CHAPTER XV

ANCIENT HISTORY

Ann opened her eyes and stared incuriously up into a blank, indeterminate

expanse of white. It was quite without interest--conveyed no meaning to her

whatever. Moreover, her eyelids felt inexplicably heavy, as though they

were weighted. So she let them fall again, and the placid, reposeful sense

of nothingness which had been momentarily interrupted enveloped her once

more. She was conscious of no particular sensation of any kind, neither

painful nor pleasurable, but merely of an immense peace and tranquillity.

Presently a faint feeling of curiosity concerning that odd expanse of

white overhead filtered into her consciousness, gradually increasing in

strength until it became a definite irritation, like the prolonged light

scratching of a finger-nail up a surface of silk. She opened her eyes again

reluctantly. It was still there, immediately above her--a formless stretch

of dull white. She wondered whether it extended indefinitely, and her

eyes travelled slowly along until they were arrested by a narrow line of

demarcation. Here the expanse of white ceased abruptly, at right angles to

a misty blue surface in the centre of which glimmered a square of light.

Ann's mind seemed to struggle up from some profound depth where it had lain

quiescent and feebly and disjointedly signalled the words: "Ceiling ...

wall ... window...." And finally, with an immense effort, "Room."

After that the cogs of her mental machinery began to move in a more normal

manner, though still slowly and confusedly. She recaptured the memory of

a blurred murmur of voices and of some fiery liquid being poured down,

her throat which stung and smarted abominably as it went down. Later had

followed a pleasant dreamy consciousness of warmth which had brought with

it realisation of the fact that previously she had been feeling terribly

cold. Then voices again--notably Maria's this time: "She'll do now, Mrs.

Hilyard, mum. 'Tis only warmth she wants."

Why did she want warmth? When it was summer. She was sure it _was_ summer.

She remembered seeing the sun overhead--hanging in the middle of the sky

just like one of those solid-looking gold halos which the Old Masters used

to paint round the head of a saint. At least ... had it been in the sky ...

lately? To-day? And then, accompanied by a rush of blind terror, came

recollection--of an overcast sky and grey, plunging sea, and of a wild,

futile, suffocating struggle against some awful force that had tossed her

hither and thither as a child might toss a ball, and had finally surged

right over her, blotting out everything.

A little moan of horror escaped her, and immediately Robin's dear familiar

voice answered reassuringly:

"You're quite safe, old thing--tucked up in bed. So don't worry."

He was bending over her, and she made an instinctive effort to sit up. The

movement sent a stab of agony through her whole body, and she gasped out

convulsively:

"It hurts!"

In a moment his arm was round her shoulders, and he had laid her gently

back against her pillows.

"Yes. I expect you're pretty well bruised from head to foot," he said in

a tone of commiseration.

Ann regarded him uncertainly.

"I feel so queer. What's happened to me? Where--where am I?" she asked.

Robin had the wisdom to answer her quite simply and naturally, telling

her in a few words just what had occurred, and, her mind once set at

rest, she lay back quietly and very soon dropped off into a sleep of sheer

exhaustion. Afterwards followed a timeless period marked by the comings and

goings of Maria with hot-water bottles and steaming cups of milk or broth,

alternating with intervals of profound slumber. Through it all, waking

or sleeping, ran a thread of wearisome pain--limbs so stiff and flesh so

bruised that it seemed to Ann as though the wontedly comfortable mattress

on which she lay had been stuffed with lumps of coal.

One break occurred in the ordered sequence of sleep and nourishment.

This happened when Tony quitted Silverquay to rejoin his uncle. The day

following Ann's enforced retirement to bed, a brusque letter had come

from the old man, in which he concealed a genuine longing to have his

nephew with him again beneath an irritable suggestion that he was probably

outstaying his welcome at the Cottage. Robin laughingly reassured Tony

upon the latter point, but at the same time he agreed that the young man's

return to Lorne might be advisable, since it was obvious Sir Philip was

feeling his loneliness considerably more than the proud old autocrat was

willing to confess.

So Tony had tiptoed up to Ann's room, when she had roused herself

sufficiently to wish him good-bye and bestow upon him a parting injunction

"to be good." After which she dropped back once more into the lethargy of

weakness, painfully conscious of the fact that relief was only to be found

in lying torpidly still and silent.

