THE DOWAGER'S EXPLANATION.
The Dowager was a woman far more clever than Lucy, who knew the world.
And she was apt perhaps, instead of missing the meaning of the facts
around her, to put too much significance in them. Now, when the little
party met at dinner, Lady Randolph saw in the faces of both husband and
wife more than was there, though much was there. Sir Tom was more grave
than became a man who had returned into life, as his aunt said, and was
looking forward to resuming the better part of existence--the House, the
clubs, the quick throb of living which is in London. His countenance was
full of thought, and there was both trouble and perplexity in it, but
not the excitement which the Dowager supposed she found there, and those
signs of having yielded to an evil influence which eyes accustomed to
the world are so ready to discover. Lucy for her part was pale and
silent. She had little to say, and scarcely addressed her husband at
all. Lady Randolph, and that was very natural, took those signs of heart
sickness for tokens of complete enlightenment, for the passion of a
woman who had entered upon that struggle with another woman for a man's
love which, even when the man is her husband, has something degrading in
it. There had been a disclosure, a terrible scene, no doubt, a stirring
up of all the passions, Lady Randolph thought. No doubt that was the
reason why the Contessa had loosed her clutches, and left the house free
of her presence; but Lucy was still trembling after the tempest, and had
not learned to take any pleasure in her victory. This was the conclusion
of the woman of the world.
The dinner was not a lengthy one, and the ladies went upstairs again,
with a suppressed constraint, each anxious to know what the other was on
her guard not to tell. They sat alone expectant for some time, making
conversation, taking their coffee, listening, and watching each how the
other listened, for the coming of the gentlemen, or rather for Sir Tom;
for Jock, in his boyish insignificance, counted for little. The trivial
little words that passed between them during this interval were charged
with a sort of moral electricity, and stung and tingled in the too
conscious silence. At length, after some time had elapsed: "I am glad I
came," said Lady Randolph, "to sit with you, Lucy, this first evening;
for of course Tom cannot resist, the first evening in town, the charms
of his club."
"His club! Oh, I think he has gone to see the house," Lucy said. "He
promised----; it is not very far off."
"The house? You mean that woman's house. Lucy, I have no patience with
you any more than I have with Tom. Why don't you put a stop to it? why
don't you--for I suppose you have found out what sort of a woman she is
by this time, and why she came here?"
"She came----to introduce Bice and establish her in the world," Lucy
said, in a faint tone. "Oh! Aunt Randolph, please do not let us discuss
it! It is not what I like to think of. Bice will be sacrificed to the
first rich man who asks her; or at least that is what the Contessa
means."
"My dear Lucy," said the Dowager, calmly, "that is reasonable enough. I
wish the Contessa meant no worse than that. Most girls are persuaded to
marry a rich man if he asks them. I don't think so much of that. But it
will not be so easy as she thinks," the Dowager added. "It is true that
beauty does much--but not everything; and a girl in that position, with
no connections, or, at least, none that she would not be better
without----"
Lucy's attention strayed from this question, which once had been so
important, and which now seemed so secondary; but the conversation must
be maintained. She said at random: "She has a beautiful voice."
"Has she? And the Contessa herself sings very well. That will no doubt
be another attraction," said Lady Randolph, in her impartial way. "But
the end of it all is, who will she get to go, and who will invite them?
It is vain to lay snares if there is nothing to be caught."
"They will be invited--here," said Lucy, faltering a little. "I told you
I am to have a great gathering on the 26th."
"I could not believe my ears. You!--and she is to appear here for the
first time to make her _debut_. Good heavens, Lucy! What can I say to
you--_that_ girl!"
"Why not, Aunt Randolph?" said Lucy (oh, what does it matter--what does
it matter, that she should make so much fuss about it? she was saying
in herself); "I have always liked Bice, and she has been very good to
little Tom."
"Well," cried the angry lady, forgetting herself, and smiling the fierce
smile of wrath, "there is no doubt that it is perfectly appropriate--the
very thing that ought to happen if we lived according to the rules of
nature, without thought of conventionalities and decorums, and so
forth--oh, perfectly appropriate! If you don't object I know no one who
has any right to say a word."
Even now Lucy was scarcely roused enough to be surprised by the
vehemence of these words. "Why should I object?" she said; "or why
should any one say a word?" Her calm, which was almost indifference,
excited Lady Randolph more and more.
"You are either superhuman," she said, with exasperation, "or you
are---- Lucy, I don't know what words to use. You put one out of every
reckoning. You are like nobody I ever knew before. Why should you
object? Why, good heavens! you are the only person that has any
right---- Who should object if not you?"
"Aunt Randolph," said Lucy, rousing herself with an effort, "would you
please tell me plainly what you mean? I am not clever. I can't make
things out. I have always liked Bice. To save her from being made a
victim I am going to give her some of the money under my father's
will--and if I could give her---- What is the matter?" she cried,
stopping short suddenly, and in spite of herself growing pale.
Lady Randolph flung up her hands in dismay. She gave something like a
shriek as she exclaimed: "And Tom is letting you do this?" with horror
in her tone.
"He has promised that he will not oppose," Lucy said; "but why do you
speak so, and look so? Bice--has done no harm."
