THE TWO PRESENTIMENTS.
On the night before the action at Minden, while we were bivouacked in
a wood near the bank of the Weser, there came under my observation
two instances of that remarkable and undefinable emotion or
foreboding termed presentiment; and I believe there are few men who
have served a campaign without meeting with something of the kind
among their comrades, though the dire foreboding may not always have
been fulfilled.
One of these instances was the case of Lieutenant Keith of ours; the
other was that of the aide-de-camp, Major Shirley.
Under a sheltering tree, and near a large watchfire, a few of our
officers, among whom were Captain Douglas, Keith, Tom Kirkton, Dr.
Probe, and myself, were making themselves as comfortable as our poor
circumstances would admit. We had plenty of wine from the regimental
sutler, "whose princely confidence" Kirkton ironically urged us not
to abuse; we had plenty of brandy captured from a French caisson; we
had water in plenty from a stream hard by; we had ration beef boiled
in camp kettles; we had biscuits too; nor was Tom's usual song
wanting on the occasion, and he trolled it so lustily that many of
our men loitered near to hear him.
We were in high spirits with the expectation of meeting the French in
the morning; young Keith alone was sad, melancholy, and silent, and
it seemed to me that he drank deeply, an unusual circumstance with
him. Then suddenly he appeared to reflect, and ceasing his
potations, resolutely passed alike the wine-jar and the cognac bottle.
"Are you ill, Keith?" asked Douglas, kindly.
"Not a bit of it," interrupted Tom Kirkton; "it is only the
Westphalia wine that partially disagrees with him. Is it not so,
friend Probe? Try some more brandy. I took it from a French baggage
cart; 'tis the spoil of my sword and pistol. Come, Jamie Keith--
"How stands the glass around?
For shame, ye take no care, my boys!"
But Keith shook his head and turned away.
"Pshaw, boy! don't imitate any virtue of the Spartans to-night," said
Probe, our surgeon; "who can say that we shall all be together at
this hour to-morrow?"
"Ah, who indeed!" muttered young Keith, with an air so melancholy
that we all paused to observe him.
"Look at me, Keith," said Captain Douglas, gravely; "there is
something wrong with you to-night."
"I grant you that there is," replied the young lieutenant, turning
his pale and handsome face to the inquirer. "I have in my heart--and
I cannot help telling you--a solemn presentiment that I shall not
survive the battle of to-morrow. Yet observe me, gentlemen, observe
me well and closely all of you, and see if I shall blench before the
enemy, or belie the name of my forefathers."
With one voice we endeavoured to ridicule this unfortunate idea, or
to wean him from it; but he only replied by sadly shaking his head.
After a pause, he said--
"I trust that you will not laugh at what I am about to tell you; but
indeed I care little whether you do so or not. An hour ago, after
our halt, I fell asleep in my cloak at the foot of that tree, and
while there I dreamed of my home, of my father's house at Inverugie.
I saw the Ugie flowing between its banks of yellow broom, I heard the
hum of the honeybee among the purple heather bells, while the sweet
perfume of the hawthorn passed me on the wind. Then I heard the
German Sea chafing on the sandy knowes in the distance, and all the
sense of boyhood and of home grew strong within me. But when I
looked towards our old hall of Inverugie, it was roofless and
windowless, the long grass grew on its cold hearthstone, and there
the nettle and the ivy waved in the wind, while the black gleds were
building their nests by scores in the holes of the ruined wall; and
that dream daunts me still.
"Why--why--what of it?" we asked together.
"Because when one of our family dreams of a gled the hour of death is
nigh. I have never known it fail, and so it has been ever since
Thomas the Rhymer sat on a block near the castle (to this day called
the Tammas stane), and as a vision came before him, he stretched his
hands towards the house, saying--
"When the gleds their nests shall build
Where erst the Marischal hung his shield;
_Then_ Inverugie by the sea,
Lordless shall thy lands be."
I am the last of the old line, and there is a conviction in my heart
that the prophecy of the Rhymer is about to be fulfilled."
But for the well-known bravery, worth, and high spirit of the young
subaltern, and the hereditary valour of the house he represented, we
might have laughed at his strong faith in such an extremely old
prediction--a faith in which, doubtless, his mother, his nurse, and
many an old retainer had reared him; but as it was, we heard him in
silence, till after a time, when Douglas endeavoured to reason with
him on the folly of surrendering himself to such gloomy impressions,
but in vain. His mind was sternly made up that he would fall on the
morrow, and that he would die with honour to the attainted house he
represented among us--the old lords of Inverugie and Dunotter, the
earls marischal of Scotland.
While I was thinking of this--as we deemed it, fantastic idea--a hand
was laid on my shoulder. I looked up and saw Major Shirley, who
requested me to accompany him a little way apart. I could perceive
by the light of the moon on one hand, and that of our watchfire on
the other, that he was remarkably pale and somewhat agitated.
"Gauntlet," said he, with a smile, but with a very sickly one, "I
have here a letter for you."
"From whom?"
"Your cousin; a letter which I quite forgot to deliver to you when I
joined the army in Paderborn."
"This is somewhat odd--you forgot, eh?"
"Exactly; very awkward, is it not?"
"Rather," said I, somewhat ruffled. "Seven months have elapsed since
you came from England, and you only remember it now! Do you recal
that you stated she had not sent even a message to me?"
"Zounds! 'tis a fact, however odd," he replied, calmly, and in a very
subdued voice. "I only bethought me to-night that the letter was in
my dressing-case. We are to be engaged to-morrow; I may be knocked
on the head as well as another, and thus have no wish to leave even
the most trivial duty unfulfilled. You understand me?"
