XXXII

It happened like this.

Sitting down beside Pavel in the cart, Nejdanov fell into a state of

great excitement. As soon as they rolled out of the courtyard onto the

high road leading to T. he began shouting out the most absurd things to

the peasants he met on the way. “Why are you asleep? Rouse yourself! The

time has come! Down with the taxes! Down with the landlords!”

Some of the peasants stared at him in amazement, others passed on

without taking any notice of him, thinking that he was drunk; one even

said when he got home that he had met a Frenchman on the way who was

jabbering away at something he did not understand. Nejdanov had common

sense enough to know that what he was doing was unutterably stupid and

absurd had he not got himself up to such a pitch of excitement that he

was no longer able to discriminate between sense and nonsense. Pavel

tried to quiet him, saying that it was impossible to go on like that;

that they were quite near a large village, the first on the borders of

T., and that there they could look round.... But Nejdanov would not

calm down, and at the same time his face bore a sad, almost despairing,

expression. Their horse was an energetic, round little thing, with a

clipped mane on its scraggy neck. It tugged at the reins, and its strong

little legs flew as fast as they could, just as if it were conscious

of bearing important people to the scene of action. Just before they

reached the village, Nejdanov saw a group of about eight peasants

standing by the side of the road at the closed doors of a granary. He

instantly jumped out of the cart, rushed up to them, and began shouting

at them, thumping his fists and gesticulating for about five minutes.

The words “For Freedom! March on! Put the shoulder to the wheel!” could

be distinguished from among the rest of his confused words.

The peasants, who had met before the granary for the purpose of

discussing how to fill it once more—if only to show that they

were doing something (it was the communal granary and consequently

empty)—fixed their eyes on Nejdanov and seemed to listen to him with

the greatest attention, but they had evidently not understood a word he

had said, for no sooner was his back turned, shouting for the last time

“Freedom!” as he rushed away, when one of them, the most sagacious of

the lot, shook his head saying, “What a severe one!” “He must be an

officer,” another remarked, to which the wise one said: “We know all

about that—he doesn’t talk for nothing. We’ll have to pay the piper.”

“Heavens! what nonsense this all is!” Nejdanov thought to himself, as he

sat down next to Pavel in the cart. “But then none of us know how to get

at the people—perhaps this is the right way after all! Who knows? Go

on! Does your heart ache? Let it!”

They found themselves in the main street of the village in the middle

of which a number of people were gathered together before a tavern.

Nejdanov, paying no heed to Pavel, who was trying to hold him back,

leapt down from the cart with a cry of “Brothers!” The crowd made way

for him and he again began preaching, looking neither to right nor left,

as if furious and weeping at the same time. But things turned out quite

differently than with his former attempt at the barn. An enormous fellow

with a clean-shaven, vicious face, in a short greasy coat, high boots,

and a sheepskin cap, came up to him and clapped him on the shoulder.

“All right! my fine fellow!” he bawled out in a wheezy voice; “but

wait a bit! good deeds must be rewarded. Come along in here. It’ll be

much better talking in there.” He pulled Nejdanov into the tavern,

the others streamed in after them. “Michaitch!” the fellow shouted,

“twopennyworth! My favourite drink! I want to treat a friend. Who he

is, what’s his family, and where he’s from, only the devil knows!

Drink!” he said, turning to Nejdanov and handing him a heavy, full

glass, wet all over on the outside, as though perspiring, “drink, if

you really have any feeling for us!” “Drink!” came a chorus of voices.

Nejdanov, who seemed as if in a fever, seized the glass and with a

cry of “I drink to you, children!” drank it off at a gulp. Ugh! He

drank it off with the same desperate heroism with which he would have

flung himself in storming a battery or on a line of bayonets. But what

was happening to him? Something seemed to have struck his spine, his

legs, burned his throat, his chest, his stomach, made the tears come

into his eyes. A shudder of disgust passed all over him. He began

shouting at the top of his voice to drown the throbbing in his head.

The dark tavern room suddenly became hot and thick and suffocating—and

people, people everywhere! Nejdanov began talking, talking incessantly,

shouting furiously, in exasperation, shaking broad rough hands, kissing

prickly beards. ... The enormous fellow in the greasy coat kissed him

too, nearly breaking his ribs. This fellow turned out to be a perfect

fiend. “I’ll wring the neck,” he shouted, “I’ll wring the neck of

anyone who dares to offend our brother! And what’s more, I’ll make

mincemeat of him too... I’ll make him cry out! That’s nothing to me.

I was a butcher and know how to do such jobs!” At this he held up an

enormous fist covered with freckles. Someone again shouted, “Drink!”

and Nejdanov again swallowed a glass of the filthy poison. But this

second time was truly awful! Blunt hooks seemed to be tearing him to

pieces inside. His head was in a whirl, green circles swam before his

eyes. A hubbub arose... Oh horror! a third glass. Was it possible he

emptied that too? He seemed to be surrounded by purple noses, dusty

heads of hair, tanned necks covered with nets of wrinkles. Rough hands

seized him. “Go on!” they bawled out in angry voices, “talk away! The

day before yesterday another stranger talked like that. Go on....” The

earth seemed reeling under Nejdanov’s feet, his voice sounded strange

to his own ears as though coming from a long way off.... Was it death

or what?

