A PAIR OF FRIENDS.
After this it came to be a very common occurrence that Jock and Bice
should meet in the afternoon. He for one thing had lost his
companionship with Lucy, and had been straying forth forlorn not knowing
what to do with himself, taking long walks which he did not care for,
and longing for the intellectual companionship of MTutor, or even of the
other fellows who, if not intellectual, at least were acquainted with
the same things, and accustomed to the same occupations as himself. It
worked in him a tremor and commotion of a kind in which he was wholly
inexperienced, when he saw the slim figure of the girl approaching him,
through the paths of the shrubberies, or across the glades of the park.
He said to himself once or twice, "What a bore;" but those words did not
express his feelings. It was not a bore, it was something very
different. He could not explain the mingled reluctance and pleasure of
his own mood, the little tumult that arose in him when he saw her. He
wanted to turn his back and rush away, and yet he wanted to be there
waiting for her, seeing her approach step by step. He had no notion what
his own mingled sentiments meant. But Bice to all appearance had neither
the reluctance nor the excitement. She came running to her playmate
whenever she saw him with frank satisfaction. "I was looking for you,"
she would say, "Let us go out into the park where nobody can see us.
Run, or some one will be coming," and then she would fly over stock and
stone, summoning him after her. There were many occasions when Jock did
not approve, but he always followed her, though with internal
grumblings, in which he indulged consciously, making out his own
annoyance to be very great. "Why can't she let me alone?" he said to
himself; but when it occurred that Bice did leave him alone, and made no
appearance, his sense of injury was almost bitter. On such occasions he
said cutting things within himself, and was very satirical as to the
stupidity of girls who were afraid to wet their feet, and estimated the
danger of catching a cold as greater than any natural advantage. For
Jock had all that instinctive hostility to womankind, which is natural
to the male bosom, except perhaps at one varying period of life. They
had no place in the economy of his existence at school, and he knew
nothing of them nor wanted to know. But Bice, though, when he was
annoyed with her, she became to him the typical girl, the epitome of
offending woman, had at other times a very different position. It
stirred his entire being, he did not know how, when she roamed with him
about the woods talking of everything, from a point of view which was
certainly different from Jock's. Occasionally, even, he did not
understand her any more than if she had been speaking a foreign
language. She had never any difficulty in penetrating his meaning as he
had in penetrating hers, but there were times when she did not
understand him any more than he understood her. She was by far the
easiest in morals, the least Puritanical. It was not easy to shock Bice,
but it was not at all difficult to shock Jock, brought up as he was in
the highest sentiments under the wing of MTutor, who believed in moral
influence. But the fashion of the intercourse held between these two,
was very remarkable in its way. They were like brother and sister,
without being brother and sister. They were strangers to each other, yet
living in the most entire intimacy, and likely to be parted for ever
to-morrow. They were of the same age, yet the girl was, in experience of
life, a world in advance of the boy, who, notwithstanding, had the
better of her in a thousand ways. In short, they were a paradox, such as
youth, more or less, is always, and the careless close companionship
that grew up between them was at once the most natural and the most
strange alliance. They told each other everything by degrees, without
being at all aware of the nature of their mutual confidence; Bice
revealing to Jock the conditions on which she was to be brought out in
England, and Jock to Bice the unusual features of his own and his
sister's position, to the unbounded astonishment and scepticism of each.
"Beautiful?" said Jock, drawing a long breath. "But beautiful's not a
thing you can go in for, like an exam: You're born so, or you're born
not so; and you know you're not--I mean, you know you're---- Well, it
isn't your fault. Are you going to be sent away for just being--not
pretty?"
"I told you," said the girl, with a little impatience. "Being pretty is
of no consequence. I am pretty, of course," she added regretfully. "But
it is only if I turn out beautiful that she will take the trouble. And
at sixteen, I am told, one cannot yet know."
"But--" cried Jock with a sort of consternation, "you don't mind, do
you? I don't mean anything unkind, you know; I don't think it
matters--and I am sure it isn't your fault; you are not
even--good-looking," candour compelled the boy to say, as to an honest
comrade with whom sincerity was best.
"Ah!" cried Bice, with a little excitement. "Do you think so? Then
perhaps there is more hope."
Jock was confounded by this utterance, and he began to feel that he had
been uncivil. "I don't mean," he said, "that you are not--I mean that it
is not of the least consequence. What does it matter? I am sure you are
clever, which is far better. I think you could get up anything faster
than most fellows if you were to try."
"Get up! What does that mean? And when I tell you that it does matter to
me--oh much,--very much!" she cried. "When you are beautiful, everything
is before you--you marry, you have whatever you wish, you become a great
lady; only to be pretty--that does nothing for you. Ugly, however," said
the girl reflectively; "if I am ugly, then there is some hope."
