SUNSHINE AND SHADOW

Tillie's unhappiness, in her certainty that on Saturday night the Board

would vote for the eviction of the teacher, was so great that she felt

almost indifferent to her own fate, as she and the doctor started on

their six-mile ride to East Donegal. But when he presently confided to

her his scheme to foil her father and Absalom, she became almost

hysterical with joy.

"You see, Tillie, it's this here way. Two of these here directers owes

me bills. Now in drivin' you over to East Donegal I'm passin' near to

the farms of both of them directers, and I'll make it suit to stop off

and press 'em fur my money. They're both of 'em near as close as Jake

Getz! They don't like it fur me to press 'em to pay right aways. So

after while I'll say that if they wote ag'in' Jake and Nathaniel, and

each of 'em gets one of the other two directers to wote with him to

leave Teacher keep his job, I'll throw 'em the doctor's bill off! Adam

Oberholzer he owes me about twelve dollars, and Joseph Kettering he

owes me ten. I guess it ain't worth twelve dollars to Adam and ten to

Joseph to run Teacher off William Penn!"

"And do you suppose that they will be able to influence the other

two--John Coppenhaver and Pete Underwocht?"

"When all them dollars depends on it, I don't suppose nothin'--I know.

I'll put it this here way: 'If Teacher ain't chased off, I'll throw you

my doctor's bill off. If he is, you'll pay me up, and pretty damned

quick, too!'"

"But, Doc," faltered Tillie, "won't it be bribery?"

"Och, Tillie, a body mustn't feel so conscientious about such little

things like them. That's bein' too serious."

"Did you tell the teacher you were going to do this?" she uneasily

asked.

"Well, I guess I ain't such a blamed fool! I guess I know that much,

that he wouldn't of saw it the way _I_ see it. I tole him I was goin'

to bully them directers to keep him in his job--but he don't know how

I'm doin' it."

"I'm glad he doesn't know," sighed Tillie.

"Yes, he darsent know till it's all over oncet."

The joy and relief she felt at the doctor's scheme, which she was quite

sure would work out successfully, gave her a self-confidence in the

ordeal before her that sharpened her wits almost to brilliancy. She

sailed through this examination, which otherwise she would have dreaded

unspeakably, with an aplomb that made her a stranger to herself. Even

that bugbear of the examination labeled by the superintendent, "General

Information," and regarded with suspicion by the applicants as a snare

and a delusion, did not confound Tillie in her sudden and new-found

courage; though the questions under this head brought forth from the

applicants such astonishing statements as that Henry VIII was chiefly

noted for being "a great widower"; and that the Mother of the Gracchi

was "probably Mrs. Gracchi."

In her unwonted elation, Tillie even waxed a bit witty, and in the quiz

on "Methods of Discipline," she gave an answer which no doubt led the

superintendent to mark her high.

"What method would you pursue with a boy in your school who was

addicted to swearing?" she was asked.

"I suppose I should make him swear off!" said Tillie, with actual

flippancy.

A neat young woman of the class, sitting directly in front of the

superintendent, and wearing spectacles and very straight, tight hair,

cast a shocked and reproachful look upon Tillie, and turning to the

examiner, said primly, "_I_ would organize an anti-swearing society in

the school, and reward the boys who were not profane by making them

members of it, expelling those who used any profane language."

"And make every normal boy turn blasphemer in derision, I'm afraid,"

was the superintendent's ironical comment.

When, at four o'clock that afternoon, she drove back with the doctor

through the winter twilight, bearing her precious certificate in her

bosom, the brightness of her face seemed to reflect the brilliancy of

the red sunset glow on snow-covered fields, frozen creek, and

farm-house windows.

"Bully fur you, Matilda!" the doctor kept repeating at intervals. "Now

won't Miss Margaret be tickled, though! I tell you what, wirtue like

hern gits its rewards even in this here life. She'll certainly be set

up to think she's made a teacher out of you unbeknownst! And mebbe it

won't tickle her wonderful to think how she's beat Jake Getz!" he

chuckled.

"Of course you're writin' to her to-night, Tillie, ain't you?" he

asked. "I'd write her off a letter myself if writin' come handier to

me."

"Of course I shall let her know at once," Tillie replied; and in her

voice, for the first time in the doctor's acquaintance with her, there

was a touch of gentle complacency.

