began, with a thrill in her
voice. "It could go from you, Mrs. Thornthet,--he need never know.
You've only to say the word, and you can have it when you want."
A twinge of the ancient jealousy caught suddenly at Sarah's heart. With
difficulty she remembered May's kindness and the long bond of the years.
"I'll not spend any lass's savings on my lad!" she answered roughly, and
then softened again. "Nay, May, my girl, you mean well enough, but it
wain't do. Losh save us! Hasn't he done badly enough by you, as it
is?" she added grimly. "You should ha' been wed this many a long year,
instead o' hanging on for the likes o' him!"
"I doubt I'd never have married in any case," May said. "I don't know
as I'd ever have made up my mind to leave my dad."
"You'd ha' wed right enough but for Geordie,--dad or no dad!" Sarah
scoffed. "You're the sort as is meant to be wed, from the start. Nay,
he's spoilt your life, and no doubt about it, but there's no sense in
lossing the can because you've gone and spilt the milk. Say you sent him
the brass, and he come back without a cent, what'd be the end o' the
business then? You'd wed him, I'll be bound,--for pity, if for nowt
else. Your father'll likely leave you a nice bit, and you'd get along
on that, but who's to say how Geordie'd frame after all these years?
Happen he's lost the habit o' work by now, and it'll be a deal more
likely than not if he's taken to drink."
"Geordie wasn't that sort." May shook her head. "He'll not have taken
to drink, not he!"
"Folks change out of all knowledge,--ay, and inside as well as out."
"Not if they're made right," May said stubbornly, "and Geordie was all
right. He was a daft mafflin, I'll give you that, always playing jokes
and the like, but it was just the life in him,--nowt else. He was a
fine lad then, in spite of it all, and I don't mind swearing that he's a
fine man now."
"Ay," Sarah said slowly, "fine enough, to be sure! A fine lad to leave
his folks for t'far side o' the world wi' never a word! A fine man as
can't look to himself at forty, let alone give his father and mother a
bit o' help! ... Nay, my lass, don't you talk to me!" she finished
brusquely. "We've thought a deal o' Geordie, me and Simon and you, but
I reckon he's nowt to crack on, all the same!"
"You'd think different when he was back," May pleaded,--"I'm sure you
would. And you needn't fret about me if that's all there is in the
road. I made up my mind long since as I shouldn't wed. But I'd be
rarely glad, all the same, to have had a hand in fetching him home."
"You're real good, as I said, but it's over late." She paused a moment
and then went on again. "Letter went a couple o' week ago."
The tears came into May's eyes.
"You don't mean as you said him no? Eh, Mrs. Thornthet, but I'm sorry
to hear that!"
"Yon sort o' thing's best answered right off."
For a moment or two May put her hand to her face. "Eh, but what a
pity!" she murmured, after a while. "What does it matter whose brass
fetches him home?"
"It matters to me."
"It matters a deal more that you're breaking your heart----"
"Nay, then, I'm not! ... Ay, well, then, what if I be?"
"Let me get the brass right off!" May said, in a coaxing tone. "Let
me,--do now! Send it to him to-day."
"Nay."
"You've got it into your head he's different, but I'll swear you're
wrong! Different in looks, maybe, but he'll be none the worse for that.
He always framed to be a fine figure of a man when he was set. You'd be
as throng wi' him as a clockie hen wi' a pot egg."
Sarah snorted scorn, but her face softened a little.
"He's forty, but I'll be bound he hasn't changed. I'll be bound he's
nobbut the same merry lad inside."
"Happen none the better for that."
"Geordie isn't the sort as grows old--Geordie an' Jim----"
"Nay, then, I want nowt about Jim!" Sarah flared, and the other
laughed.
"It's hard to think of 'em apart even now,--they were that like. Why,
I've mixed 'em myself, over and over again, and fine fun it was for
them, to be sure!"
"_I_ never mixed 'em!" Sarah snapped, with a blind glare. "I never see
a scrap o' likeness myself."
"Why, the whole countryside couldn't tell 'em apart,--school-folk an'
all! 'Twasn't only their faces was like; 'twas their voices, too."
"Hold your whisht!"
"You'll remember yon calls they had, Geordie an' Jim----"
"Whisht, I tell ye!" There was something scared as well as angry in
Sarah's tone, and May was hushed into silence in spite of herself. "Jim
was sweet on you, too," the old woman went on surlily, after a pause.
"If there wasn't that much to choose between 'em, why didn't you choose
him?"
"There was all the world to choose between them, when it come to it,"
May said smiling, but with tears in her voice. "Once Geordie'd kissed
me, I never mixed 'em up again!"
The rough colour came suddenly into Sarah's face. She tried to turn it
away, with the pathetic helplessness of the blind who cannot tell what
others may be reading there in spite of their will. May, however, was
looking away from her into the past.
"Not but what Jim was a rare good sort," she was saying, with the
tenderness of a woman towards a lover who once might have been and just
was not. "Eh, and how fond he was of you, Mrs. Thornthet!" she added,
turning again. "No lad could ha' thought more of his own mother than he
did of you."
"I wanted nowt wi' his fondness," Sarah said in a hard tone. "And I
want no mewling about him now, as I said afore!"
"Ay, you told him off terrible, poor lad, but he was that set on you he
didn't mind. He used to fetch you fairings and suchlike, didn't
he,--same as Geordie did? It was never his mother he fetched 'em for;
'twas always you."
"Eliza never had no need o' fairings, wi' all she had at her back!"
Sarah stood up sharply and began to grope about for her mantle and
gloves. "You're bringing things back just to coax me about yon brass!"
she added, as May came forward to help.... "Your father's none so well,
I'm sorry to hear?"
"He hasn't been himself for a while now, and he's getting worse. I
doubt he's going down the hill sharp-like, poor old chap!"
"Ay, well, our time comes to us all, and we wouldn't wish for owt else.
But it'll be rare an' lonely for you wi'out him, all the same."
