DÉSIRÉE’S BABY

As the day was pleasant, Madame Valmondé drove over to L’Abri to see

Désirée and the baby.

It made her laugh to think of Désirée with a baby. Why, it seemed but

yesterday that Désirée was little more than a baby herself; when

Monsieur in riding through the gateway of Valmondé had found her lying

asleep in the shadow of the big stone pillar.

The little one awoke in his arms and began to cry for “Dada.” That was

as much as she could do or say. Some people thought she might have

strayed there of her own accord, for she was of the toddling age. The

prevailing belief was that she had been purposely left by a party of

Texans, whose canvas-covered wagon, late in the day, had crossed the

ferry that Coton Maïs kept, just below the plantation. In time Madame

Valmondé abandoned every speculation but the one that Désirée had been

sent to her by a beneficent Providence to be the child of her

affection, seeing that she was without child of the flesh. For the girl

grew to be beautiful and gentle, affectionate and sincere,—the idol of

Valmondé.

It was no wonder, when she stood one day against the stone pillar in

whose shadow she had lain asleep, eighteen years before, that Armand

Aubigny riding by and seeing her there, had fallen in love with her.

That was the way all the Aubignys fell in love, as if struck by a

pistol shot. The wonder was that he had not loved her before; for he

had known her since his father brought him home from Paris, a boy of

eight, after his mother died there. The passion that awoke in him that

day, when he saw her at the gate, swept along like an avalanche, or

like a prairie fire, or like anything that drives headlong over all

obstacles.

Monsieur Valmondé grew practical and wanted things well considered:

that is, the girl’s obscure origin. Armand looked into her eyes and did

not care. He was reminded that she was nameless. What did it matter

about a name when he could give her one of the oldest and proudest in

Louisiana? He ordered the _corbeille_ from Paris, and contained himself

with what patience he could until it arrived; then they were married.

Madame Valmondé had not seen Désirée and the baby for four weeks. When

she reached L’Abri she shuddered at the first sight of it, as she

always did. It was a sad looking place, which for many years had not

known the gentle presence of a mistress, old Monsieur Aubigny having

married and buried his wife in France, and she having loved her own

land too well ever to leave it. The roof came down steep and black like

a cowl, reaching out beyond the wide galleries that encircled the

yellow stuccoed house. Big, solemn oaks grew close to it, and their

thick-leaved, far-reaching branches shadowed it like a pall. Young

Aubigny’s rule was a strict one, too, and under it his negroes had

forgotten how to be gay, as they had been during the old master’s

easy-going and indulgent lifetime.

The young mother was recovering slowly, and lay full length, in her

soft white muslins and laces, upon a couch. The baby was beside her,

upon her arm, where he had fallen asleep, at her breast. The yellow

nurse woman sat beside a window fanning herself.

Madame Valmondé bent her portly figure over Désirée and kissed her,

holding her an instant tenderly in her arms. Then she turned to the

child.

“This is not the baby!” she exclaimed, in startled tones. French was

the language spoken at Valmondé in those days.

“I knew you would be astonished,” laughed Désirée, “at the way he has

grown. The little _cochon de lait!_ Look at his legs, mamma, and his

hands and finger-nails,—real finger-nails. Zandrine had to cut them

this morning. Isn’t it true, Zandrine?”

The woman bowed her turbaned head majestically, “Mais si, Madame.”

“And the way he cries,” went on Désirée, “is deafening. Armand heard

him the other day as far away as La Blanche’s cabin.”

Madame Valmondé had never removed her eyes from the child. She lifted

it and walked with it over to the window that was lightest. She scanned

the baby narrowly, then looked as searchingly at Zandrine, whose face

was turned to gaze across the fields.

“Yes, the child has grown, has changed,” said Madame Valmondé, slowly,

as she replaced it beside its mother. “What does Armand say?”

Désirée’s face became suffused with a glow that was happiness itself.

“Oh, Armand is the proudest father in the parish, I believe, chiefly

because it is a boy, to bear his name; though he says not,—that he

would have loved a girl as well. But I know it isn’t true. I know he

says that to please me. And mamma,” she added, drawing Madame

Valmondé’s head down to her, and speaking in a whisper, “he hasn’t

punished one of them—not one of them—since baby is born. Even

Négrillon, who pretended to have burnt his leg that he might rest from

work—he only laughed, and said Négrillon was a great scamp. Oh, mamma,

I’m so happy; it frightens me.”

What Désirée said was true. Marriage, and later the birth of his son

had softened Armand Aubigny’s imperious and exacting nature greatly.

This was what made the gentle Désirée so happy, for she loved him

desperately. When he frowned she trembled, but loved him. When he

smiled, she asked no greater blessing of God. But Armand’s dark,

handsome face had not often been disfigured by frowns since the day he

fell in love with her.

When the baby was about three months old, Désirée awoke one day to the

conviction that there was something in the air menacing her peace. It

was at first too subtle to grasp. It had only been a disquieting

suggestion; an air of mystery among the blacks; unexpected visits from

far-off neighbors who could hardly account for their coming. Then a

strange, an awful change in her husband’s manner, which she dared not

ask him to explain. When he spoke to her, it was with averted eyes,

from which the old love-light seemed to have gone out. He absented

himself from home; and when there, avoided her presence and that of her

child, without excuse. And the very spirit of Satan seemed suddenly to

take hold of him in his dealings with the slaves. Désirée was miserable

enough to die.

