CHAPTER XXXV

"We are unprofitable servants: we have done that which was our

duty to do."--ST. LUKE XVII. 10.

Half an hour later Dea Flavia Augusta was in the tablinium. She had

received Caius Nepos, the praetorian praefect, Marcus Ancyrus, the

elder, my lords Hortensius Martius, Philippus Decius and the others, and

they, who had heard so many conflicting rumours throughout the morning

and were beginning to quake with fear, for none of the rumours were

reassuring, were grouped trembling and expectant around her.

"My lords," she began as soon as she had received their obsequious

greetings, "I know not if you have heard the news. The Cæsar hath

succeeded in quitting Rome; he is on his way to rejoin his legions and

nothing can stand in the way of his progress. In a few days from now he

will make his State re-entry into the city, and the city will resound

from end to end with rejoicings in his honour."

"We had all heard the news, Augusta," said Caius Nepos who was vainly

trying to steady his voice and to appear calm and dignified, "and also

that a proclamation of pardon hath preceded the entry of the Cæsar into

Rome and hath been affixed to the rostrum of the great Augustus by the

consul-major himself this morning."

"And what do you make of all this, my lords?" she asked.

"That some gods of evil have been at work," muttered young Escanes

between set teeth, "and spirited the tyrannical madman out of the way

for the further scourging of his people."

"The spirit, my lords," she interposed quietly, "that led my kinsman to

safety last night was one which actuated the noblest patrician in Rome

to do his duty loyally by the Cæsar."

"Then curse him for a traitor," muttered Caius Nepos, whose cheeks had

become white with terror.

"He was no traitor to you, my lords," she retorted hotly, "for he was

not one of you. He was true to the oath which he had rendered to the

Cæsar; aye, even to the Cæsar whom we, my lords, all of us here present

had been ready to betray."

Then as she saw nothing but sullen faces around her and not a word broke

the silence that ensued, she continued more calmly:

"Yesterday you came to me, my lords, with proposals of treachery to

which I, alas, did listen because in my heart I had already chosen one

man who I felt was worthy to rule over this great Empire. I had made my

choice and myself offered him the imperium, the throne of Augustus and

the sceptre of the Cæsars.... But he refused it all, my lords, and went

forth in the night to place himself body and heart at the Cæsar's

service."

"And his name, O Augusta?" queried Ancyrus, the elder.

"He hath name Taurus Antinor and was once praefect of Rome."

"He is dead!" broke in Hortensius Martius hotly.

"He lived long enough, my lord," she retorted, "to show us all our

duty."

There was silence after that, for many a heart was beating

spasmodically with fear or with hope. My lord Hortensius Martius sat on

a low stool, with his elbow on his knee, his chin buried in his hand.

His eyes, glowing with dull and sullen hatred, searched the face of Dea

Flavia, trying to read what went on behind the pure, straight brow and

those liquid blue eyes, deep as the fathomless sea.

"What is to be done?" said Ancyrus, the elder, with a pitiable look of

perplexity directed at the Augusta.

"To make our submission to the Cæsar," she said simply, "those of us at

least who are not afraid of his wrath. For the others there is still

time to seek a safe retreat far away from Rome."

"But this is monstrous!" cried Hortensius Martius, suddenly jumping to

his feet and beginning to pace up and down the room in an outburst of

impotent wrath. "This is miserable, cowardly, abject! What? Would ye

allow that stranger, that son of slaves, to thwart your plans by his

treachery? Are we naughty children that can thus be sent, well-whipped

and whining to bed? Up, my lords, this is not the end! Cæsar is not yet

in Rome! The people are still dissatisfied. Hark to the noise in the

Forum below! Does it sound as if the populace was accepting the news

with rejoicing? Up now, my lords! It is not too late! Acclaim your new

Cæsar; it is not too late, I say. When the legions return with that

mountebank at their head let them find Dea Flavia Augusta and her lord

the acknowledged masters of Rome."

