I shook my head.

“Then I’ll introduce myself. Miss Pussy Willow, late of the Vaudeville

Theatre!”

She was a good actress. She had always known how to get the most out of

her voice, how to lay the bait for an effect. And she got it all right.

I sat back and looked at her, looked at the puffed, swollen cheeks, the

pouches under the eyes, the unshapely mouth where the powder caked along

the wrinkles, the bulging double chin, and searched there, as one might

search in the face of a long drowned friend for some sign of accustomed

features, searched for that face, so pretty, so delicate, so appealing,

so utterly, so entrancingly soubrette, that had made so many hearts beat

quickly fifteen years ago. Not a trace of it. Not a trace of the woman

who had once been Pussy Willow, of the radiant creature who had swayed

in that great silver dress, before the chorus, singing the song that had

been for six months the rage of London: “Love is the song of a girl and

a boy.” Gone: all of it. That youth, that charm, that divine mingling of

simplicity and wantonness--buried beneath this coated unhealthy mask of

flesh and powder. I did not know what to say. She was looking at me in a

half-dazed, half-resentful manner, ready to hit back if what I might say

should hurt her. In the end I thought it better to say nothing.

“So it’s silence, is it?” she said. “Ah, well, I guessed as much. I know

what you’re thinking--the pity of it, that’s what you’re saying to

yourself. Poor Pussy Willow, you’ll say. Drunk herself down to this. And

then you’ll go back home and think what a damned fine fellow you are.

And to-morrow you’ll tell your friends up at the club: ‘Do you know whom

I saw yesterday?’ you’ll say. ‘Pussy Willow, quite drunk, she was. All

her looks gone. You wouldn’t have recognised her.’ And you’ll all raise

your hands and say: ‘The pity of it!’ and get self-righteous. And then

you’ll go back to your office and swindle some wretched underdog and

talk about leaving the world better than you found it. I know your sort.

You only come here to get warm with self-righteousness. Ah, you--But,

well, I’ll tell you this, mister: you talk about leaving the world

better than you found it, but I’ve probably done a sight more good in it

than you have.”

She paused on a high-pitched note of challenge.

But again I made no answer. I knew that I had only to wait to be told

the story. I caught the waiter’s eye, nodded, and another double was at

her elbow. She gulped it down quickly, as she had the other. She leant

forward, warmed, softened, recollective to continue on the note where

she had paused. “More good than you,--a blooming sight more good than

you. I saved a man once from becoming--well, you know what men become if

they don’t pull the reins up tight in the early thirties. Yes, me--I

saved a man. It makes me laugh now when I think of it.

“I met him here a couple of months ago, just as I met you. Tall,

fine-looking man, he was, white-haired, with a short, close-cut beard.

Well dressed: a successful family business man--that’s what he looked.

Heaven knows what he thought he was doing here. Change, I suppose; an

empty hour to be filled in somehow. Perhaps he used to come here when he

was a boy and felt sentimental suddenly. At any rate, he came in and

stood at the corner of the bar and ordered a brown sherry and looked

very self-conscious and out of place. I nudged the girl next me. ‘The

396th hymn,’ I said. ‘Two minutes and he’ll be in the pulpit.’ And we

laughed and had another, and told a couple of bluish stories. And then,

suddenly, I found myself getting uncomfortable, and I realised that I

was being stared at, stared at in a curious, creepy sort of way, as

though I was being looked through for something that was behind me. It

went on that stare, till I couldn’t stick it any longer. I walked across

to him. ‘Well, old sport,’ I said, ‘this is me. Now, what about it?’

“He stammered a little and looked embarrassed.

“‘Yes--I--I’m sorry. It was rude of me, but ... well, you remind me very

much of someone.’

“‘And who might that be?’ I asked.

“‘An actress. You probably wouldn’t know her. We thought a lot of her

once--Pussy Willow.’

“It knocked me sideways, I can tell you. I thought the world had

forgotten Pussy, or that those who did remember wouldn’t recognise her

now in what she is.

“‘You ought to be a detective then,’ I says, ‘you’ve touched the right

target.’

“It told. I hoped it would. He stammered: ‘What! you--you really are the

Pussy Willow who----’

“And suddenly, for cheek, I cocked back my hat as I used to at the jolly

old Vaudeville, and I plumped my fists down on my hips and swayed

backwards and began to sing the first verse of that old thing of

mine--you remember it, when I wore that great silver dress, ‘Love is

the song of a girl and a boy.’

