THE INVISIBLE HAND
Jane received a letter from Bishop Dyer, not in his own handwriting,
which stated that the abrupt termination of their interview had left
him in some doubt as to her future conduct. A slight injury had
incapacitated him from seeking another meeting at present, the letter
went on to say, and ended with a request which was virtually a command,
that she call upon him at once.
The reading of the letter acquainted Jane Withersteen with the fact
that something within her had all but changed. She sent no reply to
Bishop Dyer nor did she go to see him. On Sunday she remained absent
from the service—for the second time in years—and though she did not
actually suffer there was a dead-lock of feelings deep within her, and
the waiting for a balance to fall on either side was almost as bad as
suffering. She had a gloomy expectancy of untoward circumstances, and
with it a keen-edged curiosity to watch developments. She had a
half-formed conviction that her future conduct—as related to her
churchmen—was beyond her control and would be governed by their
attitude toward her. Something was changing in her, forming, waiting
for decision to make it a real and fixed thing. She had told Lassiter
that she felt helpless and lost in the fateful tangle of their lives;
and now she feared that she was approaching the same chaotic condition
of mind in regard to her religion. It appalled her to find that she
questioned phases of that religion. Absolute faith had been her
serenity. Though leaving her faith unshaken, her serenity had been
disturbed, and now it was broken by open war between her and her
ministers. That something within her—a whisper—which she had tried in
vain to hush had become a ringing voice, and it called to her to wait.
She had transgressed no laws of God. Her churchmen, however invested
with the power and the glory of a wonderful creed, however they sat in
inexorable judgment of her, must now practice toward her the simple,
common, Christian virtue they professed to preach, “Do unto others as
you would have others do unto you!”
Jane Withersteen, waiting in darkness of mind, remained faithful still.
But it was darkness that must soon be pierced by light. If her faith
were justified, if her churchmen were trying only to intimidate her,
the fact would soon be manifest, as would their failure, and then she
would redouble her zeal toward them and toward what had been the best
work of her life—work for the welfare and happiness of those among whom
she lived, Mormon and Gentile alike. If that secret, intangible power
closed its coils round her again, if that great invisible hand moved
here and there and everywhere, slowly paralyzing her with its mystery
and its inconceivable sway over her affairs, then she would know beyond
doubt that it was not chance, nor jealousy, nor intimidation, nor
ministerial wrath at her revolt, but a cold and calculating policy
thought out long before she was born, a dark, immutable will of whose
empire she and all that was hers was but an atom.
Then might come her ruin. Then might come her fall into black storm.
Yet she would rise again, and to the light. God would be merciful to a
driven woman who had lost her way.
A week passed. Little Fay played and prattled and pulled at Lassiter’s
big black guns. The rider came to Withersteen House oftener than ever.
Jane saw a change in him, though it did not relate to his kindness and
gentleness. He was quieter and more thoughtful. While playing with Fay
or conversing with Jane he seemed to be possessed of another self that
watched with cool, roving eyes, that listened, listened always as if
the murmuring amber stream brought messages, and the moving leaves
whispered something. Lassiter never rode Bells into the court any more,
nor did he come by the lane or the paths. When he appeared it was
suddenly and noiselessly out of the dark shadow of the grove.
“I left Bells out in the sage,” he said, one day at the end of that
week. “I must carry water to him.”
“Why not let him drink at the trough or here?” asked Jane, quickly.
“I reckon it’ll be safer for me to slip through the grove. I’ve been
watched when I rode in from the sage.”
“Watched? By whom?”
“By a man who thought he was well hid. But my eyes are pretty sharp.
An’, Jane,” he went on, almost in a whisper, “I reckon it’d be a good
idea for us to talk low. You’re spied on here by your women.”
“Lassiter!” she whispered in turn. “That’s hard to believe. My women
love me.”
“What of that?” he asked. “Of course they love you. But they’re Mormon
women.”
Jane’s old, rebellious loyalty clashed with her doubt.
“I won’t believe it,” she replied, stubbornly.
“Well then, just act natural an’ talk natural, an’ pretty soon—give
them time to hear us—pretend to go over there to the table, en’ then
quick-like make a move for the door en’ open it.”