"I did not say that," cried Jock, shocked at the suggestion. "I wouldn't
be so uncivil. You are--just like other people," he added encouragingly,
"not much either one way or another--like the rest of us," Jock said,
with the intention of soothing her ruffled feelings. At sixteen decorum
is not always the first thing we think of; and though Bice was not an
English girl, she was very young. She threw out a vigorous arm and
pushed him from her, so that the astonished critic, stumbling over some
fallen branches, measured his length upon the dewy sod.
"That was not I," she said demurely, as he picked himself up in great
surprise--drawing a step away, and looking at him with wide-open eyes,
to which the little fright of seeing him fall, and the spark of malice
that took pleasure in it, had given sudden brilliancy. Jock was so much
astonished that he uttered no reproach, but went on by her side, after a
moment, pondering. He could not see how any offence could have lurked
in the encouraging and consolatory words he had said.
But when they reached the other chapter, which concerned his fortunes,
Bice was not more understanding. Her gray eyes absolutely flamed upon
him when he told her of his father's will, and the conditions upon which
Lucy's inheritance was held. "To give her money away! But that is
impossible--it would be to prove one's self mad," the girl said.
"Why? You forget it's my father you're speaking of. He was not mad, he
was just," said Jock, reddening. "What's mad in it? You've got a great
fortune--far more than you want. It all came out of other people's
pockets somehow. Oh, of course, not in a dishonest way. That is the
worst of speaking to a girl that doesn't understand political economy
and the laws of production. Of course it must come out of other people's
pockets. If I sell anything and get a profit (and nobody would sell
anything if they didn't get a profit), of course that comes out of your
pocket. Well, now, I've got a great deal more than I want, and I say you
shall have some of it back."
"And I say," cried Bice, making him a curtsey, "Merci Monsieur! Grazia
Signor! oh thank you, thank you very much--as much as you like, sir, as
much as you like! but all the same I think you are mad. Your money! all
that makes you happy and great----"
"Money," said Jock, loftily, "makes nobody happy. It may make you
comfortable. It gives you fine houses, horses and carriages, and all
that sort of thing. So it will do to the other people to whom it goes;
so it is wisdom to divide it, for the more good you can get out of it
the better. Lucy has money lying in the bank--or somewhere--that she
does not want, that does her no good; and there is some one else" (a
fellow I know, Jock added in a parenthesis), "who has not got enough to
live upon. So you see she just hands over what she doesn't want to him,
and that's better for both. So far from being mad, it's"--Jock paused
for a word--"it's philosophy, it's wisdom, it's statesmanship. It is
just the grandest way that was ever invented for putting things
straight."
Bice looked at him with a sort of incredulous cynical gaze--as if asking
whether he meant her to believe this fiction--whether perhaps he was
such a fool as to think that she could be persuaded to believe it. It
was evident that she did not for a moment suppose him to be serious. She
laughed at last in ridicule and scorn. "You think," she said, "I know so
little. Ah, I know a great deal more than that. What are you without
money? You are nobody. The more you have, so much more have you
everything at your command. Without money you are nobody. Yes, you may
be a prince or an English milord, but that is nothing without money. Oh
yes! I have known princes that had nothing and the people laughed at
them. And a milord who is poor--the very donkey-boys scorn him. You can
do nothing without money," the girl said with almost fierce derision,
"and you tell me you will give it away!" She laughed again angrily, as
if such a brag was offensive and insulting to her own poverty. The boy
who had never in his life known what it was to want anything that money
could procure for him, treated the whole question lightly, and
undervalued its importance altogether. But the girl who knew by
experience what was involved in the want of it, heard with a sort of
wondering fury this slighting treatment of what was to her the
universal panacea. Her cynicism and satirical unbelief grew into
indignation. "And you tell me it is wise to give it away!"
"Lucy has got to do it, whether it is wise or not," said Jock, almost
overawed by this high moral disapproval. "We went to the lawyer about it
the day you came. He is settling it now. She is giving away--well, a
good many thousand pounds."
"Pounds are more than francs, eh?" said Bice quickly.
"More than francs! just twenty-five times more," cried Jock, proud of
his knowledge, "a thousand pounds is----"
"Then I don't believe you!" cried the girl in an outburst of passion,
and she fled from him across the park, catching up her dress and running
at a pace which even Jock with his long legs knew he could not keep up
with. He gazed with surprise, standing still and watching her with the
words arrested on his lips. "But she can't keep it up long like that,"
after a moment Jock said.
The time, however, approached when the two friends had to part. Jock
left the Hall a few days after Lady Randolph, and he was somehow not
very glad to go. The family life had been less cheerful lately, and
conversation languished when the domestic party were alone together.
