CHAPTER XIII

Rouletta Kirby could not manage to get warm. The longer she sat beside

the stove the colder she became. This was not strange, for the room was

draughty, people were constantly coming in and going out, and when the

door was opened the wind caused the canvas walls of the saloon to bulge

and its roof to slap upon the rafters. The patrons were warmly clad in

mackinaw, flannel, and fur. To them the place was comfortable enough,

but to the girl who sat swathed in sodden undergarments it was like a

refrigerator. More than once she regretted her heedless refusal of the

Countess Courteau's offer of a change; several times, in fact, she was

upon the point of returning to claim it, but she shrank from facing

that wintry wind, so low had her vitality fallen. Then, too, she

reasoned that it would be no easy task to find the Countess at this

hour of the night, for the beach was lined with a mile of tents, all

more or less alike. She pictured the search, herself groping her way

from one to another, and mumbling excuses to surprised occupants. No,

it was better to stay here beside the fire until her clothes dried out.

She would have reminded her father of her discomfort and claimed his

assistance only for the certainty that he would send her off to bed,

which was precisely what she sought to prevent. Her presence irritated

him; nevertheless, she knew that his safety lay in her remaining. Sam

Kirby sober was in many ways the best of fathers; he was generous, he

was gentle, he was considerate. Sam Kirby drunk was another man

entirely--a thoughtless, wilful, cruel man, subject to vagaries of

temper that were as mysterious to the girl who knew him so well as they

were dangerous to friend and foe alike. He was drunk now, or in that

peculiar condition that passed with him for drunkenness. Intoxication

in his case was less a condition of body than a frame of mind, and it

required no considerable amount of liquor to work the change. Whisky,

even in small quantities, served to suspend certain of his mental

functions; it paralyzed one lobe of his brain, as it were, while it

aroused other faculties to a preternatural activity and awoke sleeping

devils in him. The more he drank the more violent became his

destructive mood, the more firmly rooted became his tendencies and

proclivities for evil. The girl well knew that this was an hour when he

needed careful watching and when to leave him unguarded, even

temporarily, meant disaster. Rouletta clenched her chattering teeth and

tried to ignore the chills that raced up and down her body.

White Horse, at this time, was purely a make-shift camp, hence it had

no facilities for gambling. The saloons themselves were little more

than liquor caches which had been opened overnight for the purpose of

reaping quick profits; therefore such games of chance as went on were

for the most part between professional gamblers who happened to be

passing through and who chose to amuse themselves in that way.

After perhaps an hour, during which a considerable crowd had come and

gone, Sam Kirby broke away from the group with which he had been

drinking and made for the door. As he passed Rouletta he paused to say:

"I'm going to drift around a bit, kid, and see if I can't stir up a

little game."

"Where are we going to put up for the night?" his daughter inquired.

"I don't know yet; it's early. Want to turn in?"

Rouletta shook her head.

"I'll find a place somewhere. Now you stick here where it's nice and

warm. I'll be back by and by."

With sinking heart the girl watched him go. After a moment she rose and

followed him out into the night. She was surprised to discover that the

mud under foot had frozen and that the north wind bore a burden of

fine, hard snow particles. Keeping well out of sight, she stumbled to

another saloon door, and then, after shivering wretchedly outside for a

while, she stole in and crept up behind the stove.

She was very miserable indeed by this time, and as the evening wore

slowly on her misery increased. After a while her father began shaking

dice with some strangers, and the size of their wagers drew an audience

of interested bystanders.

Rouletta realized that she should not have exposed herself anew to the

cold, for now her sensations had become vaguely alarming. She could not

even begin to get warm, except now and then when a burning fever

replaced her chill; she felt weak and ill inside; the fingers she

pressed to her aching temples were like icicles. Eventually--she had

lost all track of time--her condition became intolerable and she

decided to risk her father's displeasure by interrupting him and

demanding that he secure for both of them a lodging-place at once.

There were several bank-notes of large denomination on the plank

bar-top and Sam Kirby was watching a cast of dice when his daughter

approached; therefore he did not see her. Nor did he turn his head when

she laid a hand upon his arm.

