SIR William Heathcote in his dressing-room, wrapped up with rugs, and
his foot on a stool, looked as little like a bridegroom as need be. He
was suffering severely from gout, and in all the irritable excitement of
that painful malady.
A mass of unopened letters lay on the table beside him, littered as it
was with physic bottles, pill-boxes, and a small hand-bell. On the
carpet around him lay the newspapers and reviews, newly arrived, but all
indignantly thrown aside, uncared for by one too deeply engaged in his
sufferings to waste a thought upon the interests of the world.
“Not come in yet, Fenton?” cried he, angrily, to his servant. “I 'm
certain you 're mistaken; go and inquire of her maid.”
“I have just asked mamselle, sir, and she says her mistress is still out
driving.”
“Give me my colchicum; no, the other bottle,--that small phial. But you
can't drop them. There, leave it down, and send Miss Leslie here.”
“She is at the Gallery, sir.”
“Of course she is,” muttered he, angrily, below his breath; “gadding,
like the rest. Is there no one can measure out my medicine? Where's Miss
Clara?”
“She's in the drawing-room, sir.”
“Send her here; beg her to do me the favor,” cried he, subduing the
irritation of his manner, as he wiped his forehead, and tried to seem
calm and collected.
“Did you want me, grandpapa?” said the young girl, entering, and
addressing him by the title she had one day given him in sportiveness,
and which he liked to be called by.
“Yes,” said he, roughly, for his pain was again upon him. “I wanted any
one that would be humane enough to sit with me for a while. Are you
steady enough of hand to drop that medicine for me, child?”
“I think so,” said she, smiling gently.
“But you must be certain, or it won't do. I 'd not like to be poisoned,
my good girl. Five-and-twenty drops,--no more.”
“I 'll count them, sir, and be most careful,” said she, rising, and
taking the bottle.
“Egad, I scarcely fancy trusting you,” said he, half peevishly. “A giddy
thing like you would feel little remorse at having overdone the dose.”
“Oh, grandpapa!”
“Oh, of course you 'd not do it purposely. But why am I left to such
chances? Why is n't your mother here? There are all my letters, besides,
unread; and they cannot, if need were, be answered by this post.”
“She said that she 'd be obliged to call at the bank this morning, sir,
and was very likely to be delayed there for a considerable time.”
“I 'm sure I cannot guess why. It is Trover and Twist 's duty to attend
to her at once. They would not presume to detain _her_, Oh! here comes
the pain again! Why do you irritate me, child, by these remarks? Can't
you see how they distress me?”
“Dear grandpapa, how sorry I am! Let me give you these drops.”
“Not for the world! No, no, I 'll not be accessary to my own death. If
it come, it shall come at its own time. There, I am not angry with you,
child; don't get so pale; sit down here, beside me. What's all this
story about your guardian? I heard it so confusedly last night, during
an attack of pain, I can make nothing of it.”
“I scarcely know more of it myself, sir. All I do know is that he has
come out from England to take me away with him, and place me, mamma
says, at some Pensionnat.”
“No, no; this mustn't be,--this is impossible! You belong to us, dear
Clara. I 'll not permit it Your poor mamma would be heart-broken to lose
you.”
Clara turned away, and wiped two large tears from her eyes; her lips
trembled so that she could not utter a word.
“No, no,” continued he; “a guardian is all very well, but a mother's
rights are very different,--and such a mother as yours, Clara! Oh! by
Jove! that _was_ a pang! Give me that toast-and-water, child!”
It was with a rude impatience he seized the glass from her hand, and
drank off the contents. “This pain makes one a downright savage, my poor
Clara,” said he, patting her cheek, “but old grandpapa will not be such
a bear to-morrow.”
“To-morrow, when I'm gone!” muttered she, half dreamily.
“And his name? What is it?”
“Stocmar, sir.”
“Stocmar,--Stocmar? never heard of a Stocmar, except that theatrical
fellow near St. James's. Have you seen him, child?”
“No, sir. I was out walking when he called.”