"I'm used to being alone, though I can't say it's very grand.... You'll
have to let me come and see to you and Mr. Thornthet," she added, with a
cheerful laugh.
"We're over old for the likes o' you. You want friends of your own age
to keep you lively-like."
"I'm not so young myself, if it comes to that," May said. "And I don't
know as I ever had a real friend, barring Geordie-an'-Jim."
"That's enough o' the two on 'em!" Sarah snarled, as they went out.
"Geordie's been a bonny friend to you, anyway,--he has that! We'd best
be getting about our business. Talking o' things as is dead and gone
won't make us any more lish."
"Simon'll be bothered about my eyes," she said presently, as they turned
towards the shops. "It's a deal worse having to tell him than to put up
wi' it myself."
"Happen you'd like me to tell him for you?" May suggested, but Sarah
shook her head.
"Nay, you'd do it right enough, I'm sure," she said kindly, "but it'd
come best from me. You've enough o' your own to fash you, wi'out that.
Married folk mun do their own telling over things like yon...."
V
But though Sarah had held to the telling of Simon, she seemed in no
hurry to break the dismal news. All morning she clung to May, as if
they drew together as a matter of course, and May was glad to have her,
not only because she was old and needed help, but because of the tie
between them which had never been loosed. It was true that they had seen
little of each other of late years, but it had only needed the talk in
the doctor's house to draw them together again. The dwelling upon a
lost hope may sometimes make the impossible possible and the dead live,
if only for a space. The two of them had recreated Geordie in the quiet
room, so that his mother had seen him plain before her darkened eyes,
and his sweetheart had felt his kisses on her lips.
So all morning they stayed together, even though they did not speak of
him again, because while they were together the glamour persisted and
the dream remained. Just as one name had robbed them that day, though
they did not know it, so another name sweetened everything for them, and
for a little space made them rich. Things might so easily have been as
they wished that it seemed as if even now just a little determination
might twist them into shape. In the ordinary course of events, and with
ever such an ordinary share of luck, Geordie and May should have been
married long ago, with a home of their own to offer the old folk at the
last. Even now, so it seemed, Geordie might be somewhere in the street,
in the midst of that crowd of healthy youth, sturdy manhood and wiry
age. Instinctively, as they came out of each shop, they looked to find
him the centre of some chaffing group, the laughing, handsome, witty
centre, as he had always been. He would break away when he saw them to
ask his old mother how she did, and suddenly the greatest and best of
all happenings would have happened, and they would have heard the
miracle of his speech....
This was the spell they wove for each other, making the day brighter and
the world kinder, and helping them to laugh at things which otherwise
would have been too light to stir their hearts. Sarah's shopping was
dull and soon finished, but May had an exciting list, and seemed
constantly in need of help. The old woman actually enjoyed herself as
she peered at stockings and linen buttons, and nipped longcloth and
serge between her finger and thumb. It might have been wedding-gear
they were after, she told May, with a grim chuckle, and May laughed and
sighed, thinking of a bottom drawer at home that had been locked for
many years. The salesman laughed, too, and asked Sarah which of them it
was that was thinking of getting wed, and Sarah, with all her arduous
married life behind her, was yet as pleased as a young girl. She was a
shrewd marketer, even now, in spite of her sight, especially in the
food-shops, where one nose can often be quite as useful as a pair of
eyes; while, as for pots and pans, she knew them as a hen knows her
chickens and a shepherd his sheep.
They had many a chat over a counter, making and receiving enquiries
about friends, opening their mouths at any lively piece of news, and
pursing them sympathetically when there was trouble around the door. In
the low shops with the new windows in their old walls and new slates on
their bowed roofs, little, low doorways stooping for their heads,
little, worn doorsteps watching for their feet, they heard many a hint
of the romance of evolving or changing trade, many a precious historic
touch that would never find its way into print. You cannot put your ear
to the past anywhere but in the old places where men are born to their
trades, where they know the customer's pedigree as the customer knows
theirs, and where everybody has time for the human as well as the
commercial exchange. Only there can you learn in the space of an hour
wonderful things about drapery and furniture and hardware and tea, and
feel the glamour of the whole budding and fruit-bearing earth come into
the florist's, and the atmosphere of old posting-inns into the pot-shop
with the clink of glass. And no man who is born to his trade is ever a
cobbler who may not look beyond his last. The potman will tell you
where to order a stylish suit of clothes, and the florist instruct you
how to smoke a ham. And every one of them will tell you, with or
without their knowing it, what they have learned of human nature and the
hope of eternity in their quiet little town, and with what eyes they
have looked abroad upon the world.
All that morning the tides of life swept against Sarah and her friend as
they went about the streets,--tides of humanity and sympathy, memory and
custom,--all the currents that move in the air and the blood and the
brain when a hand is shaken or a friendly voice is heard. It was life
at its fullest as it is known to the northern farmer and his kind, the
public recognition in a given place of the great and intimate system of
which he is a part. The dumb beasts had their place in it,
too,--perhaps the chief place,--and though only the wise dogs and the
cobby, half-clipped horses were there in the flesh, the all-absorbing
stock was never absent from the mind. Into every conversation before so
long some grand bull-calf or pedigree shearling was sure to push its
way. Moving among the warm human tides was like moving in a flood,
while, overhead, low almost as the roofs, the mist drifted and the sky
drooped. Seven miles away, the sands lay bare as a hand, as if never in
any aeon of time would the sea return.
Sarah and May had their dinner together in a cafe overlooking one of the
steep streets, and, choosing a table by one of the windows, so that they
could look out, spread their parcels about them, and discussed their
bargains and their mistakes. They were still happy, as happiness went
for them in those days, because of the miracle that seemed always
possible down in the street. Folks in plenty were coming and going on
the narrow stair, and as each head rose above the floor of the room in
which they sat, they felt a thrill of anticipation that was yet too
slight to bring disappointment in its train. May, perhaps, was slightly
puzzled by the persistence of the feeling in the air, but Sarah was well
used, like all who are old, to the strange reality of these glamour-days
that are fashioned from the past.