He looked flushed, excited and proud, feeling that even at this eleventh

hour he could carry these men along with him if Dea Flavia put the

weight of her power on his side. Now he paused in his peroration,

standing above his fellow-conspirators as if already he were their

ruler, and looking from one face to the other with eager restless eyes

that expressed all his enthusiasm and all his hopes.

But the two older men had evidently no stomach for the situation as it

now was. It had been easy matter enough to murder the Cæsar

treacherously and while his legions were three days' march away. But now

everything was very different, the issues very doubtful; no doubt that a

safe retreat away from the city would be by far the wiser course.

Caius Nepos, with vivid recollections of his last interview with the

Cæsar, shook his head with slow determination. Ancyrus, the elder, was

silent and only the three younger men had followed Hortensius Martius in

his heated argument.

"What sayest thou, Augusta?" asked Philippus Decius at last, looking

doubtfully upon the young girl.

"That ye must make your plans without me, my lords," she said coldly.

"Since, as you say, the praefect of Rome is dead, I can make no choice

worthy of him who is gone. I choose to return to mine allegiance, my

loyalty to the Cæsar and to my House."

"If the Cæsar returns," urged Hortensius Martius, "he will vent some of

his wrath on thee."

"Then will I suffer for my treachery, my lords," she rejoined proudly,

"in accordance with my deserts."

"But Augusta ..."

"I pray you, my lord," she interposed haughtily, "do not prolong your

arguments. My mind is made up. An you value your own safety in the

future, 'twere wiser to make preparations for a lengthy stay away from

Rome."

"Hadst thou listened to us yesterday ..." sighed Ancyrus, the elder.

"A heavy crime had lain against us all," she said. "Be thankful, my

lords, that in the history of Rome when it comes to be written, your

deed will not have sullied the page that marks to-day. And now, my

lords, I bid you farewell! You are in no danger if you leave the city

forthwith. The rejoicings at the entry of the Cæsar and the homecoming

of his legions will last many days, during that time your names will be

erased from the tablets of my kinsman's memory."

"The gods grant it!" murmured Caius Nepos. "But thou, Augusta, what of

thee?"

"I, my lords," she said with a gentle smile, the irony of which was lost

on their self-centred intellects, "I pray you have no thoughts of me. I

have been placed in the keeping of one who, I am told, is mightier than

Cæsar. There must I be safe; so farewell, my lords; we meet again, I

hope, in happier and more peaceful times."

She stood up and one by one--for was she not still the Augusta and the

favourite kinswoman of the Cæsar?--they bent the knee before her and

kissed the hem of her gown. After which act of homage they retired with

backs bent and walking backwards out of the room.

My lord Hortensius Martius was the last to take his leave. He went down

on both knees and would have encircled the Augusta with his arms, only

she drew back quickly a step or two.

"Dea ... in the name of my love for thee ..." he began.

But she interrupted him gently, yet firmly.

"Speak not to me of love, my lord," she said. "'Tis but love's ghost

that moves to and fro when you speak."

Then as he would have protested, she put up her hand with a gesture of

finality.

"It is no use, my lord. What love there is in me, that you could never

have aroused--not even in the past. I entreat you not to insist. Love

cannot be compelled. It is or is not. Whence it comes we know not;

mayhap the gods do know ... mayhap there is only one who knows ... and

he seems to give much, but also to take all.... Therefore mayhap love

comes from him, and when we are not prepared to give up all for love's

sake, then doth he withhold the supreme gift and leave our hearts

barren.... Mayhap! mayhap!" she sighed, "alas! I know not! and you, good

my lord, do not look so puzzled and so scared. I bid you farewell now.

I'll not forget you; to remember is so much easier than to love."

He had perforce to accept his dismissal. He felt rebellious against fate

and would have liked to have forced her will. But as she stood there

before him, clad all in white, so young and so chaste and yet a woman

who knew what love was, an awed reverence for her crept into his heart

and he felt that indeed he would never dare to speak again to her of

love.

He too kissed the hem of her tunic now, just as the others had done, and

just as they had done he walked out of her presence backwards with back

bent and an overwhelming disappointment in his heart.

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