"Oh, no; Bice has done no harm," cried Lady Randolph bitterly; "nothing,
except being born, which is harm enough, I think. But do you mean to
tell me, Lucy, that Tom--a man of honour, notwithstanding all his
vagaries--Tom----lets you do this and never says a word? Oh, it is too
much. I have always stood by him. I have been his support when every one
else failed. But this is too much, that he should put the burden upon
you--that he should make _you_ responsible for this girl of his----"
"Aunt Randolph!" cried Lucy, rising up quickly and confronting the angry
woman. She put up her hand with a serious dignity that was doubly
impressive from her usual simpleness. "What is it you mean? This girl of
his! I do not understand. She is not much more than a child. You cannot,
cannot suppose that Bice--that it is she--that she is----" Here she
suddenly covered her face with her hands. "Oh, you put things in my mind
that I am ashamed to think of," Lucy cried.
"I mean," said Lady Randolph, who in the heat of this discussion had got
beyond her own power of self-restraint, "what everybody but yourself
must have seen long ago. That woman is a shameless woman, but even she
would not have had the effrontery to bring any other girl to your house.
It was more shameless, I think, to bring that one than any other; but
she would not think so. Oh, cannot you see it even now? Why, the
likeness might have told you; that was enough. The girl is Tom's girl.
She is your husband's----"
Lucy uncovered her face, which was perfectly colourless, with eyes
dilated and wide open. "What?" she whispered, looking intently into Lady
Randolph's face.
"His own child--his--daughter--though I am bitterly ashamed to say it,"
the Dowager said.
For a moment everything seemed to waver and turn round in Lucy's eyes,
as if the walls were making a circuit with her in giddy space. Then she
came to her feet with the sensation of a shock, and found herself
standing erect, with the most amazing incomprehensible sense of relief.
Why should she have felt relieved by this communication which filled her
companion with horror? A softer air seemed to breathe about Lucy, she
felt solid ground under her feet. For the first moment there seemed
nothing but ease and sweet soothing and refreshment in what she heard.
"His--daughter?" she said. Her mind went back with a sudden flash upon
the past, gathering up instantaneously pieces of corroborative evidence,
things which she had not noted at the moment, which she had forgotten,
yet which came back nevertheless when they were needed: the Contessa's
mysterious words about Bice's parentage, her intimation that Lucy would
one day be glad to have befriended her: Sir Tom's sudden agitation when
she had told him of Bice's English descent: finally, and most conclusive
of all, touching Lucy with a most unreasonable conviction and bringing a
rush of warm feeling to her heart, Baby's adoption of the girl and
recommendation of her to his mother. Was it not the voice of nature, the
voice of God? Lucy had no instinctive sense of recoil, no horror of the
discovery. She did not realise the guilt involved, nor was she painfully
struck, as some women might have been, by this evidence of her husband's
previous life "If it is so," she said quietly, "there is more reason
than ever, Aunt Randolph, that I should do everything I can for Bice. It
never came into my mind before. I see now--various things: but I do not
see why it should--make me unhappy," she added with a faint smile which
brought the water to her eyes; "it must have been--long before I knew
him. Will you tell me who was her mother? Was she a foreigner? Did she
die long ago?"
"Oh, Lucy, Lucy," cried Lady Randolph, "is it possible you don't see?
Who would take all that trouble about her? Who would burden themselves
with another woman's girl that was no concern of theirs? Who
would--can't you see? can't you see?"
There came over Lucy's face a hot and feverish flush. She grew red to
her hair, agitation and shame took possession of her; something seemed
to throb and swell as if it would burst in her forehead. She could not
speak. She could not look at her informant for shame of the revelation
that had been made. All the bewildered sensations which for the moment
had been stilled in her breast sprang up again with a feverish whirl and
tumult. She tottered back to the chair on which she had been sitting and
dropped down upon it, holding by it as if that were the only thing in
the world secure and steadfast. It was only now that Lady Randolph
seemed to awake to the risks and dangers of this bold step she had
taken. She had roused the placid soul at last. To what strange agony, to
what revenge might she have roused it? She had looked for tears and
misery, and fleeting rage and mad jealousy. But Lucy's look of utter
giddiness and overthrow alarmed her more than she could say.
"Lucy! Oh, my love, you must recollect, as you say, that it was all
long before he knew you--that there was no injury to you!"
Lucy made a movement with her hand to bar further discussion, but she
could not say anything. She pointed Lady Randolph to her chair, and made
that mute prayer for silence, for no more. But in such a moment of
excitement there is nothing that is more difficult to grant than this.
"Oh, Lucy," the Dowager cried, "forgive me! Perhaps I ought not to have
said anything. Oh, my dear, if you will but think what a painful
position it was for me. To see you so unsuspicious, ready to do
anything, and even Tom taking advantage of you. It is not more than a
week since I found it all out, and how could I keep silence? Think what
a painful position it was for me."
Lucy made no reply. There seemed nothing but darkness round her. She put
out her hand imploring that no more might be said; and though there was
a great deal more said, she scarcely made out what it was. Her brain
refused to take in any more. She suffered herself to be kissed and
blessed, and said good-night to, almost mechanically. And when the elder
lady at last went away, Lucy sat where Lady Randolph had left her, she
did not know how long, gazing woefully at the ruins of that crumbled
world which had all fallen to pieces about her. All was to pieces now.
What was she and what was the other? Why should she be here and not the
other? Two, were there?--two with an equal claim upon him? Was
everything false, even the law, even the external facts which made her
Tom's wife. He had another wife and a child. He was two, he was not one
true man; one for baby and her, another for Bice and the Contessa. When
she heard her husband coming in Lucy fled upstairs like a hunted thing,
and took refuge in the nursery where little Tom was sleeping. Even her
bourgeoise horror of betraying herself, of letting the servants suspect
that anything was wrong, had no effect upon her to-night.