They had their heads together over a new-fangled floor-cloth when the
ubiquitous stranger came quietly up the stairs; and they were so
absorbed, and Sarah was so exuberant in her wrath, that he had time to
look about him before the final word was said. There was no room for
him, he saw, except at the table where they sat, and presently, though
rather uncertainly, he advanced a foot. If they had looked at him, he
would have gone forward at once, but when they lifted their eyes it was
only to turn them towards the window and the street. The little action
seemed somehow to shut him out, and, drawing back almost guiltily, he
found a seat for himself in the adjoining room. May looked round as he
did so, just as though somebody had called, and stared intently at the
place where he had been.
He could still see them, however, from where he sat, and he noticed many
things about them as he watched. He noticed, for instance, how strong
and capable May looked, like a woman who had long since taken her life
in her hands and ruled it well. He noticed her good clothes and Sarah's
shabby ones, and that the multitudinous parcels were most of them May's.
He noticed the shake which Time, in spite of her, had put into Sarah's
hands, and was puzzled by the groping manner in which she used her fork.
He noticed that the two of them ate little and that without much heart,
and that always they turned their faces towards the street. And finally
he noticed how Sarah, in the midst of her talk, went suddenly rigid as a
woman came into the room.
She was a big woman over sixty years of age, with smooth, high-coloured
cheeks and thick dark hair that was still a long way from turning white.
Her face said plainly that she had had a full, comfortable, healthy
life, with plenty to interest her and little to fret. Her brown eyes,
which had been beautiful in youth, had kept their expression of
self-satisfaction wholly undisturbed. She looked, indeed, what she was,
the mother of a big family, the mistress of a good-class farm, and the
wife of a man whose banking-account had long since ceased to keep him
awake at nights. She wore a black hat and a black plush coat, and round
her shoulders was a big fur wrap. In a kid-gloved hand she carried a
muff and a silver-mounted bag, and May, looking down, saw patent-toed
boots showing beneath her neat, black skirt. Sarah was sure of them,
too, though she could not see them. It was not with her physical eye
that she looked at Eliza of Blindbeck, Simon's brother's wife.
She, too, had paused in the doorway, looking for a place, but as soon as
she saw the two in the window, she advanced at once. As she passed she
spoke to several people in a noisy, hearty voice, that seemed to have a
blustering quality somewhere at its back. By the time she had reached
Sarah's table and come to a stop, the man in the other room noticed that
Sarah had suddenly grown small....
"Eh, now, if I haven't been seeking you all over the shop!" Eliza
exclaimed. "Will had it you wanted me most particular, so I've been
looking out. I couldn't find you, though, whatever I did. I never see
folks so set on keeping out of the road!"
Sarah still continued to look as though she had shrunk. Even her voice
seemed to have grown less. It sounded far off and rather prim.
"Nay, I don't know as I did, thank ye," was all she said. "Will mun ha'
gitten hold o' the wrong end o' the stick."
Eliza looked at her with the little smile which the sight of Sarah
always brought to her lips. She pulled a chair towards her and collapsed
into it without waiting to be asked.
"Ay, well, that's queer, to be sure! Will's no more muddled than most
on market-day, as a rule. I made sure you were wanting me right off the
reel, from what he said."
May explained nervously that she had come to Sarah's assistance instead.
Eliza always made her nervous, because she never seemed to know she was
in the room. "There wasn't that much to do," she finished hurriedly,
stumbling over her words. "It's a pity Mr. Thornthwaite set you looking
her up."
"Nay, I don't know.... I'd have been glad to do anything, I'm sure!"
Eliza spoke in her heartiest tones, so that everybody could hear.
"Nobody can say I'm one as can't be bothered to lend a hand. I reckon
me and Will have done as much in that line as most." She looked at
Sarah again, the smile growing on her lips.... "You'll not mind me
sitting down with you, I suppose?"
"We're through, thank ye. We're just off." Sarah pushed her plate from
her, and began to fumble shakily for the thread gloves. May looked
across at her with a troubled glance, and gathered the parcels together,
ready to move. Eliza, however, had no intention of allowing them to
escape so soon.
"You're surely not thinking o' stirring yet!" she exclaimed, in a hurt
tone. "What, we've barely as much as passed the time o' day! You'll not
grudge me a word or two after all my trouble, and me that throng wi'
shopping I didn't know where to turn. Will was as full of nods and
becks as a row o' poppies in a wind, and I've been fair aching ever
since to know what he could be at."
She turned in her seat to call a waitress, and ordered a substantial
meal; after which, throwing back her fur, she leaned her arms on the
table, and resumed her smile. Everybody in the place knew what Eliza
Thornthwaite was having for her dinner, and here and there they were
saying to each other, "They do themselves rarely at Blindbeck....
There's a deal o' brass to Blindbeck ... ay, Blindbeck's plenty o'
brass!" Eliza knew what they were saying, of course, and felt
unctuously pleased; but May's heart swelled as she looked at Sarah's
scanty, unfinished repast and the thin thread gloves that she was
smoothing over her wrists. Eliza had taken off her own gloves by now,
showing thick fingers and short nails. They were trapped in the alcove
as long as she sat at the table-end, because of her big, overflowing
figure which shut the two of them in. They would have to push their way
past her if they wanted to get out, and Sarah would never as much as
touch her with the end of a ten-foot pole.
"I'd ha' done what I could, I'm sure," Eliza was busy telling them
again. "I'd never say no to folks as can't help themselves. But
there,--I needn't ha' bothered about it,--you're as right as rain. Will
had it you were off to t'doctor's, but I made sure he was wrong. I
haven't seen you looking so well for a month o' Sundays, and that's the
truth."
She raised herself as the waitress set a steaming plate in front of her,
and stared at it critically.
"Eh, well, you've not that much to bother you, have you?" she added
kindly, setting to work,--"nobbut Simon to see to, and just that bit of
a spot? 'Tisn't the same for you as it is for me, with that great place
of our'n on my hands, and the house fair crowded out."
