WHO IS HE?
Five years had elapsed. Meg was eighteen; she had distanced all her
competitors, and she was the head-pupil of Miss Reeves' establishment.
During those years she still remained somewhat of a solitary in the
school. The girls who had been her first schoolfellows had all left. By
the succeeding girls, Meg was still called repellent by some, attractive
by others.
As time went on the mystery of her origin, about which her schoolmates
still busied themselves, pained and humiliated her with greater
poignancy. She longed to be allowed to know and love her benefactor.
When questioned as to who she thought she was--how she had come by the
name of Beecham--she felt inclined to answer bitterly: "Do not call me
by my name. It would be more convenient to call me by a number, as I am
told the prisoners are called. Let me say I am number 18 or 24."
Mr. Standish still held an ever-present if somewhat dim place in the
background of Meg's consciousness. It was a quaint half-goblin
remembrance. The link between them seemed sundered forever. She had
never heard from him since their parting. To Ursula alone she had spoken
of that solitary time, of the friend who had been kind to her, and of
the fashion-plate which had been sacred to her as her mother's portrait.
To her alone she had shown her treasured presents. One day Ursula
suggested that her mysterious protector was Mr. Standish. That the stern
old gentleman was perhaps a guardian appointed by this friend in his
absence. Meg had disclaimed the possibility. Yet the thought that he
might be lingered in her mind. As a child loves wonderland, so she dwelt
upon Ursula's suggestion. She reasoned herself out of it. She laughed at
it, yet it remained. Was he not the only one who had cared for her in
her unsheltered childhood?
"Describe him to me," Ursula had once asked.
"I cannot," Meg answered. "It is strange. I can remember a tie he
wore--dark-blue, dotted over with tiny horseshoes; and I remember a pair
of slippers he had, with big red roses on the toes. I remember his
hands, and the color of his hair."
"And you can't remember his face?" Ursula said in tones of
disappointment.
"Perhaps if I saw him I might," answered Meg reflectively. "It is so
long ago, I have a very dim recollection of his features. They beamed
with kindness, and he was kind to me." And then she would tell again the
many kind things he had done, the memory of which she held sacred. "Ah,"
she continued, "I used to be unable to think and speak of those things
without tears, but now you see my eyes are quite dry."
Once Meg asked Mr. Fullbloom if Mr. Standish was her guardian. The
elderly lawyer she had once known was dead. His brother was now the
representative of her unknown benefactor. He alone visited her from the
outside world. The solicitor chuckled, as if he were amazingly tickled
by this question, but he answered it neither in the affirmative nor the
negative.
Mr. Horace Fullbloom was cheery and gray-headed; his sparkling brown
eyes were surrounded by crinkles, suggestive of puckers made by laughter
rather than by age. His appearance suggested a mischievous humor. Like
his brother, he was a bit of a dandy. He also wore a frilled shirt, an
impressive bloodstone ring on his little finger, and he sported a silver
snuffbox. The solicitor was a favorite with the girls. His cynicism was
the sunshine of cynicism. He chaffed them with paternal familiarity,
watching them with amused benevolence. He seemed to regard them as
belonging to a species not deserving any serious thought or treatment.
Meg especially interested him. He always questioned her kindly about
herself, and apparently relished the little tiffs that marked their
intercourse.
These tiffs were caused by Meg's endeavors to find out the name of her
mysterious benefactor, and by the humorous banter with which the
solicitor evaded her curiosity. She had dreams of that human providence
who stood between her and destitution. Every noble personality she heard
or read of became associated in Meg's mind with the thought of her
guardian hero. The banter with which Mr. Fullbloom met her inquiries did
not prevent Meg from waiting and watching for the feverish moment when
she would again question him. Was it the stern old gentleman she
remembered who twice had appeared to her? If it were, what was his name?
If it were not, who was it, then?
To the teasing humor with which the solicitor asked her why she wanted
so much to know, she answered, "Because I am grateful."
"But gratitude, my dear," said Mr. Fullbloom, tapping his snuffbox,
"wants an object. Suppose I were to tell you it was the big stone
figure on the gate, or some old parchment will and testament that is
your guardian. What then? Would you feel grateful to those bloodless
patrons?"
"I would be grateful to one who remembered and thought of me were he
living or dead," said Meg.
"Perhaps if he be alive he is a gruff, disagreeable old curmudgeon; you
might be afraid of him--you might not like him!"
Meg was not to be baffled by such answers. She wanted to know who it was
she had a right to love and be grateful to. It was such pain to her also
to live among people who kept wondering who she was.
More than once she put into the solicitor's hands a letter, that she
asked him to deliver to her unknown friend; but to these missives, that
he invariably took away with him, Mr. Fullbloom never brought an answer.
To her demand, had he delivered her letters, Mr. Fullbloom returned
tantalizing answers. One day he admitted that he had put them all, every
one, into the pillar post.
"But not as they were, without an address?" Meg asked in consternation.
"That was no concern of mine. I posted them," said Mr. Fullbloom.
"But where did my letters go?" she cried.
"Perhaps one went to Surrey; perhaps another found its way to York
Minster; perhaps a third was carried by fate to its rightful owner," the
solicitor replied with a chuckle, and eyes twinkling with the light of
mischief. With a little burst of anger, Meg told him that if he would
not tell her who her protector was she would rather not see him; it was
so painful not to know to whom she owed all this gratitude.
After this scene a long interval elapsed, during which Mr. Fullbloom did
not appear; till inconsistently Meg began to long for him to come and
visit her again.
