On the first news of the fever being gone, the Greys returned to
Deerbrook, and Dr Levitt's family soon followed. The place wore a
strange appearance to those who had been absent for some time. Large
patches of grass overspread the main street, and cows might have
pastured on the thatch of some of the cottages, while the once green
churchyard looked brown and bare from the number of new graves crowded
in among the old ones. In many a court were the spring-flowers running
wild over the weedy borders, for want of hands to tend them; and the
birds built in many a chimney from which the blue smoke had been wont to
rise in the morning air. Sophia and her sisters noted these things as
they walked through the place on the morning after their arrival, while
their father was engaged in inspecting the parish register, to learn how
many of his neighbours were gone, and their mother was paying her visit
of condolence to Mrs Rowland.
Fanny and Mary were much impressed this day with Matilda's death. They
had first wondered, and then wept, when they heard of it at a distance:
and now, when once more on the spot where they had seen her daily, and
had hourly criticised her looks, her sayings, and doings, they were
under a strong sense of the meanness and frivolity of their talk, and
the unkindness of their feelings about one whose faults could hardly be
called her own, and who might now, they supposed, be living and moving
in scenes and amidst circumstances whose solemnity and importance put to
shame the petty intercourse they had carried on with her here. Both
resolved in their hearts that if Anna Rowland should praise her own
dancing, and flatten her back before she spoke, and talk often of the
time when she should be married, they would let it all pass, and not
tell mamma or Sophia, or exchange satirical looks with each other. They
remembered now that Matilda had done good and kind things, which had
been disregarded at the time when they were bent on ridiculing her. It
was just hereabouts that she took off her worsted gloves, one bitter day
in the winter, and put them on the hands of her little brother who was
crying with cold; and it was by yonder corner that she directed a
stranger gentleman into the right road so prettily that he looked after
her as she walked away, and said she would be the pride of the place
some day. Alas! there she lay--in the vault under the church; and she
would be no one's pride in this world, except in her poor mother's
heart.
"There is somebody not in mourning," cried Fanny; "the very first,
besides my cousins, that we have seen to-day. Oh, it is Mrs James!
Shall we not speak to her?"
Mrs James seemed warmed out of her usual indifference. She shook hands
almost affectionately with Sophia. The meeting of acquaintances who
find themselves alive after a pestilence is unlike any other kind of
meeting: it animates the most indifferent, and almost makes friends of
enemies. While Mrs James and Sophia were making mutual inquiries, Mary
called Fanny's attention to what was to be seen opposite. There was a
glittering row of large, freshly-gilt letters--"Miskin, late Howell,
Haberdasher, etcetera." Miss Miskin, in the deepest mourning, with a
countenance trained to melancholy, was peeping through the ribbons and
handkerchiefs which veiled her window, to see whether the Miss Greys
were on their way to her or not. Sophia would not have been able to
resist going in, but that, on parting from Mrs James, she saw the true
object of her morning walk approaching in the person of Mr Walcot. Her
intention had been to meet him in his rounds; and here he was.
If Mrs James had been almost affectionate, what was Mr Walcot? He had
really gone through a great deal of anxiety and suffering lately, and
his heart was very soft and tender just now. He turned about, and
walked with Sophia--walked a mile out into the country by her side, and
neither seemed to have any thought of turning back, till Fanny reminded
her sister how long mamma would have been kept waiting for her to go and
call on the Levitts. The conversation had been in an under voice, all
the way out and back; but, when the parting was to take place, when Mr
Walcot was to leave them in the outskirts of the village, the little
girls heard a few words, which threw some light on what had been
passing. They caught from Sophia, "I must consult my parents;" and as
they hurried homewards with her, they ventured to cast up a glance of
droll meaning into her face, which made her try to help smiling, and to
speak sharply; and then they knew that they had guessed the truth.