Sarah did not speak, but she saw, as she was intended to see, a picture
of the good farm where Mrs. Will reigned supreme, of her sons and
daughters and their friends, and her hired lasses and lads; and after
that another picture of her own empty home, where no youthful steps
sounded along the floors, and no vibrant young voices rang against the
roof. The pictures hurt her, as they were meant to do, as well as the
cheerful comment upon her looks. Eliza always assumed that you were as
strong as a horse, even if you lay on your death-bed at her feet.
"I never heard tell you were badly," she persisted, fixing her eyes on
Sarah's face, which looked like parchment against the misty pane, "and
surely to goodness I'd be more like to know than Will?"
"I'll do, thank ye. I'm right enough," Sarah said stiffly, forced into
speech at last; and Eliza laughed victoriously and returned to her food
with zest.
"You've always been rarely strong, as far as I can think on. I never
heard tell as you ailed anything in your life. You were always a rare
hand wi' a knife and fork an' all!" she finished, laughing again.
"Will's a bonny fool to go scaring folk wi' such-like tales."
"Yes, but we _did_ go to the doctor's!" May broke out warmly, goaded
into speech. "Mrs. Thornthwaite's bothered with her eyes."
Mrs. Will lifted her own sharply for a fresh stare at the defenceless
face.
"Eh, now, you don't say so!" she exclaimed cheerfully, with a quite
uninterested air. "It's bad hearing, is that, but they look right
enough, I'm sure."
"They're bad, all the same!" May answered indignantly, on the verge of
tears. "Doctor says she ought to have an operation right off."
There was a little pause after the dread word operation, poignant in
every class, but especially so in this. Even Mrs. Will was shocked
momentarily into quiet. Her fork stayed arrested in mid-air, half-way
to her mouth.
"Well, I never!" she observed at last, withdrawing her startled gaze.
"Eh, now, I never did!" She set to work again at her food like a
machine that has been stopped for a second by an outside hand. "I don't
hold much by operations myself," she went on presently, growing fluent
again. "I doubt they're never no use. They're luxuries for rich folk,
anyway, seems to me, same as servants and motor-cars and the like. But
you'll likely be asking somebody for a hospital ticket, so as you
needn't pay?"
"Nay, I think not," Sarah said calmly, though her hands gripped each
other in her threadbare lap.
"You'll never go wasting your own brass on a job like yon!"
"Nay, nor that, neither."
"You'll borrow it, likely?" A slyness came into her voice. She peered
at Sarah over her cup.
"Nay."
"Ay, well, no matter where it come from, it would nobbut be money thrown
away. You're an old body now, Sarah, and folk don't mend that much when
they get to your age. It's real lucky you've only that small spot, as I
said, and neither chick nor child to fret after you when you've gone."
Sarah stood up suddenly when she said that, trying to focus her eyes on
Eliza's face. She stood very stiff and straight, as if she were all of
one piece from feet to crown. A sudden notion came to May that, if she
had thrown off the shabby black cloak, a column of fierce flame would
have shot up towards the roof....
"I'll be saying good day, Eliza," was all she said, however, and moved,
but stopped because the other's skirts still lay before her feet. Mrs.
Will leaned back in her chair, looking up at her, and smiled.
"Nay, now, Sarah, what's the sense o' getting mad? I'm real sorry about
your eyes, but you'd ha' done better to tell me right off. As for
saying good day and such-like so mighty grand, you know as well as me
we're looking to see you at Blindbeck this afternoon." She paused a
moment, and then her voice rose on an insolent note. "Ay, and you know
well enough what you're coming for an' all!"
"Nay, then, I don't." Sarah seemed actually to grow in height. She
looked down at her quietly. "Nay, I don't."
"That's a lie, if I say it to all Witham!" Eliza cried in furious tones.
Battle was really joined now, and her voice, strident and loud, carried
into and disturbed even the street. Those near turned about openly to
listen, or listened eagerly without turning. The man in the adjoining
room got up and came to the door. May stood poised for flight, looking
from one to the other of the warriors with dismay.
"You're leaving Sandholes, aren't you?" Eliza asked, exactly as if she
were addressing somebody over the road,--"leaving because you're broke!
You're coming to Blindbeck to beg of Blindbeck, just as you've begged of
us before. Simon told Will, if you want to know, and Will told me, and
every farmer at market'll be taking it home by now...."
There was a murmur of discomfort and disapproval all over the room, and
then somebody in a corner whispered something and laughed. May roused
herself and pushed her way past Eliza with burning cheeks; but Sarah
stood perfectly still, looking down at the blurred presence sneering
from her chair.
"Ay, we're quitting right enough," she answered her in a passionless
voice. "We're finished, Simon and me, and there's nowt for it but to
give up. But I've gitten one thing to be thankful for, when
everything's said and done ... I'm that bad wi' my eyes I can't rightly
see your face...."
The person who had laughed before laughed again, and faint titters broke
out on every side. Sarah, however, did not seem to hear. She lifted a
thread-gloved hand and pointed at Eliza's skirts. "Happen you'll shift
yon gown o' yours, Eliza Thornthet?" she added, coolly. "I've a deal o'
dirt on my shoes as I reckon you won't want."
The laughter Was unrestrained now, and Eliza flushed angrily as she
dragged her skirts reluctantly out of the way. From the corner of a
raging eye she observed the elaborate care with which Sarah went by.
"We'll finish our bit of a crack at Blindbeck!" she called after her
with a coarse laugh; but Sarah and May were already on the stairs. The
stranger put out his hand to them as they brushed past, but in their
anger and concentration they did not notice that he was there. Even if
he had spoken to them they would not have heard him, for through the
cloud of hate which Eliza had cast about them the voice of the Trump
itself would never have found a way. He stood aside, therefore, and let
them go, but presently, as if unable to help himself, he followed them
into the street. They were soon cheerful again, he noticed, walking at
their heels, as the charm which they had for each other reasserted its
power. Once, indeed, as they looked in at a window, they even laughed,
and he frowned sharply and felt aggrieved. When they laughed again he
turned on his heel with an angry movement, and flung away down the
nearest street. He could not know that it was only in their memories
they ever really laughed or smiled....