“He knew then: ‘Pussy Willow!’ he murmured. Then stood looking at me as

they all do, those that remember me, when I tell them who I am; looked

at me till I got all hot and shivery.

“‘Oh, come off it,’ I said, ‘Give me a drink, old pal.’

“He seemed to pull himself together with a start. ‘I’m sorry,’ he said,

‘I forgot. Waiter, send a bottle of champagne over to that table and

some sandwiches.’

“By the time one’s got to my age one’s learnt not to be surprised at

anything. ‘Gee, girls,’ I said, ‘but it’s a party!’ And I followed him

across and began to chatter about old times. I thought that was what he

wanted, to be made to feel young again. But I soon saw that he was not

listening to what I was saying, that he had something of his own to say,

but didn’t know how to say it, so I just chattered on till he was ready.

“It came, all of a heap, like an explosion, right across one of my best

stories.

“‘Pussy, look here--I’m ... well, I’m not rich, but I want to do

something for you. I want to--may I give you an allowance of two pounds

a week?’

“I sat back on my chair flabergasted, absolutely. It was five years

since anyone had made me that sort of offer.

“‘Well,’ I said, ‘the old lady’s a bit weatherbeaten, but what there is

of her is good.’

“He shook his hand; quite a stage gesture, quietly in front of me.

“‘Oh, no, no, no,’ he said. ‘Please don’t misunderstand me. I didn’t

mean anything like that--as a present, simply.’

“I tried him with a dead straight glance.

“‘Now, look here, my lad,’ I said, ‘cough it up. What’s it all about?

People don’t give things for nothing--not in this world, any way.’

“He nodded. ‘That’s why I want to do something for you. You’ve done me

the greatest service that anyone has ever done me. I have a very happy

home and three very happy children, and but for you I don’t think I

should have ever married.’

“That made me laugh. ‘So you heard me sing: “Love me in a cottage by the

sea,” and caught the next train to Margate?’

“‘Oh, no, no! Something--something perhaps you’d rather not be reminded

of. But, do you remember when “The Eastern Princess” was running at the

Clarion, and you flung up your part at a moment’s notice and weren’t

seen again in London for six months?’

“I nodded. One of the landmarks in my life, that show was.

“‘Well,’ he said, ‘I was twenty-seven then. I’d just passed my first

medical exam. in Ireland and had come up to London to open a practice in

Richmond. I wasn’t badly off. I had good prospects. I was a sportsman.

For eight years, ever since I had gone up to Oxford, I had been working

really hard. All my friends told me that my innings was just going to

begin. “You’ll have a wonderful time,” they said; “there’s no place like

London.”’

“‘And then I fell in love with a very young and very unsophisticated

girl, the daughter of a country parson whom I had got to know during a

cricket tour. My friends did their very best to dissuade me. “It’s

perfect madness,” they said, “you’re going to chuck your life away

before you’ve started it. You could have a wonderful time. My dear chap,

don’t be an ass!” And they took me to dancing clubs, and the heat and

colour mounted to my brain. I began to agree with them: marriage was a

fetter, a prison house. One didn’t chuck one’s life away.

“‘And then I heard a rumour about you. They were saying that you had

gone away because--well, your name was coupled with the producer’s

there. What was his name? Ah, yes, Clive Ferguson,--and they said that

you were--well--er--very ill.

“‘It’ll surprise you, but I don’t think anything’s ever shocked me quite

so much. I had heard you sing a great many times. I had made a sort of

ideal of you, as young men will of actresses. You had become the

embodiment to me of the gay, brightly coloured butterfly life of London;

and, when I heard that rumour, your ruin seemed a criticism of the whole

life you represented. That’s where it ends, I told myself. I thought of

you as I had last seen you, singing in that great silver dress of yours.

And then I thought of what life would be to you from then on. And I

don’t know, but beneath its warmth and glitter that life seemed hard and

cruel and revengeful. A month later I was married, and I’ve been very,

very happy. And--well, it’s a bit late, I’m afraid, but if I can I

should like to be able to do something for you now.’”

Pussy Willow stopped speaking, tossed back her head and smiled. “And

that’s the way I got my beer money for life.”

“And was it true?” I asked.

“True--what true?”

“About Clive Ferguson?”

She laughed a loud, harsh, triumphing laugh. “True, that! good God, no.

