A MOTHER'S HOPEFULNESS.
Among the persons who had come to the gardener's funeral old Mrs.
Storms was most conspicuous, not only from her high position among the
tenants, but because of the relations her son was supposed to hold
with the daughter, who was beloved by them all. After the funeral
several neighbors offered to stay with Ruth, but in her wild
wretchedness she refused them all--kindly, sweetly, as it was in her
nature to do, but with a positiveness that admitted of no further
urgency.
Even Mrs. Mason, who now considered herself as something more than
friend or godmother, felt constrained to go away and leave the poor
girl to the isolation she pleaded for; though with some little
resentment at the bottom of her kind heart.
Mrs. Storms was not to be dissuaded from all kindliness so easily.
When the neighbors were gone she came into the room where Ruth was
sitting, and in a gentle, motherly fashion, sat down by the mourner
and strove to comfort her.
"Come," she said, taking the girl's cold hands in the clasp of her
hard-working fingers, "come, lass, and stay with me. This house is so
full of gloom that you will pine to death in it. Our home is large,
and bright with sunshine. You shall have the lady's chamber, which
will be all your own some blessed day, God willing."
The good woman caught her breath here, for something like an electric
shock flashed through the hands she clasped, and Ruth made a struggle
to free herself from the thraldom of kindness that was torturing her.
"I know--I know this isn't the time to speak of weddings; but you have
no mother, and I never had a girl in the house; so if you would only
come now, and be company for me--only company for the old woman--it
would be better and happier for us all."
Ruth did not answer this loving appeal. She only closed her eyes and
shuddered faintly. Great emotions had exhausted themselves with her.
"Be sure, Ruth, it is not my son alone who loves you. From the first I
have always looked upon you as my own lass, and a prettier no mother
need want, or a better, either."
"No, no, you must not say that," Ruth cried out; for the anguish of
these praises was more than she could bear. "He thought me pretty--he
thought me good, and how have I repaid him? Oh, my father, my poor
dead father, it was love for me that killed him!"
Mrs. Storms was silent a while. She understood this piteous outcry as
a burst of natural grief, and gave it no deeper significance; but she
felt the task of comforting the poor girl more difficult than she had
imagined. What could she say that would not call forth some new cause
of agitation? The subject which she had fondly trusted in seemed to
give nothing but pain. Yet no hint had ever reached the woman that the
attachment of her son was not more than returned by this orphaned
girl. Perhaps Ruth was wounded that Richard was not there in place of
his mother. With this possibility in her mind the matron renewed her
kindly entreaties.
"You must not think it strange, dear, that Richard left the funeral
without coming back to the cottage. It was that his heart was full of
the great trouble, and he would not darken the cottage with more than
you could bear. The father, too--for you must think of him as that,
dear child--has well nigh broke his heart over the loss of his old
friend. He's eager as can be to have a daughter in the house, and will
be good as gold to her."
Ruth did not listen to the subject of these words, but the kindly
voice soothed her. This old housewife had been a good friend to her
ever since she could remember, and was trying to comfort her now, as
if anything approaching comfort could ever reach her life, fearfully
burdened as it was. Still, there was soothing in the voice. So the
matron, meeting no opposition, went on:
"We must not talk of what is closest to our hearts just yet; but the
time will soon come when the old man and I will flit to some smaller
home, and you shall have the house all for your two selves. It will be
another place then; for Richard can afford to live more daintily than
we ever cared for. The garden can be stocked with flowers and made
pretty as this at the cottage. The barley-field can be seeded back to
a lawn, and that parlor with the oriel window, where the good man
stores his fruit, can be made rarely grand with its pictured walls
and carved mantelpiece."
Still Ruth did not listen; only a fantastic and vague picture of some
dream-like place was passing through her mind, which the kind old
neighbor was endeavoring to make her understand. Now and then she felt
this hazy picture broken up by a jar of pain when Richard Storms was
mentioned; but even that hated name was so softened by the loving,
motherly voice that half its bitterness was lost.
"Tell me," said the matron, "when will you come? I made everything
ready this morning before we left, hoping you would go back with us."
Ruth opened her great sad eyes, and looked into the motherly face
bending over her.
"You are kind," she said, "so kind, and you were his dear friend. I
know that well enough; but I cannot fix my mind on anything--only
this: your voice is sweet; you are good, and wish me to do something
that I cannot think of yet. Let me rest; my eyes ache with heaviness.
I have no strength for anything. This is a sad place, and I am sad
like the rest; if you would leave me now, in all kindness I ask it;
perhaps the good God might permit me to sleep. Since the night he died
I have been fearfully awake, sitting by him, you know. Now--now I
would like to be alone, quite alone. There is something I wish to ask
of God."
Mrs. Storms yielded to this sad pleading, laid the girl's hands into
her lap, kissed her forehead and went away, thinking, in her motherly
innocence:
"The child is worn out, dazed with her great sorrow. I can do nothing
with her; but Richard will be going to the cottage, and she loves him.
Ah, who could help it, now that he is so manly and has given up the
ways that we dreaded might turn to evil! She will listen to him, then
John and I will have a daughter."