THE CHANGE.

Six months have elapsed since Mr Carroll accepted the call to Y--.

He has preached faithfully and labored diligently. That was his

part. And he has received, quarterly, on the day it became due, his

salary. That was according to the contract on the other side. His

conscience is clear on the score of duty; and his parishioners are

quite as well satisfied that they have done all that is required of

them. They offered him three hundred a year and the parsonage. He

accepted the offer; and, by that act, declared the living to be

adequate to his wants. If he was satisfied they were.

"I don't know how he gets along on three hundred dollars," some one,

more thoughtful about such matters, would occasionally say. "It

costs me double that sum, and my family is no larger than his."

"They get a great many presents," would, in all probability, be

replied to this. "Mr. A--, I know, sent them a load of wood some

time ago; a Mr. B--told me that he had sent them a quarter of lamb

and a bushel of apples. And I have, two or three times, furnished

one little matter and another. I'm sure what is given to them will

amount to half as much as Mr. Carroll's salary."

"This makes a difference, of course," is the satisfied answer. And

yet, all told, the presents received by the whole family, in useful

articles, has not reached the value of twenty-five dollars during

six months. And this has been more than abstracted from them by the

kind ladies of the parish, who must needs visit and take tea with

the minister as often as convenient.

Six months had passed since the Rev. Mr. Carroll removed to Y--.

It was mid-winter; and a stormy day closed in with as stormy a

night. The rays which came through the minister's little

study-window grew faint in the pervading shadows, and he could no

longer see with sufficient clearness to continue writing. So he went

down stairs to the room in which were his wife and children. The

oldest child was a daughter, six years of age, named Edith from her

mother. Edward, between three and four years old, and Aggy the baby,

made up the number of Mr. Carroll's household treasures. They were

all just of an age to require their mother's attention in every

thing. As her husband entered the room, Mrs. Carroll said--

"I'm glad you've come down, dear. I can't get Aggy out of my arms a

minute. It's nearly supper time, and I havn't been able even to put

the kettle on the fire. She's very fretful."

Mr. Carroll took the baby. His wife threw a shawl over her head, and

taking an empty bucket from the dresser, was passing to the door,

when her husband said--

"Stop, stop, Edith! You musn't go for water in this storm. Here,

take the baby."

"I can go well enough," replied Mrs. Carroll, and before her husband

could prevent her, she was out in the blustering air, with the

snowflakes driving in her face.

"Oh, Edith! Edith! Why will you do so?" said her husband, as soon as

she came back.

"It's as easy for me to go as for you," she replied.

"No it isn't, Edith. I am strong to what you are. If you expose

yourself in this way, it will be the death of you."

Mrs. Carroll shook the snow from her shawl and dress, and brushed it

from her shoes, saying as she did so--

"Oh no! a little matter like this won't hurt me."

She then filled the tea-kettle and placed it over the fire. After

which she set out the table, and busied herself in getting ready

their evening meal. Meanwhile, Mr. Carroll walked the floor with

Aggy in his arms, both looking and feeling serious; while the two

older children amused themselves with a picture book.

As the reader has probably anticipated, the "living" (?) at

Y--proved altogether inadequate to the wants of Mr. Carroll's

family; and faith, confidence, and an abstract trust in Providence

by no means sufficed for its increase.

At first, Mrs. Carroll had a servant girl to help her in her

household duties, as usual. But she soon found that this would not

do. A dollar and a quarter a week, and the cost of boarding the

girl, took just about one-third of their entire income. So, after

the first three months, "help" was dispensed with. The washing had

to be put out; which cost half a dollar, weekly. To get some one in

the house to iron, would cost as much more. So Mrs. Carroll took

upon herself the task of ironing all the clothes, in addition to the

entire work of the house and care of her three children.

For three months this hard labor was performed; but not without a

visible effect. The face of Mrs. Carroll grew thinner; her step lost

its lightness; and her voice its cheerful tone. All this her husband

saw, and saw with intense pain. But, there was no remedy. His income

was but three hundred dollars a year; and out of that small sum it

was impossible to pay one hundred for the wages and board of a girl,

and have enough left for the plainest food and clothing. There was,

therefore, no alternative. All that it was in his power to do, was

done by Mr. Carroll to lighten the heavy burdens under which his

wife was sinking; but it was only a little, in reality, that he

could do; and he was doomed to see her daily wasting away, and her

strength departing from her.

At the time we have introduced them, Mrs. Carroll had begun to show

some symptoms of failing health, that alarmed her husband seriously.

She had taken cold, which was followed by a dry, fatiguing cough,

and a more than usual prostration of strength. On coming in with her

bucket of water from the well, as just mentioned, she did not take

off her shoes, and brush away the snow that had been pressed in

around the tops against her stockings, but suffered it to lie there

and melt, thus wetting her feet. It was nearly an hour from the time

Mr. Carroll came down from his room, before supper was ready. Aggy

was, by this time, asleep; so that the mother could pour out the tea

without having, as was usually the case, to hold the baby in her

arms.

