CHAPTER XLIV

THE FINAL CONSOLATIONS OF OPIUM

The glowing September sun had rarely revealed a sadder group than

that which still watched beside poor Belle. At last Roger looked

at his watch and said:

"I will now go and see Mr. Wentworth, and bring Mrs. Wheaton."

"Very well, Roger," Mildred replied, "we leave everything in your

hands."

"Millie, I can't bear to have Belle placed in one of the crowded

city cemeteries. Would you not be willing to have her sleep in our

tree-shadowed graveyard at Forestville? We could keep flowers on

her grave there as long as we lived."

"Oh, Roger, how kind of you to think of that! It would be such a

comfort to us!"

"I will take her there myself on the evening boat," he said

decisively, and he hastened away feeling that he must act promptly,

for his aching head and limbs led him to fear that Belle's fever

was already in his veins. Mr. Wentworth overflowed with sympathy,

and hastened to the afflicted family with nourishing delicacies.

Mrs. Wheaton soon followed, tearful and regretful.

"I didn't know," she said; "I've 'ad a sick child or I'd a been

hover before. Not 'earing from you I thought hall vas veil, and

there's the poor dear dead, an' I might 'ave done so much for 'er."

"No, Mrs. Wheaton, all was done that could be done in this poisoned

air. We feared you might catch the fever if you came, and we knew

you would come."

"Hindeed I vould, if you hall 'ad the small-pox. Now I'm going to

do heverything," and she fretted at every effort of the exhausted

watchers to help her.

Eoger telegraphed his father to meet him at the boat with the

village hearse. The news spread fast, and the little community was

soon deeply stirred with sympathetic interest. Mrs. Jocelyn was

too weak to endure the journey, and Mildred would not leave her.

Therefore Mr. Wentworth held a simple, heartfelt service over the

one they all so loved, and Roger departed on his sad errand. He

was eager to get away, and, if the thought of Belle had not been

uppermost in all minds, it would have been seen that he was far from

well in spite of his almost desperate efforts to hide his illness.

His father found him on the boat delirious with fever. The old man's

face was haggard and drawn as he returned to Forestville with his

two helpless burdens, grieving far more for the one that was ill

than for the one that was dead. "It's turning out just as brother

Ezra said," he growled. "A man's a fool to mix himself up with

other people's troubles." The interest in the village deepened into

strong excitement when it became known that Roger was ill with the

fever that had caused Belle's death, some timid ones fearing that

a pestilence would soon be raging in their midst. But the great

majority yielded to their good impulses, and Mrs. Atwood was

overwhelmed with offers of assistance. Several young farmers to

whom Belle had given a heartache a few weeks before volunteered to

watch beside her until the funeral, and there was a deeper ache in

their hearts as they sat reverently around the fair young sleeper.

The funeral was a memorable one in Forestville, for the most callous

heart was touched by the pathos of the untimely death.

Meanwhile poor Roger was tossing in fever and muttering constantly

of his past life. The name, however, oftenest on his lips was that

of Millie Jocelyn.

Never before in all the troubled past did the poor girl so need his

sustaining love as on the night he left her. Mr. Wentworth spent

an hour with the sad mother and daughter after the others had gone,

and then sorrowfully departed, saying that he had an engagement out

of town, and that he would come again immediately on his return.

Mrs. Wheaton had gone home, promising that she would come back in

the evening and spend the night with them, for she had a neighbor

who would take care of the children, and so at last the two stricken

women were left alone.

Mildred was bathing her mother's head and trying to comfort her

when the door opened, and a haggard, unkempt man stood before them.

For a second they looked at him in vague terror, for he stood in

a deep shadow, and then Mrs. Jocelyn cried, "Martin! Martin!" and

tears came to her relief at last.

He approached slowly and tremblingly. Mildred was about to throw

herself into his arms, but he pushed her away. His manner began to

fill them with a vague, horrible dread, for he acted like a spectre

of a man.

"Where are the children?" he asked hoarsely.

"We have sent them to the country. Oh, papa, do be kind and

natural--you will kill mamma."

"There is crape on the door-knob," he faltered. "Where's Belle?"

"Oh, oh, oh!" sobbed Mildred, "Papa, papa, have mercy on us. Can't

you sustain and help us at such a time as this?"