Now women, especially pretty women, were common enough sights in

Alaskan drinking-places. So it was not strange that Rouletta's presence

had occasioned neither comment nor curiosity. More than once during the

last hour or two men had spoken to her with easy familiarity, but they

had taken no offense when she had turned her back. It was quite

natural, therefore, that the fellow with whom Kirby was gambling should

interpret her effort to claim attention as an attempt to interrupt the

game, and that he should misread the meaning of her imploring look.

There being considerable money at stake, he frowned down at her, then

with an impatient gesture he brushed her aside.

"None of that, sister!" he warned her. "You get out of here."

Sam Kirby was in the midst of a discussion with the proprietor, across

the bar, and because there was a deal of noise in the place he did not

hear his daughter's low-spoken protest.

"Oh, I mean it!" The former speaker scowled at Rouletta. "You dolls

make me sick, grabbing at every nickel you see. Beat it, now! There's

plenty of young suckers for you to trim. If you can't respect an old

man with gray hair, why--" The rest of his remark caused the girl's

eyes to widen and the chattering voices to fall silent.

Sam Kirby turned, the dice-box poised in his right hand.

"Eh? What's that?" he queried, vaguely.

"I'm talking to this pink-faced gold-digger--"

"Father!" Rouletta exclaimed.

"I'm just telling her--"

The fellow repeated his remark, whereupon understanding came to Kirby

and his expression slowly altered. Surprise, incredulity, gave place to

rage; his eyes began to blaze.

"You said that to--her?" he gasped, in amazement. "To my kid?" There

was a moment of tense silence during which the speaker appeared to be

numbed by the insult, then, "By God!" Sam placed the dice-box carefully

upon the bar. His movement was deliberate, but he kept his flaming gaze

fixed upon the object of his wrath, and into his lean, ashen

countenance came such demoniac fury as to appal those who saw it.

Rouletta uttered a faint moan and flung herself at her father; with a

strength born of terror she clung to his right wrist. In this she was

successful, despite old Sam's effort to shake her off, but she could

not imprison both his arms. Kirby stepped forward, dragging the girl

with him; he raised that wicked artificial left hand and brought it

sweeping downward, and for a second time that day the steel shaft met

flesh and bone. His victim spun upon his heels, then, with outflung

arms and an expression of shocked amazement still upon his face, he

crashed backward to the floor.

Kirby strode to him; before other hands could come to Rouletta's

assistance and bear him out of reach he twice buried his heavy

hobnailed boot in the prostrate figure. He presented a terrible

exhibition of animal ferocity, for he was growling oaths deep in his

throat and in his eyes was the light of murder. He fought for liberty

with which to finish his task, and those who restrained him found that

somehow he had managed to draw an ivory-handled six-shooter from some

place of concealment. Nor could they wrench the weapon away from him.

"He insulted my kid--my girl Letty!" Kirby muttered, hoarsely.

When the fallen man had been lifted to his feet and hurried out of the

saloon old Sam tried his best to follow, but his captors held him fast.

They pleaded with him, they argued, they pacified him as well as they

could. It was a long time, however, before they dared trust him alone

with Rouletta, and even then they turned watchful eyes in his direction.

"I didn't want anything to happen." The girl spoke listlessly.

Kirby began to rumble again, but she interrupted him. "It wasn't the

man's fault. It was a perfectly natural mistake on his part, and I've

learned to expect such things. I--I'm sick, dad. You must find a place

for me, quick."

Sam agreed readily enough. The biting cold of the wind met them at the

door. Rouletta, summoning what strength she could, trudged along at his

side. It did not take them long to canvass the town and to discover

that there were no lodgings to be had. Rouletta halted finally,

explaining through teeth that chattered:

"I--I'm frozen! Take me back where there's a stove--back to the

saloon--anywhere. Only do it quickly."

"Pshaw! It isn't cold," Kirby protested, mildly.

