CHAPTER XIX.

There comes a time in human affairs, whether of nations or individuals,

when a dull exhausted calm appears to fall upon them--a period of

repose, a lull after the excitement of hurried events, a pause in which

to draw breath for the renewal of the story. Grateful are these

interludes, and necessary for the preservation of true equipoise, but

they are not interesting, and in novels all description of them is

carelessly skipped over. In stories we want events, not lingerings.

The summer passed quietly for the family at Lanarth, broken only by the

usual social happenings, visits from the "Byrd girls," as they were

still called, with their husbands and little ones; a marriage, a

christening, letters from Jim and Susie, and measles among the little

Garnetts. In August, Pocahontas and her mother went for a month to

Piedmont, Virginia, to try the medicinal waters for the latter's

rheumatism, and after their return home, Berkeley took a holiday and

ran up to the Adirondacks to see Blanche.

Poor Mrs. Smith did not rally as her family had hoped, and the

physicians--as is customary when a case baffles their skill--all

recommended further and more complete change. They must take her

abroad, and try what the excitement of foreign travel would do toward

preventing her from sinking into confirmed invalidism. General Smith,

who had abandoned every care and interest for the purpose of devoting

himself to his wife, embraced the proposal with eagerness, and insisted

on the experiment being tried as speedily as possible.

Blanche could not help some murmurs, both inwardly and to Berkeley, at

the long separation in store for them; and the lover, although himself

a little rueful, heartened her up with bright prophecies for their

future. An immediate marriage for them was out of the question, for

since Warner's death Mrs. Smith clung to her younger daughter with

absolute dependence. The last of September was decided on for sailing,

as that would allow General Smith time to enter Percival at school, and

to complete other necessary arrangements before the family departure.

The management of Shirley would remain in Berkeley's hands, and the

house would continue closed until the return of the travelers.

To Nesbit Thorne, the summer had appeared interminable, and every

golden hour had been shod with lead. He had passed the season partly

in the Adirondacks with his relatives and partly in New York; but he

was always oppressed with the same miserable unrest, the same weary

longing. It would appear, at times, impossible for him to hold to his

resolution of waiting until after the re-marriage of his _ci-devant_

wife, before again seeking Pocahontas. He yearned to be with her, to

hold her hands, and gaze into her eyes, so intensely at times, that it

required the utmost exertion of his will to prevent himself from

boarding the first southward-bound train. He was forced continually to

remind himself that if he should yield to the impulse, he would be

guilty of egregious folly--having waited so long, he could surely wait

a few weeks longer. Ethel's marriage would dissipate every shadow of a

tie between them, and with that fact fully established, Pocahontas

_must_ hear him.

In deference to Cumberland prejudice, Mrs. Thorne's marriage had been

deferred until September--to that lady's great annoyance. She saw no

reason for delay, nor any necessity for humoring the Cumberland

old-fogyism, and in delicate ambiguous terms she conveyed this opinion

to her lover, and discovered, to her surprise and indignation, that he

disagreed with her. Some concession was due to the feelings of his

family, and he did not wish to be hurried; on this ground, he

intrenched himself and defied the world to move him. When Cecil made a

point, he held to it with the obstinacy characteristic of mediocrity,

and Ethel, not being exactly in a position to dictate, and requiring

moreover some portion of the Cumberland countenance, was forced to

acquiesce.

Some weeks before the day appointed for her marriage, Ethel removed

herself and her belongings to the house of a poor and plastic aunt, who

was in the habit of allowing herself to be run into any mold her niece

should require. According to their agreement, Ethel gave her whilom

husband due notice of her plans, and Thorne at once removed the child

to Brooklyn, and placed him under the care of a sister of his father's,

a gentle elderly widow who had known sorrow. His house he put in the

hands of an agent to rent or sell, furnished, only removing such

articles as had belonged to his parents. The house was hateful to him,

and he felt that should the beautiful, new life of which he dreamed

ever dawn for him, it must be set amid different surroundings from

those which had framed his matrimonial failure.

Still in deference to the Cumberland prejudice, the re-marriage of

Ethel Thorne took place very quietly. It was a morning wedding, graced

only by the presence of a few indifferent relatives, and a small crowd

of curious friends. The two Misses Cumberland, handsome, heavy-browed

women, after much discussion in the family bosom, and some fraternal

persuasion, had allowed themselves to be seduced into attending the

obnoxious nuptials, and shedding the light of the family countenance

upon the ill-doing pair. Very austere and forbidding they looked as

they seated themselves, reprobatively, in a pew far removed from the

chancel, and their light was no better than the veriest darkness.

Twelve hours after the marriage had been published to the world,

another marked paper was speeding southward, addressed this time to

Pocahontas, and accompanied by a thick, closely written, letter.

Thorne had decided that it would be better to send a messenger before,

this time, to prepare the way for him. In his letter Thorne touched

but lightly on the point at issue between them, thinking it better to

take it for granted that her views had modified, if not changed. The

strength of his cause lay in his love, his loneliness, his yearning

need of her. On these themes he dwelt with all the eloquence of which

he was master, and the letter closed with a passionate appeal, in which

he poured out the long repressed fire of his love: "My darling, tell me

I may come to you--or rather tell me nothing; I will understand and

interpret your silence rightly. You are proud, my beautiful love, and

in all things I will spare you--in all things be gentle to you; in all

things, save this--I can not give you up--I _will_ not give you up. I

will wait here for another week, and if I do not hear from you, I will

start for Virginia at once--with joy and pride and enduring

thankfulness."

