XVIII

Stettner had returned to Hamburg. His ship was to sail on that very

evening. He had several errands in the city, and Christian and Crammon

waited for him in order to accompany him to the pier.

Crammon said: “A captain of Hussars who suddenly turns up in mufti--I

can’t help it, there’s something desperate about it to me. I feel

as though I were on a perpetual visit of condolence. After all, he’s

déclassé, and I don’t like people in that situation. Social classes are

a divine institution; a man who interferes with them wounds his own

character. One doesn’t throw up one’s profession the way one tosses

aside a rotten apple. These are delicate and difficult matters. Common

sense may disregard them; the higher intelligence reverences them. What

is he going to do among the Yankees? What good can come of it?”

“He’s a chemist by inclination, and scholarly in his line,” Christian

answered. “That will help.”

“What do the Yankees care about that? He’s more likely to catch

consumption and be trodden under. He’ll be stripped of pride and

dignity. It’s a country for thieves, waiters, and renegades. Did he

have to go as far as all this?”

“Yes,” Christian answered, “I believe he did.”

An hour later they and Stettner arrived at the harbour. Cargoes

and luggage were still being stowed, and they strolled, Stettner

between Crammon and Christian, up and down a narrow alley lined with

cotton-bales, boxes, barrels, and baskets. The arc lamps cast radiant

light from the tall masts, and a tumult of carts and cranes, motors and

bells, criers and whistles rolled through the fog. The asphalt was wet;

there was no sky to be seen.

“Don’t forget me wholly here in the old land,” said Stettner. A silence

followed.

“I don’t know whether we shall be as well off in the old country in the

future as we have been in the past,” said Crammon, who occasionally had

pessimistic attacks and forebodings. “Hitherto we haven’t suffered. Our

larders and cellars have been well-stocked, nor have the higher needs

been neglected. But times are getting worse, and, unless I mistake,

clouds are gathering on the political horizon. So I can’t call it a bad

idea, my dear Stettner, to slip away quietly and amiably. I only hope

that you’ll find some secure position over there from which you may

calmly watch the spectacle of our débâcle. And when the waves rise very

high, you might think of us and have a mass said for us, that is for

me, because Christian has been expelled from the bosom of Holy Church.”

Stettner smiled at this speech. But he became serious again at once.

“It seems to me too that, in a sense, we’re all trapped here. Yet I

have never felt myself so deeply and devotedly a German as at this

moment when I am probably leaving my fatherland forever. But in that

feeling there is a stab of pain. It seems to me as though I should

hurry from one to another and sound a warning. But what to warn them

of, or why warn them at all--I don’t know.”

Crammon answered weightily. “My dear old Aglaia wrote me the other day

that she had dreamed of black cats all night long. She is deep, she has

a prophetic soul, and dreams like that are of evil presage. I may enter

a monastery. It is actually within the realm of the possible. Don’t

laugh, Christian; don’t laugh, my dearest boy! You don’t know all my

possibilities.”

It had not occurred to Christian to laugh.

Stettner stopped and gave his hands to his friends. “Good-bye,

Crammon,” he said cordially. “I’m grateful that you accompanied me.

Good-bye, dear Christian, good-bye.” He pressed Christian’s hand long

and firmly. Then he tore himself away, hastened toward the gang-plank,

and was lost in the crowd.

“A nice fellow,” Crammon murmured. “A very nice fellow. What a pity!”

When the car met them Christian said: “I’d like to walk a bit, either

back to the hotel or somewhere else. Will you come, Bernard?”

“If you want me, yes. Toddling along is my portion.”

Christian dismissed his car. He had a strange foreboding, as though

something fateful were lying in wait for him.

“Ariel’s days here are numbered,” said Crammon. “Duty calls me away.

I must look after my two old ladies. Then I must join Franz Lothar in

Styria. We’ll hunt heath-cocks. After that I’ve agreed to meet young

Sinsheim in St. Moritz. What are your plans, my dear boy?”

“I leave for Berlin to-morrow or the day after.”

“And what in God’s name are you going to do there?”

“I’m going to work.”

Crammon stopped, and opened his mouth very wide. “Work?” he gasped,

quite beside himself. “What at? What for, O misguided one?”

“I’m going to take courses at the university, under the faculty of

medicine.”

Horrified, Crammon shook his head. “Work ... courses ... medicine....

Merciful Providence, what does this mean? Is there not enough sweat in

the world, not enough bungling and half-wisdom and ugly ambition and

useless turmoil? You’re not serious.”

“You exaggerate as usual, Bernard,” Christian answered, with a smile.

“Don’t always be a Jeremiah. What I’m going to do is something quite

simple and conventional. And I’m only going to try. I may not even

succeed; but I must try it. So much is sure.”

Crammon raised his hand, lifted a warning index finger, and said with

great solemnity: “You are upon an evil path, Christian, upon a path of

destruction. For many, many days I have had a presentiment of terrible

things. The sleep of my nights has been embittered; a sorrow gnaws

at me and my peace has flown. How am I to hunt in the mountains when

I know you to be among the Pharisees? How shall I cast my line into

clear streams when my inner eye sees you bending over greasy volumes or

handling diseased bodies? No wine will glitter beautifully in my glass,

no girl’s eyes seem friendly any more, no pear yield me its delicate

flavour!”

“Oh, yes, they will,” Christian said, laughing. “More than that: I

hope you’ll come to see me from time to time, to convince yourself that

you needn’t cast me off entirely.”

Crammon sighed. “Indeed I shall come. I must come and soon, else the

spirit of evil will get entire control of you. Which may God forbid!”

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