The nature of this remark showed more plainly than anything he had said

or done during the evening that the speaker was not himself. It

signified such a dreadful change in him, it marked so surely the extent

of his metamorphosis, that Rouletta's tears came.

"Looks like we'd have to make the best of it and stay awake till

morning," the father went on, dully.

"No, no! I'm too sick," the girl sobbed, "and too cold. Leave me where

I can keep warm; then go find the Countess and--ask her to put me up."

Returning to their starting-point, Kirby saw to his daughter's comfort

as best he could, after which he wandered out into the night once more.

His intentions were good, but he was not a little out of patience with

Letty and still very angry with the man who had affronted her; rage at

the insult glowed within his disordered brain and he determined, before

he had gone very far, that his first duty was to right that wrong.

Probably the miscreant was somewhere around, or, if not, he would soon

make his appearance. Sam decided to postpone his errand long enough to

look through the other drinking-places and to settle the score.

No one, on seeing him thus, would have suspected that he was drunk; he

walked straight, his tongue was obedient, and he was master of his

physical powers to a deceptive degree; only in his abnormally alert and

feverish eyes was there a sign that his brain was completely crazed.

Rouletta waited for a long while, and steadily her condition grew

worse. She became light-headed, and frequently lost herself in a sort

of painful doze. She did not really sleep, however, for her eyes were

open and staring; her wits wandered away on nightmare journeys,

returning only when the pains became keener. Her fever was high now;

she was nauseated, listless; her chest ached and her breathing troubled

her when she was conscious enough to think. Her surroundings became

unreal, too, the faces that appeared and disappeared before her were

the faces of dream figures.

Unmindful of his daughter's need, heedless of the passage of time, Sam

Kirby loitered about the saloons and waited patiently for the coming of

a certain man. After a time he bought some chips and sat in a poker

game, but he paid less attention to the spots on his cards than to the

door through which men came and went. These latter he eyed with the

unblinking stare of a serpent.

Pierce Phillips' life was ruined. He was sure of it. Precisely what

constituted a ruined life, just how much such a one differed from a

successful life, he had only the vaguest idea, but his own, at the

moment, was tasteless, spoiled. Dire consequences were bound to follow

such a tragedy as this, so he told himself, and he looked forward with

gloomy satisfaction to their realization; whatever they should prove to

be, however terrible the fate that was to overtake him, the guilt, the

responsibility therefor, lay entirely upon the heartless woman who had

worked the evil, and he earnestly hoped they would be brought home to

her.

Yes, the Countess Courteau was heartless, wicked, cruel. Her

unsuspected selfishness, her lack of genuine sentiment, her cool,

calculating caution, were shocking. Pierce had utterly misread her at

first; that was plain.

That he was really hurt, deeply distressed, sorely aggrieved, was true

enough, for his love--infatuation, if you will--was perfectly genuine

and exceedingly vital. Nothing is more real, more vital, than a normal

boy's first infatuation, unless it be the first infatuation of a girl;

precisely wherein it differs from the riper, less demonstrative

affection that comes with later years and wider experience is not

altogether plain. Certainly it is more spontaneous, more poignant;

certainly it has in it equal possibilities for good or evil. How deep

or how disfiguring the scar it leaves depends entirely upon the healing

process. But, for that matter, the same applies to every heart affair.

Had Phillips been older and wiser he would not have yielded so readily

to despair; experience would have taught him that a woman's "No" is not

a refusal; wisdom would have told him that the absolute does not exist.

But, being neither experienced nor wise, he mistook the downfall of his

castle for the wreck of the universe, and it never occurred to him that

he could salvage something, or, if need be, rebuild upon the same

foundations.

What he could neither forget nor forgive at this moment was the fact

that Hilda had not only led him to sacrifice his honor, or its

appearance, but also that when he had managed to reconcile himself to

that wrong she had lacked the courage to meet him half-way. There were

but two explanations of her action: either she was weak and cowardly or

else she did not love him. Neither afforded much consolation.

In choosing a course of conduct no man is strong enough to divorce

himself entirely from his desires, to follow the light of pure reason,

for memories, impulses, yearnings are bound to bring confusion.

