CHAPTER XXIV. LADY JANET’S LETTER.

THE narrative leaves Lady Janet and Horace Holmcroft together, and

returns to Julian and Mercy in the library.

An interval passed--a long interval, measured by the impatient reckoning

of suspense--after the cab which had taken Grace Roseberry away had left

the house. The minutes followed each other; and still the warning sound

of Horace’s footsteps was not heard on the marble pavement of the

hall. By common (though unexpressed) consent, Julian and Mercy avoided

touching upon the one subject on which they were now both interested

alike. With their thoughts fixed secretly in vain speculation on the

nature of the interview which was then taking place in Lady Janet’s

room, they tried to speak on topics indifferent to both of them--tried,

and failed, and tried again. In a last and longest pause of silence

between them, the next event happened. The door from the hall was softly

and suddenly opened.

Was it Horace? No--not even yet. The person who had opened the door was

only Mercy’s maid.

“My lady’s love, miss; and will you please to read this directly?”

Giving her message in those terms, the woman produced from the pocket

of her apron Lady Janet’s second letter to Mercy, with a strip of paper

oddly pinned round the envelope. Mercy detached the paper, and found on

the inner side some lines in pencil, hurriedly written in Lady Janet’s

hand. They ran thus.

“Don’t lose a moment in reading my letter. And mind this, when H.

returns to you--meet him firmly: say nothing.”

Enlightened by the warning words which Julian had spoken to her, Mercy

was at no loss to place the right interpretation on those strange lines.

Instead of immediately opening the letter, she stopped the maid at the

library door. Julian’s suspicion of the most trifling events that were

taking place in the house had found its way from his mind to hers.

“Wait!” she said. “I don’t understand what is going on upstairs; I want

to ask you something.”

The woman came back--not very willingly.

“How did you know I was here?” Mercy inquired.

“If you please, miss, her ladyship ordered me to take the letter to you

some little time since. You were not in your room, and I left it on your

table.”

“I understand that. But how came you to bring the letter here?”

“My lady rang for me, miss. Before I could knock at her door she came

out into the corridor with that morsel of paper in her hand--”

“So as to keep you from entering her room?”

“Yes, miss. Her ladyship wrote on the paper in a great hurry, and told

me to pin it round the letter that I had left in your room. I was to

take them both together to you, and to let nobody see me. ‘You will find

Miss Roseberry in the library’ (her ladyship says), ‘and run, run, run!

there isn’t a moment to lose!’ Those were her own words, miss.”

“Did you hear anything in the room before Lady Janet came out and met

you?”

The woman hesitated, and looked at Julian.

“I hardly know whether I ought to tell you, miss.”

Julian turned away to leave the library. Mercy stopped him by a motion

of her hand.

“You know that I shall not get you into any trouble,” she said to the

maid. “And you may speak quite safely before Mr. Julian Gray.”

Thus re-assured, the maid spoke.

“To own the truth, miss, I heard Mr. Holmcroft in my lady’s room. His

voice sounded as if he was angry. I may say they were both angry--Mr.

Holmcroft and my lady.” (She turned to Julian.) “And just before her

ladyship came out, sir, I heard your name, as if it was you they were

having words about. I can’t say exactly what it was; I hadn’t time to

hear. And I didn’t listen, miss; the door was ajar; and the voices were

so loud nobody could help hearing them.”

It was useless to detain the woman any longer. Having given her leave to

withdraw, Mercy turned to Julian.

“Why were they quarreling about you?” she asked.

Julian pointed to the unopened letter in her hand.

“The answer to your question may be there,” he said. “Read the letter

while you have the chance. And if I can advise you, say so at once.”

With a strange reluctance she opened the envelope. With a sinking

heart she read the lines in which Lady Janet, as “mother and friend,”

commanded her absolutely to suppress the confession which she had

pledged herself to make in the sacred interests of justice and truth.

