CHAPTER XXXIII

THE END

It was with a heavy heart that I mounted my horse and, accompanied by a

guide whom the priest found for me, set out that night for the railway

station to take the train to Nish. Even the thought that the morrow

would see me with Christina could not at first relieve the gloom of my

sorrow or take from my eyes the picture of the cold still form of my

dead friend, lying in the sombre bare room in the priest’s house. I had

left him full instructions for sending on the body to Nish, and had

given him a sum of money which made him glad with the thought of all

the charities he could dispense among the poor of the village.

But youth is youth and love is love, and as the miles passed which

brought me nearer to Christina the drear mournfulness of my grief for

the dead began to lose its blackness beneath the glamour of my love

for the living. It was a sad tale I had to carry her after all, and

though in obedience to my comrade’s dying wish I could tell her nothing

of his love for her, I knew how she would mourn his loss. But love is

selfish; and when at length I reached Nish my heart was beating fast

with the throbbing of the delicious, delirious knowledge that we were

close together again, with no obstacle to bar the mutual avowal of our

passion, and no need to dread another parting.

It was far too late when I arrived for me to seek her that night, and

I myself was so spent with my experiences of the last thirty hours that

I was glad to throw myself on a bed. Excited though I was, I slept

soundly for some hours, and did not awake until the sun had long been

streaming into my room.

I hurried, of course, to the British Consul for tidings of Christina.

He told me she was staying in his house, and, at my request, sent at

once to tell her I had arrived.

“There is great news this morning, Mr. Winthrop,” he said; “news that

will interest you as much as it has me. The Russian plot has failed.

Thanks largely to my colleague, the English Consul at Philippopoli,

General Mountkoroff has declared for the Prince, and he is even at this

minute marching on Sofia with the flower of the Bulgarian army against

the traitors who sold themselves to this Kolfort and Russia.”

“Will the Prince return then?”

“Assuredly he will. The Powers will stand behind Mountkoroff, and

Russia will not venture to resist.”

“Then my friend Lieutenant Spernow will be safe,” I said, describing

briefly the plight in which I had left him.

“You need not have a moment’s uneasiness. Russian influence for

the moment will decline to zero, and the Prince’s friends will be

paramount.”

“Will you telegraph at once for news of him?”

“Willingly;” and he went at once to give his instructions. The result

was all I could have wished, and later in the day telegrams arrived

from Spernow himself, saying that both he and Mademoiselle Broumoff

were safe.

“The Princess Christina is ready to receive you,” he said when he came

back. “Will you come with me?”

I followed him with heart beating high, and, as if he understood how

matters were, he opened the door of a room and stood back for me to

enter alone.

She had been eagerly watching for my coming, but, thinking that

perhaps the Consul would be with me, she had put a strong restraint

upon herself, and stood waiting in an attitude of reserve. But the

colour mantling her cheeks, and the bright glow in her eyes, told me

her feelings, and as soon as she saw me enter by myself she ran to

meet me, and with a glad cry threw herself into my arms with the utter

self-abandonment of love.

It was no moment for speech, and many minutes passed with nothing more

than an exclamation or two of delight or a few softly breathed words

of passion. All thoughts of the dangers passed, the anxieties still

present, even of my poor dead friend, were lost, and merged in the

ecstasy of holding in my arms the woman I loved beyond all else on

earth, looking into her eyes glowing with love for me, hearing my name

whispered in her moving voice, and feeling her lips pressed to mine.

It was a moment of love rapture, and so untellable in any language but

that which love itself speaks.

When at length we drew apart, the first wild rush of excitement past,

and sat hand-locked to talk, I saw how anxiety and suspense had paled

her, and how deeply she had suffered.

She listened intently to the story of my experiences since we had

parted; and the ebbing and flowing colour, the passing light and

shadow in her eyes, and the quick catches in her breath told of varied

feelings which the recital roused. When I came to the sad story of

poor gallant Zoiloff’s wound and death, she was moved to tears of deep

and tender regret. But we were lovers and but just reunited, and the

interchange of sympathies and mutual comfort in this our first sorrow

in common served to awake a fresh chord in the rhythmic harmony of our

love.

