CHAPTER IV

FATE REELS IN

There is nothing more certain than that the bare facts of life are

misleading in the extreme. This is doubtless nature's reason for

concealing the human skeleton; it is undeniably necessary, but not

many of us take it into daily consideration, and nobody but a few

negligible anthropologists would dream of bringing it forward as proof

of anything in particular. And yet people who are fond of describing

themselves as practical persistently fold their hands over their

abdomens, shrug their shoulders and reiterate monotonously: "But, my

dear fellow, there are the facts! It is only necessary to consider the

facts of the case!" or, "I'm sorry, but I'm afraid the bare facts are

against you!" I suppose that is why they are so often called bare,

because so little of the important, informing or attractive is draped

around them.

Consider for instance, the bare facts of Roger's adventure. Here is a

man who, meeting a perfectly unknown and singularly beautiful young

woman in a questionable locality at dusk, enters into conversation

with her, takes her to a French restaurant for dinner, then finds

himself embroiled in a disgraceful altercation in which wine-glasses

are thrown and chairs waved, and finally escapes with her in a closed

carriage, which soon becomes the scene of a violent struggle

culminating in a ferocious kiss! The case is really too clear; it is

almost too conventional for an art student of any initiative and

originality. Anyone possessed of the slightest acquaintance with

fiction or the daily papers could tell you instantly that here were a

dissipated clubman and a too-unfortunately-stereotyped creature who

not only required no description but were best, in the interests of

morality, undescribed. And yet Roger was emphatically not dissipated,

nor even a clubman, in the sense in which the word appears to be used

in America, and Margarita was not in the least unfortunate and so far

from stereotyped that she pressed the unusual hard toward the utterly

unique.

"Well, well," I hear the practical man, "but this is a case in

one--five--ten thousand, surely! We all know--"

My good man, there is absolutely nothing we all know except that we

shall certainly die, one day, and from this one bare fact more utterly

contradictory inferences have been drawn than I can afford ink to

enumerate. Nothing could be more certain than this bare fact, and can

you show me anything more productive of human uncertainty? I trow not.

What do you know of the private life of the man in the next house?

Have you a friend who cannot tell you from one to three melodramatic

tales, lying quite within his experience, at which you will gasp,

"Why, it's as exciting as a novel!" The best novels never get into

print and the most blood-curdling, goose-pimpling dramas are played by

the boxholders. The longer I live the more firmly am I convinced that

the really quiet life is relatively rare.

To Roger, indeed, after his climax in the four-wheeler, it seemed

impossible that life could ever again be quiet. If I have not

impressed you with the idea that he was a decent sort of man, I have

wasted a whole chapter and demonstrated the folly of attempting

authorship at my age, and you will be but poorly prepared to learn

that when the cabby knocked at the glass, after heaven knows how many

minutes of interested observation, Roger discovered his identity

again--and loathed it. His conduct appeared to him indescribably

beneath contempt, his situation deplorable. Margarita, sobbing quietly

in her corner, seemed unlikely to raise either his spirits or his

estimate of himself.

Opening the door of the carriage he repeated his directions to the

too-confidential driver and spoke stiffly to his companion.

"I will not attempt to excuse myself to you," he said, "for it would

be pointless. If you can believe me, I will try my best to help you to

your friends. Can you not tell me the name of one?"

"What is your name?" she asked, her voice only a little shaken from

her sobs, which had ceased as soon as he began to speak.

"My name is Roger Bradley," he answered promptly.

"Then that is the name of my first friend," said Margarita Josephine

Dolores, "but I hope to find others."

Roger's revulsion of feeling was so great, his state of mind so

perturbed and confounded that he crushed them into a short, husky

laugh. Had he been the hero of a novel he would undoubtedly have

launched into a bitter speech, but he did not.

"Others like me?" he said briefly, and all the bitterness of the

novel-hero was there if Margarita had been able to read it. But she

only smiled, a little uncertainly, it is true, and replied:

"Yes, I should like them like you--only not so strong," she added

softly, with a shy glance at her wrists.

It has been quite unnecessary for me to consult letters or diaries to

give me a very clear insight into Roger's feelings at this point, for

I myself have experienced them. It was when I took Margarita out in a

rowboat and she began to rock herself in it.

"Don't do that, Margarita!" I cried. "That is an idiotic trick."

She continued to rock it.

