CHAPTER XXIX. AMINTA TO HER LORD

On Friday, on Saturday, on Sunday, Lady Charlotte waited for her brother

Rowsley, until it was a diminished satisfaction that she had held her

ground and baffled his mighty will to subdue her. She did not sleep

for thinking of him on the Sunday night. Toward morning a fit of hazy

horrors, which others would have deemed imaginings, drove her from her

bed to sit and brood over Rowsley in a chair. What if it was a case of

heart with him too? Heart disease had been in the family. A man like

Rowsley, still feeling the world before him, as a man of his energies

and aptitudes, her humour added in the tide of his anxieties, had a

right to feel, would not fall upon resignation like a woman.

She was at the physician's door at eight o'clock. Dr. Rewkes reported

reassuringly; it was a simple disturbance in Lord Ormont's condition of

health, and he conveyed just enough of disturbance to send the impetuous

lady knocking and ringing at her brother's door upon the hour of nine.

The announcement of Lady Charlotte's early visit informed my lord that

Dr. Rewkes had done the spiriting required of him. He descended to the

library and passed under scrutiny.

'You don't look ill, Rowsley,' she said, reluctantly in the sound.

'I am the better for seeing you here, Charlotte. Shall I order breakfast

for you? I am alone.'

'I know you are. I've eaten. Rewkes tells me you've not lost appetite.'

'Have I the appearance of a man who has lost anything?' Prouder man, and

heartier and ruddier, could not be seen, she thought.

'You're winning the country to right you; that I know.'

'I don't ask it.'

'The country wants your services.'

'I have heard some talk of it. That lout comes to a knowledge of his

wants too late. If they promoted and offered me the command in India

to-morrow--'My lord struck the arm of his chair. 'I live at Steignton

henceforth; my wife is at a seaside place eastward. She left the

jewel-case when on her journey through London for safety; she is

a particularly careful person, forethoughtful. I take her down to

Steignton two days after her return. We entertain there in the autumn.

You come?'

'I don't. I prefer decent society.'

'You are in her house now, ma'am.'

'If I have to meet the person, you mean, I shall be civil. The society

you've given her, I won't meet.'

'You will have to greet the Countess of Ormont if you care to meet your

brother.'

'Part, then, on the best terms we can. I say this, the woman who keeps

you from serving your country, she 's your country's enemy.'

'Hear my answer. The lady who is my wife has had to suffer for what you

call my country's treatment of me. It 's a choice between my country and

her. I give her the rest of my time.'

'That's dotage.'

'Fire away your epithets.'

'Sheer dotage. I don't deny she's a handsome young woman.'

'You'll have to admit that Lady Ormont takes her place in our family

with the best we can name.'

'You insult my ears, Rowsley.'

'The world will say it when it has the honour of her acquaintance.'

'An honour suspiciously deferred.'

'That's between the world and me.'

'Set your head to work, you'll screw the world to any pitch you

like--that I don't need telling.'

Lord Ormont's head approved the remark.

'Now,' said Lady Charlotte, 'you won't get the Danmores, the Dukerlys,

the Carminters, the Oxbridges any more than you get me.'

'You are wrong, ma'am. I had yesterday a reply from Lady Danmore to a

communication of mine.'

'It 's thickening. But while I stand, I stand for the family; and I 'm

not in it, and while I stand out of it, there 's a doubt either of your

honesty or your sanity.'

'There's a perfect comprehension of my sister!'

'I put my character in the scales against your conduct, and your

Countess of Ormont's reputation into the bargain.'

'You have called at her house; it 's a step. You 'll be running at her

heels next. She 's not obdurate.'

'When you see me running at her heels, it'll be with my head off. Stir

your hardest, and let it thicken. That man Morsfield's name mixed up

with a sham Countess of Ormont, in the stories flying abroad, can't hurt

anybody. A true Countess of Ormont--we 're cut to the quick.'

'We 're cut! Your quick, Charlotte, is known to court the knife.'

Letters of the morning's post were brought in.

The earl turned over a couple and took up a third, saying: 'I 'll attend

to you in two minutes'; and thinking once more: Queer world it is,

where, when you sheath the sword, you have to be at play with bodkins!

Lady Charlotte gazed on the carpet, effervescent with retorts to his

last observation, rightly conjecturing that the letter he selected to

read was from 'his Aminta.'