Clive Ferguson! I wouldn’t look at him. Dirty great oily Jew. I wouldn’t

have looked twice at him, not that way. I expect he started that story

one evening when he was drunk--sheer swank to save his vanity. Oh no, he

wasn’t the cause of that little jaunt of mine. No, I was away for six

months, old sport, with the only man I think I’ve ever really cared for.

A young boxer, he was, engaged to some soppy fool in the chorus. She

brought him round to see us one evening. I had one look at him and made

my mind up. He wasn’t going to waste himself on the likes of her. God!

but I was mad about that boy. That’s really what started things against

me. I rushed him straight away; didn’t give him time to think; and Clive

Ferguson never forgave me. The understudy was an utter dud; clean

smashed the piece, it did, in its second month. He never forgave me.

Wouldn’t take me back again. And the money I spent on that boy; all my

jewellery went and the things I’d put away. And of course I couldn’t

keep him. One never can keep them. They use one as a stepping-stone. I

never really got over it. I shan’t ever forget. But, oh, well! two

pound a week for life I’ve got out of it.

“And if it’s a woman’s job in life to make a man happy, to give him a

good home and children, well, I suppose I’ve done it. I could laugh

sometimes when I think how I have done it. But it doesn’t matter, does

it, as long as the thing gets done.”

What are you going to argue against that? and in literature as in life.

As far as effect is concerned, social and moral effect that is to say,

bad books, bad deeds, are just as valuable as good. Our contempt for the

best seller, is it anything but a form of intellectual snobbery, or

jealousy, which is the same thing, from another side.

Best sellers!

Whenever I see, on railway bookstalls and the shelves of Mudie’s

library, a novel by Florence Barclay I am reminded of one of my first,

certainly my strangest, school friends. He was not the conventional

public-school type. He disliked games. He refused to join the corps. He

had no house or school spirit. He was a fine swimmer, but never trained

for the competitions. Games were compulsory. But I do not recollect to

have ever seen him on the cricket field, and he played football scarcely

once a fortnight. He arranged for every afternoon of the week a music

lesson or a music practice. Authority let him go his own way. He was, in

fact, the sort of person whom one would expect to be bullied, and

thoroughly wretched generally. And yet he was not, I think, unhappy.

Certainly he was never bullied. Even the swashbuckling element, in what

was admittedly a fairly boisterous community, treated him with respect.

This in itself would make him a well-placed candidate for immortality.

But it is his study that I particularly remember. It was the sort of

study that challenged enterprise, and an old boy on seeing it was

reported to have exclaimed: “Good God! what must the house be coming to!

Why hasn’t this place been shipped?”

It was like no study that had ever been. They were small dark rooms, our

studies, monastic quarters that lay under the shadow, on one side, of

the abbey, and on the other, of the lindens and big school. We tried to

make them brighter with light festooned wallpapers, allegorical

pictures, and brackets on which we placed china shepherdesses; to the

height of four feet the walls were panelled, and fashion decreed that

the woodwork should be covered with long strips of brightly coloured

cloth. It was a fashion that had been handed down, like the pictures,

from one generation to another. Thus in my father’s day did they

disfigure honest handiwork, and thus will they disfigure it when I am

fifty. My friend had, however, little use for fashions. He decided that

he would have his woodwork painted in mauve and black. And to match it

he had the walls covered with a deep mauve paper. From the ceiling he

hung before the window a mauve curtain, edged with black. On the window

seat and on the chairs he heaped high a profusion of mauve cushions; the

walls, for he was a great admirer of Napoleon, he devoted exclusively to

a picture gallery for the dictator. It was, in fact, a study that would,

in Chelsea, occasion a mild surprise; at school it made you reel in

outraged dismay across the passage. Yet no one shipped it, no one turned

the portraits of Napoleon to the wall, nor bedecked the ceiling with red

ink; nor did anyone tear from their bracket beneath the gas the

calf-bound set of Mrs Barclay’s novels.

_The Rosary_ was his favourite novel, as it was mine. At each fresh

reading we were moved to the edge, if not over the edge, of tears. It

is, in the author’s words, the story of a beautiful woman in a plain

shell. No man has ever seen below that surface. But one day she sings

“The Rosary” at a concert: the veil is torn aside, and Garth Dalmain,

the famous painter, perceives her spiritual worth. But because she fears

that he will tire of her, she will not marry him, and in a scene of

sustained pathos, during which the name of the Deity is never long

absent from her lips, she tells him that their paths must separate. But

“love never faileth.” Garth is providentially blinded in a shooting

accident, and his lover returns to him as a nurse. Then the drama opens.