"Do you hear me, Margarita?" I demanded, tapping her foot with some

irritation, for she really was irritating. In fact she completely

upset the theory that tact and adaptability constitute her sex's chief

charm.

"Of course I hear you. If you kick me, I shall only rock the harder,"

she answered composedly--and did so.

Shipping the oars carefully I arose, advanced upon Margarita and boxed

her ears with determination. I should have done it in mid-ocean. I

doubt if sharks in sight would have deterred me. As I was boxing her

ears--beautiful, strong ones, they were, not tiny, selfish, high-set

bits of porcelain: W--r M--l (who would have been _Sir_ W--r M--l in

England to-day) said of Margarita's ears that they were set

convincingly low and that he looked to her to demonstrate one of his

favourite tests of longevity--in the very act of this boxing. I

repeat, I was cruelly bitten in the wrists, and, snorting with rage,

pure, primitive, unchivalrous rage, I fell upon that shameless little

Pagan and shook her violently, till the teeth rattled in her head.

Over we went, the pair of us, struggling like demons, into the chilly,

rational water, and as Margarita, like so many people who live by the

sea, was utterly ignorant of the art of swimming and like so many

people of her temperament, violently averse to the sudden shock of

cold water, it was a subdued and dripping young woman that I dragged

to the overturned boat and ultimately towed to shore. I worked hard to

get her there and had no time for remorse, but as I hurried her up the

beach it flooded over me.

"What must you think of me?" I asked her through chattering teeth.

"You will not care to meet any more of Roger's friends, I fear."

"Oh, yes," she returned sweetly, looking incomprehensibly lovely--ah,

me, that long, smooth line of her hip, that round, sleek head, shining

like bronze in the sun! I can see it now--"Oh, yes, I hope he has many

more like you, Jerry, but not so strong--you hurt my arm!"

It is useless to ask me why that should have endeared her a hundred

times over to me, who would have given a year of my life to kiss her

but might not. It did thus endear her, however, and so I know what

hot, foolish hope flooded Roger off his footholds of conventions and

convictions and floated him away in a warm, alluring sea, where the

tropic palm-isles of Fata Morgana were the only shores. I, too, caught

a glimpse of those shores; the warmth of that sea was only the blood

pounding through my veins, and I knew it, but I shut my eyes and let

the waves lap at me a moment. Roger, lucky dog, did not know and did

not need to know what was happening to him, and it was not for a

moment, but forever, as far as he knew, that he slipped into the

current and drifted with it.

It was very characteristic of him that his next words had, apparently,

no bearing whatever on his state of mind.

"We are now," he said, "at the station. If you will tell me the name

of the town from which you came here, I will see that you get back

there. Believe me, it is the only possible thing to do. You cannot

stay here. Now, where did you come from?"

It took some few minutes to convince Roger that the girl literally did

not know the name of the station at which she had purchased her ticket

to New York. She knew she had travelled all day, and that was all. She

had slipped out from her home at dawn or before, left the mysterious

Hester Prynne asleep, walked five miles (Hester had said it was five

miles to the railroad) to a little town where a girl had sold her the

clothes she had on for one of her banknotes and advised her to go to

New York if she wished to see the world, "which was what I did wish,"

said Margarita.

A young man behind some bars had given her the ticket and some small

money back from another note and a kind old man with white hair and a

tall black hat had sat beside her after a while, and pressed so hard

against her that she had no room for her knees. She had told him of

this inconvenience, but to no avail. He had put his arm about her

shoulders and asked her why she did not change her plans and come to

Boston. Then she had told him that though she wanted friends she did

not care for such old ones, and when he still pressed against her she

had asked the man with the shining buttons who looked at her ticket if

he would not remove the old man, because she did not like to sit so

close to anyone, and she was sure the old man was sitting closer all

the time. Then he of the buttons took her somewhere else and bade her

sit beside a woman, grey-haired also, who would not talk at all, and

left her by and by. After this the buttoned man gave her meat between

bread. Still later a young man with beautiful, large eyes inquired if

he might sit beside her and she agreed gladly. He smelled very good.

He asked where she was going and she said to find friends. He said she

would find many on Broadway and that easily; she had only to show

herself there. He offered to point out the way there and just as all

seemed in the best possible way the buttoned man came again, frowned

on the good-smelling young man and took his seat. He talked a good

deal to Margarita--so much that she could not very well attend to it.