“Well, do the same to-morrow,” cried he, peevishly, for another twitch
of gout had just crossed him. “It's always so,” muttered he; “every
annoyance of life lies in wait for the moment a man is laid up with
gout, just as if the confounded malady were not torture enough by
itself. There's Charley going out as a volunteer to India, for what or
why no one can say. If there had been some insurmountable obstacle to
his marriage with May, he 'd have remained to overcome it; but because
he loves her, and that she likes _him_--By Jove, that was a pang!” cried
he, wiping his forehead, after a terrible moment of pain. “Isn't it so,
Clara?” he resumed. “_You_ know better than any of us that May never
cared for that tutor fellow,--I forget his name; besides, that's an old
story now,--a matter of long ago. But he _will_ go. He says that even a
rash resolve at six-and-twenty is far better than a vain and hopeless
regret at six-and-forty; but I say, let him marry May Leslie, and he
need neither incur one nor the other. And so this guardian's name is
Harris?”
“No, grandpapa, Stocmar.”
“Oh, to be sure. I was confounding him with another of those stage
people. And what business has he to carry you off without your mother's
consent?”
“Mamma _does_ consent, sir. She says that my education has been so much
neglected that it is actually indispensable I should study now.”
“Education neglected! what nonsense! Do they want to make you a
Professor of the Sorbonne? Why, child, without any wish to make you
vain, you know ten times as much as half the collegiate fellows one
meets, what with languages, and music, and drawing, and all that school
learning of mamma's own teaching. And then that memory of yours, Clara;
why, you seem to me to forget nothing.”
“I remember but too well,” muttered she to herself.
“What was it you said, child? I did not catch it,” said he. And then,
not waiting for her reply, he went on: “And all your high spirits, my
little Clara, where are they gone? And your odd rhymes, that used to
amuse me so? You never make them now.”
“They do not cross my mind as they used to do,” said she, pensively.
“You vote them childish, perhaps, like your dolls?” said he, smiling.
“No, not that. I wish with all my heart I could go back to the dolls and
the nursery songs. I wish I could live all in the hour before me, making
little dramas of life, with some delightful part for myself in each, and
only to be aroused from the illusion to join a real world. Just as
enjoyable.”
“But surely, child, you have not reached the land of regrets already?”
said he, fondly drawing her towards him with his arm.
She turned her head away, and drew her hand across her eyes.
“It is very early to begin with sorrow, my dear child,” said he,
affectionately. “Let me hope that it's only an April cloud, with the
silver lining already peeping through.”
A faint sob broke from her, but she did not speak.
“I 'd ask to be your confidant only in thinking I could serve you,
dearest Clara. Old men like myself get to know a good deal of life
without any study of it.”
She made a slight effort to disengage herself from his arm, but he held
her fast; and, after a moment, she leaned her head upon his shoulder and
burst out crying.
At this critical instant the door opened, and Mrs. Morris entered.
Scarcely inside the room, she stood like one spell-bound, unable to move
or speak; her features, flushed by exercise, became pale as death, her
lips actually livid. “Am I indiscreet?” asked she, in a voice scarcely
other than a hiss of passion. “Do I interrupt a confidence, Sir
William?”
“I am not sure that you do,” said he, good-humoredly. “Though I was
pressing Clara to accept me as a counsellor, I 'm not quite certain I
was about to succeed.”
“Indeed!” said Mrs. Morris, sarcastically. “_My_ theory about young
ladies excludes secrets altogether. It assumes them to be candid and
open-hearted. They who walk openly and on the high-road want little
guidance beyond the dictates of a right purpose. Go to your room, Clara,
and I 'll be with you presently.” These latter words were spoken in
perfect calm, and obeyed at once. Mrs. Morris was now alone with Sir
William.
The Baronet felt ill at ease. With a perfect consciousness of honorable
motives, there is an awkwardness in situations which seem to require
explanation, if not excuse, and he waited, in a sort of fidgety
impatience, that she should say something that might enable him to state
what had occurred between Clara and himself.
“I hope you are better than when I left you this morning?” said she, as
she untied her bonnet and seated herself in front of him.
“Scarcely so; these pains recur at every instant, and my nerves are
shattered with irritability.”
“I 'm sorry for it, for you have need of all your firmness; bad news has
come from America.”
“Bad news? What sort of bad news? Is there a war--”
“A war!” said she, contemptuously. “I wish it _was_ a war! It's far
worse than war. It's general bankruptcy. All the great houses breaking,
and securities utterly valueless.”