For her friend, Mademoiselle Broumoff, she was still full of tender

concern, and it was a cause of rare happiness that, while we were still

together--for the interview lasted some hours--the news came over the

wires telling us that she and Spernow were safe, and coming post haste

to join us at Nish.

There was but one shadow, besides Zoiloff’s death, that hovered in the

background. The question whether she would feel it her duty to return

to Sofia. I asked her with some dread.

“I have been thinking of it while we talked, and since you told me

of the turn which matters have taken,” she said, her voice low and

anxious, as if she were undecided.

I remembered my despatch to the Foreign Office urging that support

should be given to her. But it was not in my power to wish that she

should go; for I knew that it might still mean the breaking asunder of

our paths in life.

“What do you think, Gerald?”

“I cannot think on such a subject, I can only fear,” I replied in a

tone as low and tense as her own. “I might lose you then.”

“Shall the woman or the Princess answer it?” she asked, her face all

womanly with the light of love.

“The lover, Christina,” I whispered.

“Then it is answered: my place is here,” she said softly. “The woman

is stronger than the Princess where you are concerned, Gerald; or

should I say weaker?” she added, smiling up to me.

“We will leave it soon for the wife to decide the term,” said I, and

the answer brought a vivid blush to her face. But it pleased her, for

she sighed happily as she let her head sink contentedly on my shoulder.

* * * * *

It is six years since the stirring events happened of which I have just

written, sitting at my study table in my lovely English home. As I lay

the pen down and close my eyes in reverie two memory pictures come

before me. The one black-edged with the gloom of sorrow and death, the

other radiant with the glowing promise of since realised happiness.

In that far away Servian town the bearers have just set down a coffin

by the side of a freshly-dug grave. The priest is reading the funeral

service; the white-robed choristers cluster near him; Spernow and I

stand side by side at the foot of the grave listening to the words

as they fall in rhythmic chant from the priest’s lips, and thinking

of the gallant comrade whose bones are being lowered to their last

resting-place, and I of the strange secret of his hopeless, noble,

self-denying love that is being buried with him. The final moment

comes. The sturdy bearers lift the coffin and lower it, and pull up

the ropes with a rasp that sounds like the severing of all hope; the

earth is cast down by the priest and falls clattering on the lid, and

the service goes on to its melancholy finish. The priest pronounces the

last words of prayer and blessing; stands a moment with covered face

in silent prayer, and then turns away, followed by the little choir.

Spernow and I move forward to take the last look at the coffin--a

long, lingering, memory-fraught look--and when we in our turn move

sadly away and our eyes meet, I see that my companion’s are wet with

tears. Poor, brave, noble Zoiloff, lying in that far away lonely grave!

In the other picture Spernow and I are again among the chief figures,

but not alone now. Nathalie is by his side, Christina by mine. Again

there is the same priest and the same choir, but we stand in the lofty

chancel of a stately church, and the words are not of death but of

marriage. Around us a small group is gathered, well-wishers, relatives,

and friends, with faces bright with gladness and tongues eager to burst

out with noisy congratulations and fervent wishes for our happiness.

And when the blessing has been given, and we lead our brides down the

aisle, the mighty building resounds with the pealing notes of the

organ, and we leave the church through groups of curiously garbed men

and women.

And at that point my reverie is broken by sounds of children’s prattle.

I look out on to the sunlit lawn to where Christina is kneeling and

listening with a smile to the cheery chatter of our two children. All

is warmth, peace, love, and rest in my English life now; and, as I

glance at my dear ones, I thank Heaven with fervent gratitude that they

are not destined to aspire to the dangerous splendour and evanescent

glory of a minor Throne. I get up quietly, and stepping through the

window into the sunlight, am hailed with a cry and rush of delight from

my little darlings and a welcome of love light from the eyes of my

beautiful wife.

THE END.

TRANSCRIBER’S NOTES:

Italicized text is surrounded by underscores: _italics_.

Obvious typographical errors have been corrected.

Inconsistencies in hyphenation have been standardized.

Archaic or alternate spelling has been retained from the original.

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