At last he gave her a large grey veil and commanded her to wrap her

head in it, and he would look after her when they got to New York. But

when they did get to New York she eluded him and asked the way to

Broadway, and then she met Roger. So, as the young man had said, there

were friends on Broadway. But there were none in the town from which

she took the ticket and she had no idea what its name was. Hester

never mentioned it. She did not believe it had a name.

All this as the cab rested by the kerbstone. It was perfectly obvious

that she was speaking the truth. They had patronised this particular

driver long enough, anyway, and Roger paid him liberally and led

Margarita into the draggled, dusty station; the new one was not then

built. Seated beside her in a relatively dim corner he tried to

formulate some plan, but the absurd emptiness of the situation baffled

even his practical good sense. How could he take this girl to a town

that neither he nor she knew the name of? How, on the other hand,

could he fling such a projectile as Margarita into any respectable

hotel? What would she do--or say? True, he might possibly have

presented her as his sister and kept her sternly in view during every

possible moment, but she was not sufficiently well dressed to be his

sister. And his overcoat was buttoned suspiciously high. Was he to

stroll out of the waiting-room and leave her abandoned, like some

undesirable kitten, in the corner? The idea was ludicrous: she must be

taken care of. Had she thrust herself upon him, enticed him,

challenged him? Assuredly not; moved by some completely inexplicable

influence, utterly alien to himself, his birth, his training, he had

deliberately and persistently questioned her, prolonged a trifling

encounter unjustifiably, whirled her away, literally; and now that he

had found no suitable place of deposit it was incredible that he

should deliver this extraordinary and self-assumed charge to civil

authority. It would have been almost as well to lead her back to

Broadway, he told himself sternly. The most exotic foreigner would

have found herself in better case, it occurred to him, for

interpreters of one sort or another can always be found. But Margarita

seemed foreign to this planet, very nearly. What should be said of a

person who lived on a nameless shore, served by Hester Prynne and

Caliban? Who scooped hundreds--perhaps thousands--out of a chest, to

flee at dawn from a town whose name she had never heard mentioned,

though she had lived within walking distance of it all her life?

[Illustration: SCOOPED HUNDREDS--PERHAPS THOUSANDS--OUT OF A CHEST, TO

FLEE AT DAWN]

It was absurd--but something must be done. Margarita sat contented and

amused, devouring the shabby bustle all around her with her great

deep-set eyes, willing, apparently, to sit there indefinitely.

"Will you let me examine your bag?" Roger said at last, and she handed

him the coarse, imitation-leather affair. There was a soiled, cheap

handkerchief in it, some four hundred dollars in banknotes, and a torn

envelope with a town and state written clearly on it.

I have tried to write the name of this town, and when I found that

impossible, I tried to invent one to take its place, but I could not

do it. Surely it is nothing to any of you who may happen to read this

poor attempt of mine to pass my time, nothing, and less than nothing,

just what may be the name of the utterly unimportant little backwater

of a village from which, if you know the way, you may walk four miles

or so to Margarita's home. Undoubtedly many of you sail by it often,

but it is hidden from you by the rise of the ground, the high rocks

and the great, ancient-looking wall that I helped to pile. These and

the reefs protect it quite sufficiently. And I do not want you there.

It would prove far too interesting a spot to jaded trippers and

trotters--and it is amazing how quickly your new countries grow jaded;

more eager for fresh scenes than old Japan herself, Nippon the

rice-blest, the imperishable, whence I send these words.

Be satisfied, then, to know that in the direction of this torn

envelope Roger held the clew to Margarita's nameless home. Yes, the

young woman had sold her the bag with the clothing and advised her to

put the banknotes in it. No, she did not know her name. She smelled

good--like the young man who advised Broadway.

"Come, Margarita," said Roger gravely, "let us see when you can

start," and she followed him submissively to the wicket, matched her

stride to his on his discovery that a train which would take them half

way was just about to start, and ran beside him to the steps of the

car. He motioned to her to mount and she did so, turning at the top of

the steps with a face of sudden terror.

"You are not going to leave me, Roger Bradley?" she cried, "where am I

going?"

"Certainly I shall not leave you. You are going home," he said

quietly, and mounted after her. The guard stared at them, the bell

clanged sadly and the train moved out of the station. The play, you

see, was well along.

PART TWO

IN WHICH THE SPRING FLOWS IN A LITTLE STREAM

O father, mother, let me be,

Never again shall I have rest.

For as I lay beside the sea,

A woman walked the waves to me,

And stole the heart out of my breast.

_Sir Hugh and the Mermaiden._

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