“I will,” said Jane, with heightened color. Lassiter was right; he
never made mistakes; he would not have told her unless he positively
knew. Yet Jane was so tenacious of faith that she had to see with her
own eyes, and so constituted that to employ even such small deceit
toward her women made her ashamed, and angry for her shame as well as
theirs. Then a singular thought confronted her that made her hold up
this simple ruse—which hurt her, though it was well justified—against
the deceit she had wittingly and eagerly used toward Lassiter. The
difference was staggering in its suggestion of that blindness of which
he had accused her. Fairness and justice and mercy, that she had
imagined were anchor-cables to hold fast her soul to righteousness had
not been hers in the strange, biased duty that had so exalted and
confounded her.
Presently Jane began to act her little part, to laugh and play with
Fay, to talk of horses and cattle to Lassiter. Then she made deliberate
mention of a book in which she kept records of all pertaining to her
stock, and she walked slowly toward the table, and when near the door
she suddenly whirled and thrust it open. Her sharp action nearly
knocked down a woman who had undoubtedly been listening.
“Hester,” said Jane, sternly, “you may go home, and you need not come
back.”
Jane shut the door and returned to Lassiter. Standing unsteadily, she
put her hand on his arm. She let him see that doubt had gone, and how
this stab of disloyalty pained her.
“Spies! My own women!... Oh, miserable!” she cried, with flashing,
tearful eyes.
“I hate to tell you,” he replied. By that she knew he had long spared
her. “It’s begun again—that work in the dark.”
“Nay, Lassiter—it never stopped!”
So bitter certainty claimed her at last, and trust fled Withersteen
House and fled forever. The women who owed much to Jane Withersteen
changed not in love for her, nor in devotion to their household work,
but they poisoned both by a thousand acts of stealth and cunning and
duplicity. Jane broke out once and caught them in strange, stone-faced,
unhesitating falsehood. Thereafter she broke out no more. She forgave
them because they were driven. Poor, fettered, and sealed Hagars, how
she pitied them! What terrible thing bound them and locked their lips,
when they showed neither consciousness of guilt toward their
benefactress nor distress at the slow wearing apart of long-established
and dear ties?
“The blindness again!” cried Jane Withersteen. “In my sisters as in
me!... O God!”
There came a time when no words passed between Jane and her women.
Silently they went about their household duties, and secretly they went
about the underhand work to which they had been bidden. The gloom of
the house and the gloom of its mistress, which darkened even the bright
spirit of little Fay, did not pervade these women. Happiness was not
among them, but they were aloof from gloom. They spied and listened;
they received and sent secret messengers; and they stole Jane’s books
and records, and finally the papers that were deeds of her possessions.
Through it all they were silent, rapt in a kind of trance. Then one by
one, without leave or explanation or farewell, they left Withersteen
House, and never returned.
Coincident with this disappearance Jane’s gardeners and workers in the
alfalfa fields and stable men quit her, not even asking for their
wages. Of all her Mormon employees about the great ranch only Jerd
remained. He went on with his duty, but talked no more of the change
than if it had never occurred.
“Jerd,” said Jane, “what stock you can’t take care of turn out in the
sage. Let your first thought be for Black Star and Night. Keep them in
perfect condition. Run them every day and watch them always.”
Though Jane Withersteen gave them such liberality, she loved her
possessions. She loved the rich, green stretches of alfalfa, and the
farms, and the grove, and the old stone house, and the beautiful,
ever-faithful amber spring, and every one of a myriad of horses and
colts and burros and fowls down to the smallest rabbit that nipped her
vegetables; but she loved best her noble Arabian steeds. In common with
all riders of the upland sage Jane cherished two material things—the
cold, sweet, brown water that made life possible in the wilderness and
the horses which were a part of that life. When Lassiter asked her what
Lassiter would be without his guns he was assuming that his horse was
part of himself. So Jane loved Black Star and Night because it was her
nature to love all beautiful creatures—perhaps all living things; and
then she loved them because she herself was of the sage and in her had
been born and bred the rider’s instinct to rely on his four-footed
brother. And when Jane gave Jerd the order to keep her favorites
trained down to the day it was a half-conscious admission that presaged
a time when she would need her fleet horses.
Jane had now, however, no leisure to brood over the coils that were
closing round her. Mrs. Larkin grew weaker as the August days began;
she required constant care; there was little Fay to look after; and
such household work as was imperative. Lassiter put Bells in the stable
with the other racers, and directed his efforts to a closer attendance
upon Jane. She welcomed the change. He was always at hand to help, and
it was her fortune to learn that his boast of being awkward around
women had its root in humility and was not true.