And suddenly he felt the fresh air blowing about his face, no more

pushing and shoving, no more stench of spirits, sheep-skin, tar, nor

leather.... He was again sitting beside Pavel in the cart, struggling at

first and shouting, “Where are you off to? Stop! I haven’t had time to

tell them anything—I must explain...” and then added, “and what are

your own ideas on the subject, you sly-boots?”

“It would certainly be well if there were no gentry and the land

belonged to us, of course,” Pavel replied, “but there’s been no such

order from the government.” He quietly turned the horse’s head and,

suddenly lashing it on the back with the reins, set off at full gallop,

away from this din and uproar, back to the factory.

Nejdanov sat dozing, rocked by the motion of the cart, while the

wind played pleasantly about his face and kept back gloomy depressing

thoughts.

He was annoyed that he had not been allowed to say all that he had

wanted to say.... Again the wind caressed his overheated face.

And then—a momentary glimpse of Mariana—a burning sense of shame—and

sleep, deep, sound sleep....

Pavel told Solomin all this afterwards, not hiding the fact that he did

not attempt to prevent Nejdanov from drinking—otherwise he could not

have got him out of the whirl. The others would not have let him go.

“When he seemed to be getting very feeble, I asked them to let him off,

and they agreed to, on condition that I gave them a shilling, so I gave

it them.”

“You acted quite rightly,” Solomin said, approvingly.

Nejdanov slept, while Mariana sat at the window looking out into the

garden. Strange to say the angry, almost wicked, thoughts that had

been tormenting her until Nejdanov and Pavel arrived had completely

disappeared. Nejdanov himself was not in the least repulsive or

disgusting to her; she was only sorry for him. She knew quite well that

he was not a debauchee, a drunkard, and was wondering what she would say

to him when he woke up; something friendly and affectionate to minimise

the first sting of conscience and shame. “I must try and get him to tell

me himself how it all happened,” she thought.

She was not disturbed, but depressed—hopelessly depressed. It seemed

as if a breath of the real atmosphere of the world towards which she was

striving had blown on her suddenly, making her shudder at its coarseness

and darkness. What Moloch was this to which she was going to sacrifice

herself?

But no! It could not be! This was merely an incident, it would soon pass

over. A momentary impression that had struck her so forcibly because it

had happened so unexpectedly. She got up, walked over to the couch on

which Nejdanov was lying, took out her pocket-handkerchief and wiped his

pale forehead, which was painfully drawn, even in sleep, and smoothed

back his hair....

She pitied him as a mother pities her suffering child. But it was

somewhat painful for her to look at him, so she went quietly into her

own room, leaving the door unlocked.

She did not attempt to take any work in her hand. She sat down and

thoughts began crowding in upon her. She felt how the time was slipping

away, how one minute flew after another, and the sensation was even

pleasant to her. Her heart beat fast and again she seemed to be waiting

for something.

What has become of Solomin?

The door creaked softly and Tatiana came into the room. “What do you

want?” Mariana asked with a shade of annoyance.

“Mariana Vikentievna,” Tatiana began in an undertone, “don’t worry, my

dear. Such things happen every day. Besides, the Lord be thanked—”

“I am not worrying at all, Tatiana Osipovna,” Mariana interrupted her.

“Alexai Dmitritch is a little indisposed, nothing very serious!”

“That’s all right! I wondered why you didn’t come, and thought there

might be something the matter with you. But still I wouldn’t have come

in to you. It’s always best not to interfere. But someone has come—a

little lame man, the Lord knows who he is—and demands to see Alexai

Dmitritch! I wonder what for? This morning that female came for him and

now this little cripple. ‘If Alexai Dmitritch is not at home,’ he says,

‘then I must see Vassily Fedotitch! I won’t go away without seeing him.

It’s on a very urgent matter.’ We wanted to get rid of him, as we did

of that woman, told him Vassily Fedotitch was not at home, but he is

determined to see him even if he has to wait until midnight. There he

is walking about in the yard. Come and have a look at him through the

little window in the corridor. Perhaps you’ll recognise him.”

Mariana followed Tatiana out into the corridor, and on passing Nejdanov

was again struck by that painful frown on his forehead and passed her

pocket-handkerchief over it a second time.

Through the dusty little window she caught a glimpse of the visitor whom

Tatiana had spoken of. He was unknown to her. At this moment Solomin

appeared from a corner of the house.

The little cripple rushed up to him and extended his hand. Solomin

pressed it. He was obviously acquainted with him. They both

disappeared.... Soon their footsteps were heard coming up the stairs.

They were coming to see her....

Mariana fled into her own room and remained standing in the middle of

it, hardly able to breathe. She was mortally afraid... but of what? She

did not know herself.

Solomin’s head appeared through the door.

“Mariana Vikentievna, can I come in? I have brought someone whom it’s

absolutely necessary for you to see.”

Mariana merely nodded her head in reply and behind Solomin in

walked—Paklin.

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