"I'll get your letter out the tree-holler to-morrow morning, then, when

I go a-past--and I can stamp it and mail it fur you till noon. Then

she'll get it till Monday morning yet! By gum, won't she, now, be

tickled!"

"Isn't it all beautiful!" Tillie breathed ecstatically. "I've got my

certificate and the teacher won't be put out! What did Adam Oberholzer

and Joseph Kettering say, Doc?"

"I've got them fixed all right! Just you wait, Tillie!" he said

mysteriously. "Mebbe us we ain't goin' to have the laugh on your pop

and old Nathaniel Puntz! You'll see! Wait till your pop comes home and

says what's happened at Board meetin' to-night! Golly! Won't he be

hoppin' mad!"

"What is going to happen, Doc?"

"You wait and see! I ain't tellin' even you, Tillie. I'm savin' it fur

a surprise party fur all of yous!"

"Father won't speak to me about it, you know. He won't mention

Teacher's name to me."

"Then won't you find out off of him about the Board meetin'?" the

doctor asked in disappointment. "Must you wait till you see me again

oncet?"

"He will tell mother. I can get her to tell me," Tillie said.

"All right. Somepin's going to happen too good to wait! Now look-ahere,

Tillie, is your pop to be tole about your certificate?"

"I won't tell him until I must. I don't know how he'd take it. He might

not let me get a school to teach. Of course, when once I've got a

school, he will have to be told. And then," she quietly added, "I shall

teach, whether he forbids it or not."

"To be sure!" heartily assented the doctor. "And leave him go roll

hisself, ain't! I'll keep a lookout fur you and tell you the first

wacancy I hear of."

"What would I do--what should I have done in all these years, Doc--if

it hadn't been for you!" smiled Tillie, with an affectionate pressure

of his rough hand; and the doctor's face shone with pleasure to hear

her.

"You have been a good friend to me, Doc."

"Och, that's all right, Tillie. As I sayed, wirtue has its reward even

in this here life. My wirtuous acts in standin' by you has gave me as

much satisfaction as I've ever had out of anything! But now, Tillie,

about tellin' your pop. I don't suspicion he'd take it anyways ugly. A

body'd think he'd be proud! And he hadn't none of the expense of givin'

you your nice education!"

"I can't be sure how he WOULD take it, Doc, so I would rather not tell

him until I must."

"All right. Just what you say. But I dare tell missus, ain't?"

"If she won't tell the girls, Doc. It would get back to father, I'm

afraid, if so many knew it."

"I 'll tell her not to tell. She 'll be as pleased and proud as if it

was Manda or Rebecca!"

"Poor Aunty Em! She is so good to me, and I'm afraid I've disappointed

her!" Tillie humbly said; but somehow the sadness that should have

expressed itself in the voice of one under suspension from meeting,

when speaking of her sin, was quite lacking.

When, at length, they reached the Getz farm, Mr. Getz met them at the

gate, his face harsh with displeasure at Tillie's long and unpermitted

absence from home.

"Hello, Jake!" said the doctor, pleasantly, as her father lifted her

down from the high buggy. "I guess missus tole you how I heard Tillie

fainted away in a swoond day before yesterday, so this morning I come

over to see her oncet--Aunty Em she was some oneasy. And I seen she

would mebbe have another such a swoond if she didn't get a long day out

in the air. It's done her wonderful much good--wonderful!"

"She hadn't no need to stay all day!" growled Mr. Getz. "Mom had all

Tillie's work to do, and her own too, and she didn't get it through

all."

"Well, better LET the work than have Tillie havin' any more of them

dangerous swoonds. Them's dangerous, I tell you, Jake! Sometimes folks

never comes to, yet!"

Mr. Getz looked at Tillie apprehensively. "You better go in and get

your hot supper, Tillie," he said, not ungently.

Before this forbearance of her father, Tillie had a feeling of shame in

the doctor's subterfuges, as she bade her loyal friend good night and

turned to go indoors.

"You'll be over to Board meetin' to-night, ain't?" the doctor said to

Mr. Getz as he picked up the reins.

"To be sure! Me and Nathaniel Puntz has a statement to make to the

Board that'll chase that tony dude teacher off his job so quick he

won't have time to pack his trunk!"