She writes him letters, which in the position of nurse and secretary she

reads to him, and as his nurse she makes him gradually appreciate the

intensity of his need for the woman who has refused him. And, when the

last barrier has gone, the nurse reveals herself as the lover by

striking triumphantly the solemn chords of “The hours I spent with thee,

dear heart.”

Prose narrative could, we felt, attain to no higher level of emotion,

and at the end of the day, between lock up and hall, among mauve

cushions we would sit and talk of the secret springs, the hidden

splendours of life, of how we, too, within a plain shell were beautiful.

It passed, of course, that worship that was almost idolatry. It passed

in the September of 1913, when a copy of _Carnival_ was bought at a

railway bookstall at the close of a summer holiday. That autumn we laid

our mantle of sentiment before the tripping feet of Jenny, and when in

early summer a copy of _Poems and Ballads_ found its way into the

school-house studies, it was the departed glory of Proserpine that we

declaimed. We passed from one allegiance to another, as we passed from

one size in collars to another. We were growing up.

But it is no part of my intention here, in this chapter, to attempt to

trace the growth, the development, or the decay, as you may please to

call it, of a literary taste. I am concerned solely with this fact: that

ten years ago I held Florence Barclay to be the greatest living

novelist, that in her work I found those characteristics, those

qualities that to-day I find in the stories of Turgenev; that, as

Turgenev moves me in 1923, so Mrs Barclay moved me in the summer of

1912. And this fact I find to be in the highest degree disquieting.

There are attached to it a very large number of uncomfortable

corollaries.

It depends, of course, on whether one does or does not take a relative

view of things. To those who hold that there is a definite standard of

literary judgment the tastes of immature, and of uneducated persons, can

be of little matter. You tell your form master that you consider

Swinburne a greater poet than Matthew Arnold, and he will smile

indulgently: “One does think like that at your age,” he will say, “but

you’ll find in time that Matthew Arnold is more satisfying stuff.” And I

suppose one does. At any rate, the majority of middle-aged persons of my

acquaintance seem to find him so. But I can never see that this fact is

a proof of Arnold’s superiority, any more than the fact that at forty

one plays golf with greater comfort than Rugby football is a proof of

the superiority of golf. In an estimate of Victorian poetry a critic

considers himself to have proved his case when he has written:

“Swinburne is the supreme poet of youth, but as the years pass his

tempestuous flow of sound means less to us, and we increasingly

appreciate the chastened, harmonious cadences of Matthew Arnold.”

Actually, of course, he has done no more than state that Swinburne’s is

the poetry of youth and Arnold’s of middle age. That each poet has

certain qualities and certain limitations, and in his acceptance of

Arnold’s superiority he has assumed that the tastes of a man of fifty

are more significant, less impermanent, more surely built than those of

a man of twenty-five.

It is an assumption before whose authority most young writers,

especially writers of fiction, have been in their time arraigned. “These

stories,” the reviewer says, “are well enough written, the characters

competently drawn, the situations skilfully prepared. But the book is

concerned entirely with the problems of adolescence, problems, that is

to say, that will in a few years’ time have ceased to concern the

author. Its quality, therefore, is strictly temporal.” The author has

been condemned, not on grounds of literary craftsmanship, not because

he has failed to do well the thing he set out to do, but because he has

employed unprofitable material, because the perplexities and enthusiasms

of adolescence that formed the theme of his book are transient and must

yield in time to the perplexities and enthusiasms of manhood. It is

doubtless inevitable that literary criticism should accept the quality

of permanence as its deciding standard, should consider the period of

duration rather than the intensity of the fleeting mood; but on its own

grounds even would not criticism do well to seek that quality in the

skill and sincerity of the treatment, rather than in the matter of the

material treated?

