XI

Darrin came to the farm. He made his camp by the spring where Mary

Evered had loved to sit, and where she had been killed. John knew this

at the time, was on the spot when Darrin built his fireplace in a bank

of earth, waist high, and watched the other shape hemlock boughs into a

rain-shedding shelter.

He did not remonstrate; but he did say, “Shouldn’t think you’d want to

sleep here.”

Darrin looked at him curiously; and he laughed a little.

“You mean--the red bull?” he asked. And when John nodded he said, “Oh,

I’m not afraid of ghosts. The world’s full of ghosts.” There was a

sudden hardness in his eye. “I’m a sort of a ghost myself, in a way.”

John wondered what he meant; but he was not given to much questioning,

and did not ask. Nevertheless, Darrin’s word stayed hauntingly in his

mind.

He told Ruth where Darrin was camping; and the girl listened

thoughtfully, but made no comment. John knew that Ruth was accustomed to

go to the spring now and then, as her sister had done. He wondered

whether she would go there now. There was no jealousy in John; his heart

was not built for it. Nevertheless, there was a deep concern for Ruth,

deeper than he had any way of expressing. The matter worried him a

little.

They did not speak of Darrin’s camping place to Evered, and Evered asked

no questions. Darrin came to the house occasionally for supplies, but it

happened that he did not encounter Evered at such times. He was always

careful to ask for the man, to leave some word of greeting for him; and

once he bade them tell Evered to come down and see his camp. They did

not do so. Some instinct, unspoken and unacknowledged, impelled both

Ruth and John to keep Evered and Darrin apart. Neither was conscious of

this feeling, yet both were moved by it.

John, prompted to some extent by his father’s warning, had begun in an

awkward fashion to seek to please Ruth and to win back favor in her

eyes. He felt himself uneasy and at a loss in the presence of Darrin,

felt himself at a disadvantage in any contest with the other. John was a

man of the country, of the farm, and he had grace to know it. Darrin had

the ease of one who has rubbed shoulders with many men in many places;

he was not confused in Ruth’s presence; he was rather at his best when

she was near, while John was ill at ease and words came hard to him.

Darrin took care to be friendly with them both; and he and John on more

than one night drove deep into the swamp together on Darrin’s quest.

John, busy about the farm, was unable to join Darrin in the daytime; but

the other scoured through the marsh for tracks and traces, and then

enlisted John to help him move cameras into position, lay flash-powder

traps, or stalk the moose at their feeding in desperate attempts at

camera snap-shooting.

Sometimes, in the afternoons, John knew that Ruth went down to the

spring and talked with Darrin. Darrin told her of his ventures in the

swamp; and she told Darrin in her turn the story of the tragedy that had

been enacted here by the spring where he was camping. John, crossing the

woodlot on some errand, came upon them there one afternoon, and passed

by on the knoll above them without having been seen. The picture they

made remained with him and troubled him.

When Darrin had been some ten days on the farm and September was coming

in with a full moon in the skies it happened one night that Evered drove

to Fraternity for the mail and left John and Ruth alone together. When

she had done with the dishes she came out to find him on the door-step,

smoking in the moonlight; and she stood above him for a moment, till he

looked up at her with some question in his eyes.

She asked then, “Are you going into the swamp with Mr. Darrin to-night?”

He said, “No. He’s out of plates. There’s some due to-morrow; and he’s

waiting.”

She was silent a moment longer, then said swiftly, as though anxious to

be rid of the words, “Let’s go down and see him.”

If John was hurt or sorry he made no sign. He got to his feet. “Why, all

right,” he said. “It’s bright. We’ll not need a lantern.”

As they moved across the barnyard to the bars and entered the woodlot

the girl began to talk, in a swift low voice, as though to cover some

unadmitted embarrassment. A wiser man might have been disturbed; but

John was not analytical, and so he enjoyed it. It was the first time

they had talked together at any length since Mary died. It was, he

thought, like the old happy times. He felt warmed and comforted and

happier than he had been for many weeks past. She was like the old Ruth

again, he told himself.

Darrin was glad to see them. He built up his fire and made a place for

Ruth to sit upon his blankets, leaning against a bowlder, and offered

John cigars. The man knew how to play host, knew how to be interesting.