"Is that so?" the doctor said in feigned surprise. "Well, he certainly

is some tony--that I must give him, Jake. Well, good night to yous! Be

careful of Tillie's health!"

Getz went into the house and the doctor, chuckling to himself, drove

away.

Tillie was in bed, but sleep was far from her eyes, when, late that

night, she heard her father return from the Board meeting. Long she lay

in her bed, listening with tense nerves to his suppressed tones as he

talked to his wife in the room across the hall, but she could not hear

what he said. Not even his tone of voice was sufficiently enlightening

as to how affairs had gone.

In her wakefulness the night was agonizingly long; for though she was

hopeful of the success of the doctor's plot, she knew that possibly

there might have been some fatal hitch.

At the breakfast-table, next morning, her father looked almost sick,

and Tillie's heart throbbed with unfilial joy in the significance of

this. His manner to her was curt and his face betrayed sullen anger; he

talked but little, and did not once refer to the Board meeting in her

presence.

It was not until ten o'clock, when he had gone with some of the

children to the Evangelical church, that she found her longed-for

opportunity to question her stepmother.

"Well," she began, with assumed indifference, as she and her mother

worked together in the kitchen preparing the big Sunday dinner, "did

they put the teacher out?"

"If they put him out?" exclaimed Mrs. Getz, slightly roused from her

customary apathy. "Well, I think they didn't! What do you think they

done yet?"

"I'm sure," said Tillie, evidently greatly interested in the turnips

she was paring, "I don't know."

"They raised his salary five a month!"

The turnips dropped into the pan, and Tillie raised her eyes to gaze

incredulously into the face of her stepmother, who, with hands on her

hips, stood looking down upon her.

"Yes," went on Mrs. Getz, "that's what they done! A dumm thing like

that! And after pop and Nathaniel Puntz they had spoke their speeches

where they had ready, how Teacher he wasn't fit fur William Penn! And

after they tole how he had up and sassed pop, and him a directer yet!

And Nathaniel he tole how Absalom had heard off the Doc how Teacher he

was a' UNbeliever and says musin' is the same to him as prayin'! Now

think! Such conwictions as them! And then, when the wote was took, here

it come out that only pop and Nathaniel Puntz woted ag'in' Teacher, and

the other four they woted FUR! And they woted to raise his salary five

a month yet!"

Tillie's eyes dropped from her mother's face, her chin quivered, she

bit her lip, and suddenly, unable to control herself, she broke into

wild, helpless laughter.

Mrs. Getz stared at her almost in consternation. Never before in her

life had she seen Tillie laugh with such abandon.

"What ails you?" she asked wonderingly.

Tillie could find no voice to answer, her slight frame shaking

convulsively.

"What you laughin' at, anyhow?" Mrs. Getz repeated, now quite

frightened.

"That--that Wyandotte hen jumped up on the sill!" Tillie murmured--then

went off into a perfect peal of mirth. It seemed as though all the

pent-up joy and gaiety of her childhood had burst forth in that moment.

"I don't see nothin' in that that's anyways comical--a Wyandotte hen on

the window-sill!" said Mrs. Getz, in stupid wonder.

"She looked so--so--oh!" Tillie gasped, and wiped her eyes with a

corner of her apron.

"You don't take no int'rust in what I tole you all!" Mrs. Getz

complained, sitting down near her stepdaughter to pick the chickens for

dinner. "I'd think it would make you ashamed fur the way you stood up

fur Teacher ag'in' your own pop here last Thursday--fur them four

directers to go ag'in' pop like this here!"

"What reasons did they give for voting for the teacher?" Tillie asked,

her hysterics subsiding.

"They didn't give no reasons till they had him elected a'ready. Then

Adam Oberholzer he got up and he spoke how Teacher learned the scholars

so good and got along without lickin' 'em any (pop he had brung that up

AG'IN' Teacher, but Adam he sayed it was FUR), and that they better

mebbe give him five extry a month to make sure to keep such a kind man

to their childern, and one that learnt 'em so good."

Tillie showed signs, for an instant, of going off into another fit of

laughter.

"What's ailin' you?" her mother asked in mystification. "I never seen

you act so funny! You better go take a drink."

Tillie repressed herself and went on with her work.