“Well, bad enough, no doubt, but it does not immediately concern _us_,”
said he, quickly.
“Not concern us! Why, what have we been doing these last months but
buying into this share-market? Have we not invested largely in Kansas
stock, in Iroquois and in Texan bonds?”
Whether he had not originally understood the transfers in which he had
borne his part, or whether the pain of his seizure had effaced all
memory of the events, he now sat bewildered and astounded, like one
suddenly aroused from a deep sleep, to listen to disastrous news.
“But I don't understand,” cried he. “I cannot see how all this has been
done. I heard you and Trover discussing it together, and I saw
innumerable colored plans of railroads that were to be, and cities that
must be, and I remember something about lands to be purchased for two
dollars and re-sold for two hundred.”
“And, by all that, you have confessed to know everything that _I_ did,”
said she, firmly. “It was explained to you that, instead of muddling
away upon mortgage at home, some thirty or even forty per cent might be
realized in the States. I showed you the road by risking whatever little
fortune I possessed, and you followed. Now we have each of us lost our
money, and there 's the whole story.”
“But it's May's money I 've lost!” cried he, with a voice of anguish.
“I don't suppose it matters much to whom it belonged once,” said she,
dryly. “The gentlemen into whose hands it falls will scarcely burden
themselves to ask whence it came.”
“But I had no right to gamble May Leslie's fortune!” burst he in.
“We have no time for the ethical part of the question at present,” said
she, calmly. “Our concern is with how we are to save the most we can. I
have just seen the names of two houses at New York, which, if aided in
time, will be able to stand the torrent, and eventually pay everything.
To save their credit here will require about eighteen thousand pounds.
It is our interest--our only hope, indeed--to rescue them. Could you
induce May to take this step?”
“Induce May to peril another large portion of her fortune!” cried he, in
horror and astonishment.
“Induce her to arrest what might proceed to her ruin,” whispered she, in
a low, distinct voice. “If these American securities are forfeited,
there will be no money forthcoming to meet the calls for the Spanish
railroads, no resources to pay the deposit on the concessions in Naples.
You seem to forget how deep our present engagements are. We shall need
above thirty thousand pounds by the 1st of March,--fully as much more
six weeks later.”
The old man clasped his hands convulsively, and trembled from head to
foot.
“You know well how ignorant she is of all we have done, all we are
doing,” said he, with deep emotion.
“I know well that no one ever labored and worked for _my_ benefit as I
have toiled for _hers_. My endeavor was to triple, quadruple her
fortune, and if unforeseen casualties have arisen to thwart my plans, I
am not deterred by such disasters. I wish I could say as much for
_you_.”
The ineffable insolence of her manner as she uttered this taunt, far
from rousing the old man's anger, seemed only to awe and subdue him.
“Yes,” continued she, “I am only a woman, and, as a woman, debarred from
all those resorts where information is rife and knowledge attainable;
but even working darkly, blindly, as I must, I have more reliance and
courage than some men that I wot of!”
He seemed for a moment to struggle hard with himself to summon the
spirit to reply to her; for an instant he raised his head haughtily, but
as his eyes met hers they fell suddenly, and he muttered in a half-
broken voice, “I meant all for the best!”
“Well,” cried she, after a brief pause, “it is no time for regrets, or
recriminations either. It is surely neither your fault nor mine that the
cotton crop is a failure, or that discounts are high in Broadway. When
May comes in, you must explain to her what has happened, and ask her
leave to sell out her Sardinian stock. It is a small sum, to be sure,
but it will give us a respite for a day or two, and then we shall think
of our next move.”
She left the room as she said this, and anything more utterly hopeless
than the old Baronet it would be difficult to imagine. Bewildered and
almost stunned by the difficulties around him, a sort of vague sense of
reliance upon _her_ sustained him so long as she was there. No sooner,
however, had she gone, than this support seemed withdrawn, and he sat,
the very picture of dismay and discomfiture.