"Ain't you going to eat anything?" asked Mr. Carroll, seeing that

his wife, whose face looked flushed, only sipped a little tea.

"I don't feel any appetite," replied Mrs. Carroll.

"But you'd better try to eat something, dear."

Just then there was a knock at the door. On opening it, Mr. Carroll

found a messenger with a request for him to go and see a parishioner

who was ill.

"You can't go away there in this storm," said his wife, as soon as

the messenger had retired.

"It's full a mile off."

"I must go, Edith," replied the minister. "If the distance were many

miles instead of one, it would be all the same. Duty calls."

And out into the driving storm the minister went, and toiled on his

lonely way through the deep snow to reach the bedside of a suffering

fellow man, who sought spiritual consolation in the hour of

sickness, from one whose temporal wants he had, while in health,

shown but little inclination to supply. That consolation offered, he

turned his face homeward again, and again breasted the unabated

storm. He found his wife in bed--something unusual for her at ten

o'clock--and, on laying his hand upon her face, discovered that she

was in a high fever. In alarm, he went for the doctor, who declined

going out, but sent medicine, and promised to come over in the

morning.

In the morning Mrs. Carroll was much worse, and unable to rise. To

dress the children and get breakfast, Mr. Carroll found to be tasks

of no very easy performance for him; and as soon as they were

completed, he called in a neighbor to stay with his wife while he

went in search of some one to come and take her place in the family

until she was able to go about again as usual.

That time, however, did not soon come. Weeks passed before she could

even sit up, and then she was so susceptible of cold, that even the

slightest draft of air into the room affected her; and so weak,

that, in attempting to mend a garment for one of her children, the

exertion caused her to faint away.

When Mrs. Carroll was taken sick, they had only fifteen dollars of

their quarter's salary left. It was but two weeks since they had

received it, yet nearly all was gone, for twenty-five dollars,

borrowed to meet expenses during the last month of the quarter, had

to be paid according to promise: shoes for nearly every member of

the family had to be purchased, besides warmer clothing for

themselves and children; and several little bills unavoidably

contracted, had to be settled. The extra expense of sickness, added

to the regular demand, soon melted away the trifling balance, and

Mr. Carroll found himself, with his wife still unable to leave her

room--in fact, scarcely able to sit up--penniless and almost

hopeless.--His faith had grown weak--his confidence was gone--his

spirits were broken. Daily he prayed for strength to bear up; for a

higher trust in Providence; for light upon his dark pathway.--But no

strength came, no confidence was created, no light shone upon his

way. And for this we need not wonder. It was no day of miracles, as

his wife had forewarned him. He had, as too many do, hoped for

sustenance in a field of labor where reason could find no

well-grounded hope. He knew that he could not live on three hundred

a year; yet he had accepted the offer, in the vain hope that all

would come out well!

The last shilling left the hand of the unhappy minister, and at

least six weeks remained before another quarter's salary became due.

He could not let his family starve; so, after much thought, he

finally determined to call the vestry together, frankly state his

case, and tell his brethren that it was impossible for him to live

on the small sum they allowed.

A graver meeting of the vestry of Y--parish had not for a long

time taken place. As for an increase of salary, that was declared to

be out of the question entirely. They had never paid any one over

three hundred dollars, which, with the parsonage, had always been

considered a very liberal compensation. They were very sorry for Mr.

Carroll, and would advance him a quarter's salary. But all increase

was out of the question. They knew the people would not hear to it.

The meeting then broke up, and the official members of the church

walked gravely away, while Mr. Carroll went home, feeling so sad and

dispirited, that he almost wished that he could die.

The Parish of Y--was not rich; though six hundred dollars could

have been paid to a minister with as little inconvenience to the

members as three hundred. But the latter sum was considered ample;

and much surprise was manifested when it was found that the new

minister asked for an increase, even before the first year of his

engagement had expired.

The face of his wife had never looked so pale, her cheeks so thin,

nor her eyes so sunken, to the minister, as when he came home from

this mortifying and disheartening meeting of the vestry. One of

those present was the very person he had gone a mile to visit on the

night of the snow-storm; and he had more to say that hurt him than

any of the rest.

"Edith," said Mr. Carroll, taking the thin hand of his wife, as he

sat down by her and looked sadly into her face, "we must leave

here."

"Must we? Why?" she asked, without evincing very marked surprise.

"We cannot live on three hundred a year."

"Where will we go?"

"Heaven only knows! But we cannot remain here!"

And as the minister said this, he bowed his head until his face

rested upon the arm of his wife. He tried to hide his emotion, but

Edith knew that tears were upon the cheeks of her husband.

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