For are the tastes of a man of fifty any more permanent than those of a

man of twenty-five? Can we not still say to him: “You will feel

differently when you are older. You will look back to the person that

you now are as to a stranger: to a man with different affections,

different ambitions, and a different way of living. These present

enthusiasms of yours will in their turn pass, we can assure you. They

will pass into the tepid preferences of old age, and you will sit in the

smoking-room of your club, the chief pleasure of your life an immunity

from gout, the chief problem of it the avoidance of a draught.” Can we,

with any greater justice, condemn the problems of twenty before the

tribunal of forty-five than we can those of fifty before those of

eighty? The brain is not useless now because it will one day soften;

teeth not inefficacious because they will eventually decay. The young

man will hardly listen to the impotent antiquity who assures him that

the charm of woman is a snare and an illusion. “When you have reached my

age it will no longer move you.” In a world of fugitive sensation there

is no fixed point at which anyone can say, “thus far and no farther.” We

have a right to our own age; to the problems, the turmoil, the

compensating enthusiasms of our age, and we have an equal right to the

literature best suited for their nourishment and inspiration.

In the same way a particular period has a right to the literature best

suited to its needs. Books follow a wave of recurrent popularity and

depreciation. The masterpiece of 1820 is the Aunt Sally of 1850, but by

1880 it has been restored to favour. “The masterpiece is the mood, and

all moods pass save Shakespeare and the Bible.” This from George Moore.

But of Shakespeare, as of others. He had little, or nothing, to say to

the eighteenth century: to that unrivalled period of elegance and

polish. They re-wrote “King Lear”: they made it end happily with

Cordelia in Edgar’s arms. Shakespeare’s tragedy was described by Mr Tate

in the dedicatory epistle to his own version “as a heap of jewels,

unstrung and unpolished, yet so dazzling in their disorder that I soon

perceived that I had seized a treasure.” We are inclined to smile at

such ridiculous folly. “So that is all they knew,” we say. But I think

Mr Tate did wisely to rewrite “King Lear” in the idiom of his own time.

The eighteenth century which produced Swift, and Addison, and Pope, was

not less cultured than the century that produced Shakespeare, and Donne,

and Milton, and compares very favourably with ours that has

produced--but I will not be personal. It is enough to say that the

eighteenth century had a perfect right to say: “This is what we like.”

It could justify by its creations its exclusiveness. And, at the time,

it was so very certain it was right--as certain as we are to-day that

Clifford Bax is abundantly justified in the slaughter of Mr Gay’s

dialogue and verses that he has made in his new version of “Polly.”

With what emotions, I wonder, must the wraith of John Gay have witnessed

at the Kingsway Theatre the triumph of his opera. He can have hardly

failed to find, after an interval of two hundred years, the enraptured

reception of his work intensely gratifying. But he can equally have

hardly failed to wonder what in that interval can have happened to his

play. “This,” we can imagine him to have said, “is all of it, of course,

perfectly delightful.” But it was for a very different thing that London

was divided into two camps, and the Duchess of Queensberry was forbidden

the Court. I wrote a political and social satire. I transported to the

West Indies the most notable of my creations in “The Beggar’s Opera.”

Mrs Trapes I placed in charge of an establishment which courtesy

permitted me to describe as an “academy for young gentlewomen in song

and dance.” Of Macheath I made a pirate chief, disguised with a

blackened face, and wedded, to his no great comfort, to Jenny Diver. In

the scandalous person of Mr Ducat, the colonel of the militia, I

satirised British colonial administration. Polly Peachum, who had come

to the island in search of her rascal husband, alone, I permitted to be

an agreeable and virtuous creature. And by making her marry, after the

well-merited execution of Macheath, the Indian Prince Cawwawkee, I

established the superiority of the “noble savage” over the weak,

cowardly, and self-indulgent white man. That was my opera. But of all

this I find remarkably little in the version that Mr Clifford Bax has so

elegantly adapted and Mr Nigel Playfair so successfully produced.

“The social and political satire has been removed, No comparison is

drawn between the virtues of the black man and the white. Macheath is

never even threatened with the fate that I had prepared for him, but is

restored in health and charm and vigour to the eager embraces of his

faithful Polly. A good two-thirds of the play is not mine at all, and

though I am highly sensitive to the charms of its many bewitching

lyrics, I can claim but a small share in their authorship. It is all, as

I have previously remarked, perfectly delightful; but what has happened

to my play?”

We like to think that Mr Gay must have, by now, realised how extremely

bad his own edition was. We venture, whatever biographers may state, to

discern in his work the presence of a genial unpretentious personality.

By now, we say, he should have acquired a sufficient sense of detachment

from the jealousies and rivalries and feuds of the early eighteenth

century to realise that he himself had made a sad mess of it, that

Clifford Bax is perfectly right, and that it would have been impossible

for Macheath to die, or the divine Polly to be wedded to a black.