Although Pierce told himself that he must renounce this woman--that he

had renounced her--nevertheless he recalled with a thrill the touch of

her bare arms and the perfume of her streaming golden hair as he had

buried his face in it, and the keenness of those memories caused him to

cry out. The sex-call had been stronger than he had realized;

therefore, to his present grief was added an inescapable, almost

irresistible feeling of physical distress--a frenzy of balked

desire--which caused him to waver irresolutely, confusing the issue

dreadfully.

For a long time he wandered through the night, fighting his animal and

his spiritual longings, battling with irresolution, striving to

reconcile himself to the crash that had overwhelmed him. More than once

he was upon the point of rushing back to the woman and pouring out the

full tide of his passion in a desperate attempt to sweep away her

doubts and her apprehensions. What if she should refuse to respond? He

would merely succeed in making himself ridiculous and in sacrificing

what little appearance of dignity he retained. Thus pride prevented,

uncertainty paralyzed him.

Some women, it seemed to him, not bad in themselves, were born to work

evil, and evidently Hilda was one of them. She had done her task well

in this instance, for she had thoroughly blasted his life! He would

pretend to forget, but nevertheless he would see to it that she was

undeceived, and that the injury she had done him remained an

ever-present reproach to her. That would be his revenge. Real

forgetfulness, of course, was out of the question. How could he assume

such an attitude? As he pondered the question he remembered that there

were artificial aids to oblivion. Ruined men invariably took to drink.

Why shouldn't he attempt to drown his sorrows? After all, might there

not be real and actual relief in liquor? After consideration he decided

to try it.

From a tent saloon near by came the sounds of singing and of laughter,

and thither he turned his steps. When he entered the place a lively

scene greeted him. Somehow or other a small portable organ had been

secured, and at this a bearded fellow in a mackinaw coat was seated. He

was playing a spirited accompaniment for two women, sisters, evidently,

who sang with the loud abandon of professional "coon shouters." Other

women were present, and Phillips recognized them as members of that

theatrical troupe he had seen at Sheep Camp--as those "actresses" to

whom Tom Linton had referred with such elaborate sarcasm. All of them,

it appeared, were out for a good time, and in consequence White Horse

was being treated to a free concert.

The song ended in a burst of laughter and applause, the men at the bar

pounded with their glasses, and there was a general exodus in that

direction. One of the sisters flung herself enthusiastically upon the

volunteer organist and dragged him with her. There was much hilarity

and a general atmosphere of license and unrestraint.

Phillips looked on moodily; he frowned, his lip curled. All the world

was happy, it seemed, while he nursed a broken heart. Well, that was in

accord with the scheme of things--life was a mad, topsy-turvy affair at

best, and there was nothing stable about any part of it. He felt very

grim, very desperate, very much abused and very much outside of all

this merriment.

Men were playing cards at the rear of the saloon, and among the number

was Sam Kirby. The old gambler showed no signs of his trying experience

of the afternoon; in fact, it appeared to have been banished utterly

from his mind. He was drinking, and even while Pierce looked on he

rapped sharply with his iron hand to call the bartender's attention.

Meanwhile he scanned intently the faces of all new-comers.

When the crowd had surged back to the organ Pierce found a place at the

bar and called for a drink of whisky--the first he had ever ordered.

This was the end he told himself.

He poured the glass nearly full, then he gulped the liquor down. It

tasted much as it smelled, hence he derived little enjoyment from the

experience. As he stripped a bill from his sizable roll of bank-notes

the bartender eyed him curiously and seemed upon the point of speaking,

but Pierce turned his shoulder.

After perhaps five minutes the young man acknowledged a vague

disappointment; if this was intoxication there was mighty little

satisfaction in it, he decided, and no forgetfulness whatever. He was

growing dizzy, to be sure, but aside from that and from the fact that

his eyesight was somewhat uncertain he could feel no unusual effect.

Perhaps he expected too much; perhaps, also, he had drunk too

sparingly. Again he called for the bottle, again he filled his glass,

again he carelessly displayed his handful of paper currency.