But all things come to an end in time--though the disagreeable ones seem to

take much longer over it than the nice ones--and at the end of a few days

Ann was able to sit up in bed without groaning and take an intelligent

interest in the fact that her room was lavishly adorned with roses.

"Where did all the flowers come from?" she demanded of Maria.

"Why, 'tis Mr. Forrester what sends they, miss," came the answer, uttered

with much satisfaction. Brett had a "way" with him against which even

downright Maria Coombe was not proof. "He've a-called here to inquire every

day since you was took bad. Very attentive and gentlemanlike, I call't."

"Very," agreed Ann with becoming gravity. "And who else--hasn't any one

else"--correcting herself quickly--"been to inquire?".

"'Deed they have! 'Twas 'Can't I see Miss Lovell to-day, Maria?' with first

one and then t'other of them. But I told them all the same"--with grim

triumph. "'Not till I gives the word,' I told them."

"Who has called, then?" asked Ann curiously.

"Her ladyship up to White Windows, she came, and Mrs. Hilyard, and the

rector and that there long-faced sister of his--all of 'em have been, miss.

And the squire--he've sent his groom down to ask how you were going on."

"The squire?"

"Mr. Coventry, I'm meaning--he as pulled you out of the water. You ought to

be main grateful to him, Miss Ann, for sure."

A faint colour stole up into Ann's white cheeks.

"Oh, I am. You had better send back a message by the groom to that effect,"

she said curtly.

Maria surveyed her with frank disapproval.

"You should take shame to yourself, speaking that way, miss," she

admonished severely. "But I expect you'm hungry-like, that's what 'tis.

And I've a beautiful young chicken roasting for your lunch. You'll feel

different when you've got a bit of something solid inside you."

The roast chicken, combined with a glass of champagne, certainly

contributed towards producing a more cheerful outlook on life, and when,

later on in the afternoon, Mrs. Hilyard called, armed with some books for

the invalid, and was graciously permitted by Maria to come upstairs, Ann

welcomed her with unfeigned delight.

"Well, it's quite nice to see you alive," smiled Cara as they kissed each

other. "I really thought you were going to drown before my very eyes the

other day."

"Instead of which I've turned up again like a bad penny!"

"Thanks to Mr. Coventry. If he hadn't chanced to be taking a constitutional

in the direction of Berrier Cove that morning, I don't know what would have

happened."

Ann was not looking at her. Instead, her gaze was directed towards the open

window as though the view which offered were of surpassing interest.

"I wondered how it was he came to be on the spot just in the nick of time,"

she said negligently.

"That was how," nodded Cara. "He'd been for a walk along the shore, and

luckily came home by way of the Cove."

"I suppose I shall have to thank him," remarked Ann gloomily.

Cara looked a trifle mystified. Then she smiled.

"It would be--just polite," she submitted.

Ann frowned.

"I always seem to be thanking him!" she complained, and, in response to

the other's glance of inquiry, recounted the various occasions on which

Coventry had rendered her a service.

"Not a bad record of knight-errantry for a confirmed woman-hater, is it?"

she added with a rueful touch of humour.

"He wasn't always a woman-hater," answered Cara slowly. Her pansy-dark eyes

held a curious dreaming look.

"I'd forgotten. Of course, you'd met him before you came here. Did you know

him pretty well?"

"It was so many years ago," deprecated Cara, with a little wave of her hand

which seemed to set her former friendship with Eliot away in the back ages.

"But I knew a good deal about him--we knew his people when I was a girl in

my teens--and I can understand why--how he became such a misanthrope."

Ann made no answer. Somehow she felt she could not put any direct questions

about this man whose changing, oddly contradictory moods had baffled her

so completely and--although she would not have acknowledged it--had caught

and held her imagination with equal completeness. Perhaps she was hardly

actually aware how much the queer, abrupt owner of Heronsmere occupied her

thoughts. Mrs. Hilyard, however, continued speaking without waiting to be

questioned.

"Eliot Coventry has had just the sort of experience to make him cynical,"

she went on in her pretty, dragging voice. "Particularly as regards women.

His mother was a perfectly beautiful woman, with the temper of a fiend. She

lived simply and solely for her own enjoyment, and never cared tuppence

about either Eliot or his sister."

"Oh, has he a sister?" The question sprang from Ann's lips without her own

volition.

"Yes. She was a very pretty girl, too, I remember."

