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"Of course we must dine with Mrs. Carfry, dearest," Archer said; and

his wife looked at him with an anxious frown across the monumental

Britannia ware of their lodging house breakfast-table.

In all the rainy desert of autumnal London there were only two people

whom the Newland Archers knew; and these two they had sedulously

avoided, in conformity with the old New York tradition that it was not

"dignified" to force one's self on the notice of one's acquaintances in

foreign countries.

Mrs. Archer and Janey, in the course of their visits to Europe, had so

unflinchingly lived up to this principle, and met the friendly advances

of their fellow-travellers with an air of such impenetrable reserve,

that they had almost achieved the record of never having exchanged

a word with a "foreigner" other than those employed in hotels and

railway-stations. Their own compatriots--save those previously known or

properly accredited--they treated with an even more pronounced disdain;

so that, unless they ran across a Chivers, a Dagonet or a Mingott,

their months abroad were spent in an unbroken _tête-à-tête_. But the

utmost precautions are sometimes unavailing; and one night at Botzen

one of the two English ladies in the room across the passage (whose

names, dress and social situation were already intimately known to

Janey) had knocked on the door and asked if Mrs. Archer had a bottle of

liniment. The other lady--the intruder's sister, Mrs. Carfry--had been

seized with a sudden attack of bronchitis; and Mrs. Archer, who never

travelled without a complete family pharmacy, was fortunately able to

produce the required remedy.

Mrs. Carfry was very ill, and as she and her sister Miss Harle were

travelling alone they were profoundly grateful to the Archer ladies,

who supplied them with ingenious comforts and whose efficient maid

helped to nurse the invalid back to health.

When the Archers left Botzen they had no idea of ever seeing Mrs.

Carfry and Miss Harle again. Nothing, to Mrs. Archer's mind, would have

been more "undignified" than to force one's self on the notice of a

"foreigner" to whom one had happened to render an accidental service.

But Mrs. Carfry and her sister, to whom this point of view was unknown,

and who would have found it utterly incomprehensible, felt themselves

linked by an eternal gratitude to the "delightful Americans" who had

been so kind at Botzen. With touching fidelity they seized every chance

of meeting Mrs. Archer and Janey in the course of their continental

travels, and displayed a supernatural acuteness in finding out when

they were to pass through London on their way to or from the States.

The intimacy became indissoluble, and Mrs. Archer and Janey, whenever

they alighted at Brown's Hotel, found themselves awaited by two

affectionate friends who, like themselves, cultivated ferns in Wardian

cases, made macramé lace, read the memoirs of the Baroness Bunsen and

had views about the occupants of the leading London pulpits. As Mrs.

Archer said, it made "another thing of London" to know Mrs. Carfry and

Miss Harle; and by the time that Newland became engaged the tie between

the families was so firmly established that it was thought "only right"

to send a wedding invitation to the two English ladies, who sent, in

return, a pretty bouquet of pressed Alpine flowers under glass. And on

the dock, when Newland and his wife sailed for England, Mrs. Archer's

last word had been: "You must take May to see Mrs. Carfry."

Newland and his wife had had no idea of obeying this injunction; but

Mrs. Carfry, with her usual acuteness, had run them down and sent them

an invitation to dine; and it was over this invitation that May Archer

was wrinkling her brows across the tea and muffins.

"It's all very well for you, Newland; you _know_ them. But I shall feel

so shy among a lot of people I've never met. And what shall I wear?"

Newland leaned back in his chair and smiled at her. She looked

handsomer and more Diana-like than ever. The moist English air seemed

to have deepened the bloom of her cheeks and softened the slight

hardness of her virginal features; or else it was simply the inner glow

of happiness, shining through like a light under ice.

"Wear, dearest? I thought a trunkful of things had come from Paris last

week."

"Yes, of course. I meant to say that I shan't know _which_ to wear." She

pouted a little. "I've never dined out in London; and I don't want to

be ridiculous."

He tried to enter into her perplexity. "But don't Englishwomen dress

just like everybody else in the evening?"

"Newland! How can you ask such funny questions? When they go to the

theatre in old ball-dresses and bare heads."

"Well, perhaps they wear new ball-dresses at home; but at any rate Mrs.

Carfry and Miss Harle won't. They'll wear caps like my mother's--and

shawls; very soft shawls."

"Yes; but how will the other women be dressed?"

"Not as well as you, dear," he rejoined, wondering what had suddenly

developed in her Janey's morbid interest in clothes.

She pushed back her chair with a sigh. "That's dear of you, Newland;

but it doesn't help me much."

He had an inspiration. "Why not wear your wedding-dress? That can't be

wrong, can it?"

