XI

Trench was awakened by a noise, but not that of Halsted clanging into

its sweltering day. He sat bolt upright, and saw Saadi Sereef. Saadi was

studying a map in the Britannica, while he unconsciously tapped the desk

with a nervous finger-tip.

“Good morning, Dr. Trench. It is five o’clock, and my head does not ache

much, and I have bathed damfool body.”

“I usually get up at five,” said the doctor, proceeding to the telephone.

“Is coffee ready? Will you bring some to Jaffer’s room?”

While the doctor was absent for his bath, Wu entered with a tray. There

was a steaming coffee-pot. There were blue grapes in a blue dish, hot

rolls wrapped in damask, and a tiny Chinese hen sheltering boiled eggs in

a porcelain nest. Wu held up a salt-cellar. “Not pink,” he said, “like

salt of Karshi, but equally good for purposes of friendship.”

Wu placed the tray on Jaffer’s desk and moved the desk to the window.

“If you sit here you can see down Halsted Street and imagine the

people—Austrian, Belgian, Bulgarian, French, German, et cetera.”

Saadi caught up the refrain. “Greeks, Hindus, Irish, Poles, Russians, and

all other slaves. Bog milui—God help us.”

The doctor presently returned, and the two sat down. Saadi sipped his

coffee and looked out into a sunsmitten vista.

“Why they call it Halsted?”

“The Halsted brothers of New York bought a frontage up by Goose Island.

Dr. Halsted of the Hopkins is a son of one of them.”

“And why does doctor live here?”

“My father’s first house stood here.”

“Why you did not build house in Lake Shore Drive and doctor babies of

too-busy rich?”

“Couldn’t afford to.”

Saadi cocked one eye and then the other, like a dog who much desires what

is withheld. “Are you philanthropist?”

“Oh, lord, no.”

Saadi waved his hand and selected a small bunch of grapes. “I know all.

Doctor has some big internal wound, like Saadi, and doctor is naturalist

without courage. To Halsted he comes, same as monk goes in desert. Here

in desert doctor would cure all diseases if they would permit. But when

baby machines go wrong, parent machines call in gaseous vertebrates to

help. Now is doctor waiting for Halsted Street to outgrow all gods and

bogs and allahs, and get down to business, which is metabolism. Do I know

part?”

“Yes.”

“If races will get together in Halsted and be civilised, it must be on

atheistic bottom. What makes foreign boys come in Dr. Trench’s house?

Is it Mirza Ameen standing on roof and calling ‘Come to prayer’? It is

not. It is nice smell of clean hospital. It is microscope and Trench

kymograph. And it is Dr. Trench, who did not give one damn if I died.”

“I bow, as Wu would say.”

“I bow back, Dr. Trench, for I think you are awful strong man, because

you are not person; you are machine. One machine gun can lick whole army

of priests and mullahs. But even if races get together on atheistic

bottom, they will fight. By and by it will be war in Halsted Street.

Industrial Workers will march down street under window here, and it will

be much blood in gutters. I will like it if I am here.”

Trench set his coffee cup down exactly in the middle of the saucer, and

addressed it. “First a suicide, then a maximalist.”

Saadi lost his sprightliness. “No, doctor. It was what you say vice

versa.”

Trench had no further remark to make to his coffee cup, and presently

Saadi resumed his former tone.

“Dean gave me credit for four years in Vienna.”

“Ah! That makes you a junior with us. Is Wurtz alive and well?”

“Yes, doctor, and this is way he lectures.” Saadi put one hand behind

him, elevated his glance toward the ceiling, and changed his soft voice

to a high nasal: “‘Meine Herrschaften! Wir kommen jetzt zur Besprechung

Darmkanals—’”

Trench interrupted. “Talk English, Saadi.”

Saadi sighed and began again.—“‘Gentlemen, we now approach subject of

alimentary canal. Length of life depends to very considerable extent

on length of alimentary canal. In your case, gentlemen, I could wish

length greater. If you had canals which would permit you to exist for

ninety-five years, I could perhaps instil a few facts which I am now

about to state, and you are about to forget.’”

“Capital!” laughed Trench. “You are a born actor.”

“No, I am born fool. But I can speak German. Listen, doctor, it is not

six o’clock yet, and if you will let me speak language of bloody Teutons,

you will know how bad man I am.”

“Fire away, if it will ease your soul. But no German. In Halsted we speak

Halsted.”

“Soul? Did devil bring me ghost in night-time?”

“Well—we are talking Halsted.”

“First, will you give me physical examination?”

“Not now. You are in good shape, except for the wound that bothers you.

You might tell me how you got that.”