His great, brown hands were skilled in a multiplicity of ways which a
woman might have envied. He shared Jane’s work, and was of especial
help to her in nursing Mrs. Larkin. The woman suffered most at night,
and this often broke Jane’s rest. So it came about that Lassiter would
stay by Mrs. Larkin during the day, when she needed care, and Jane
would make up the sleep she lost in night-watches. Mrs. Larkin at once
took kindly to the gentle Lassiter, and, without ever asking who or
what he was, praised him to Jane. “He’s a good man and loves children,”
she said. How sad to hear this truth spoken of a man whom Jane thought
lost beyond all redemption! Yet ever and ever Lassiter towered above
her, and behind or through his black, sinister figure shone something
luminous that strangely affected Jane. Good and evil began to seem
incomprehensibly blended in her judgment. It was her belief that evil
could not come forth from good; yet here was a murderer who dwarfed in
gentleness, patience, and love any man she had ever known.
She had almost lost track of her more outside concerns when early one
morning Judkins presented himself before her in the courtyard.
Thin, hard, burnt, bearded, with the dust and sage thick on him, with
his leather wrist-bands shining from use, and his boots worn through on
the stirrup side, he looked the rider of riders. He wore two guns and
carried a Winchester.
Jane greeted him with surprise and warmth, set meat and bread and drink
before him; and called Lassiter out to see him. The men exchanged
glances, and the meaning of Lassiter’s keen inquiry and Judkins’s bold
reply, both unspoken, was not lost upon Jane.
“Where’s your hoss?” asked Lassiter, aloud.
“Left him down the slope,” answered Judkins. “I footed it in a ways,
an’ slept last night in the sage. I went to the place you told me you
’most always slept, but didn’t strike you.”
“I moved up some, near the spring, an’ now I go there nights.”
“Judkins—the white herd?” queried Jane, hurriedly.
“Miss Withersteen, I make proud to say I’ve not lost a steer. Fer a
good while after thet stampede Lassiter milled we hed no trouble. Why,
even the sage dogs left us. But it’s begun agin—thet flashin’ of lights
over ridge tips, an’ queer puffin’ of smoke, en’ then at night strange
whistles en’ noises. But the herd’s acted magnificent. An’ my boys,
say, Miss Withersteen, they’re only kids, but I ask no better riders. I
got the laugh in the village fer takin’ them out. They’re a wild lot,
an’ you know boys hev more nerve than grown men, because they don’t
know what danger is. I’m not denyin’ there’s danger. But they glory in
it, an’ mebbe I like it myself—anyway, we’ll stick. We’re goin’ to
drive the herd on the far side of the first break of Deception Pass.
There’s a great round valley over there, an’ no ridges or piles of
rocks to aid these stampeders. The rains are due. We’ll hev plenty of
water fer a while. An’ we can hold thet herd from anybody except
Oldrin’. I come in fer supplies. I’ll pack a couple of burros an’ drive
out after dark to-night.”
“Judkins, take what you want from the store-room. Lassiter will help
you. I—I can’t thank you enough... but—wait.”
Jane went to the room that had once been her father’s, and from a
secret chamber in the thick stone wall she took a bag of gold, and,
carrying it back to the court, she gave it to the rider.
“There, Judkins, and understand that I regard it as little for your
loyalty. Give what is fair to your boys, and keep the rest. Hide it.
Perhaps that would be wisest.”
“Oh... Miss Withersteen!” ejaculated the rider. “I couldn’t earn so
much in—in ten years. It’s not right—I oughtn’t take it.”
“Judkins, you know I’m a rich woman. I tell you I’ve few faithful
friends. I’ve fallen upon evil days. God only knows what will become of
me and mine! So take the gold.”
She smiled in understanding of his speechless gratitude, and left him
with Lassiter. Presently she heard him speaking low at first, then in
louder accents emphasized by the thumping of his rifle on the stones.
“As infernal a job as even you, Lassiter, ever heerd of.”
“Why, son,” was Lassiter’s reply, “this breakin’ of Miss Withersteen
may seem bad to you, but it ain’t bad—yet. Some of these wall-eyed
fellers who look jest as if they was walkin’ in the shadow of Christ
himself, right down the sunny road, now they can think of things en’ do
things that are really hell-bent.”
Jane covered her ears and ran to her own room, and there like caged
lioness she paced to and fro till the coming of little Fay reversed her
dark thoughts.