Engaged thus, he heard a voice close to his ear; it said:

"Hello, man!"

Pierce turned to discover that a girl was leaning with elbows upon the

plank counter at his side and looking at him. Her chin was supported

upon her clasped fingers; she was staring into his face.

She eyed him silently for a moment, during which he returned her

unsmiling gaze. She dropped her eyes to the whisky-glass, then raised

them again to his.

"Can you take a drink like that and not feel it?" she inquired.

"No. I want to feel it; that's why I take it," he said, gruffly.

"What's the idea?"

"Idea? Well, it's my own idea--my own business."

The girl took no offense; she maintained her curious observation of

him; she appeared genuinely interested in acquainting herself with a

man who could master such a phenomenal quantity of liquor. There was

mystification in her tone when she said:

"But--I saw you come in alone. And now you're drinking alone."

"Is that a reproach? I beg your pardon." Pierce swept her a mocking

bow. "What will you have?"

Without removing her chin from its resting-place, the stranger shook

her head shortly, so he downed his beverage as before. The girl watched

him interestedly as he paid for it.

"That's more money than I've seen in a month," said she. "I wouldn't be

so free and easy with it, if I were you."

"No? Why not?"

She merely shrugged, and continued to study him with that same

disconcerting intentness--she reminded him of a frank and curious child.

Pierce noticed now that she was a very pretty girl, and quite

appropriately dressed, under the circumstances. She wore a boy's suit,

with a short skirt over her knickerbockers, and, since she was slim,

the garments added to her appearance of immaturity. Her face was oval

in outline, and it was of a perfectly uniform olive tint; her eyes were

large and black and velvety, their lashes were long, their lids were

faintly smudged with a shadowy under-coloring that magnified their size

and intensified their brilliance. Her hair was almost black,

nevertheless it was of fine texture; a few unruly strands had escaped

from beneath her fur cap and they clouded her brow and temples. At

first sight she appeared to be foreign, and of that smoky type commonly

associated with the Russian idea of beauty, but she was not foreign,

not Russian; nor were her features predominantly racial.

"What's your name?" she asked, suddenly.

Pierce told her. "And yours?" he inquired.

"Laure."

"Laure what?"

"Just Laure--for the present."

"Humph! You're one of this--theatrical company, I presume." He

indicated the singers across the room.

"Yes. Morris Best hired us to work in his place at Dawson."

"I remember your outfit at Sheep Camp. Best was nearly crazy--"

"He's crazier now than ever." Laure smiled for the first time and her

face lit up with mischief. "Poor Morris! We lead him around by his big

nose. He's deathly afraid he'll lose us, and we know it, so we make his

life miserable." She turned serious abruptly, and with a candor quite

startling said, "I like you."

"Indeed!" Pierce was nonplussed.

The girl nodded. "You looked good to me when you came in. Are you going

to Dawson?"

"Of course. Everybody is going to Dawson."

"I suppose you have partners?"

"No!" Pierce's face darkened. "I'm alone--very much alone." He

undertook to speak in a hollow, hopeless tone.

"Big outfit?"

"None at all. But I have enough money for my needs and--I'll probably

hook up with somebody." Now there was a brave but cheerless resignation

in his words.

Laure pondered for a moment; even more carefully than before she

studied her companion. That the result satisfied her she made plain by

saying:

"Morris wants men. I can get him to hire you. Would you like to hook up

with us?"

"I don't know. It doesn't much matter. Will you have something to drink

now?"

"Why should I? They don't give any percentage here. Wait! I'll see

Morris and tell you what he says." Leaving Pierce, the speaker hurried

to a harassed little man of Hebraic countenance who was engaged in the

difficult task of chaperoning this unruly aggregation of talent. To him

she said:

"I've found a man for you, Morris."

"Man?"

"To go to Dawson with us. That tall, good-looking fellow at the bar."

Mr. Best was bewildered. "What ails you?" he queried. "I don't want any

men, and you know it."