Saadi became very grave. “Doctor has sharp eyes. My father gave me that.”

He rose abruptly and paced the room.

“It was such little thing to begin with. It was my brother’s fourteenth

birthday. When Karoul was twelve, my father promised to give him best

horse in Bokhara when he was fourteen. But Karoul did foolish thing—he

played with Jewish boy. Karoul loved to put on mask and go to bazaar

with Isaak Chaim. My father found it out. He sent for Karoul, and dog of

mullah brought him in.”

Again the speaker paced up and down, like a wild creature.

“My father cursed Karoul, and ordered him to be whipped. Karoul said,

‘You will not whip me. You will give me horse and maybe I will give him

to Isaak Chaim if I wish.’ Doctor! you do not know what such words would

do to my father. My father struck, but he is fat, he cannot move quick.

Karoul cries to him, ‘You beast of tyrant. Sunni boys will smash your

windows soon and it will be revolution.’ Then my father draws talvar and

runs him through. It was such long sword—such little boy.”

Trench involuntarily put his hand to his side.

“I was not there,” continued Saadi. “Dog of mullah told me. They put

Karoul away in night. Where? Nobody dare ask. Then I went to my father.

‘Where is Karoul?’ ‘Karoul is gone to country to my villa in Kermineh.’

‘That is lie, my father. Go in Galerie Tretiakov and see how shamed looks

Ivan Fourth with dead son in front of him.’ Then my father flung talvar

at me, and zip, I got it in neck. I picked up talvar and gave back.

‘Now,’ I said, ‘I will leave Bokhara-i-Sherif. I will not come back till

you say you are brute. When you are shamed, you will send me word. My

mother will know where to send. You can open her letters—you can open all

letters in Bokhara—you will not know from letters!’”

“It is a ghastly story. We must help you to forget it.”

“You cannot help, doctor. All times I see Karoul’s face. I know where it

is. It is in bottom of Zerafshan, with stone round neck.”

Though the morning was warm, Trench gave a shiver.

“I have spoiled doctor’s breakfast. I have been bad guest.”

“Forget it, Saadi. But I must say that a brother’s death doesn’t often

drive men to suicide.”

“No, doctor, but it can help. My thoughts were enormous mixed. I did not

intend to give you what you say surprise party.”

“I see. You received it yourself.”

“Doctor is keen. Biggest surprise was to see what is in Dr. Trench’s

house. All boys of different races seemed best of friends, way down deep.

Always I have preferred war. This morning again I prefer war. Last night

I thought maybe science is enough.”

Trench pondered this. “Your reasons seem curiously impersonal.”

“I try awful hard, doctor, to be what you say impersonal. Persons are

only damfool configurations of energy. I ought not to yelp with sorrow

for Karoul’s atoms in Zerafshan. But my head hurt very bad, and I thought

maybe I will go crazy. And I thought if I stay in Chicago I will get some

baby and kismet will make me kill him. I said, one like my father is

enough, and one like me is too much. All off. This is as far as we go.”

“I see. It was your fear of being cruel.”

Saadi hesitated, and his voice sank lower than ever. “I can tell no more.”

“You need tell nothing. But I was interested in Karoul.”

“Well, doctor, it was eight years ago when Karoul went down to feed

filaria in river.”

“Wait a minute. Let me look at that wound again.”

Saadi knelt, and Trench inspected the scar. “Go on.”

“I went first to Kabul to see my older brother, Ali Khan. He is doctor—he

studied in Riga. Why is Ali Khan in Kabul? He is spy for Nicky. I found

out and went away quick.”

“To Vienna?”

“Oh, no, not so soon. To Russia. Same month was general strike in Russia,

and everybody was happy in hopes. I took tutor with me and kept studying.

I went in Moscow, waiting for letter from Papa. No letter—only letters

from Mamma Ila with money and sad words. In spring I went to see her,

and boys in Tashkent said, ‘Come on, Saadi, we will make revolution in

Turkestan.’ So I fired tutor and went in revolution with boys. I was only

seventeen. I wanted to forget Papa and be alive, and we broke down wall

of prison in Tashkent, and gendarmes caught me and put me in unbusted

part of prison. It was then so bad for six months. Often I wished it was

gas or gun. When I came out I knew it is no use of anything. Revolution

had failed, revolution will always fail, and parents do not love

children. It is all blind chemical push that drives men to have children.

It is no sooner done than said—and then what you say makes no damn

difference.”

Trench was plunged in thought—his own thought strangely given back to

him. It dawned upon him, like a differential diagnosis, that this was his

own style exaggerated.