The following day, a warm and muggy one threatening rain awhile Jane
was resting in the court, a horseman clattered through the grove and up
to the hitching-rack. He leaped off and approached Jane with the manner
of a man determined to execute difficult mission, yet fearful of its
reception. In the gaunt, wiry figure and the lean, brown face Jane
recognized one of her Mormon riders, Blake. It was he of whom Judkins
had long since spoken. Of all the riders ever in her employ Blake owed
her the most, and as he stepped before her, removing his hat and making
manly efforts to subdue his emotion, he showed that he remembered.
“Miss Withersteen, mother’s dead,” he said.
“Oh—Blake!” exclaimed Jane, and she could say no more.
“She died free from pain in the end, and she’s buried—resting at last,
thank God!... I’ve come to ride for you again, if you’ll have me. Don’t
think I mentioned mother to get your sympathy. When she was living and
your riders quit, I had to also. I was afraid of what might be
done—said to her.... Miss Withersteen, we can’t talk of—of what’s going
on now—”
“Blake, do you know?”
“I know a great deal. You understand, my lips are shut. But without
explanation or excuse I offer my services. I’m a Mormon—I hope a good
one. But—there are some things!... It’s no use, Miss Withersteen, I
can’t say any more—what I’d like to. But will you take me back?”
“Blake!... You know what it means?”
“I don’t care. I’m sick of—of—I’ll show you a Mormon who’ll be true to
you!”
“But, Blake—how terribly you might suffer for that!”
“Maybe. Aren’t you suffering now?”
“God knows indeed I am!”
“Miss Withersteen, it’s a liberty on my part to speak so, but I know
you pretty well—know you’ll never give in. I wouldn’t if I were you.
And I—I must—Something makes me tell you the worst is yet to come.
That’s all. I absolutely can’t say more. Will you take me back—let me
ride for you—show everybody what I mean?”
“Blake, it makes me happy to hear you. How my riders hurt me when they
quit!” Jane felt the hot tears well to her eyes and splash down upon
her hands. “I thought so much of them—tried so hard to be good to them.
And not one was true. You’ve made it easy to forgive. Perhaps many of
them really feel as you do, but dare not return to me. Still, Blake, I
hesitate to take you back. Yet I want you so much.”
“Do it, then. If you’re going to make your life a lesson to Mormon
women, let me make mine a lesson to the men. Right is right. I believe
in you, and here’s my life to prove it.”
“You hint it may mean your life!” said Jane, breathless and low.
“We won’t speak of that. I want to come back. I want to do what every
rider aches in his secret heart to do for you.... Miss Withersteen, I
hoped it’d not be necessary to tell you that my mother on her deathbed
told me to have courage. She knew how the thing galled me—she told me
to come back.... Will you take me?”
“God bless you, Blake! Yes, I’ll take you back. And will you—will you
accept gold from me?”
“Miss Withersteen!”
“I just gave Judkins a bag of gold. I’ll give you one. If you will not
take it you must not come back. You might ride for me a few
months—weeks—days till the storm breaks. Then you’d have nothing, and
be in disgrace with your people. We’ll forearm you against poverty, and
me against endless regret. I’ll give you gold which you can hide—till
some future time.”
“Well, if it pleases you,” replied Blake. “But you know I never thought
of pay. Now, Miss Withersteen, one thing more. I want to see this man
Lassiter. Is he here?”
“Yes, but, Blake—what—Need you see him? Why?” asked Jane, instantly
worried. “I can speak to him—tell him about you.”
“That won’t do. I want to—I’ve got to tell him myself. Where is he?”
“Lassiter is with Mrs. Larkin. She is ill. I’ll call him,” answered
Jane, and going to the door she softly called for the rider. A faint,
musical jingle preceded his step—then his tall form crossed the
threshold.
“Lassiter, here’s Blake, an old rider of mine. He has come back to me
and he wishes to speak to you.”
Blake’s brown face turned exceedingly pale.
“Yes, I had to speak to you,” he said, swiftly. “My name’s Blake. I’m a
Mormon and a rider. Lately I quit Miss Withersteen. I’ve come to beg
her to take me back. Now I don’t know you; but I know—what you are. So
I’ve this to say to your face. It would never occur to this woman to
imagine—let alone suspect me to be a spy. She couldn’t think it might
just be a low plot to come here and shoot you in the back. Jane
Withersteen hasn’t that kind of a mind.... Well, I’ve not come for
that. I want to help her—to pull a bridle along with Judkins and—and
you. The thing is—do you believe me?”