"Oh, dearest! If I only had it here! But it's gone to Paris to be made

over for next winter, and Worth hasn't sent it back."

"Oh, well--" said Archer, getting up. "Look here--the fog's lifting.

If we made a dash for the National Gallery we might manage to catch a

glimpse of the pictures."

The Newland Archers were on their way home, after a three months'

wedding-tour which May, in writing to her girl friends, vaguely

summarised as "blissful."

They had not gone to the Italian Lakes: on reflection, Archer had

not been able to picture his wife in that particular setting. Her

own inclination (after a month with the Paris dressmakers) was

for mountaineering in July and swimming in August. This plan they

punctually fulfilled, spending July at Interlaken and Grindelwald, and

August at a little place called Etretat, on the Normandy coast, which

some one had recommended as quaint and quiet. Once or twice, in the

mountains, Archer had pointed southward and said: "There's Italy"; and

May, her feet in a gentian-bed, had smiled cheerfully, and replied: "It

would be lovely to go there next winter, if only you didn't have to be

in New York."

But in reality travelling interested her even less than he had

expected. She regarded it (once her clothes were ordered) as merely an

enlarged opportunity for walking, riding, swimming, and trying her hand

at the fascinating new game of lawn tennis; and when they finally got

back to London (where they were to spend a fortnight while he ordered

_his_ clothes) she no longer concealed the eagerness with which she

looked forward to sailing.

In London nothing interested her but the theatres and the shops; and

she found the theatres less exciting than the Paris _cafés chantants_

where, under the blossoming horse-chestnuts of the Champs Élysées,

she had had the novel experience of looking down from the restaurant

terrace on an audience of "cocottes," and having her husband interpret

to her as much of the songs as he thought suitable for bridal ears.

Archer had reverted to all his old inherited ideas about marriage. It

was less trouble to conform with the tradition and treat May exactly as

all his friends treated their wives than to try to put into practice

the theories with which his untrammelled bachelorhood had dallied.

There was no use in trying to emancipate a wife who had not the dimmest

notion that she was not free; and he had long since discovered that

May's only use of the liberty she supposed herself to possess would

be to lay it on the altar of her wifely adoration. Her innate dignity

would always keep her from making the gift abjectly; and a day might

even come (as it once had) when she would find strength to take it

altogether back if she thought she were doing it for his own good.

But with a conception of marriage so uncomplicated and incurious as

hers such a crisis could be brought about only by something visibly

outrageous in his own conduct; and the fineness of her feeling for him

made that unthinkable. Whatever happened, he knew, she would always be

loyal, gallant and unresentful; and that pledged him to the practice of

the same virtues.

All this tended to draw him back into his old habits of mind. If her

simplicity had been the simplicity of pettiness he would have chafed

and rebelled; but since the lines of her character, though so few, were

on the same fine mould as her face, she became the tutelary divinity of

all his old traditions and reverences.

Such qualities were scarcely of the kind to enliven foreign travel,

though they made her so easy and pleasant a companion; but he saw at

once how they would fall into place in their proper setting. He had no

fear of being oppressed by them, for his artistic and intellectual life

would go on, as it always had, outside the domestic circle; and within

it there would be nothing small and stifling--coming back to his wife

would never be like entering a stuffy room after a tramp in the open.

And when they had children the vacant corners in both their lives would

be filled.

All these things went through his mind during their long slow drive

from Mayfair to South Kensington, where Mrs. Carfry and her sister

lived. Archer too would have preferred to escape their friends'

hospitality: in conformity with the family tradition he had always

travelled as a sight-seer and looker-on, affecting a haughty

unconsciousness of the presence of his fellow-beings. Once only, just

after Harvard, he had spent a few gay weeks at Florence with a band of

queer Europeanised Americans, dancing all night with titled ladies in

palaces, and gambling half the day with the rakes and dandies of the

fashionable club; but it had all seemed to him, though the greatest fun

in the world, as unreal as a carnival. These queer cosmopolitan women,

deep in complicated love-affairs which they appeared to feel the need

of retailing to every one they met, and the magnificent young officers

and elderly dyed wits who were the subjects or the recipients of their

confidences, were too different from the people Archer had grown up

among, too much like expensive and rather malodorous hot-house exotics,

to detain his imagination long. To introduce his wife into such a

society was out of the question; and in the course of his travels no

other had shown any marked eagerness for his company.

Not long after their arrival in London he had run across the Duke of

St. Austrey, and the Duke, instantly and cordially recognising him,

had said: "Look me up, won't you?"--but no proper-spirited American

would have considered that a suggestion to be acted on, and the meeting

was without a sequel. They had even managed to avoid May's English

aunt, the banker's wife, who was still in Yorkshire; in fact, they had

purposely postponed going to London till the autumn in order that their

arrival during the season might not appear pushing and snobbish to

these unknown relatives.

