CHAPTER XXXVI. _LADY ANN MEDITATES_.

It would have been difficult for Arthur himself to say whether in his

heart rage or contempt was the stronger, when he saw the lady he loved

walking in a field, turning and returning, in close talk with the

bookbinder-fellow. Never had she so walked and talked with _him_! She

preferred the bookbinder's society to his--and made it no secret that

she did, for, although evidently desirous of having their interview

uninterrupted, they walked in full view of the high road!

What did Barbara mean by it? He could not treat her as a child and lay

the matter before Richard! If a lady showed favour to a man, the less

worthy he was, the less could he be expected to see the unfitness of the

thing. Besides, to acknowledge thus any human relation between Richard

and either of them, would be degrading. It was scorn alone that kept

Arthur from hating Richard. For Barbara, he attributed her disregard of

propriety, and the very possibility of her being interested in such a

person, to the modes of life in the half savage country where she had

been born and reared--_educated_, he remarked to himself, he could not

say. But what did she mean by it? The worst of his torment was that

the thought, unreasonable as it was, would yet come--that Richard was

a good-looking fellow, and admiration, which in any English girl would

have been rendered impossible by his vulgarity, might have a share

in her enjoyment of his shop-talk about books. The idea was simply

disgusting!

What was he to do? What could any one do? The girl was absolutely

uncontrolled: was it likely she would prove controllable? Would she

mind him, when she cared no more for his stately mother than for the

dairy-woman! How could such a bewitching creature so lack refinement!

The more he thought, the more inexplicable and self-contradictory her

conduct appeared. Such a jewelled-humming-bird to make friends with a

grubbing rook! The smell of the leather, not to mention the paste and

glue, would be enough for any properly sensitive girl! Universally

fascinating, why did she not correspond all through? Brought out in

London, she would be the belle of the season! If he did not secure her,

some poor duke would pounce on her!

But again what was he to do? Must he bring scorn on himself by appearing

jealous of a tradesman, or must he let the fellow go on casting his

greasy shadow about the place? As to her being in love with him, that

was preposterous! The notion was an insult! Yet half the attention she

gave the bookbinder would be paradise to _him_! He _must_ put a stop to

it! he must send the man away! It would be a pity for the library!

It was beginning to look beautiful, and would soon have been the most

distinguished in the county: lord Chough's was nothing to it! But there

were other book-binders as good as he! And what did the library matter!

What did anything matter in such a difficulty!

She might take offence! She would be sure to suspect why the fellow was

sent packing! She would know she had the blame of ruining the library,

and the bookbinder as well, and would never enter the house again! He

must leave the thing alone--for the present! But he would be on his

guard! Against what, he did not plainly tell himself.

While the son was thus desiring a good riddance of the man he had

brought into the house, and to whom Barbara was so much indebted, the

mother was pondering the same thing. Should the man remain in the house

or leave it? was the question with her also;--and if leave it, on

what pretext? She was growing more and more uncomfortable at the

possibilities. The possession of the estate by one born of another

woman, and she of low origin; the subjection in which they would all be

placed to him as the head of the family--a man used to the low ways of a

trade, a man dirty and greasy, hardly in his right place at work in

the library, the grandson of a blacksmith with brawny arms and smutty

face--the ideas might well be painful to her!

Then first the thought struck her, that it must be his grandfather's

doing that he was in the house! and there he was, at their very door,

eager to bear testimony to the bookbinder as his grandson and heir to

Mortgrange! Alas, the thing must be a fact, a horrible fact! All was

over!--But she would do battle for her rights! She would not allow that

the child was found! The thing was a conspiracy to supplant the true

heir! How ruinous were the low tastes of gentlemen! If sir Wilton had

but kept to his own rank, and made a suitable match, nothing of all this

misery would have befallen them! If her predecessor had been a lady, her

son would have been a gentleman, and there would have been nothing to

complain of! To lady Ann, her feeling had the force of a conviction,

that the son of Robina Armour could not, in the nature of things

divinely ordained, have the same rights as her son. Lady Ann's God was

the head of the English aristocracy. There was nothing selfish that lady

Ann was not capable of wishing; there was nothing selfish she might not

by degrees become capable of doing. She could not at that moment commit

murder; neither could lady Macbeth have done so when she was a girl. The

absurd falsity of her notions as to her rights, came from lack of love

to her neighbour, and consequent insensibility to his claims. At the

same time she had not keen, she had only absorbing feelings of her

rights; there was nothing _keen_ in lady Ann; neither sense nor desire,

neither hope nor fear, neither joy nor sorrow, neither love nor hate.