“I said,” continued Saadi, “I will never marry any woman, but I will have

hell of good time and forget all fool dreams. But I could not. Other boys

did. It was strange in Russia to see way schools went. Government almost

taught freedom. Government wanted boys and girls to be free with each

like animals, and forget politics. Boys and girls had all night parties

in woods, and parents could not stop them.

“So I went in Vienna and took Matura exam. and entered University to

study damn chemical machine called human body. In winter of 1910 what

Karoul said about Papa came true. You see, Papa was Vazee, what you say

prime minister. All Sunni boys hated him for taxes. He took one-third of

cotton crop. So boys in secret societies sent committee in 1909 to Emir,

with demand to fire Papa, or we will yell ‘Yar charyah’—which is warcry

of Sunnis. Emir would not hear, and boys smashed Papa’s windows, and beat

up guard, and Emir was scared. He fired Papa in exile to Petersbourg. Now

no more sits Papa every morning in Gate to settle all fool questions.

Where is Papa? Shaitan belade—devil knows. But in Tashkent is still

his business office, and money from cotton lands goes to him, maybe in

Petersbourg or Yalta.”

Saadi paused. “Well,” said Trench, “that brings us up to 1910.”

“Yes, and next year Emir died, and all were glad in Bokhara. Last year

came war with Turks, and I went to Belgrad and got in hospital corps and

went to Kumanovo. So little amputation you never saw, but thousands of

wounds without first aid.”

“You will go back, shall you not, and practice?”

“It is no use. In Turkestan we cure dysentery with blood of sheep poured

with prayers on feet and hands. They would kill me if I used modern

method.”

“What of it, Saadi! A bullet in the neck is pleasanter than gas in the

throat.”

Saadi pondered this, apparently fixing the words in mind.—“It is true,

doctor. But I do not love human sheep. Did I go in revolution to save

sheep? No. I went for thrills in nerves. Paradise is only pipedream of

thrills in nerves.”

“You are strictly selfish?”

“Yes, Dr. Trench. I will kill, I will be kind, I will lie or steal or

seduce girl to please myself. When I say self, I mean body. Me is body.

Person is body. Soul is just excuse of body, or else streak of phosphorus

long side of body. You see how bad man I am.”

“No, Saadi. But I see how bad your English is.”

“I can say in three four languages, doctor. I am devil come to visit you.

I am just body, without apology.”

“Saadi, when people talk like that and mean it, we lock them up.”

“Lock me up, doctor.”

“I don’t think it will be necessary. Just remember that language, like

most other things, is no use. The world’s atmosphere is composed of spent

breath, but life is the great miserable unrecorded fact, and sane people

let it stay such. People who are too brave of speech get into trouble—as

I did lately.”

“I understand doctor, and I did not think he was so what you say

conventional. Life is only metabolism, and I do not see what is

difference between clean words and dirty words.”

“That’s a lie, my dear boy.”—The words came promptly, and Edith Bridgman

was responsible for them. A month earlier Trench would not have spoken

them. He would have preserved a cold silence.

Saadi stopped, and tried to reflect. “Well, it is nice to have great

man call Saadi liar, because I sure am liar. But Bismillah! What use is

medicine if body is not me?”

“Well,” laughed Trench, “you are right enough there.”

“Well, then, I will again talk English. Body is self, and I am ended with

good habits. It will be only little time to live before body will succeed

to kill itself. Nothing is left but thrills in nerves, and soon I will

bust loose.”

He watched to see how the doctor would take it. He saw the fine brow

slowly contract till a great bunch stood out over the eyes.

“Saadi, it would have been better if you had died.”

“Yes, much better.”

“Frankly—why do we feel so?”

“Fear, doctor. Doctor is afraid of some woman. We will see if he has

courage to fire Saadi if Saadi gets gay.”

“Of course I’ll fire you. If I know of your wronging a girl—well, as

between murder and seduction, I prefer murder.”

“Same here, Dr. Trench. But I will do both if I damn please.”

“Saadi, we seem to be a bloodthirsty pair, but I have no doubt we are as

much under social control as if we believed all the commandments to be of

divine origin.”

“Speak for self, Dr. Trench, but do not speak for Saadi. You are

naturalist without courage. I will not go through fool ceremony with

girl. I want rich-coloured, hot-blood girl, and if she wants lover, I

take her. When I get tired of her I leave her.”

Trench smiled one of the sardonic smiles which children never saw on his

face. “You are like all the rest, my son. You are more or less grateful,

and the next week you return to the propagation of cannon-food. The other

day I saved an arm for a child named Elsie. If she were older and had

the right dermal tint, she would be your proper prey. It would serve her

father right, and serve me right.”

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