During the remainder of that day, and, indeed, through all the week

that followed, she struggled to conceal from her father the exultation

of her spirits. She feared he would interpret it as a rejoicing over

his defeat, and there was really no such feeling in the girl's gentle

heart. She was even moved to some faint--it must be confessed, very

faint--pangs of pity for him as she saw, from day to day, how hard he

took his defeat. Apparently, it was to him a sickening blow to have his

"authority" as school director defied by a penniless young man who was

partly dependent upon his vote for daily bread. He suffered keenly in

his conviction that the teacher was as deeply exultant in his victory

as Getz had expected to be.

In these days, Tillie walked on air, and to Mrs. Getz and the children

she seemed almost another girl, with that happy vibration in her

usually sad voice, and that light of gladness in her soft pensive eyes.

The glorious consciousness was ever with her that the teacher was

always near--though she saw him but seldom. This, and the possession of

the precious certificate, her talisman to freedom, hidden always in her

bosom, made her daily drudgery easy to her and her hours full of hope

and happiness.

Deep as was Tillie's impression of the steadiness of purpose in

Absalom's character, she was nevertheless rather taken aback when, on

the Sunday night after that horrible experience in the woods, her

suitor stolidly presented himself at the farm-house, attired in his

best clothes, his whole aspect and bearing eloquent of the fact that

recent defeat had but made him more doggedly determined to win in the

end.

Tillie wondered if she might not be safe now in dismissing him

emphatically and finally; but she decided there was still danger lest

Absalom might wreak his vengeance in some dreadful way upon the teacher.

Her heart was so full of happiness that she could tolerate even Absalom.

Only two short weeks of this brightness and glory, and then the blow

fell--the blow which blackened the sun in the heavens. The teacher

suddenly, and most mysteriously, resigned and went away.

No one knew why. Whether it was to take a better position, or for what

other possible reason, not a soul in the township could tell--not even

the Doc.

Strange to say, Fairchilds's going, instead of pleasing Mr. Getz, was

only an added offense to both him and Absalom. They had thirsted for

vengeance; they had longed to humiliate this "high-minded dude"; and

now not only was the opportunity lost to them, but the "job" they had

determined to wrest from him was indifferently hurled back in their

faces--he DIDN'T WANT IT! Absalom and Getz writhed in their helpless

spleen.

Tillie's undiscerning family did not for an instant attribute to its

true cause her sudden change from radiant happiness to the weakness and

lassitude that tell of mental anguish. They were not given to seeing

anything that was not entirely on the surface and perfectly obvious.

Three days had passed since Fairchilds's departure--three days of utter

blackness to Tillie; and on the third day she went to pay her weekly

visit to the tree-hollow in the woods where she was wont to place Miss

Margaret's letters.

On this day she found, to her amazement, two letters. Her knees shook

as she recognized the teacher's handwriting on one of them.

There was no stamp and no post-mark on the envelop. He had evidently

written the letter before leaving, and had left it with the doctor to

be delivered to her.

Tillie had always been obliged to maneuver skilfully in order to get

away from the house long enough to pay these weekly visits to the

tree-hollow; and she nearly always read her letter from Miss Margaret

at night by a candle, when the household was asleep.

But now, heedless of consequences, she sat down on a snow-covered log

and opened Fairchilds's letter, her teeth chattering with more than

cold.

It was only a note, written in great haste and evidently under some

excitement. It told her of his immediate departure for Cambridge to

accept a rather profitable private tutorship to a rich man's son. He

would write to Tillie, later, when he could. Meanwhile, God bless

her--and he was always her friend. That was all. He gave her no address

and did not speak of her writing to him.

Tillie walked home in a dream. All that evening, she was so "dopplig"

as finally to call forth a sharp rebuke from her father, to which she

paid not the slightest heed.

Would she ever see him again, her heart kept asking? Would he really

write to her again? Where was he at this moment, and what was he doing?

Did he send one thought to her, so far away, so desolate? Did he have

in any least degree the desire, the yearning, for her that she had for

him?

Tillie felt a pang of remorse for her disloyalty to Miss Margaret when

she realized that she had almost forgotten that always precious letter.

When, a little past midnight, she took it from her dress pocket she

noticed what had before escaped her--some erratic writing in lead on

the back of the envelop. It was in the doctor's strenuous hand.

"Willyam Pens as good as yoorn ive got them all promist but your pop to

wote for you at the bored meating saterdy its to be a surprize party

for your pop."

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