"Probably there'll be nobody at Mrs. Carfry's--London's a desert at

this season, and you've made yourself much too beautiful," Archer said

to May, who sat at his side in the hansom so spotlessly splendid in her

sky-blue cloak edged with swansdown that it seemed wicked to expose her

to the London grime.

"I don't want them to think that we dress like savages," she replied,

with a scorn that Pocahontas might have resented; and he was struck

again by the religious reverence of even the most unworldly American

women for the social advantages of dress.

"It's their armour," he thought, "their defence against the unknown,

and their defiance of it." And he understood for the first time the

earnestness with which May, who was incapable of tying a ribbon in her

hair to charm him, had gone through the solemn rite of selecting and

ordering her extensive wardrobe.

He had been right in expecting the party at Mrs. Carfry's to be a small

one. Besides their hostess and her sister, they found, in the long

chilly drawing-room, only another shawled lady, a genial Vicar who was

her husband, a silent lad whom Mrs. Carfry named as her nephew, and a

small dark gentleman with lively eyes whom she introduced as his tutor,

pronouncing a French name as she did so.

Into this dimly-lit and dim-featured group May Archer floated like

a swan with the sunset on her: she seemed larger, fairer, more

voluminously rustling than her husband had ever seen her; and he

perceived that the rosiness and rustlingness were the tokens of an

extreme and infantile shyness.

"What on earth will they expect me to talk about?" her helpless eyes

implored him, at the very moment that her dazzling apparition was

calling forth the same anxiety in their own bosoms. But beauty, even

when distrustful of itself, awakens confidence in the manly heart; and

the Vicar and the French-named tutor were soon manifesting to May their

desire to put her at her ease.

In spite of their best efforts, however, the dinner was a languishing

affair. Archer noticed that his wife's way of showing herself at her

ease with foreigners was to become more uncompromisingly local in her

references, so that, though her loveliness was an encouragement to

admiration, her conversation was a chill to repartee. The Vicar soon

abandoned the struggle; but the tutor, who spoke the most fluent and

accomplished English, gallantly continued to pour it out to her until

the ladies, to the manifest relief of all concerned, went up to the

drawing-room.

The Vicar, after a glass of port, was obliged to hurry away to a

meeting, and the shy nephew, who appeared to be an invalid, was packed

off to bed. But Archer and the tutor continued to sit over their wine,

and suddenly Archer found himself talking as he had not done since his

last symposium with Ned Winsett. The Carfry nephew, it turned out,

had been threatened with consumption, and had had to leave Harrow for

Switzerland, where he had spent two years in the milder air of Lake

Leman. Being a bookish youth, he had been entrusted to M. Rivière,

who had brought him back to England, and was to remain with him till

he went up to Oxford the following spring; and M. Rivière added with

simplicity that he should then have to look out for another job.

It seemed impossible, Archer thought, that he should be long without

one, so varied were his interests and so many his gifts. He was a

man of about thirty, with a thin ugly face (May would certainly have

called him common-looking) to which the play of his ideas gave an

intense expressiveness; but there was nothing frivolous or cheap in his

animation.

His father, who had died young, had filled a small diplomatic post,

and it had been intended that the son should follow the same career;

but an insatiable taste for letters had thrown the young man into

journalism, then into authorship (apparently unsuccessful), and at

length--after other experiments and vicissitudes which he spared his

listener--into tutoring English youths in Switzerland. Before that,

however, he had lived much in Paris, frequented the Goncourt _grenier_,

been advised by Maupassant not to attempt to write (even that seemed

to Archer a dazzling honour!), and had often talked with Mérimée in

his mother's house. He had obviously always been desperately poor and

anxious (having a mother and an unmarried sister to provide for), and

it was apparent that his literary ambitions had failed. His situation,

in fact, seemed, materially speaking, no more brilliant than Ned

Winsett's; but he had lived in a world in which, as he said, no one

who loved ideas need hunger mentally. As it was precisely of that love

that poor Winsett was starving to death, Archer looked with a sort of

vicarious envy at this eager impecunious young man who had fared so

richly in his poverty.

"You see, Monsieur, it's worth everything, isn't it, to keep one's

intellectual liberty, not to enslave one's powers of appreciation,

one's critical independence? It was because of that that I abandoned

journalism, and took to so much duller work: tutoring and private

secretaryship. There is a good deal of drudgery, of course; but one

preserves one's moral freedom, what we call in French one's _quant

à soi_. And when one hears good talk one can join in it without

compromising any opinions but one's own; or one can listen, and answer

it inwardly. Ah, good conversation--there's nothing like it, is there?