John saw Ruth laugh wholeheartedly for the first time in months. He

thought she was never so lovely as laughing.

When they went back up the hill together she fell silent and sober

again; and he looked down and saw her eyes, clear in the moonlight.

Abruptly, without knowing what he did, he put his arm round her; and for

an instant she seemed to yield to him, so that he drew her toward him as

he was used to do. He would have kissed her.

She broke away and cried out: “No, no, no! I told you no, John.”

He said gently, “I think a lot of you, Ruth.”

She shook her head, backing away from him; and he heard the angry note

creep back into her voice. “You mustn’t, ever,” she told him. “Oh, can’t

you understand?”

Some hot strain in the man came to the surface; he cried with an

eloquence that was strange on his slow lips, “I love you. That’s all I

understand. I always will. You’ve got to know that too. You----”

She said, “Hush! I won’t listen. You--you’re your father over. He’s not

content but he master everyone and every thing; master everyone about

him. Break them. Master his beasts and his wife. You’re his own son.

You’re an Evered.” Her hands were tightening into fists at her side.

“Oh, you would want to boss me the way he---- I won’t, I won’t! You

shan’t--shan’t ever do it.”

“I’ll be kind to you,” he said.

There was a softer note in her voice. “John, John,” she told him. “I’m

sorry. I did love you. I tried to shut my eyes. I tried to pretend that

Mary was happy with him. You’re like him. I thought I’d be happy with

you. She told me one day how he used be. It frightened me, because he

was like you. But I did love you, John. Till Mary died. Then I knew.

He’d killed her. He made her want to die. And he had driven that great

bull into a killing thing--by the way he treated it.

“Oh, I’ve seen your father clear, John. I know what he is. You’re like

him. I couldn’t ever love you.”

He said in a hot quick tone--because she was very lovely--that she would

love him, must, some day; and she shook her head.

“Don’t you see?” she told him. “You’re trying already to make me do what

you want. Oh, John, can’t you Evereds see any living thing without

crushing it? Mr. Darrin----” She caught herself, went on. “See how

different he is. He goes into the swamp, and he has to be a thousand

times more careful, more crafty than you when you hunt. But you come

home with a bloody ugly thing across your shoulders; and he comes with a

lovely picture, that will always be beautiful, and that so many people

will see. He outwits the animals; he proves himself against them. But he

doesn’t kill them to do it, John. You--your father---- Oh, can’t you

ever see?”

His thoughts were not quick enough to cope with her; but he said

awkwardly, “I’m not--always killing things. I’ve left many a trout go

that I might have killed. And deer too.”

“Because it’s the law,” she said harshly. “But it’s in you to

kill--crush and bruise and destroy. Don’t you see the difference? You

don’t have to beat a thing, a beast, to make it yield to you. You

Evereds.”

“I’m not a horse beater,” he said.

“It’s the blood of you,” she told him. “You will be.”

“There’s some times,” he suggested, “when you’ve got to be hard.”

“I’ve heard your father say that very thing.”

They were moving slowly homeward now, speaking brokenly, with longer

silences between. The night was almost as bright as day, the moon in

midheavens above them. Ahead the barn and the house bulked large,

casting dark shadows narrowly along their foundation walls. There was a

fragrance of the hayfields in the air. The rake itself lay a little at

one side as they came into the barnyard, its spindling curved tines

making it look not unlike a spider crouching there. The bars rattled

when John lowered them for her to pass through; and the red bull in the

barn heard the sound and snorted sullenly at them.

John said to her, “You’d be having a man handle that bull by kindness,

maybe.”

She swung about and said quickly, “I’d be having a man take an ax and

chop that red bull to little bits.”

He stood still and she looked up at him; and after an instant she hotly

asked, “Are you laughing? Why are you laughing at me?”

He said gently, “You that were so strong against any killing--talking so

of the red bull.”

She cried furiously, “Oh, you---- John Evered, you! I hate you! I’ll

always hate you. You and your father--both of you. Don’t you laugh at

me!”

A little frightened at the storm he had evoked he touched her arm. She

wrenched violently away, was near falling, recovered herself. “Don’t

touch me!” she bade him.

He watched her run into the house.

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