"You want this fellow, and you're going to hire him."

"Am I? What makes you think so?"

"Because it's--him or me," Laure said, calmly.

Mr. Best was both surprised and angered at this cool announcement. "You

mean, I s'pose, that you'll quit," he said, belligerently.

"I mean that very thing. The man has money--"

Best's anger disappeared as if by magic; his tone became apologetic.

"Oh! Why didn't you say so? If he'll pay enough, and if you want him,

why, of course--"

Laure interrupted with an unexpected dash of temper. "He isn't going to

pay you anything: you're going to pay him--top wages, too. Understand?"

The unhappy recipient of this ultimatum raised his hands in a gesture

of despair. "Himmel! There's no understanding you girls! There's no

getting along with you, either. What's on your mind, eh? Are you after

him or his coin?"

"I--don't know." Laure was gazing at Phillips with a peculiar

expression. "I'm not sure. Maybe I'm after both. Will you be good and

hire him, or--"

"Oh, you've got me!" Best declared, with frank resentment. "If you want

him, I s'pose I'll have to get him for you, but"--he muttered an oath

under his breath--"you'll ruin me. Oy! Oy! I'll be glad when you're all

in Dawson and at work."

After some further talk the manager approached Phillips and made

himself known. "Laure tells me you want to join our troupe," he began.

"I'll see that he pays you well," the girl urged. "Come on."

Phillips' thoughts were not quite clear, but, even so, the situation

struck him as grotesquely amusing. "I'm no song-and-dance man," he

said, with a smile. "What would you expect me to do? Play a mandolin?"

"I don't know exactly," Best replied. "Maybe you could help me ride

herd on these Bernhardts." He ran a hand through his thin black hair,

thinner now by half than when he left the States. "If you could do

that, why--you could save my reason."

"He wants you to be a Simon Legree," Laure explained.

The manager seconded this statement by a nod of his head. "Sure! Crack

the whip over 'em. Keep 'em in line. Don't let 'em get married. I

thought I was wise to hire good-lookers, but--I was crazy. They smile

and they make eyes and the men fight for 'em. They steal 'em away. I've

had a dozen battles and every time I've been licked. Already four of my

girls are gone. If I lose four more I can't open; I'll be ruined. Oy!

Such a country! Every day a new love-affair; every day more trouble--"

Laure threw back her dark head and laughed in mischievous delight.

"It's a fact," she told Pierce. "The best Best gets is the worst of it.

He's not our manager, he's our slave; we have lots of fun with him."

Stepping closer to the young man, she slipped her arm within his and,

looking up into his face, said, in a low voice: "I knew I could fix it,

for I always have my way. Will you go?" When he hesitated she repeated:

"Will you go with me or--shall I go with you?"

Phillips started. His brain was fogged and he had difficulty in

focusing his gaze upon the eager, upturned face of the girl;

nevertheless, he appreciated the significance of this audacious inquiry

and there came to him the memory of his recent conversation with the

Countess Courteau. "Why do you say that?" he queried, after a moment.

"Why do you want me to go?"

Laure's eyes searched his; there was an odd light in them, and a

peculiar intensity which he dimly felt but scarcely understood. "I

don't know," she confessed. She was no longer smiling, and, although

her gaze remained hypnotically fixed upon his, she seemed to be

searching her own soul. "I don't know," she said again, "but you have

a--call."

In spite of this young woman's charms, and they were numerous enough,

Phillips was not strongly drawn to her; resentment, anger, his rankling

sense of injury, all these left no room for other emotions. That she

was interested in him he still had sense enough to perceive; her

amazing proposal, her unmistakable air of proprietorship, showed that

much, and in consequence a sort of malicious triumph arose within him.

Here, right at hand, was an agency of forgetfulness, more potent by far

than the one to which he had first turned. Dangerous? Yes. But his life

was ruined. What difference, then, whether oblivion came from alcohol

or from the drug of the poppy? Deliberately he shut his ears to inner

warnings; he raised his head defiantly.

"I'll go," said he.

"We leave at daylight," Best told him.

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