“I reckon I do,” replied Lassiter. How this slow, cool speech
contrasted with Blake’s hot, impulsive words! “You might have saved
some of your breath. See here, Blake, cinch this in your mind. Lassiter
has met some square Mormons! An’ mebbe—”
“Blake,” interrupted Jane, nervously anxious to terminate a colloquy
that she perceived was an ordeal for him. “Go at once and fetch me a
report of my horses.”
“Miss Withersteen!... You mean the big drove—down in the sage-cleared
fields?”
“Of course,” replied Jane. “My horses are all there, except the blooded
stock I keep here.”
“Haven’t you heard—then?”
“Heard? No! What’s happened to them?”
“They’re gone, Miss Withersteen, gone these ten days past. Dorn told
me, and I rode down to see for myself.”
“Lassiter—did you know?” asked Jane, whirling to him.
“I reckon so.... But what was the use to tell you?”
It was Lassiter turning away his face and Blake studying the stone
flags at his feet that brought Jane to the understanding of what she
betrayed. She strove desperately, but she could not rise immediately
from such a blow.
“My horses! My horses! What’s become of them?”
“Dorn said the riders report another drive by Oldring.... And I trailed
the horses miles down the slope toward Deception Pass.”
“My red herd’s gone! My horses gone! The white herd will go next. I can
stand that. But if I lost Black Star and Night, it would be like
parting with my own flesh and blood. Lassiter—Blake—am I in danger of
losing my racers?”
“A rustler—or—or anybody stealin’ hosses of yours would most of all
want the blacks,” said Lassiter. His evasive reply was affirmative
enough. The other rider nodded gloomy acquiescence.
“Oh! Oh!” Jane Withersteen choked, with violent utterance.
“Let me take charge of the blacks?” asked Blake. “One more rider won’t
be any great help to Judkins. But I might hold Black Star and Night, if
you put such store on their value.”
“Value! Blake, I love my racers. Besides, there’s another reason why I
mustn’t lose them. You go to the stables. Go with Jerd every day when
he runs the horses, and don’t let them out of your sight. If you would
please me—win my gratitude, guard my black racers.”
When Blake had mounted and ridden out of the court Lassiter regarded
Jane with the smile that was becoming rarer as the days sped by.
“’Pears to me, as Blake says, you do put some store on them hosses. Now
I ain’t gainsayin’ that the Arabians are the handsomest hosses I ever
seen. But Bells can beat Night, an’ run neck en’ neck with Black Star.”
“Lassiter, don’t tease me now. I’m miserable—sick. Bells is fast, but
he can’t stay with the blacks, and you know it. Only Wrangle can do
that.”
“I’ll bet that big raw-boned brute can more’n show his heels to your
black racers. Jane, out there in the sage, on a long chase, Wrangle
could kill your favorites.”
“No, no,” replied Jane, impatiently. “Lassiter, why do you say that so
often? I know you’ve teased me at times, and I believe it’s only
kindness. You’re always trying to keep my mind off worry. But you mean
more by this repeated mention of my racers?”
“I reckon so.” Lassiter paused, and for the thousandth time in her
presence moved his black sombrero round and round, as if counting the
silver pieces on the band. “Well, Jane, I’ve sort of read a little
that’s passin’ in your mind.”
“You think I might fly from my home—from Cottonwoods—from the Utah
border?”
“I reckon. An’ if you ever do an’ get away with the blacks I wouldn’t
like to see Wrangle left here on the sage. Wrangle could catch you. I
know Venters had him. But you can never tell. Mebbe he hasn’t got him
now.... Besides—things are happenin’, an’ somethin’ of the same queer
nature might have happened to Venters.”
“God knows you’re right!... Poor Bern, how long he’s gone! In my
trouble I’ve been forgetting him. But, Lassiter, I’ve little fear for
him. I’ve heard my riders say he’s as keen as a wolf.... As to your
reading my thoughts—well, your suggestion makes an actual thought of
what was only one of my dreams. I believe I dreamed of flying from this
wild borderland, Lassiter. I’ve strange dreams. I’m not always
practical and thinking of my many duties, as you said once. For
instance—if I dared—if I dared I’d ask you to saddle the blacks and
ride away with me—and hide me.”
“Jane!”