Beyond her own order, beyond indeed her own circle in that order, the

universe hardly existed. An age-long process of degeneration had been

going on in her race, and she was the result: she was well born and well

bred for feeling nothing. There is something fearful in the thought that

through the generations the body may go on perfecting, while the heart

goes on degenerating; that, while the animal beauty is growing complete

in the magic of proportion, the indescribable marvel that can even give

charm to ugliness, is as steadily vanishing. Such a woman, like Branca

d'Oria in the Inferno, is already damned, and only seems to live. Lady

Ann was indeed born capable of less than most; but had she attempted

to do the little she could, one would not have been where she was;

she would have beep toiling up the hill of truth, with a success to be

measured, like the widow's mite, by what she had not.

All her thoughts were now occupied with the _rights_ of her son, and

through him of the family. Sir Wilton had been for some time ailing, and

when he went, they would be at the mercy of any other heir than Arthur,

just as miserably whether he were the true heir or an impostor; the one

was as bad as the other from her point of view! For the right, lady Ann

cared nothing, except to have it or to avoid it. The law of the land was

to be respected no doubt, but your own family--most of all when land was

concerned--was worthier still!

It were better to rid the place of the bookbinder--but how? As to

whether he was the legal heir or not, she would rather remain ignorant,

only that, assured on the point, she would better understand how to deal

with his pretension! But she could not consult sir Wilton, because

she suspected him of a lingering regard for the dead wife which would

naturally influence his feeling for the live son--if live he were: no

doubt he had enjoyed the company of the low-born woman more than

hers, for she, a woman of society, knew what was right! She had reason

therefore to fear him prejudiced for any pretender! Arthur and he got on

quite as well as could be expected of father and son--their differences

never came to much; but on the other hand sir Wilton had a demoniacal

pleasure in frustrating! To make a man he disliked furious, was honey

and nuts to sir Wilton; and she knew a woman whose disappointment would

be dearer to him than that of all his enemies together! It was better

therefore that he should have no hint, and especially from her, of what

was in the air!

Lady Ann thought herself a good woman because she never felt interest

enough to be spiteful like sir Wilton; yet, very strangely, not knowing

in herself what repentance meant, she judged him capable of doing her

the wrong of atoning to his first wife for his neglect of her, by being

good to her child! Thinking over her talk with Barbara, she could

not, after all, feel certain that Richard knew, or that he had incited

Barbara to take his part. But in any case it was better to get rid of

him! It was dangerous to have him in the house! He might be spending

his nights in trumping up evidence! At any moment he might appeal to sir

Wilton as his father! But at the worst, he would be unable to prove the

thing right off, and if her husband would but act like a man, they might

impede the attempt beyond the possibility of its success!

One comfort was, that, she was all but confident, the child was not

already baptized when stolen from Mortgrange; neither were such as would

steal children likely to have them baptized; therefore the God who would

not allow the unbaptized to lie in his part of the cemetery, would never

favour his succession to the title and estate of Mortgrange! The fact

must have its weight with Providence!--whom lady Ann always regarded us

a good churchman: he would never take the part of one that had not

been baptized! Besides, the fellow was sure to turn out a socialist,

or anarchist, or positivist, or radical, or something worse! She would

dispute his identity to the last, and assert his imposture beyond it!

Her duty to society demanded that she should not give in!

Suddenly she remembered the description her husband had given her of

the ugliness of the infant: this man was decidedly handsome! Then she

remembered that sir Wilton had told her of a membrane between certain of

his fingers--horrible creature: she must examine the impostor!

Arthur was very moody at dinner: his mother feared some echo of the same

report as caused her own anxiety had reached him, and took the first

opportunity of questioning him. But neither of lady Ann's sons had

learned such faith in their mother as to tell her their troubles. Arthur

would confess to none. She in her turn was far too prudent to disclose

what was in her mind: the folly of his youth might take the turn of

an unthinking generosity! the notion of an elder brother might even be

welcome to him!

In another generation no questions would be asked! Many estates were in

illegal possession! There was a claim superior to the legal! Theirs was

a _moral_ claim!

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