When the Contessa was present she kept up the ball, maintaining at least
with Sir Tom an always animated and lively strain of talk; but at
breakfast there was not much said, and of late a little restraint had
crept even between the master and mistress of the house, no one could
tell how. The names of the guests were scarcely mentioned between them.
Sir Tom was very attentive and kind to his wife, but he was more silent
than he used to be, reading his letters and his newspapers. Lucy had
been quite satisfied when he said, though it must be allowed with a
laugh not devoid of embarrassment, that it was more important he should
master all the papers and see how public opinion was running, now when
it was so near the opening of Parliament. But a little veil of silence
had fallen over Lucy too. It cost her an effort to speak even to Jock of
common subjects and of his going away. She had thought him looking a
little disturbed, however, on the last morning, and with the newspaper
forming a sort of screen between them and Sir Tom, Lucy made an attempt
to talk to her brother as of old.
"I shall miss you very much, Jock. We have not had so much time together
as we thought."
"We have had no time together, Lucy."
"You must not say that, dear. Don't you recollect that drive to
Farafield? We have not had so many walks, it is true; but then I have
been--occupied."
"Is it ever finished yet, that business?" Jock said suddenly.
It was all Lucy could do not to give him a warning look. "I have had
some letters about it. A thing cannot be finished in a minute like
that." Instinctively she spoke low to escape her husband's ear; he had
never referred to the subject, and she avoided it religiously. It gave
her a thrill of alarm to have it thus reintroduced. To escape it, she
said, raising her voice a little: "The Contessa's letters have not been
sent to her. You must ring the bell, Jock. There are a great many for
her." The name of the Contessa always moved Sir Tom to a certain
attention. He seemed to be on the alert for what might be said of her.
He looked round the corner of the paper with a short laugh, and said,
jocularly, with mock gravity--
"It is a great thing to keep up your correspondence, Lucy. You never can
know when it may prove serviceable. If it had not been for that, she
most likely never would have come here."
Lucy smiled, though with a little restraint. "Perhaps she is sorry now,"
she said, "for it must be dull." Then she hurriedly changed the subject,
afraid lest she might seem ill-natured. "Poor Miss Bice has never any
letters," she said; "she must have very few friends."
"Oh, she has nobody at all," said Jock, "She hasn't got a relation. She
has always lived like this, in different places; and never been to
school, or--anywhere; though she has been nearly round the world."
"Poor little thing! and she is fond of children too," said Lucy. "I
found her one day with baby on her shoulder, a wet day when he could not
get out, racing up and down the long gallery with him crowing and
laughing. It was so pretty to see him----"
"Or to see her, Lucy, most people would say," said Sir Tom, interrupting
again.
"Would they? Oh, yes. But I thought naturally of baby," said the young
mother. Then she made a pause and added softly, "I hope--they--are
always kind to her."
There was a little silence. Sir Tom was behind his newspaper. He
listened, but he did not say anything, and Jock was not aware that he
was listening.
"Oh, I don't think she minds," said Jock. "She is rather jolly when you
come to know her. I say, Lucy, it will be awfully dull for her, you
know, when----"
"When what, Jock?"
"When I am gone," the boy intended to have said, but some gleam of
consciousness came over him that made him pause. He did not say this,
but grew a little red in the effort to think of something else that he
could say.
"Well, I mean here," he said, "for she hasn't been used to it. She has
been in places where there was always music playing and that sort of
thing. She never was in the country. There's plenty of books, to be
sure; but she's not very fond of reading. Few people, are, I think.
_You_ never open a book----"
"Oh yes, Jock! I read the books from Mudie's," Lucy said, with some
spirit, "and I always send them upstairs."
Jock had it on his lips to say something derogatory of the books from
Mudie's; but he checked himself, for he remembered to have seen MTutor
with one of those frivolous volumes, and he refrained from snubbing
Lucy. "I believe she can't read," he said. "She can do nothing but laugh
at one. And she thinks she's pretty," he added, with a little laugh yet
sense of unfaithfulness to the trust reposed in him, which once more
covered his face with crimson.
Lucy laughed too, with hesitation and doubt. "I cannot see it," she
said, "but that is what Lady Randolph thought. It is strange that she
should talk of such things; but people are very funny who have been
brought up abroad."
"All girls are like that," said Jock, authoritatively. "They think so
much of being pretty. But I tell her it doesn't matter. What difference
could it make? Nobody will suppose it was her fault. She says----"
"Hallo, young man," said Sir Tom. "It is time you went back to school, I
think. What would MTutor say to all these confidences with young
ladies, and knowledge of their ways!"
Jock gave his brother-in-law a look, in which defiant virtue struggled
with a certain consciousness; but he scorned to make any reply.