"She is dead, then," he whispered, and he sank into a chair as if

struck down.

"Yes, she's dead. You were the first one she asked for when she

came out of her fever."

"Great God! my punishment is greater than I can bear," he groaned.

"Oh, Martin," pleaded his wife, "come to me," and too weak to rise

from her couch she held out her arms to him.

He looked at her with a remorse and agony in his expression that

were indescribable. "No, Nan," he said, "I'm not fit for you to

touch now. I'm murdering you all," and he went hastily to his room

and locked the door.

They waited, scarcely breathing in their deep apprehension.

In a few moments he came out, and his face was rigid and desperate

in its aspect. In spite of his repelling gesture Mildred clasped

him in her arms. The embrace seemed to torture him. "Let me go!"

he cried, breaking away. "I poison the very air I breathe. You both

are like angels of heaven and I--O God! But the end has come," and

he rushed out into the gathering darkness. Mrs. Jocelyn tried to

follow him, and fell prostrate with a despairing cry on the floor.

Mildred's first impulse was to restore her mother, without seeking

help, in the faint hope that her father would return, for she had

learned what strange alternations of mood opium produces; but as the

sense of his words grew clearer she was overpowered, and trembled

so violently that she was compelled to call to her help a neighbor--a

plain, good-hearted woman who lived on the same floor. When at

last Mrs. Jocelyn revived she murmured piteously:

"Oh, Millie, why didn't you let me die?"

"Mamma," pleaded the girl, "how can you even think of leaving me?"

"Millie, Millie darling, I fear I must. My heart feels as if it were

bleeding internally. Millie"--and she grasped her child's shoulder

convulsively, "Millie, look in his room for--for--his pistol."

"Oh, mamma, mamma!"

"Look, look!" said her mother excitedly. "I can't bear the suspense."

Thinking that her mother was a little hysterical, and that compliance

would quiet her, Mildred went to the place where her father always

kept his cavalry revolver--the one memento left of his old heroic

army life. IT WAS GONE!

She almost sank to the floor in terror, nor did she dare return to

her mother.

"Millie, Millie, quick!" came in a faint cry from the outer room.

The poor girl rushed forward and buried her face in her mother's

bosom, sobbing, "Mamma, oh mamma, live for my sake."

"I knew it, I knew it," said the stricken wife, with a long low

cry. "I saw it in his desperate face. Oh, Martin, Martin, we will

die together!"

She clasped Mildred tightly, trembled convulsively a moment, and

then her arms fell back, and she was as still as poor Belle had

been.

"Oh, mamma!" Mildred almost shrieked, but she was far beyond recall,

and the suffering heart was at rest.

When the woman returned with the cup of tea she had gone to

prepare for Mrs. Jocelyn, she found the young girl leaning forward

unconscious on the bosom of the dead mother.

When she revived it was only to moan and wring her hands in despair.

Mrs. Wheaton soon appeared, and having learned what had happened

she threw her apron over her head and rocked back and forth in her

strong sympathetic grief. But her good heart was not long content

with tears, and she took Mildred into her arms and said:

"I vill be a mother to you, and you shall never vant a 'ome vile I

'ave von," and the motherless girl clung to her in a way that did

the kind soul a world of good.

Before the evening was very far advanced a boy brought a note to

the door. Mildred seized it and asked:

"Who gave it to you?"

"I don't know--a man. He pointed to this door, and then he went

away very fast."

She tore it open, and read in horror: "My darling wife, dear beyond

all words in these my final despairing moments. My love for you

and those left is the only trace of good remaining in my heart. I

die for your sakes. My continued existence would be a curse, for

I have lost my manhood. I am possessed by a devil that I can't

control. I cannot ask you to forgive me. I can never forgive

myself. Farewell. After I am gone, brighter days will come to you

all. Pity me if you can, forgive me if you can, and remember me as

I was before--" And there the terrible missive ended.

For an hour the girl lay moaning as if in mortal pain, and then

the physician who was summoned gave her a sedative which made her

sleep long and heavily. It was quite late in the morning when she

awoke, and the events that had passed first came to her like a

horrid dream, and then grew into terrible reality. But she was not

left to meet the emergency alone, for Mrs. Wheaton and Clara Wilson

watched beside her. The latter in her strong sympathy had come to

the city to take Mildred and her mother to the country, and she

said to Mrs. Wheaton that she would now never leave her friend

until she was in the breezy farm-house.