Mr Grey made his call upon his cousins that evening. He requested some
private conversation with Hope. His objects were, to learn Hope's
opinion of Mr Walcot, as he had seen him of late under very trying
circumstances; and, if this opinion should be sufficiently favourable to
warrant the proposition, to open the subject of a partnership--a
partnership in which, as was fair, Mr Walcot should have a small share
at present of the income, and a large proportion of the labour--which
was all that the young man, under the effect of his recent terrors, and
of his veneration for Mr Hope, wished or desired. He had declared that
if he could obtain his beloved Sophia, and be permitted to rely on Mr
Hope as his partner and friend, he should be the happiest man alive; and
he was confident that his parents would consider him a most fortunate
youth, to be received, at his outset into life, into such a family as
Mr Grey's, and under the professional guidance of such a practitioner
and such a man as Mr Hope.
There seemed to be every probability of his becoming the happiest man
alive for the Greys were clearly well disposed towards him, and Mr Hope
had nothing to say of him which could hurt their feelings. He repeated
what he had declared to Mr Rowland--that Mr Walcot's energies seemed
to be concentrated in the practice of his profession, and that his
professional knowledge appeared to be sufficient. There was no doubt of
his kindness of heart; and, though it could not be expected of him that
he would ever make a striking figure in the world, yet he might sustain
a fair portion of respectability and usefulness in a country station.
As to the partnership, no difficulty arose. Mr Grey frankly explained
that present income was far less of an object than to have his daughter
settled beside her parents, and his son-in-law usefully and honourably
occupied. Sophia would have enough money to make Walcot's income an
affair of inferior consideration. If he should deserve an increase by
and by, it would be all very well. If not, the young people must get on
without. Anything was better than sending the young man away to
establish himself in a new place, with no happier prospects to Sophia's
family than that of parting with her to a distance at last.
It did not require many days to complete the arrangements. Hester was
at first a little vexed, but on the whole much more amused, at the idea
of her husband having Mr Walcot for a partner: and she soon saw the
advantage of his being spared many a long country ride, and many a visit
at inconvenient seasons, by his junior being at hand. She made no
substantial objection, and invited Mr Walcot to the house with all due
cordiality. The young man's gratitude and devotion knew no bounds; and
the only trouble Hope felt in the business was the awkwardness of
checking his expressions of thankfulness.
When the announcement of the double arrangement was to be made, Mrs
Grey could not resist going herself to Mrs Rowland; and Sophia was
sorry that she could not be present too, to see how the lady would
receive the news of a third gentleman marrying into the Greys'
connection so decidedly. But Mr Grey took care to enlighten his
partner on the matter some hours before; so that Mrs Rowland was
prepared. She persuaded herself that she was very apathetic--that she
had no feelings left for the affairs of life--that her interests were
all buried in the tomb of her own Matilda. Mrs Grey had therefore
nothing in particular to tell Sophia when she returned from paying the
visit.
In exchange for the news, Sir William and Lady Hunter sent back their
congratulations, and a very gracious and extensive invitation to dinner.
Finding that Mrs Rowland's brother was really, with the approbation of
his family, going to marry Mrs Hope's sister, and that Mrs Rowland's
_protege_ was entering into partnership with Mr Hope himself, they
thought it the right time to give their sanction to the reconciliations
which were taking place, by being civil to all the parties round. So
Lady Hunter came in state to Deerbrook, one fine day, made all due
apologies, and invited to dinner the whole connection. Mrs Rowland
could not go, of course; and Margaret declined: but all the rest went.
Margaret was on the eve of her marriage, and she preferred one more day
with Maria, to a visit of ceremony. She begged Philip to go, as his
sister could not; and he obeyed with a good grace, grudging the loss of
a sweet spring evening over Sir William Hunter's dinner-table the less,
that he knew Margaret and Maria were making the best use of it together.