"Precisely," said I, with some contempt of manner.
"Here is your letter--adieu. I have an order for the Marquis of
Granby. Where is his tent?"
"On the extreme right of the Inniskilling Dragoons."
"Good." He mounted and rode hurriedly away. I saw it all: this
simpering staff officer was in love with Aurora, and dreaded in me a
rival. Thus he had concealed the letter till his presentiment--shall
I call _his_ emotion apprehension?--of the coming day, impelled him
to deliver it to me.
It was sealed and bordered with black. I tore it open and read
hurriedly by the wavering light of our watchfire. The whole tenor of
the letter was melancholy, and at such a time and under all the
circumstances, it moved me, though one or two sentences were rather
galling in their purport.
Aurora informed me that she had lost her mother at Tunbridge Wells on
the day after we sailed. Save twice, and under rather cloudy
circumstances, I had never seen the good lady, and so I had no tears
for the occasion.
"Dear cousin Basil," she continued, "my father is dead; my beloved
mother is dead; my poor brother Tony and a little sister whom I loved
dearly, are also dead: so I feel very lonely now. The loss of mamma
has been my most severe calamity, for she was the person in whom all
my thoughts, feelings, and anxieties centred. You are a soldier, and
I know not whether you can feel like me--that each link of the loving
chain as it breaks unites us closer, by near, dear, and mysterious
ties, to those who are beyond the grave--the beloved ones who are
gone, and to be with whom would be life in death. For a time after
poor mamma left me I felt more a denizen of the world to come than of
this, and I feel that though dead she can still strangely control or
inspire my actions, my emotions, and my conduct here.
"Oh yes, Basil, when my poor mamma died I felt eternity _close_ to
me--I felt that the circumstance of her going _there_ before me
instituted a strange and endearing tie between me and that mysterious
state of being; that my heart was drawn towards the land of spirits;
that it yearned for the other world rather than to linger in this.
(The deuce! thought I; is Aurora about to take the veil--or whence
this sermon?)
"Excuse me, cousin, if I weary you with my sorrow; but to whom could
I write of it, save you? You promised to write to me, but have never
done so. How unkind, after all you have said to me! I am at present
at Netherwood, where the autumn is charming, and as I write the sun
is shining with a lovely golden gleam on the yellow corn-fields and
on the blue wavy chain of the Cheviot Hills. We are cutting down a
number of the old trees at Netherwood. (Are we really! thought I.)
Some of these are oaks that King James rode under on his way to
Flodden Field; and dear old Mr. Nathan Wylie (Delightful old man!)
recommends that the ruined chapel of St. Basil in the jousting-haugh
should be removed as a relic of Popery, which stands in the way of
the plough. But as the saint is a namesake of _yours_, it shall
remain untouched, with all its ivy and guelder roses.
"When you return and visit us, as I trust in Heaven you shall (for I
never omit to pray for your safety), you will find wonderful
improvements in the kennels, stableyard, vinery, and copsewood."
It was very pleasant to me, a poor devil of a cornet, half-starved on
my pay, especially since the capture of Minden, with its 94,000 sacks
of grain, by Messieurs de Broglie and de Bourgneuf, to read how this
lovely interloper and her crusty Mentor cut and carved on my lands
and woods, kennels and stables.
"You will regret to hear that poor Mr. Wylie is failing fast, poor
man! His niece Ruth--a very pretty young woman indeed--has just had
twins. Her husband is Bailie Mucklewham, of the neighbouring town--a
grave and rigid man, and ruling Elder of the Tabernacle, whatever
that may be."
Ruth and her twins, and her husband the demure Elder and Bailie! I
could laugh now, at the boyish hour in which I thought seriously of
marrying Ruth Wylie.
"Doubtful where to address this letter to you, I have committed it to
the care of Major Shirley, who has been hunting in this
neighbourhood, and is now proceeding to Germany, to join the staff of
mv Lord George Sackville.
"P.S.--Write me, dear cousin, and tell me all about this horrible
war, and if it will soon be over. The major is so impatient that I
have not time to read over what I have written. Adieu, with a kiss,
A.G."
In our comfortless bivouac, by the sinking light of the wavering
watchfire, as I read on, Aurora's face came before me, so charming,
so fair, so blooming, and so English. She was warmhearted,
affectionate, and my only relative on earth, so could I think of her
in such a time of peril otherwise than kindly?
"Can it be--I asked of myself--that I am forgetting Jacqueline? But
wherefore remember her now!"
Shirley had been hunting in the vicinity of Netherwood, so I might be
sure that all his time would not have been there devoted to the
sports of the field. Aurora prayed for me! It was delightful to
have some one at least who thought of me--whose friendship or regard
blessed me and that my course in life was not unheeded or unmarked
amid the perils of war.
Aurora might love me, if I wished; surely there was no vanity in me
to think so? But I feared that I could never love her--at least as I
had loved Jacqueline--for she was the holder, the usurper of all that
should be mine.
I resolved to write to her kindly, affectionately, after the battle,
and then I would think of her no more; but somehow Aurora's image was
very persisting, and would not be set aside.
I put the letter in my sabretache, and was looking about for a soft
place whereon to sleep for an hour or so, when the sharp twang of the
trumpet sounding, and the voice of Tom Kirkton shouting "Saddles and
boots! to horse, the Greys!" warned me that day had broken, and that
we must stand to arms, for the bloody game of Minden was about to
begin.