The air of ideas is the only air worth breathing. And so I have never

regretted giving up either diplomacy or journalism--two different forms

of the same self-abdication." He fixed his vivid eyes on Archer as he

lit another cigarette. "_Voyez-vous_, Monsieur, to be able to look life

in the face: that's worth living in a garret for, isn't it? But, after

all, one must earn enough to pay for the garret; and I confess that

to grow old as a private tutor--or a 'private' anything--is almost as

chilling to the imagination as a second secretaryship at Bucharest.

Sometimes I feel I must make a plunge: an immense plunge. Do you

suppose, for instance, there would be any opening for me in America--in

New York?"

Archer looked at him with startled eyes. New York, for a young man who

had frequented the Goncourts and Flaubert, and who thought the life of

ideas the only one worth living! He continued to stare at M. Rivière

perplexedly, wondering how to tell him that his very superiorities and

advantages would be the surest hindrance to success.

"New York--New York--but must it be especially New York?" he stammered,

utterly unable to imagine what lucrative opening his native city could

offer to a young man to whom good conversation appeared to be the only

necessity.

A sudden flush rose under M. Rivière's sallow skin. "I--I thought it

your metropolis: is not the intellectual life more active there?" he

rejoined; then, as if fearing to give his hearer the impression of

having asked a favour, he went on hastily: "One throws out random

suggestions--more to one's self than to others. In reality, I see no

immediate prospect--" and rising from his seat he added, without a

trace of constraint: "But Mrs. Carfry will think that I ought to be

taking you upstairs."

During the homeward drive Archer pondered deeply on this episode.

His hour with M. Rivière had put new air into his lungs, and his

first impulse had been to invite him to dine the next day; but he was

beginning to understand why married men did not always immediately

yield to their first impulses.

"That young tutor is an interesting fellow: we had some awfully good

talk after dinner about books and things," he threw out tentatively in

the hansom.

May roused herself from one of the dreamy silences into which he had

read so many meanings before six months of marriage had given him the

key to them.

"The little Frenchman? Wasn't he dreadfully common?" she questioned

coldly; and he guessed that she nursed a secret disappointment at

having been invited out in London to meet a clergyman and a French

tutor. The disappointment was not occasioned by the sentiment

ordinarily defined as snobbishness, but by old New York's sense of

what was due to it when it risked its dignity in foreign lands. If

May's parents had entertained the Carfrys in Fifth Avenue they would

have offered them something more substantial than a parson and a

schoolmaster.

But Archer was on edge, and took her up.

"Common--common _where_?" he queried; and she returned with unusual

readiness: "Why, I should say anywhere but in his school-room. Those

people are always awkward in society. But then," she added disarmingly,

"I suppose I shouldn't have known if he was clever."

Archer disliked her use of the word "clever" almost as much as her use

of the word "common"; but he was beginning to fear his tendency to

dwell on the things he disliked in her. After all, her point of view

had always been the same. It was that of all the people he had grown up

among, and he had always regarded it as necessary but negligible. Until

a few months ago he had never known a "nice" woman who looked at life

differently; and if a man married it must necessarily be among the nice.

"Ah--then I won't ask him to dine!" he concluded with a laugh; and May

echoed, bewildered: "Goodness--ask the Carfrys' tutor?"

"Well, not on the same day with the Carfrys, if you prefer I shouldn't.

But I did rather want another talk with him. He's looking for a job in

New York."

Her surprise increased with her indifference: he almost fancied that

she suspected him of being tainted with "foreignness."

"A job in New York? What sort of a job? People don't have French

tutors: what does he want to do?"

"Chiefly to enjoy good conversation, I understand," her husband

retorted perversely; and she broke into an appreciative laugh. "Oh,

Newland, how funny! Isn't that _French_?"

On the whole, he was glad to have the matter settled for him by her

refusing to take seriously his wish to invite M. Rivière. Another

after-dinner talk would have made it difficult to avoid the question of

New York; and the more Archer considered it the less he was able to fit

M. Rivière into any conceivable picture of New York as he knew it.

He perceived with a flash of chilling insight that in future many

problems would be thus negatively solved for him; but as he paid the

hansom and followed his wife's long train into the house he took refuge

in the comforting platitude that the first six months were always the

most difficult in marriage. "After that I suppose we shall have pretty

nearly finished rubbing off each other's angles," he reflected; but the

worst of it was that May's pressure was already bearing on the very

angles whose sharpness he most wanted to keep.

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