Once more the friends sat in the summer-house, by the window, whence
they loved to look abroad upon meadow, wood, and stream. Here they had
studied together, and cherished each other: here they had eagerly
imparted a multitude of thoughts, and carefully concealed a few. Here
they were now conversing together for the last time before their
approaching separation. Maria sighed often, as she well might: and when
Margaret looked abroad upon the bean-setters in the distant field, and
listened to the bleat of the lambs which came up from the pastures, and
was aware of the scent of the hyacinths occasionally wafted in from poor
Matilda's neighbouring flower-plot, she sighed too.
"You must take some of our hyacinths with you to London, and see whether
they will not blossom there," said Maria, answering to her friend's
thought.
"I hardly know whether there would be most pain or pleasure in seeing
plants sprout, and then wither, in the little balcony of a back
drawing-room, which overlooks gables or stables, instead of these
delicious green meadows."
"How fond you were, two years ago, of imagining the bliss of living
always in sight of this very landscape! Yet it has yielded already to
the back drawing-room, with a prospect of stables and gables."
"We shall come and look upon your woods sometimes, you know. I am not
bidding good-bye to this place, or to you. God forbid!"
"Now tell me, Margaret," said Maria, after a pause, "tell me when you
are to be married."
"That is what I was just about to do. We go on Tuesday."
"Indeed! in three days! But why should it not be so? It is a weary
time since you promised first."
"A year ago, there were reasons, as Philip admits now, why I could not
leave Hester and Edward. There are no such reasons now. They are
prosperous: their days of struggle, when they wanted me--my head, my
hands, my little income--are past. Edward's practice has come back to
him, with increase for Mr Walcot. There is nothing more to fear for
them."
"You have done your duty by them: now--"
"_My_ duty! What has it been to theirs? Oh, Maria! what a spectacle
has that been! When I think how they have `overcome evil with good,'
how they have endured, how forgiven, how toiled and watched on their
enemies' behalf, till they have ruled all the minds, and touched all the
hearts, of friends and foes for miles round, I think theirs the most
gracious piece of tribulation that ever befell. At home,--Oh, even you
do not know what a home it is!"
Nor was Margaret herself aware what that home was now. She saw how
Edward had there, too, `overcome evil with good' how he had permanently
established Hester in her highest moods of mind, strengthened her to
overcome the one unhappy tendency from which she had suffered through
the whole of her life, and dispersed all storms from the dwelling
wherein his child was to grow up: but she did not know half the extent
of his victory, or the delight of its rewards. She knew nothing of the
secret shudder with which he looked back upon the entanglement, the
peril, the suffering he had gone through; or of the deep peace which had
settled down upon his soul, now that the struggle was well past. She
little imagined how, when all the world regarded him as an old married
man, his was now, in truth, the soul of the lover: how, from having at
one time pitied, feared, recoiled from her with whom he had connected
himself for life, he had risen, by dint of a religious discharge of duty
towards her, from self-reproach and mere compassion, to patience, to
hope, to interest, to admiration, to love--love at last worthy of hers--
love which satisfied even Hester's imperious affections, and set even
her over-busy mind and heart at rest. Little did Margaret imagine all
this. There was but one, beside Edward himself, who knew it; and that
one was Morris, who daily thanked God that strength had been given
according to the need.
"There is but one person in the world, Maria," said her friend, "on
whose account I cannot help being anxious. I was faithless about Hester
as long as it was possible to have an uneasy thought for her; and now I
am afraid I shall sin in the same way about you."
"And why should you, Margaret? If I were without object, without hope,
without experience, without the power of self-rule which such experience
gives, you might well fear for me. But why now? It is not reasonable
towards the Providence under which we live; it is not just to me."
"That is very true. But though it is not too much for your faith, that
you are infirm and suffering in body, poor, solitary, living by toil,
without love, without prospect--though all this may not be too much for
your faith, Maria, I own it is at times for mine."