Pocahontas took the paper to her mother's room, the letter she put

quietly away. She would answer it, but not yet; at night--when the

house should be quiet she would answer it.

The lines containing the brief announcement were at the head of the

list:

MARRIED.

"CUMBERLAND-THORNE.--At the church of the Holy Trinity, September 21st,

18--, by the Rev. John Sylvestus, Cecil Cumberland to Ethel Ross

Thorne; both of this city."

Mrs. Mason laid the paper on the little stand beside her chair. "My

daughter," she said, looking up at the girl seriously, "this can make

no difference."

"No, mother," very quietly, "no difference; but I thought you ought to

know."

In her own room, at night, when the house was still, the girl sat with

the letter in her lap thinking. The moonlight poured in through the

open window and made a map on the floor, whereon slender shadows traced

rivers, mountains and boundaries. In the trees outside, the night

insects chirped, and bats darted and circled in the warm air.

If only she could think that this made a difference. She was so weary

of the struggle. The arguments which formerly sustained her had, with

ceaseless iteration, lost their force; her battle-worn mind longed to

throw down its arms in unconditional surrender. Her up-bringing had

been so different; this thing was not regarded by the world in the same

light as it appeared to her; was she over-strained, opinionated,

censorious? Nesbit had called her so--was he right? Who was _she_, to

set up her feeble judgment against the world's verdict--to condemn and

criticise society's decision? Divorce must be--even Scripture allowed

that; a limb must be sacrificed sometimes that a life might be saved.

True, the process had always appeared to her, in her ignorance, an

operation of cruel anguish, from which the patient came halt, or lame,

or blind for life; but what if she should be wrong? What if the

present crab-like propensity for the renewal of the missing part was

the natural and sensible condition. This wicked woman--this wife who

had recklessly thrown aside life's choicest gift--was happy; she had

replaced her lopped-off limb with a new one, and it was well with her.

Norma had said long ago that, "any woman who trifled with her happiness

because of a scruple was a fool." Was Norma right? Was her hesitation

senseless, doltish folly?

The boundaries of the moonlight shifted; a long irregular cape, like a

shining finger, stretched out across the floor and touched the hem of

her dress. From behind the screen in the fireplace came a little

sound, as though a mouse were rustling fragments of torn paper.

If she could only recognize that this marriage _had_ made a difference.

It was so wearisome, this strife with a heart that would not admit

defeat, a love that fought on and would not die. What was required of

her?--nothing; nothing save to sit with folded hands and let happiness

flood her life like sunshine--only to lay away the letter in her desk

and wait silently for her lover to come to her. Her lover--the man

whose influence had changed the monotonous calm of existence into the

pulsing passion of living--the man who loved her; whom she loved. No

words were needed--only silence; he was so thoughtful for her, so

anxious to spare her; only silence, and in a little while his arms

would infold her; his beautiful eyes, heavy with tenderness, gaze deep

into hers; his sweet, passionate kisses burn upon her lips.

The radiant finger stole softly up her dress, across her lap, and made

a little pool of brightness in the heart of which the letter lay;

outside in the dove-cote a pigeon cooed sleepily to his mate.

What was that tale of long ago that was coming strangely back to her?

A girl, one whom they all knew and loved, had been separated from her

husband after several years of misery, bravely borne. Her husband had

been a confirmed drunkard, and in his cups was as one possessed with

devils. They had grieved over Clare, and when her husband's brutality

grew such that her brother interfered and insisted on her procuring a

divorce for the protection of herself and her children, they had felt

that it was right; and while they deplored the necessity, they had

sided with Clare throughout. But when, two years later, wedding cards

had come from Clare, from some place in the West, whither she had moved

with her children; it had been a grievous shock, for the drunkard still

lived. It had seemed a strange and monstrous thing, and their judgment

had been severe--their censure scathing. Poor Clare! She understood

her temptation better now. Poor little Clare!

What was it Jim had said? The men had been guarded in the expression

of their opinion before her; they were fastidious in conversation

before women. This, he had said in an under-tone to Berkeley, but she

had caught it, and caught also the scorn of the hazel eye, and knew

that the lip curled under the brown mustache. He had said--"To a woman

of innate purity the thing would be impossible. There is a coarseness

in the situation which is revolting."

What would he think of her? She was weighing the matter--canvassing

its possibility. Was her nature deteriorating? Was she growing

coarser, less pure? Would her old friend, whose standard was so high,

despise her? Would she be lowered in the eyes of those whose influence

and opinions had, heretofore, molded her life? The associations of

years are not uprooted and cast aside in days or in months.

Responsibilities engendered by the past environed her, full-grown,

comprehensible, insistent; responsibilities which might be engendered

by the future, lay in her mind a tiny germ in which the embryo life had

scarcely begun to stir. The duty to the old life seemed to her plain

and clear; a beaten track along which she might safely travel. The

duty to another life which might, in time, be equally plain and clear,

was now a bewildering mist through which strange shapes passed, like

phantasmagoria. She could not think; her mind was benumbed; right and

wrong, apparently, had changed places and commingled so, that, for the

time, their identity was confused, indistinguishable: she could not

guide herself, as yet; she could only hold blindly to the old supports.

The silver finger had lifted itself from her lap and rested on her

breast, forming a shining pathway from her heart, through the open

window, out into the silence and beauty of the night.

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