The rider’s sunburnt face turned white. A few times Jane had seen
Lassiter’s cool calm broken—when he had met little Fay, when he had
learned how and why he had come to love both child and mistress, when
he had stood beside Milly Erne’s grave. But one and all they could not
be considered in the light of his present agitation. Not only did
Lassiter turn white—not only did he grow tense, not only did he lose
his coolness, but also he suddenly, violently, hungrily took her into
his arms and crushed her to his breast.
“Lassiter!” cried Jane, trembling. It was an action for which she took
sole blame. Instantly, as if dazed, weakened, he released her. “Forgive
me!” went on Jane. “I’m always forgetting your—your feelings. I thought
of you as my faithful friend. I’m always making you out more than
human... only, let me say—I meant that—about riding away. I’m wretched,
sick of this—this—Oh, something bitter and black grows on my heart!”
“Jane, the hell—of it,” he replied, with deep intake of breath, “is you
_can’t_ ride away. Mebbe realizin’ it accounts for my grabbin’ you—that
way, as much as the crazy boy’s rapture your words gave me. I don’t
understand myself.... But the hell of this game is—you _can’t_ ride
away.”
“Lassiter!... What on earth do you mean? I’m an absolutely free woman.”
“You ain’t absolutely anythin’ of the kind.... I reckon I’ve got to
tell you!”
“Tell me all. It’s uncertainty that makes me a coward. It’s faith and
hope—blind love, if you will, that makes me miserable. Every day I
awake believing—still believing. The day grows, and with it doubts,
fears, and that black bat hate that bites hotter and hotter into my
heart. Then comes night—I pray—I pray for all, and for myself—I
sleep—and I awake free once more, trustful, faithful, to believe—to
hope! Then, O my God! I grow and live a thousand years till night
again!... But if you want to see me a woman, tell me why I can’t ride
away—tell me what more I’m to lose—tell me the worst.”
“Jane, you’re watched. There’s no single move of yours, except when
you’re hid in your house, that ain’t seen by sharp eyes. The cottonwood
grove’s full of creepin’, crawlin’ men. Like Indians in the grass. When
you rode, which wasn’t often lately, the sage was full of sneakin’ men.
At night they crawl under your windows into the court, an’ I reckon
into the house. Jane Withersteen, you know, never locked a door! This
here grove’s a hummin’ bee-hive of mysterious happenin’s. Jane, it
ain’t so much that these spies keep out of my way as me keepin’ out of
theirs. They’re goin’ to try to kill me. That’s plain. But mebbe I’m as
hard to shoot in the back as in the face. So far I’ve seen fit to watch
only. This all means, Jane, that you’re a marked woman. You can’t get
away—not now. Mebbe later, when you’re broken, you might. But that’s
sure doubtful. Jane, you’re to lose the cattle that’s left—your home
an’ ranch—an’ Amber Spring. You can’t even hide a sack of gold! For it
couldn’t be slipped out of the house, day or night, an’ hid or buried,
let alone be rid off with. You may lose all. I’m tellin’ you, Jane,
hopin’ to prepare you, if the worst does come. I told you once before
about that strange power I’ve got to feel things.”
“Lassiter, what can I do?”
“Nothin’, I reckon, except know what’s comin’ an’ wait an’ be game. If
you’d let me make a call on Tull, an’ a long-deferred call on—”
“Hush!... Hush!” she whispered.
“Well, even that wouldn’t help you any in the end.”
“What does it mean? Oh, what does it mean? I am my father’s daughter—a
Mormon, yet I can’t see! I’ve not failed in religion—in duty. For years
I’ve given with a free and full heart. When my father died I was rich.
If I’m still rich it’s because I couldn’t find enough ways to become
poor. What am I, what are my possessions to set in motion such
intensity of secret oppression?”
“Jane, the mind behind it all is an empire builder.”
“But, Lassiter, I would give freely—all I own to avert this—this
wretched thing. If I gave—that would leave me with faith still. Surely
my—my churchmen think of my soul? If I lose my trust in them—”
“Child, be still!” said Lassiter, with a dark dignity that had in it
something of pity. “You are a woman, fine en’ big an’ strong, an’ your
heart matches your size. But in mind you’re a child. I’ll say a little
more—then I’m done. I’ll never mention this again. Among many thousands
of women you’re one who has bucked against your churchmen. They tried
you out, an’ failed of persuasion, an’ finally of threats. You meet now
the cold steel of a will as far from Christlike as the universe is
wide. You’re to be broken. Your body’s to be held, given to some man,
made, if possible, to bring children into the world. But your soul?...
What do they care for your soul?”