Doubtless they said much the same of Mr Tate two hundred years ago. To

the dandy of 1720 it seemed as impossible that Lear should die as is

to-day the execution of Macheath. And, as Clifford Bax has found in

Polly’s misfortunes the single string on which might be threaded the

characters and incidents that would have been otherwise irrelevant, so

Mr Tate discovered in the love of Edgar for Cordelia the missing unity

of Lear. Mr Gay’s Polly was as impossible to-day as Mr Shakespeare’s

Lear was in 1720. In 2020 who knows but Mr Tate’s version will be upon

the boards of the Lyric, Hammersmith, and His Majesty’s will be staging

an unexpurgated Gay. Each age takes the food it needs. Like wine in

bottles, some books deteriorate and others mature.

And, indeed, what is this posterity that we should so appeal to it? Are

we not ourselves fallible and imperfect mortals, posterity to the

Victorians? I can see Browning walking with Tennyson in the Elysian

Fields. They discuss the literary journalism of their day. “It was bad,”

Browning mumbles into his beard,--“very bad indeed. There was a silly

fellow called John Stuart Mill--what was it he said about that first

book of mine? ‘Most self-conscious thing he’d ever read.’ But I didn’t

worry. I looked ahead. I was content to let posterity decide; and I have

my reward. I read last week such a charming thing about me by, let me

see now, a very vigorous young person I thought--ah, yes, Miss Rebecca

West....”

The other day I listened for upwards of a quarter of an hour to the

complaint of a young poet whose works had been mishandled grievously in

the _London Mercury_. Highly did he heap abuse on the heads of Mr J. C.

Squire and Mr Edward Shanks; nor was he less generous to critics

unconnected with that periodical: to Middleton Murry, and T. S. Eliot,

and Robert Lynd; one by one they were presented to the lash of ridicule.

Finally the injured poet turned a loving, a valedictory eye towards the

great men of the past--Matthew Arnold, Ruskin, Emerson, Carlyle.

“There,” he said, “were critics for you.” And, after a pause: “Ah, well,

in fifty years’ time....” And he shrugged his shoulders as one who can

afford to ignore such triflings in the face of time.

I said nothing. I am a placid person; I dislike quarrels. This, though,

is what, if I were fashioned differently, I might have said: “My good,

my very good friend,” I would have said, “you despise your own

generation. You are content to appeal to posterity. You place your faith

in the traditions that have been handed down to you by great writers in

the past. Very good, but let me remind you of this--that Matthew Arnold

too despised his generation and made his appeal to posterity. It was his

hope that in 1923 he would receive the commendation of Robert Lynd, of

J. C. Squire, and of Edward Shanks. What was good enough for Matthew

Arnold should be good enough for you. The judgments of posterity are

likely to be no more profound than those of 1923. For one day this

posterity that you so worship will be to-day, and in this club and in

that armchair will be sitting a disgruntled poet telling an indifferent

friend how much better things were done in 1923. We are no better and

no worse than other generations. We are a little different, that is all.

And, because we are a little different, what you, my friend, are writing

now may be more readily understood in 1950 than it is to-day. But, for

that reason, your work will be of no higher quality than that of Walter

de la Mare, whose verses give us such pleasure now. If you are popular

in 1950 you will be little read in 1980. For that is the way things

happen, and your talk about Matthew Arnold is a mixture of vanity and of

snobbishness; let me hear no more of it.”

I should like to believe that there is to be found somewhere a standard

of literary criticism, but the power to appreciate beauty is a quality

relative to ourselves: and there are times when it seems to me to be as

vain to search for a standard of beauty in literature as it would be to

search for one in woman. We respond to a certain type of beauty. And we

say of other types: “I am sure, my dear fellow, that she is perfectly

delightful. I am not in the least surprised that you are desperately

enraptured. But, for myself, as I said, she leaves me cold.” We make no

attempt to explain or adjudge a beauty in woman that we cannot

understand. Why, then, should we speak so dogmatically of a beauty in

literature that does not touch us; why should we deny the existence of a

beauty to which we are insensible?