The letter apparently was interesting, or it was of inordinate length.

He seemed still to be reading. He reverted to the first page.

At the sound of the paper, she discarded her cogitations and glanced

up. His countenance had become stony. He read on some way, with a sudden

drop on the signature, a recommencement, a sound in the throat, as when

men grasp a comprehensible sentence of a muddled rigmarole and begin

to have hopes of the remainder. But the eye on the page is not the eye

which reads.

'No bad news, Rowsley?'

The earl's breath fell heavily.

Lady Charlotte left her chair, and walked about the room.

'Rowsley, I 'd like to hear if I can be of use.'

'Ma'am?' he said; and pondered on the word 'use,' staring at her.

'I don't intend to pry. I can't see my brother look like that, and not

ask.'

The letter was tossed on the table to her. She read these lines, dated

from Felixstowe:

'MY DEAR LORD,

'The courage I have long been wanting in has come at last, to break

a tie that I have seen too clearly was a burden on you from the

beginning. I will believe that I am chiefly responsible for

inducing you to contract it. The alliance with an inexperienced

girl of inferior birth, and a perhaps immoderate ambition, has taxed

your generosity; and though the store may be inexhaustible, it is

not truly the married state when a wife subjects the husband to such

a trial. The release is yours, the sadness is for me. I have

latterly seen or suspected a design on your part to meet my former

wishes for a public recognition of the wife of Lord Ormont. Let me

now say that these foolish wishes no longer exist. I rejoice to

think that my staying or going will be alike unknown to the world.

I have the means of a livelihood, in a modest way, and shall trouble

no one.

'I have said, the sadness is for me. That is truth. But I have to

add, that I, too, am sensible of the release. My confession of a

change of feeling to you as a wife, writes the close of all

relations between us. I am among the dead for you; and it is a

relief to me to reflect on the little pain I give...'

'Has she something on her conscience about that man Morsfield?' Lady

Charlotte cried.

Lord Ormont's prolonged Ah! of execration rolled her to a bundle.

Nevertheless her human nature and her knowledge of woman's, would out

with the words: 'There's a man!'

She allowed her brother to be correct in repudiating the name of the

dead Morsfield--chivalrous as he was on this Aminta's behalf to

the last!--and struck along several heads, Adderwood's, Weyburn's,

Randeller's, for the response to her suspicion. A man there certainly

was. He would be probably a young man. He would not necessarily be a

handsome man.... or a titled or a wealthy man. She might have set eyes

on a gypsy somewhere round Great Marlow--blood to blood; such things

have been. Imagining a wildish man for her, rather than a handsome one

and one devoted staidly to the founding of a school, she overlooked

Weyburn, or reserved him with others for subsequent speculation.

The remainder of Aminta's letter referred to her delivery of the Ormont

jewel-case at Lord Ormont's London house, under charge of her maid

Carstairs. The affairs of the household were stated very succinctly,

the drawer for labelled keys, whatever pertained to her management, in

London or at Great Marlow.

'She 's cool,' Lady Charlotte said, after reading out the orderly array

of items, in a tone of rasping irony, to convince her brother he was

well rid of a heartless wench.

Aminta's written statement of those items were stabs at the home she had

given him, a flashed picture of his loss. Nothing written by her touched

him to pierce him so shrewdly; nothing could have brought him so closely

the breathing image in the flesh of the woman now a phantom for him.

'Will she be expecting you to answer, Rowsley?'

'Will that forked tongue cease hissing!' he shouted, in the agony of a

strong man convulsed both to render and conceal the terrible, shameful,

unexampled gush of tears.

Lady Charlotte beheld her bleeding giant. She would rather have seen

the brother of her love grimace in woman's manner than let loose those

rolling big drops down the face of a rock. The big sob shook him, and

she was shaken to the dust by the sight. Now she was advised by her deep

affection for her brother to sit patient and dumb, behind shaded eyes:

praising in her heart the incomparable force of the man's love of the

woman contrasted with the puling inclinations of the woman for the man.

Neither opened mouth when they separated. She pressed and kissed a large

nerveless hand. Lord Ormont stood up to bow her forth. His ruddied skin

had gone to pallor resembling the berg of ice on the edge of Arctic

seas, when sunlight has fallen away from it.

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