Ann's thoughts flew back to the day of the Fête des Narcisses, recalling

the pretty woman whom she had observed driving with Eliot in the prize car.

Probably, since he so disliked women in general, his companion on that

occasion had been merely his sister! She felt oddly pleased and contented

at this solution of a matter which had nagged her curiosity more than a

little at the time.

"Mrs. Coventry--the mother--was utterly selfish, and insisted upon her

own way in everything." Cara was pursuing her recollections in a quiet,

retrospective fashion which gave Ann the impression that they had no very

deep or poignant interest for her. "If she _didn't_ get it--well, there

were fireworks!"--smiling. "Once, I remember, Eliot crossed her wishes over

something and she flew into a perfect frenzy of temper. There was a small

Italian dagger lying on a table near, and she snatched it up and flung it

straight at him. It struck him just below one of his eyes; that's how he

came by that scar on his cheekbone. She might have blinded him," she added,

and for a moment there was a faint tremor in her voice.

"What a brute she must have been!" exclaimed Ann in horror.

"Yes," agreed Cara. "He was unlucky in his mother." After a pause she went

on: "And he was unlucky in the woman he loved. He wasn't at all well-off in

those days, and she threw him over--broke off the engagement and married a

very wealthy man instead."

Ann felt her heart contract.

"I suppose that's what makes him so bitter, then," she said in a low voice.

"Probably--he still cares for her."

"No." Cara shook her head. "Eliot Coventry isn't the sort of man to go on

caring for a woman who'd proved herself unworthy. I think--I think he'd

just wipe her clean out of his life."

"It would be what she deserved," asserted Ann rather fiercely.

"Yes, I suppose it would. But one can feel a little sorry for her. She

spoilt her own life, too."

"Did you know her, then?"

"Yes, I knew her. I think the only excuse to be made for her is that she

was very young when it all happened."

"I'm young," said Ann grimly, "but I hope I wouldn't be as mean as that."

"You?" Cara's eyes rested with a wistful kind of tenderness on the flushed

face against the pillows. "But, my dear, there's a world of difference

between you and the girl Eliot Coventry was in love with."

She got up and, moving across to the window, stood looking out. Below, the

pleasant, happy-go-lucky garden rambled desultorily away to the corner

where stood the ancient oak supporting Ann's hammock--a garden of odd,

unexpected nooks and lawns, with borders of old English flowers, without

definite form and looking as if it had grown of its own sweet will into its

present comeliness. But the garden conjured up before Cara's mental vision

was a very different one--a stately, formal garden entered through an arch

of jessamine, with a fountain playing in its centre, tinkling coolly into a

marble basin, and a high-backed, carved stone bench set beneath the shade

of scented trees. Above all pulsated the deep, sapphire blue of an Italian

sky.

The pictured garden faded and Cara turned slowly back into the room. Her

eyes looked sad.

"Poor Eliot!" she said. "It's all ancient history now. But one wishes it

was possible to give him back his happiness."

When she had gone, Ann lay thinking over the story she had just heard.

So it was all true, then--the tale that Eliot had been jilted years ago!

It threw a vivid flash of illumination on the many complexities she had

come up against in his character. The two women who should mean most in a

man's life had both failed him. He bore on his body a scar which surely he

must never see reflected in the mirror without recalling the travesty of

motherhood that was all he had ever known. And scored into his soul, hidden

beneath a bitter reticence and unforgiving cynicism, lay the still deeper

scar of that hurt which the woman who was to have been his wife had dealt

him.

Ann's annoyance with him because he hadn't troubled to call personally to

ascertain how she was melted away in a rush of pitying comprehension. She

was conscious of an intense anger against that unknown woman who had so

marred his life. She hoped she was being made to pay for it, suffer for it

in some way!

And then, all at once, came the realisation that if she had remained

faithful, Eliot would probably have been married years ago ... she herself

would never have met him.... A burning flush mounted to her very temples,

and she hid her face in her hands, trying to shut out the swift, unbidden

thought which had wakened within her a strange tumult of emotion. When at

last she uncovered her face, her eyes held the wondering, startled look of

a young fawn.

She was very young and whole-hearted, utterly innocent of that great

miracle which transforms the world, as yet unrecognising of the voice of

love--the Voice which, once heard, can never again be muted and forgotten.

And now something stirred within her--something new and disturbing and a

little frightening.

It was as though she had heard some distant call which she but half

understood and, only partly understanding, feared.

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