VI
Simon had been right in thinking that the tale of the car would be all
over the town by the time he arrived. He came across it, indeed, almost
the moment that he got in. The driver of the car had told a farmer or
two in the inn-yard, and the farmer or two had chuckled with glee and
gone out to spread it among the rest. Of course, they took good care
that it lost nothing in the telling, and, moreover, the driver had given
it a good shove-off at the start. He told them that Simon had shaken
his fist and wept aloud, and that Sarah had fainted away and couldn't be
brought round. A later account had it that the chase had lasted fast
and furious for miles, ending with an accident in Witham streets. Simon
encountered the tale in many lengths and shapes, and it was hard to say
whether the flippant or sympathetic folk annoyed him most. He always
started out by refusing to discuss the matter at all, and then wouldn't
stop talking about it once he had begun.
"Ay, well, ye see, I thought it was a hearse," he always growled, when
forced to admit that part of the tale, at least, was true. "Mebbe I was
half asleep, or thinking o' summat else; or likely I'm just daft, like
other folk not so far." Here he usually threw a glance at the enquiring
friend, who gave a loud guffaw and shifted from foot to foot. "Ay, a
hearse,--yon's what I thought it was, wi' nid-noddin' plumes, and happen
a corp in a coffin fleein' along inside. You've no call to make such a
stir about it as I can see," he wound up helplessly, with a threatening
scowl. "Boggles isn't out o' date yet by a parlish long while, and
there's many a body still wick as can mind seeing Jamie Lowther's
headless Coach and Four!"
He forgot to feel annoyed, however, when he found that his story had
made him in some sort the hero of the day. He could see folks talking
about him and pointing him out as he went along, and men came up smiling
and wanting a chat who as a rule had no more for him than a casual nod.
Often, indeed, he had only a dreary time, bemoaning his fate with one or
two cronies almost as luckless as himself; listening, perhaps, on the
edge of an interested group, or wandering into some bar for a sup of ale
and a pipe. But to-day he was as busy as an old wife putting the story
to rights, and when he had stopped being angry for having behaved like a
fool, he began to feel rather proud of himself for having done something
rather fine. He ended, indeed, by laughing as heartily as the rest, and
allowed several points to pass which had nothing whatever to do with the
truth. He felt more important than he had done for years, and forgot
for a while the press of his troubles and the fear about Sarah's eyes.
Will told himself that he hadn't seen him so cheerful for long, and
wondered whether things were really as bad at the farm as his brother
had made out.
They made a curious couple as they went about, because in face and
figure they were so alike, and yet the stamp of their different
circumstances was so plain. They had the same thin face and dreamy
eyes, lean figure and fine bones, but whereas one carried his age well
and his head high, the other had long since bowed himself to the weight
of the years. Will wore a light overcoat of a modern make, brown boots
and a fashionable soft hat; but Simon's ancient suit was of some rough,
hard stuff that had never paid any attention to his frame. Will had a
white collar and neat tie; but Simon had a faded neckcloth with
colourless spots, and he wore dubbined boots that had clogged soles, and
a wideawake that had once been black but now was green. Eliza often
observed in her kindly way that Simon looked old enough to be Will's
father, but indeed it was in the periods to which they seemed to belong
that the difference was most marked. Will had been pushed ahead by
prosperity and a striving brood; while Simon had gone steadily down the
hill where the years redouble the moment you start to run.
They had encountered the agent early on, and fixed an appointment for
twelve o'clock; and afterwards they spent the morning together until
noon struck from the Town Hall. Will had grown rather tired of hearing
the hearse story by then, and felt slightly relieved when the time came
for them to part. "Nay, I'll not come in," he demurred, as Simon urged
him at the door of the 'Rising Sun.' "You'll manage a deal better by
yourself. You needn't fear, though, but what I'll see you through.
We'll settle summat or other at Blindbeck this afternoon."
But at the very moment he turned away he changed his mind again and
turned back. "I can't rightly make out about yon car," he asked, almost
as if against his will. "What, in the name o' fortune, made you behave
like yon?"
Simon muttered gloomily that he didn't know, and shuffled his feet
uncomfortably on the step. Now that the shadow of the coming interview
was upon him, he was not so perfectly sure as he had been that the story
was a joke. He remembered his terror when the car was at his back, his
frantic certainty that there were strange things in the air. He took it
amiss, too, both as a personal insult and from superstition, that the
Town Hall chimes should be playing "There is no luck about the house"
just as he stepped inside.
"It was nobbut a hired car, wasn't it," Will went on,--"wi' two chaps in
it, they said, as come from Liverpool way?"
"That's what they've tellt me since," Simon agreed, "though I never see
it plain.... Seems as if it might be a warning or summat," he added,
with a shamefaced air.
"Warning o' what?" Will threw at him with a startled glance. "Nay, now!
Whatever for?"
"Death, happen," Simon said feebly,--"nay, it's never that! I'm wrong
in my head, I doubt," he added, trying to laugh; "but there's queerish
things, all the same. There's some see coffins at the foot o' their
beds, and you'll think on when last Squire's missis died sudden-like yon
hard winter, she had it she could smell t'wreaths in t'house every day
for a month before."
"Ay, well, you'd best put it out of your head as sharp as you can," Will
soothed him, moving away. "You're bothering overmuch about the farm,
that's what it is. A nip o' frost in the air'll likely set you right.
Weather's enough to make anybody dowly, it's that soft."
"Ay, it's soft," Simon agreed, lifting his eyes to look at the sky, and
wondering suddenly how long it had taken the gull to get itself out to
sea. His brother nodded and went away, and he drifted unwillingly into
the inn. The chimes had finished their ill-omened song, but the echo of
it still seemed to linger on the air. They told him inside that Mr.