There was a painter once whose personality it would be discreet to hide

under the pseudonym of Eric Walker. He had never seen the country. He

did not know that trees existed outside the carefully tended borders of

Burnden Park. The only other stretch of grass he had ever seen was from

the terraces of a football ground. For him the sky had been always dim

with smoke, cut by the outline of huge chimney stacks. The only beauty

he could understand was the clean, hard efficiency of a machine. With

eager eyes he had seen stones lifted into the air by iron arms; he had

watched the glow of furnaces flickering on polished steel. For hours on

end he had stood beneath the great factory at North Town, while the

sunlight cut the wreathing smoke into hard, sharp angles. The noise and

glare of machinery enchanted him, and when a discerning teacher had

discovered that he could draw, it was only natural that he should try to

interpret in terms of line and colour those particular sights and sounds

that alone had for him an æsthetic value.

Success came to him easily and quickly. He was taken up by the right

people, his pictures were discussed in the right circles, and when his

exhibition came on the right critics said the right things in the right

papers. Eric Walker suddenly found himself rich; he came up to London,

was made much of, sold his pictures easily. For six months he was the

adored child of Mayfair.

After a while, however, his welcome grew less warm. At the time of his

reception Gerald Garstin wrote: “Here is a young man who has

successfully interpreted the hard, calculating commercialism of the

North. In a fury of indignation he has revealed the soullessness of

modern conditions. All his life he has been surrounded by squalor and

ugliness. What may he not do when he has seen more of life and has

learnt to appreciate beauty in its fullest sense?” And Mayfair had

endorsed this opinion. “Such a wonderful young man,” they would say to

one another. “And to think that he spent all those years in that

terrible place, nothing but smoke and chimneys. What a revelation it

must be to him to come to London, and how beautifully he will be able to

express it.” And the patrons of modern art waited for Eric’s delight to

break forth in a riot of form and colour.

No such thing, however, happened. At the yearly exhibition of the

Chelsea Group he was represented by a large picture of a train entering

a tube station as it would be seen through the eyes of the driver. At

the Florence Galleries he exhibited a picture called “Charing Cross

Road,” in which a small boy stood watching the glowing furnaces of

Messrs. Crosse and Blackwell, and to the New Movement Society he

contributed “Liftman at Piccadilly Circus.” The announcement that he was

at work on “Surrey and Middlesex at the Oval” gave promise of better

things, but his followers were again disappointed. In a far corner of

the canvas was a patch of green and one white figure, the remainder was

occupied by the telegraph and the gasometers. It was generally agreed

that Eric Walker had not fulfilled his promise.

“Interesting though this work may be,” wrote Gerald Garstin, “it cannot

by any stretch of the imagination be called beautiful, and without

beauty where is art?” Once again Mayfair echoed the pronouncement of its

trusted critic. “It’s not beautiful all that harping on machinery and

ugliness. I am sure he can’t have a nice mind. Why doesn’t he look on

the pleasant side of things?”

To Eric Walker this change of front came abruptly and incomprehensibly.

“Beauty,” he said. “Beauty, what do they mean? Aren’t my pictures

beautiful?” To him there was nothing in the world lovelier than the

angles that sunshine cut in smoke, than the glow of a furnace on damp

flesh, than the smooth, hard rhythm of a piston. “Beauty,” he said,

“that’s the one thing I have really striven for, to get the full value

of these things I have enjoyed, to interpret the magic of these sounds

and colours, to make others realise the perfect form, poise, balance of

a machine. What do they mean?”

In the end he took his troubles to Mrs Abbot, a kindly, sentimental

woman, who had always rather mothered the young artist. To her he poured

out all his troubles, telling her how they misinterpreted his work,

calling it ugly.

“But, my dear boy, it is ugly!”

“Ugly! Oh, but, Mrs Abbot. Why, come here. Look out there. Do you see

the great chimney-stack of the Gas Works? Do you see how the red glare

shines out against the black roofs; what could be lovelier?”

And he leapt up, seizing her hand, dragging her to the window. Gradually

Mrs Abbot pacified him.

“My dear boy,” she said, “I dare say you may like that sort of thing,

but you’ll find that it’s not what we think nice, and it’s what other

people think nice that matters. Those chimneys of yours are all very

well, and I know you’re fond of them, but the things we call beautiful

are not a bit like that.”

“No?”

“No, of course not,” she went on, “the things we like--well, trees,

fields, love--oh, you know, the joy, the beauty of life. Those are the

things you ought to be painting.”

Eric Walker gazed out fondly at the red glare of the factory as it shone

glimmering on the surrounding roofs, then he turned sadly to the

water-colours that hung on the walls, soft and delicate, roses and

arbours, with a suggestion of Love, fleeting and perilously dear. For

him there was no beauty there--only cowardice, weakness and evasion.