She sat in her room, one hot afternoon, in her _peignoir_, listlessly

drawing through her fingers the strands of her long, silky brown hair

that hung about her shoulders. The baby, half naked, lay asleep upon

her own great mahogany bed, that was like a sumptuous throne, with its

satin-lined half-canopy. One of La Blanche’s little quadroon boys—half

naked too—stood fanning the child slowly with a fan of peacock

feathers. Désirée’s eyes had been fixed absently and sadly upon the

baby, while she was striving to penetrate the threatening mist that she

felt closing about her. She looked from her child to the boy who stood

beside him, and back again; over and over. “Ah!” It was a cry that she

could not help; which she was not conscious of having uttered. The

blood turned like ice in her veins, and a clammy moisture gathered upon

her face.

She tried to speak to the little quadroon boy; but no sound would come,

at first. When he heard his name uttered, he looked up, and his

mistress was pointing to the door. He laid aside the great, soft fan,

and obediently stole away, over the polished floor, on his bare

tiptoes.

She stayed motionless, with gaze riveted upon her child, and her face

the picture of fright.

Presently her husband entered the room, and without noticing her, went

to a table and began to search among some papers which covered it.

“Armand,” she called to him, in a voice which must have stabbed him, if

he was human. But he did not notice. “Armand,” she said again. Then she

rose and tottered towards him. “Armand,” she panted once more,

clutching his arm, “look at our child. What does it mean? tell me.”

He coldly but gently loosened her fingers from about his arm and thrust

the hand away from him. “Tell me what it means!” she cried

despairingly.

“It means,” he answered lightly, “that the child is not white; it means

that you are not white.”

A quick conception of all that this accusation meant for her nerved her

with unwonted courage to deny it. “It is a lie; it is not true, I am

white! Look at my hair, it is brown; and my eyes are gray, Armand, you

know they are gray. And my skin is fair,” seizing his wrist. “Look at

my hand; whiter than yours, Armand,” she laughed hysterically.

“As white as La Blanche’s,” he returned cruelly; and went away leaving

her alone with their child.

When she could hold a pen in her hand, she sent a despairing letter to

Madame Valmondé.

“My mother, they tell me I am not white. Armand has told me I am not

white. For God’s sake tell them it is not true. You must know it is not

true. I shall die. I must die. I cannot be so unhappy, and live.”

The answer that came was brief:

“My own Désirée: Come home to Valmondé; back to your mother who loves

you. Come with your child.”

When the letter reached Désirée she went with it to her husband’s

study, and laid it open upon the desk before which he sat. She was like

a stone image: silent, white, motionless after she placed it there.

In silence he ran his cold eyes over the written words.

He said nothing. “Shall I go, Armand?” she asked in tones sharp with

agonized suspense.

“Yes, go.”

“Do you want me to go?”

“Yes, I want you to go.”

He thought Almighty God had dealt cruelly and unjustly with him; and

felt, somehow, that he was paying Him back in kind when he stabbed thus

into his wife’s soul. Moreover he no longer loved her, because of the

unconscious injury she had brought upon his home and his name.

She turned away like one stunned by a blow, and walked slowly towards

the door, hoping he would call her back.

“Good-by, Armand,” she moaned.

He did not answer her. That was his last blow at fate.

Désirée went in search of her child. Zandrine was pacing the sombre

gallery with it. She took the little one from the nurse’s arms with no

word of explanation, and descending the steps, walked away, under the

live-oak branches.

It was an October afternoon; the sun was just sinking. Out in the still

fields the negroes were picking cotton.

Désirée had not changed the thin white garment nor the slippers which

she wore. Her hair was uncovered and the sun’s rays brought a golden

gleam from its brown meshes. She did not take the broad, beaten road

which led to the far-off plantation of Valmondé. She walked across a

deserted field, where the stubble bruised her tender feet, so

delicately shod, and tore her thin gown to shreds.

She disappeared among the reeds and willows that grew thick along the

banks of the deep, sluggish bayou; and she did not come back again.

Some weeks later there was a curious scene enacted at L’Abri. In the

centre of the smoothly swept back yard was a great bonfire. Armand

Aubigny sat in the wide hallway that commanded a view of the spectacle;

and it was he who dealt out to a half dozen negroes the material which

kept this fire ablaze.

A graceful cradle of willow, with all its dainty furbishings, was laid

upon the pyre, which had already been fed with the richness of a

priceless _layette_. Then there were silk gowns, and velvet and satin

ones added to these; laces, too, and embroideries; bonnets and gloves;

for the _corbeille_ had been of rare quality.

The last thing to go was a tiny bundle of letters; innocent little

scribblings that Désirée had sent to him during the days of their

espousal. There was the remnant of one back in the drawer from which he

took them. But it was not Désirée’s; it was part of an old letter from

his mother to his father. He read it. She was thanking God for the

blessing of her husband’s love:—

“But above all,” she wrote, “night and day, I thank the good God for

having so arranged our lives that our dear Armand will never know that

his mother, who adores him, belongs to the race that is cursed with the

brand of slavery.”

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