Dent was engaged, so he went into the bar to wait, seating himself where
he could see the stairs. The landlord tried to coax him to talk, but he
was too melancholy to respond, and could only sit waiting for the door
to open and summon him overhead. He was able to think, now that he was
away from the crowd and the chaff about the hearse, but no amount of
thinking could find him a way out. He had already given the agent a hint
of his business, and would only have to confirm it when he got upstairs,
but it seemed to him at the moment as if the final words would never be
said. After a while, indeed, he began to think that he would sneak away
quietly and let the appointment go. He would say no more about the
notice to Mr. Dent, and things might take their way for another year.
It was just possible, with the promised help from Will, that they might
manage to scrape along for another year....
He left it there at last and got to his feet, but even as he did so he
remembered Sarah's eyes. He wondered what the doctor had said and wished
he knew, because, of course, there would be no question of staying if
the report were bad. He was still standing, hesitating, and wondering
what he should do, when the door of the Stewards' Room opened above, and
a man came out.
It was, as somehow might have been expected, the stranger of the car,
otherwise Simon's now celebrated 'hearse.' Simon, however, had not
looked at him then, and he barely glanced at him now. It was a blind
day, as Sarah had said, and all through the Thornthwaites seemed
determined to be as blind as the day. The agent followed him out,
looking cheerful and amused. "I wish you luck all round!" Simon heard
him say, as he shook the stranger's hand, and thought morosely that it
was easy and cheap to wish folks luck. "This should be the finest day
of your life," he added more gravely, looking over the rail, and the man
going down looked up and said "That's so!" in a fervent tone. The old
farmer waiting in the bar felt a spasm of envy and bitterness at the
quietly triumphant words. "The finest day of your life,"--that was for
the man going down. "The heaviest day of your life,"--that was for the
man going up. With a touch of dreary humour he thought to himself that
it was really he who was going down, if it came to that....
With a feeling of something like shame he kept himself out of sight
until the stranger had disappeared, and then experienced a slight shock
when Dent called to him in the same cheery tone. Almost without knowing
it he had looked for the voice to change, and its geniality jarred on
his dismal mood. Somehow it seemed to put him about at the start, and
when Dent laid a hand on his shoulder, saying--"Well, Simon!" with a
smile, it was all he could do not to give him a surly snarl by way of
reply. They went into the old-fashioned room, which smelt of horsehair
and wool mats, and Simon seated himself miserably on the extreme edge of
a chair. Dent went to the window and lifted a finger to somebody in the
street, and then seated himself at the table, and said "Well, Simon!"
and smiled again. He was a strongly built man, with a pleasant face,
which seemed rather more pleasant than need be to his visitor's
jaundiced eye.
He looked away from it, however, staring at the floor, and after the
first conventional remarks began his tale of woe, that slow trickle of
disaster which always gathered itself into terrible spate. "You'll know
what I'm here for, sir," he concluded, at the end of his first breath,
twisting his hat like a tea-tray in his restless hands. "Things has got
that bad wi' us I doubt we can't go on, and so we've made up our minds
we'd best clear out next year."
Dent nodded kindly in answer, but with a rather abstracted air. He had
listened patiently enough to the slow tale, but Simon had a feeling that
his tragic recital was not receiving the sympathy it deserved. He began
a fresh relation of the ills which had befallen him at the farm,
intending a grand climax to be capped by Sarah's eyes; but there were so
many dead troubles to dig out of their graves as he went along, that the
last and most vital dropped from the reckoning, after all.
"Ay, well, you've likely heard all this before," he finished lamely in
the middle of a speech, conscious that he had missed his point, though
without being able to say how. "We've had a bad year this year an' all,
and I can't see as it's any use holding on. Me and my missis fixed it
up as we come in, so if you'll take my notice, sir, we'll go next
spring."
"Your wife's in town, is she?" Dent asked. For some reason he looked
again at the window from which he had waved. "How does she take the
thought of leaving the farm?"
"Well, sir, we'll both feel it, after all these years, but I don't know
as it's any use calling out. I put it to her as we'd better quit, and
she agreed to it right off."
"I wish you'd brought her along," the agent said, still speaking in a
detached tone. There were some notes on the table within reach of his
hand, and he glanced thoughtfully at them as he spoke.
Simon stiffened a little, and looked surprised. "I'm speaking for both
on us, sir, as I said before."
"Of course, Simon," Dent said, rousing himself. "I know that. But I'd
have liked a word with her, all the same." His glance went back to the
notes, and he smiled as if at his own thoughts.... "And so you've
really made up your minds that you'd better go?"
"Haven't I been saying so, sir, all along?" Simon was really injured
now, and his wounded dignity showed in his tone. Mr. Dent was taking
the whole thing far too easily, he thought. First of all, he did not
seem to be listening as much as he might, and then, when the notice was
offered, he actually smiled! Tenants of forty years' standing do not
look to have their departure speeded with smiles. Simon thought it
heartless, to say the least, and only to be excused because Mr. Dent did
not know what they had to face. They had not been very satisfactory
tenants, of course,--even Simon admitted that,--and it was more than
likely that the agent was rather relieved. At least he was saved the
unpleasant task of turning them out, a duty which, as Simon knew, had
seemed imminent more than once. But they were respectable folk of good
stock, and they were not entirely to blame because they were failures,
too. Gravity was their due, anyhow, if not sympathy, but Mr. Dent, on
this solemn occasion, seemed to be failing them in both.
"Of course you know you're late with your notice?" he observed
presently, looking up. "You ought to have made up your minds a couple of
months ago."
"Ay, we're late, I know, but we weren't thinking of owt o' the sort
then. I'm sorry if we've put you about, but you'll not have that much
trouble in getting rid of the farm. It's nobbut a small spot, you'll
think on. It'll let right off the reel."
"It's been going back a long while, though," Dent said thoughtfully, and
then felt penitent as the old man flushed. Just for the moment he had
forgotten that Simon was in the room.
"Of course I know you've had pretty rough luck," he went on hastily,
trying to cover it up. "Sandholes holds the record for every sort of
mischance. It sounds like one of the old fairy-tales," he added,
laughing,--"curses and all that! ... But I can't help thinking it would
have been better for everybody if there had been a change earlier on."