A low cry of despair escaped her, as the cruel complication in her

position revealed itself in all its unmerited hardship. “Oh, Lady Janet,

Lady Janet!” she thought, “there was but one trial more left in my hard

lot--and it comes to me from _you!_”

She handed the letter to Julian. He took it from her in silence. His

pale complexion turned paler still as he read it. His eyes rested on her

compassionately as he handed it back.

“To my mind,” he said, “Lady Janet herself sets all further doubt at

rest. Her letter tells me what she wanted when she sent for Horace, and

why my name was mentioned between them.”

“Tell me!” cried Mercy, eagerly.

He did not immediately answer her. He sat down again in the chair by her

side, and pointed to the letter.

“Has Lady Janet shaken your resolution?” he asked.

“She has strengthened my resolution,” Mercy answered. “She has added a

new bitterness to my remorse.”

She did not mean it harshly, but the reply sounded harshly in Julian’s

ears. It stirred the generous impulses, which were the strongest

impulses in his nature. He who had once pleaded with Mercy for

compassionate consideration for herself now pleaded with her for

compassionate consideration for Lady Janet. With persuasive gentleness

he drew a little nearer, and laid his hand on her arm.

“Don’t judge her harshly,” he said. “She is wrong, miserably wrong. She

has recklessly degraded herself; she has recklessly tempted you. Still,

is it generous--is it even just--to hold her responsible for deliberate

sin? She is at the close of her days; she can feel no new affection; she

can never replace you. View her position in that light, and you will see

(as I see) that it is no base motive which has led her astray. Think of

her wounded heart and her wasted life--and say to yourself forgivingly,

She loves me!”

Mercy’s eyes filled with tears.

“I do say it!” she answered. “Not forgivingly--it is _I_ who have need

of forgiveness. I say it gratefully when I think of her--I say it with

shame and sorrow when I think of myself.”

He took her hand for the first time. He looked, guiltlessly looked, at

her downcast face. He spoke as he had spoken at the memorable interview

between them which had made a new woman of her.

“I can imagine no crueler trial,” he said, “than the trial that is now

before you. The benefactress to whom you owe everything asks nothing

from you but your silence. The person whom you have wronged is no longer

present to stimulate your resolution to speak. Horace himself (unless I

am entirely mistaken) will not hold you to the explanation that you have

promised. The temptation to keep your false position in this house is, I

do not scruple to say, all but irresistible. Sister and friend! can you

still justify my faith in you? Will you still own the truth, without

the base fear of discovery to drive you to it?”

She lifted her head, with the steady light of resolution shining again

in her grand, gray eyes. Her low, sweet voice answered him, without a

faltering note in it,

“I will!”

“You will do justice to the woman whom you have wronged--unworthy as she

is; powerless as she is to expose you?”

“I will!”

“You will sacrifice everything you have gained by the fraud to the

sacred duty of atonement? You will suffer anything--even though you

offend the second mother who has loved you and sinned for you--rather

than suffer the degradation of yourself?”

Her hand closed firmly on his. Again, and for the last time, she

answered,

“I will!”

His voice had not trembled yet. It failed him now. His next words were

spoken in faint whispering tones--to himself; not to her.

“Thank God for this day!” he said. “I have been of some service to one

of the noblest of God’s creatures!”

Some subtle influence, as he spoke, passed from his hand to hers. It

trembled through her nerves; it entwined itself mysteriously with the

finest sensibilities in her nature; it softly opened her heart to a

first vague surmising of the devotion that she had inspired in him. A

faint glow of color, lovely in its faintness, stole over her face and

neck. Her breathing quickened tremblingly. She drew her hand away from

him, and sighed when she had released it.

He rose suddenly to his feet and left her, without a word or a look,

walking slowly down the length of the room. When he turned and came back

to her, his face was composed; he was master of himself again.

Mercy was the first to speak. She turned the conversation from herself

by reverting to the proceedings in Lady Janet’s room.

“You spoke of Horace just now,” she said, “in terms which surprised me.

You appeared to think that he would not hold me to my explanation. Is

that one of the conclusions which you draw from Lady Janet’s letter?”