It was the eve of the Easter holidays. The school was breaking up. Meg
had formed a resolution. This resolution helped her to bear the pain
that always accompanied the approach of the holidays. The eager plans
she heard her comrades discussing were ever an occasion of pain to her
sensitive nature, bringing her loneliness home more keenly.
The gentle independence that now marked Meg's manner had grown upon her
of late; the stern necessity of self-support that, since her childhood,
had governed her thoughts and actions, had become the ruling instinct of
her life. She had determined to be no longer a burden to her protector,
and the resolve heightened her spirits. Dreaming is the employment of
the idle, and Meg's life was one of action.
If something of the vividness that had distinguished her glance and
expression in childhood seemed to have passed away, it was rather
subdued or merged in a look, as of a habit of thought now usual to her.
Meg's appearance was a matter of discussion in the school; some called
her beautiful, others vowed she was plain. Her soft, silky "no color"
hair--"mousey hair" Ursula called it--went charmingly with her
complexion; it obtruded somewhat heavily over her forehead, for she was
inclined to be careless about her dress. Her beauty was of the sort that
you do not think of analyzing. It grew upon the beholder, who invariably
discovered that her features possessed beauty of form, and that the
whole physiognomy had the charm that is magnetic.
Meg had been contemplating writing to Mr. Fullbloom to tell him the
resolve she had taken, when his presence was announced in the
drawing-room.
"Well, my dear," said the solicitor, taking her two hands in his, "here
I am. I did not dare to show myself before I could communicate news. You
commanded me the last time I saw you not to appear in your presence
until I brought you tidings of your guardian."
"I was sorry I said that," replied Meg. "I have missed you. I did not
think you would obey me so implicitly."
"Not after such a definite command!" Eh? exclaimed the solicitor,
jerking his head on one side and surveying her with his superficially
smiling glance. "Well, now, what news of yourself, little lady?" he
continued, leading her to a chair and sitting down beside her.
"I have passed my examination," said Meg. "I am now at the head of the
school."
Mr. Fullbloom put his hand on his heart and bowed.
"A modern Aspasia!" he replied as Meg paused, and seemed to hesitate.
"Come," he went on, "when is our tiff to begin? I must have my tiff
about the great Unknown."
"No," said Meg gently, "we shall have no more tiffs. I have made up my
mind I will ask no more questions; and if possible, I shall cease
wondering concerning myself. Whoever my benefactor may be, I am grateful
to him--grateful from my heart. I wish I could prove my gratitude to
him. I wish it so much that I cannot but think it will be granted to me
to do so some day."
"Perhaps it will--and sooner than you think," exclaimed Mr. Fullbloom.
"Ha! ha!" he went on tantalizingly, the flicker of mischief alight in
his eyes as Meg looked up inquiringly. "You have just been saying you
would not wonder any more.
"You would not be curious. Ha! ha! Mrs. Blue Beard, you would pry into
any forbidden closet--you know you would--to find out that secret."
"No," repeated Meg, "I will not be curious any more. There must be some
reason--some reason that I ought to respect. You will, I know, tell my
kind friend, who he or she may be, that I am grateful; also, that I have
taken a great resolve."
"Indeed!" said Fullbloom with evident enjoyment. "May I ask what it is?"
"I will not be dependent any longer. I am going to earn my own
livelihood," replied Meg.
"How valorous we are, all of a sudden!" said Mr. Fullbloom, chuckling as
if immensely tickled by the idea of Meg earning her livelihood.
"No, not all of a sudden!" said Meg with energy. "I have long thought of
it. My wishes, my dreams have long been to be independent; to be no
longer a pensioner on the bounty of one whose very name is unknown to
me. I am going to be a governess. Miss Reeves has heard of a situation,
the duties of which she thinks I am fitted to undertake--to teach three
little girls in the country. The salary is thirty pounds. I won't be
dependent any longer," repeated Meg with concentration.
"Miss Reeves and the three little girls go to Jericho!" cried Mr.
Fullbloom. Then taking Meg's two hands in his paternal grasp, "My dear
child," he said, "you have long wished to know your benefactor's name.
To-morrow you will know it. You will not only know it, but you will be
on a visit to him. He sends me to invite you down to stay at his place
in the country."
"To-morrow!" repeated Meg. "On a visit to him! Who, then, is he?"
"Ha! ha!" cried Mr. Fullbloom gleefully. "All that fine assumption of
having laid curiosity aside, where is it? No, no, no; not till to-morrow
will you know anything about it."
"But where am I to go? Who am I to ask for?" cried Meg.
"Listen, my dear," explained Mr. Fullbloom, giving an occasional
emphasis to his words by a pressure of Meg's hands. "You are to go to
London first, then to the station of the North-Western Railway. Miss
Reeves will go with you thus far; she will take a first-class ticket for
you. You must take the train that leaves London at a quarter to three. I
will be at Greywolds Station to meet you at half-past five. It takes
over three hours to get to Greywolds."
Meg felt a sudden recoil as she realized how near she was to the meeting
she had dreamed of so long.
"Don't trouble your little head about money. All that is settled. Miss
Reeves will make the necessary preparations. You have nothing to do but
attend to the farewells. I must be off now. I am going to Greywolds
to-night. I have an appointment with your mysterious patron."
Mr. Fullbloom's eyes were brimming over with elvish laughter, as with
another pressure of Meg's two hands he turned away. He left her standing
silent and chill, under the impression of that sudden revulsion of
feeling.