"Ay, well, you've gitten your change now, and no mistake about it!"
Simon retorted angrily, deeply hurt. There was something wrong with the
scene, though he could not tell what it was. He only knew that he had
not expected it to go in the very least like this.
"It should have been made long since if it was to do you any good...."
Dent did not seem to notice that there was anything amiss. He sat,
tapping the table, deep in thought, while Simon seethed.... "Sure you
couldn't put on for another year?"
This change of front upset his visitor so completely that he dropped his
hat. He sat glaring at Mr. Dent with a dropped mouth.
"Nay, then, I just couldn't!" he snapped at last, wondering whether he
was on his head or his heels. "Losh save us!" he added angrily,
"haven't I tellt you I meant to gang ever since I come in? It'll take
me all my time to hang on till spring, as it is."
"You've run it as close as that?" Dent enquired, and Simon gave a grunt.
"Ay, and I'm not the first as has done it, neither!"
"Couldn't your Blindbeck brother see to give you a hand? He's done well
for himself, I should say, and his children are getting on."
"He's given us a hand more than once already, has Will, but there's no
sense in throwing good money after bad. We'll have to quit next year,
if we don't this. Farm's going back, as you say, and I'm over old to
pull it round. I can't keep going for ever, nay, nor my missis,
neither."
He remembered Sarah's eyes as he spoke, and how they were enough to
clinch the matter in themselves, but he was too offended even to mention
them by now. There was no telling to-day how Mr. Dent would take the
tragic news. He had smiled and looked cheerful over the notice to quit,
but Simon felt he would not be able to bear it if he smiled at Sarah's
eyes. Indeed, it was all he could do to keep a hold on himself, as it
was,--first of all hearing that he ought to have gone long since, and
then being told to stop when he'd settled to clear out!
The trend of his injured thought must have reached the other at last,
for he roused himself to look at his sulky face.
"You needn't think I'm trying to shove the place down your throat!" he
said, with a laugh. "But I certainly thought you'd rather be stopping
on!"
Simon felt a little appeased, though he took care not to show any sign.
He growled miserably that they had never intended to quit except under a
coffin-lid.
"This is where you want a lad of your own to take hold,--a lad with a
good wife who would be able to see to you both. You've no news, I
suppose, of that son of yours that went overseas?"
"A word or two, now and then,--nowt more. Nowt as'd set you running
across t'countryside to hear."
"No chance of getting him home again, is there?" Dent enquired, and
Simon stared at the floor and shook his head. He must have felt a
change in the atmosphere, however, for suddenly he began to repeat what
Sarah had told May, how Geordie had written for money, and there had
been none to send. The words came easily after he had made a start, and
for the time being he forgot his resentment and injured-tenant's pride.
"I reckon you know, sir, how it all come about. There'll ha' been
plenty o' folk ready to tell you, I'll be bound, and them as knowed
least'll likely ha' tellt you most. We never had but the one lad, Sarah
and me, and, by Gox! but he was a limb! The queer thing was that my
brother Will's eldest should ha' been the very marrow o' mine,--looks,
voice, ways, ay, and character an' all. Will and me were whyet enough
lads, I'm sure; it was terble strange we should breed a pair o'
rattlehorns like yon. You couldn't rightly say there was any harm to
'em, but they were that wick they mun always be making a stir. Being
that like, too, helped 'em rarely when there was chanst o' their getting
catched. Each on 'em had a call for telling when he was about. Jim's
was a heron like, but Geordie's was nobbut a gull----"
This time it was his own glance that went to the window, as again he
remembered the bird gone out to the waves. When Dent spoke, his mind
came back from its flight with a tiny jerk.
"Then they made off to Canada, didn't they, the two lads? You told me
something about it when I first came."
"Ay, they cleared off in a night without a word or owt, and they've
never done no good from then to this. Sarah sticks to it Geordie would
never ha' gone at all if it hadn't been for Jim, and Will's missis
sticks to it t'other way about. I reckon there was nowt to choose
between 'em myself, but my missis never could abide poor Jim. He was
that set on her, though, there was no keeping him off the spot. Right
cruel she was to him sometimes, but she couldn't drive him off. He'd
just make off laughing and whistling, and turn up again next day. Of
course, she was bound to have her knife into him, for his mother's sake.
She and Eliza have always been fit to scratch at each other all their
lives."
"Long enough to finish any feud, surely, and a bit over? It's a pity
they can't bury the hatchet and make friends."
"They'll happen make friends when the rabbit makes friends wi' the
ferret," Simon said grimly, "and the blackbird wi' the cat! I don't say
Sarah isn't to blame in some ways, but she's had a deal to put up wi',
all the same. There's summat about Eliza as sets you fair bilin' inside
your bones! It's like as if she'd made up her mind to pipe Sarah's eye
straight from the very start. She never said ay to Will, for one thing,
till Sarah and me had our wedding-day fixed, and then danged if she
didn't make up her mind to get wed that day an' all! She fixed same
church, same parson, same day and same time,--ay, an' there's some folk
say she'd ha' fixed on t'same man if she'd gitten chanst!" He paused
for a moment to chuckle when he had said that, but he was too bitter to
let his vanity dwell on it for long. "She tellt parson it was a double
wedding or summat o' the sort, but she never let wit on't to Sarah and
me until she was fair inside door. Sarah and me walked to kirk arm in
arm, wi' nowt very much by-ordinar' on our backs; but Eliza come
scampering up in a carriage and pair, donned up in a white gown and wi'
a gert, waggling veil. Will was that shammed on it all he couldn't
abide to look me in t'face, but there, I reckon he couldn't help
hisself, poor lad! Sarah was that wild I could feel her fair dodderin'
wi' rage as we stood alongside at chancel-step. She was that mad she
could hardly shape to get her tongue round Weddin'-Service or owt, and
when we was in t'vestry I see her clump both her feet on the tail of
Eliza's gown. She would have it nobody knew she was as much as getting
wed at all,--they were that busy gawping at Eliza and her veil. She was
a fine, strapping lass, Eliza was, and I'd a deal o' work keeping my
eyes off'n her myself! ... ay, and I won't say but what she give me a
sheep's eye or so at the back o' Will as well...." He chuckled again,
and his face became suddenly youthful, with a roguish eye. "But yon was
no way o' starting in friendly, was it, Mr. Dent?