"Of all these evils, there is but one which is very hard to bear. I
_am_ solitary; and the suffering from the sense of this is great. But
what has been borne may be borne; and this evil is precisely that which
has been the peculiar trial of the greatest and best of their race--or
of those who have been recognised as such. You will not suppose that I
try to flatter my pride with this thought; or that the most insane pride
could be a support under this kind of suffering. I mean only that there
can be nothing morally fatal in a trial which many of the wisest and
best have sustained."
"But it is painful--very painful."
"For the mere pain, let it pass; and for the other _desagremens_ of my
lot, let us not dare to speak evil of them, lest we should be slandering
my best friends. If infirmity, toil, poverty, and the foibles of people
about us, all go to fortify us in self-reliance, God forbid that we
should quarrel with them!"
"But are you sure, quite sure, that you can stand the discipline? that
your nerves, as well as your soul, can endure?"
"Far from sure: but my peril is less than it was; and I have, therefore,
every hope of victory at last. In my wilderness, some tempter or
another comes, at times when my heart is hungry, and my faith is
fainting, and shows me such a lot as yours--all the sunny kingdoms of
love and hope given into your hand--and then the desert of my lot looks
dreary enough for the moment; but then arises the very reasonable
question, why we should demand that one lot should, in this exceedingly
small section of our immortality, be as happy as another: why we cannot
each husband our own life and means without wanting to be all equal.
Let us bless Heaven for your lot, by all means; but why, in the name of
Providence, should mine be like it? Nay, Margaret, why these tears?
For their sake I will tell you--and then we shall have talked quite
enough about me--that you are no fair judge of my lot. You see me
often, generally, in the midst of annoyance, and you do not (because no
one can) look with the eye of my mind upon the future. If you could,
for one day and night, feel with my feelings, and see through my
eyes--."
"Oh, that I could! I should be the holier for ever after?"
"Nay, nay! but if you could do this, you would know, from henceforth,
that there are glimpses of heaven for me in solitude, as for you in
love; and that it is almost as good to look forward without fear of
chance or change, as with such a flutter of hope as is stirring in you
now. So much for the solitaries of the earth, and because Providence
should be justified of his children. Now, when is this family meeting
to take place in the corner-house?"
"Frank hopes to land in August; and Anne, Mrs Gilchrist, will meet him
as soon as she can hear, in her by-corner of the world, of his arrival.
The other sister is still abroad, and cannot come. I hope Anne may be a
friend to you--an intimate. Judging by her brothers, and her own
letters, I think she must be worthy."
"Thank you; but you are, and ever will be, my intimate. There can be no
other. We shall be often seeing you here."
"Sometimes; and we shall have you with us."
"No: I cannot come to London. I shall never leave this place again, I
believe; but you will be often coming to it. When that crowd of new
graves in the churchyard shall be waving with grass, and those old woods
looking more ancient still, and the grown people of Deerbrook telling
their little ones all about the pestilence that swept the place at the
end of the great scarcity, when _they_ were children, you and yours, and
perhaps I, may sit, a knot of grey-headed friends, and hear over again
about those good old days of ours, as we shall then call them."
"And tell how there was an aged man, who told us of his seeing the deer
come down through the forest to drink at the brook. I should like to
behold those future days."
"And to remember whose face you saw in the torchlight, at the time and
place of your hearing the old man's tale. Whose horse do I hear
stopping at the stable?"
"It is Philip's. He has galloped home before the rest," said Margaret,
drawing back from the window with the smile still upon her face. "Now,
Maria, before any one comes, tell me--would you like to be with me on
Tuesday morning or not? Do as you like."
"I will come, to be sure," said Maria, smiling. "And now, while there
is any twilight left, go and give Mr Enderby the walk in the shrubbery
that he galloped home for."
Margaret kept Philip waiting while she lighted her friend's lamp; and
its gleam shone from the window of the summer-house for long, while,
talking of Maria, the lovers paced the shrubbery, and let the twilight
go.