The project by which the artful Mrs. Morris had originally seduced him
into speculation was no other than to employ Miss Leslie's fortune as
the means of making advantageous purchases of land in the States, and of
discounting at the high rate of interest so freely given in times of
pressure in the cities of the Union. To suffer a considerable sum to lie
unprofitably yielding three per cent at home, when it might render
thirty by means of a little energy and a little skill, seemed actually
absurd; and not a day used to go over, in which she would not compute,
from the recorded rates of the exchanges, the large gains that might
have been realized, without, as she would say, “the shadow of a shade of
risk.” Sir William had once gambled on 'Change and in railroad
speculations the whole of a considerable estate; and the old leaven of
speculation still worked within him. If there be a spirit which no
length of years can efface, no changes of time eradicate, it is the
gamester's reliance upon fortune. Estranged for a long period as he had
lived from all the exciting incidents of enterprise, no sooner was the
picture of gain once more displayed before him than he eagerly embraced
it.
“Ah!” he would say to himself, “if I had but had the advantage of _her_
clear head and shrewd power of calculation long ago, what a man I might
be to-day! That woman's wit of hers puts all mere men's acuteness to the
blush.” It is not necessary to say that the softest of blue eyes and the
silkiest of brown hair did not detract very largely from the influences
of her mental superiority; and Sir William was arrived at that precise
lustre in which such fascinations obtain their most undisputed triumphs.
Poets talk of youth as the impressionable age; they rave about its
ardor, its impetuous, uncalculating generosity, and so forth; but for an
act of downright self-forgetting devotion, for that impulsive spirit
that takes no counsel from calm reason, give us an elderly gentleman,--
anything from sixty-four to fourscore. These are the really ardent and
tender lovers,--easy victims, too, of all the wiles that beset them.
Had any grave notary, or deep plotting man upon 'Change suggested to Sir
William the project of employing his ward's fortune with any view to his
own profit, the chances are that the hint would have been rejected as an
outrage, and the suggester insulted; but the plan came from rosy lips,
whispered by the softest of voices; and even the arithmetic was jotted
down by fingers so taper and so white that he lost sight of the
multiples in his admiration of the calculator. His first experiences,
besides, were all great successes. Kansas scrip went up to a fabulous
premium. When he sold out his Salt Lake Fives, he realized cent per
cent. These led him on. That “ardor nummi” which was not new in the days
of the Latin poet, is as rife in _our_ time as it was centuries ago.
Let us also bear in mind that there is something very fascinating to a
man of a naturally active temperament to be recalled, after years of
inglorious leisure, to subjects of deep and stirring interest; he likes
the self-flattery of being equal to such themes, that his judgment
should be as sound, his memory as clear, and his apprehension as ready
as it used to be. Proud man is the old fox-hunter that can charge his
“quickset” at fourscore; but infinitely prouder the old country
gentleman who, at the same age, fancies himself deep in all the
mysteries of finance, and skilled in the crafty lore of the share-
market.
And, last of all, he was vexed and irritated by Charley's desertion of
him, and taunted by the tone in which the young man alluded to the widow
and her influence in the family. To be taught caution, or to receive
lessons in worldly craft from one very much our junior, is always a
trial of temper; and so did everything conspire to make him an easy
victim to her machinations.
And May,--what of her? May signed her name when and wherever she was
told, concurred with everything, and, smiling, expressed her gratitude
for all the trouble they were taking on her behalf. Her only impression
throughout was that property was a great source of worry; and what a
fortunate thing it was for her to have met with those who understood its
interests, and could deal with its eventualities! Of her large fortune
she actually knew nothing. Little jests would be bandied, at breakfast
and dinner, about May being the owner of vast tracts in the far West,
territories wide as principalities, with mines here and great forests
there, and so on, and sportive allusions to her one day becoming the
queen of some far-away land beyond the sea. Save in such laughing guise
as this she never approached the theme, nor cared for it.
Between May and Clara a close friendship had grown up. Besides the
tastes that united them, there was another and a very tender bond that
linked their hearts together. They were confidantes. May told Clara that
she really loved Charles Heathcote, and never knew it till they were
separated. She owned that if his careless, half-indifferent way had
piqued her, it was only after she had been taught to resent it. She had
once even regarded it as the type of his manly, independent nature,
which she now believed to be the true version of his character; and then
there was a secret--a real young-lady secret--between them, fastest of
all the bonds that ever bound such hearts together.