That evening Mrs Abbot had a long and serious talk with her husband

about her young protégé.

“Something must be done, Harry,” she said. “He’s such a dear boy, and

he’s absolutely spoiling his chances. Now I tell you what we must do. We

must take him right away from all this to some primitive, natural spot.

When once he gets free from sordid influences he’ll respond to beauty

like a child.”

Mr Abbot had been married twenty years, and had learnt that his personal

comfort was only to be purchased by a complete indulgence of his wife’s

fancies.

“All right, my dear,” he said, “we’ll see what can be done.”

And so arrangements were made. An invalid friend owned a small house on

an island in the Pacific, which he was willing to let for a summer

holiday. Mrs Abbot leapt at the opportunity, and with Eric Walker

submitting as to an intractable decree of Fate, within five weeks he and

Mr and Mrs Abbot were leaning over the taffrail of the ship watching the

churned foam stretch out in a white line behind them.

The island was certainly very charming. The air was soft and scented,

the deep blue of the sky merged almost imperceptibly into the deeper

blue of the sea. The garden was full of rich flowers and luxuriant

growth; the sunshine was full and heavy; it was the kind of island which

one never expects to see, but of which one dreams fondly, hopelessly.

“Now,” said Mrs Abbot, “you’ll be able to paint wonderful pictures,

won’t you, Eric?”

“I hope so,” he said, gazing round with puzzled eyes at this world that,

for all its riot of colour, lacked so strangely the sights and sounds to

which he was accustomed.

For four days he wandered round with his sketchbook and water-colours.

First of all he tried to draw the little house that was overgrown with

fruit and flowers, but the lines blurred into one another, and he could

not find the clear-cut form that he understood. Then he tried to paint

the sunlight as it flickered on the waves, but its movement was

irregular and spasmodic, unsuited to his method, and he failed equally

when he tried to interpret the sway of the branches and the lazy droop

of the oranges. He was puzzled, unhappy, unable to understand why things

so vague and indefinite should be called beautiful. Mrs Abbot’s large,

kindly voice quite failed to comfort him.

“Wait for your inspiration to come,” she would say. “Just walk about and

absorb all that’s round you, and you’ll be painting before you know

where you are.”

And next day it seemed as though her prophecy had been fulfilled. Eric

had gone out directly after breakfast with his easel, paints, and

canvas. They had seen nothing of him the whole morning; he had not come

back to lunch, and by tea-time there were still no signs of him.

“I knew it,” said Mrs Abbot, “I knew it. We only had to take him away

and put him in fresh surroundings; he was bound to respond to beauty, he

only needed the sunshine.”

As soon as she had finished her tea she set out to look for him,

garrulous with excitement.

“Now what do you think it will have been that moved him? I wonder if it

was the bay. No, he was standing on the top of the hill and he looked

down and saw the village lying there in the sunlight! You take my word

for it, we shall find him on the hill!”

But they did not find him on the hill, nor was he painting the bay nor

the orange grove, and they sought him in vain on the skirts of their

little orchard. At last they began to feel a little nervous and began to

ask one another fretfully whether any harm could have come to him. They

made inquiries of the natives, but learnt nothing, and it was not till

almost dinnertime that a fisherman told them where he was.

“The young artist? Yes, sir. I saw him early this morning go into that

little broken hut on the edge of the shingle, and though I have been

working here all day I haven’t seen him come out. He’s probably there

still.”

Mr and Mrs Abbot looked at each other askance. What could Eric want in

that small dilapidated house that was slowly falling to pieces over the

head of an old shrivelled woman and her daughter? At the thought of the

daughter Mrs Abbot began to blush. What if the south wind and the sudden

beauty had moved Eric to express himself in terms more personal than

those of paint? Artists were notoriously immoral, and the islanders, she

had always heard, unfortunately weak.

She hurried on, her heart beating quickly, excited and perturbed.

In a few moments, however, all her fears for the innocence of the gentle

islander were banished. For there, at the back of the small hut, an old

woman, black and shrivelled, was cooking her dinner over an iron stove.

Her neck and arms were bare, and the red glow of the fire shone dimly on

the damp flesh, the dying sunlight stealing in one long, broad band

through a chink in the woodwork fell across her throat, cutting the

curves of her hanging breasts into hard, sharp angles, and a few yards

away Eric Walker was working at his canvas in a fine frenzy of

inspiration.

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