“Most assuredly,” Julian answered. “You will see the conclusion as I

see it if we return for a moment to Grace Roseberry’s departure from the

house.”

Mercy interrupted him there. “Can you guess,” she asked, “how Lady Janet

prevailed upon her to go?”

“I hardly like to own it,” said Julian. “There is an expression in the

letter which suggests to me that Lady Janet has offered her money, and

that she has taken the bribe.”

“Oh, I can’t think that!”

“Let us return to Horace. Miss Roseberry once out of the house, but one

serious obstacle is left in Lady Janet’s way. That obstacle is Horace

Holmcroft.”

“How is Horace an obstacle?”

“He is an obstacle in this sense. He is under an engagement to marry you

in a week’s time; and Lady Janet is determined to keep him (as she is

determined to keep every one else) in ignorance of the truth. She will

do that without scruple. But the inbred sense of honor in her is not

utterly silenced yet. She cannot, she dare not, let Horace make you

his wife under the false impression that you are Colonel Roseberry’s

daughter. You see the situation? On the one hand, she won’t enlighten

him. On the other hand, she cannot allow him to marry you blindfold. In

this emergency what is she to do? There is but one alternative that I

can discover. She must persuade Horace (or she must irritate Horace)

into acting for himself, and breaking off the engagement on his own

responsibility.”

Mercy stopped him. “Impossible!” she cried, warmly. “Impossible!”

“Look again at her letter,” Julian rejoined. “It tells you plainly that

you need fear no embarrassment when you next meet Horace. If words

mean anything, those words mean that he will not claim from you the

confidence which you have promised to repose in him. On what condition

is it possible for him to abstain from doing that? On the one condition

that you have ceased to represent the first and foremost interest of his

life.”

Mercy still held firm. “You are wronging Lady Janet,” she said.

Julian smiled sadly.

“Try to look at it,” he answered, “from Lady Janet’s point of view. Do

you suppose _she_ sees anything derogatory to her in attempting to break

off the marriage? I will answer for it, she believes she is doing you a

kindness. In one sense it _would_ be a kindness to spare you the shame

of a humiliating confession, and to save you (possibly) from being

rejected to your face by the man you love. In my opinion, the thing is

done already. I have reasons of my own for believing that my aunt will

succeed far more easily than she could anticipate. Horace’s temper will

help her.”

Mercy’s mind began to yield to him, in spite of herself.

“What do you mean by Horace’s temper?” she inquired.

“Must you ask me that?” he said, drawing back a little from her.

“I must.”

“I mean by Horace’s temper, Horace’s unworthy distrust of the interest

that I feel in you.”

She instantly understood him. And more than that, she secretly admired

him for the scrupulous delicacy with which he had expressed himself.

Another man would not have thought of sparing her in that way. Another

man would have said, plainly, “Horace is jealous of me.”

Julian did not wait for her to answer him. He considerately went on.

“For the reason that I have just mentioned,” he said, “Horace will be

easily irritated into taking a course which, in his calmer moments,

nothing would induce him to adopt. Until I heard what your maid said to

you I had thought (for your sake) of retiring before he joined you

here. Now I know that my name has been introduced, and has made mischief

upstairs, I feel the necessity (for your sake again) of meeting Horace

and his temper face to face before you see him. Let me, if I can,

prepare him to hear you without any angry feeling in his mind toward

you. Do you object to retire to the next room for a few minutes in the

event of his coming back to the library?”

Mercy’s courage instantly rose with the emergency. She refused to leave

the two men together.

“Don’t think me insensible to your kindness,” she said. “If I leave you

with Horace I may expose you to insult. I refuse to do that. What makes

you doubt his coming back?”

“His prolonged absence makes me doubt it,” Julian replied. “In my

belief, the marriage is broken off. He may go as Grace Roseberry has

gone. You may never see him again.”

The instant the opinion was uttered, it was practically contradicted by

the man himself. Horace opened the library door.

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