"Ay, well, things has gone on like that atween 'em more or less ever
since, and I won't say but Sarah's gitten a bit of her own back when
she's gitten chanst. Will having all the luck and such-like hasn't made
things better, neither. Blindbeck's ganged up and Sandholes has ganged
down,--ay, and seems like to hit bottom afore it stops! Will and me
have hung together all along, but the women have always been at each
other's throats. It riled Eliza Jim being always at our spot, and
thinking a deal more o' Sarah than he did of her. Neither on 'em could
break him of it, whatever they said or did. He always stuck to it
Sandholes was his home by rights."
"Pity the two of them aren't here to help you now," Dent said. "Those
runabout lads often make fine men."
"Nay, I doubt they've not made much out, anyway round." Simon shook his
head. "Likely they're best where they be," he said, as Sarah had said
on the road in. He sat silent a moment longer for politeness' sake, and
then was stopped again as he rose to go.
"May I enquire what you intend to do when you leave the farm?"
The old man's face had brightened as he talked, but now the shadow came
over it again.
"I can't rightly tell, sir, till I've had a word wi' Will, but anyway
he'll not let us come to want. He's offered us a home at Blindbeck
afore now, but I reckon his missis'd have summat to say to that. Ay,
and mine an' all!" he added, with a fresh attempt at a laugh. "There'd
be lile or nowt done on t'farm, I reckon, if it ever come about. It'd
take the lot on us all our time to keep them two apart!"
Again, as he finished, he remembered Sarah's eyes, and once again he let
the opportunity pass. He was on his feet now, anxious to get away, and
there seemed little use in prolonging this evil hour. Mr. Dent would
think they were for ever whingeing and whining and like enough calling
out before they were hurt.... He moved hurriedly to the door, conscious
of a sense of relief as well as of loss, and Sarah's eyes missed their
final chance of getting into the talk....
"You're likely throng, sir," he finished, "and I'll not keep you." He
put a hand to the latch. "Anyway, you'll kindly take it as we'll quit
next year."
Dent said--"No, Simon, I shan't do anything of the sort!" and laughed
when the other shot round on him again with open mouth. His expression
was grave, however, as he ended his speech. "I want you to think it
over a bit first."
Simon felt his head going round for the second time. The red came into
his thin face.
"I don't rightly know what you're driving at, sir," he said, with a
dignified air. "I reckon I can give in my notice same as anybody else?"
"Oh, Lord, yes, Simon! Of course." Dent's eyes went back to the notes.
"Yes, of course you can."
"Ay, well, then?" Simon demanded stiffly. "What's all this stir?"
"Well, ... it's like this, you see ... you've missed your time. It was
due a couple of months back, as I said before."
"Ay, but you're not that hard and fast about notice, as a rule! Tom
Robison did t'same thing last year, you'll think on, and you let it
pass. Seems to me you're by way of having a joke wi' me, sir," he
added, in a pitiful tone, "and I don't know as it's kind, seeing how I'm
placed."
Dent jumped to his feet and came across to lay a hand on his arm.
"It's only that I've a feeling you'll change your mind, Simon," he said
earnestly, "and you'll be sorry if you've spread it about that you're
going to quit. A week, say,--a week won't make that much difference,
will it? Can't you let it stand over another week?"
"You said a minute back 'twas a pity we'd stopped so long! I can't make
out what you're at, Mr. Dent,--I'm danged if I can!"
The agent laughed and left him to stroll back again to the window, where
he stood looking down into the full street.
"Perhaps we're neither of us as clear in our minds as we might be!" he
observed, with a cryptic smile. "The weather, perhaps; it's only a
dreary day. I'm not one of the folks who like November grey."
"Tides is big an' all," Simon found himself saying, unable to resist the
lure. "We've had t'watter up agen t'wall every night this week. Last
night I went out for a look afore it was dark, but it was that thick it
was all I could do to tell it was there at all. There was just summat
grey-like lifting under my nose; but, by Gox! it was deep enough for all
it was so whyet!"
Dent shivered at the drear little picture which the other had conjured
up.
"I don't know how you sleep," he said, "perched on the edge of things
like that! It would give me fits to have the sea knocking twice a day
at my back door."
"Ay, it knocks," Simon said slowly, with a thoughtful air. "There's
whiles you'd fair think it was axing for somebody to come out.... You'll
mind yon time you were near catched by the tide?" he went on, after a
pause. "Eh, man, but I was in a terble tew yon night!"
"It was my own fault," Dent laughed,--"not that it was any the nicer for
that! I knew the time of the tide, but I'd forgotten the time of day.
It was a day something like this, much the same dismal colour all
through. Lord, no!" He shivered again. "I've not forgotten, not I!
I'll never forget pounding away from that horrible wave, and finding
myself, quite without knowing it, back below the farm!"
"It was my missis saved you that night," Simon said, "and a near shave
it was an' all! Tide would ha' got you even then if it hadn't been for
her. We heard you hollerin' and came out to look, but we couldn't see
nowt, it was that dark. I thought we'd fancied it like, as we didn't
hear no more, but Sarah wouldn't hear of owt o' the sort. She would
have it she could see you liggin' at bottom o' t'bank, and she give me
no peace till I'd crammelled down to look."
"Well, you may be sure I'm grateful enough," the agent said, as they
shook hands. "I wouldn't wish my worst enemy a death like that. I hope
it's been put to the credit side of her account."
He followed this caller out as he had done the last, and again, leaning
over the railing, he called "Good luck!" Simon, looking up, full of
resentment, saw the face above him bright with smiles. He went out with
offended dignity written in every line.