May fancied or imagined that young Layton had gone away, trusting that
time was to plead for him, and that absence was to appeal in his behalf.
Perhaps he had said so; perhaps he hoped it; perhaps it was a mere dream
of her own. Who knows these things? In that same court of Cupid fancies
are just as valid as affidavits, and the vaguest illusions quite as much
evidence as testimony taken on oath.
Now, amongst all the sorrows that a young lady loves best to weep over,
there is not one whose ecstasy can compare with the affliction for the
poor fellow who loves her to madness, but whose affection she cannot
return. It is a very strange and curious fact--and fact it is--that this
same tie of a rejected devotion will occasionally exact sacrifices just
as great as the most absorbing passion.
To have gained a man's heart, as it were, in spite of him,--to have
become the depositary of all his hopes, and yet not given him one scrap
of a receipt for his whole investment,--has a wonderful attraction for
the female nature. It is the kind of debt of honor she can appreciate
best of all, and, it must be owned, it is one she knows how to deal with
in a noble and generous spirit To the man so placed with regard to her
she will observe an undying fidelity; she will defend him at any cost;
she will uphold him at any sacrifice. Now, May not only confessed to
Clara that Layton had made her the offer of his heart, but she told how
heavily on her conscience lay the possible--if it were so much as
possible--sin of having given him any encouragement.
“You must write to the poor fellow for me, Clara. You must tell him from
me--from myself, remember--that it would be only a cruelty to suffer him
to cherish hope; that my self-accusings, painful enough now, would be
tortures if I were to deceive him. I'm sure it is better, no matter what
the anguish be, to deal thus honestly and fairly; and you can add that
his noble qualities will be ever dwelt on by me--indeed, you may say by
both of us--with the very deepest interest, and that no higher happiness
could be than to hear of his success in life.”
May said this and much more to the same purpose. She professed to feel
for him the most sincere friendship, faintly foreshadowing throughout
that it was not the least demerit on his part his being fascinated by
such attractions as hers, though they were, in reality, not meant to
captivate him.
I cannot exactly say how far Clara gave a faithful transcript of her
friend's feelings, for I never saw but a part of the letter she wrote;
but certainly it is only fair to suppose, from its success, that it was
all May could have desired.
The epistle had followed Layton from an address he had given in Wales to
Dublin, thence to the north of Ireland, and finally overtook him in
Liverpool the night before he sailed for America.
He answered it at once. He tendered all his gratitude for the kind
thoughtfulness that had suggested the letter. He said that such an
evidence of interest was inexpressibly dear to him at a moment when
nothing around or about him was of the cheeriest. He declared that,
going to a far-away land, with an uncertain future before him, it was a
great source of encouragement to him to feel that good wishes followed
his steps; that he owned, in a spirit of honest loyalty, that few as
were the months that had intervened, they were enough to convince him of
the immense presumption of his proffer. “You will tell Miss Leslie,”
wrote he, “that in the intoxication of all the happiness I lived in at
the villa, I lost head as well as heart. It was such an atmosphere of
enjoyment as I had never breathed before,--may never breathe again. I
could not stop to analyze what it was that imparted such ecstasy to my
existence, and, naturally enough, tendered all my homage and all my
devotion to one whose loveliness was so surpassing! If I was ever unjust
enough to accuse her of having encouraged my rash presumption, let me
now entreat her pardon. I see and own my fault.”
The letter was very long, but not always very coherent. There was about
it a humility that smacked more of wounded pride than submissiveness,
and occasionally a sort of shadowy protest that, while grateful for
proffered friendship, he felt himself no subject for pity or compassion.
To use the phrase of Quackinboss, to whom he read it, “it closed the
account with that firm, and declared no more goods from that store.”
But there was a loose slip of paper enclosed, very small, and with only
a few lines written on it. It was to Clara herself. “And so you have
kept the slip of jessamine I gave you on that day,--gave you so
ungraciously too. Keep it still, dear Clara. Keep it in memory of one
who, when he claims it of you, will ask you to recall that hour, and
never again forget it!”
This she did _not_ show to May Leslie; and thus was there one secret
which she treasured in her own heart, alone.