After a natural outburst of grief Mildred again proved that Arnold's

estimate of her was correct. She was equal to even this emergency,

for she eventually grew quiet and resolute. "I must find papa,"

she said.

"Shall I?" Mrs. Wilson asked Mrs. Wheaton significantly.

"Yes, Millie is more hof a soldier than hany hof us."

"Well," continued Mrs. Wilson, "Mrs. Wheaton found this in the

morning paper: 'An unknown man committed suicide on the steps of

No. 73----Street. His remains have been taken to the Morgue for

identification.'"

For a few moments Mildred so trembled and looked so crushed that

they feared for her exceedingly. "Poor papa!" she moaned, "he was

just insane from remorse and opium. Seventy-three----Street! Why,

that was the house in which we used to live. It was there that papa

spent his first happy years in this city, and it was there he went

to die. Oh, how dreadful, how inexpressibly sad it all is! What

shall we do?"

"Leave hall to me," said Mrs. Wheaton. "Mrs. Wilson, you stay 'ere

with the poor dear, an' I'll hattend to heverything."

Mildred was at last too overpowered to do more than lie on the

lounge, breathing in long tremulous sighs.

Mrs. Wheaton went at once to the Morgue and found that the "unknown

man" was indeed Mr. Jocelyn, and yet he had so changed, and a

bullet-hole in his temple had given him such a ghastly appearance,

that it was difficult to realize that he was the handsome, courtly

gentleman who had first brought his beautiful daughter to the old

mansion.

Mrs. Wheaton represented to the authorities that he was very poor,

that his daughter was an orphan and overcome with grief, and that

she now was the nearest friend of the afflicted girl. Her statement

was accepted, and then with her practical good sense she attended

to everything.

During her absence Mildred had sighed, "Oh, I do so wish that Eoger

Atwood were here. He gives me hope and courage when no one else

can."

"Millie," said Mrs. Wilson tearfully, "for his sake you must rally

and be braver than you have ever been before. I think his life now

depends upon you. He has the fever, and in his delirium he calls

for you constantly."

At first Mrs. Wilson thought the shock of her tidings would be more

disastrous to the poor girl, already so unnerved and exhausted,

than all the terrible events which had thus far occurred. "I have

brought him nothing but suffering and misfortune," she cried. "He

gave up everything for us, and now we may cost him his life."

"Millie, he is not dead, and you, if any one, can bring him life."

She had touched the right chord, for the young girl soon became

quiet and resolute. "He never failed me," she said in a low voice,

"and I won't fail him."

"That is the right way to feel," said Mrs. Wilson eagerly. "I now

think that everything depends on your courage and fortitude. Mrs.

Wheaton and I have planned it all out. We'll go to Forestville on

the evening boat, and take your father's and mother's remains with

us."

Mrs. Wheaton learned from the undertaker connected with Mr. Wentworth's

chapel that the clergyman would not be back until evening, and she

told the former to tell their pastor all that had occurred, and to

ask him to keep the circumstances of Mr. Jocelyn's death as quiet

as possible.

The man was discreet and energetic, and they were all so expeditious

that the evening saw them with their sad freight on the way to

Forestville, the keys of Mildred's rooms having been left with the

kind woman who had befriended her in the sudden and awful emergency.

Mrs. Wheaton parted from Mildred as if she were her own child,

and went mournfully back to her busy, useful life. Mr. and Mrs.

Jocelyn were buried with a quiet, simple service beside poor Belle,

and sensible Mrs. Wilson soon inspired the good-hearted village

people with the purpose to spare the feelings of the stricken girl

in every possible way. Mildred caressed her little brother and sister

with the tenderness of a mother added to her sisterly affection,

and she was comforted to see how much they had already improved

in the pure country air. "Oh, Clara," she said, "what a friend you

have been to me! God alone can repay you."

"Millie," Mrs. Wilson earnestly replied, "I owe you a debt I can

never pay. I owe you and darling Belle happiness and prosperity for

this life, and my hope of the life to come. My husband is strong

and prosperous, and he says J shall do all that's in my heart for

you. Oh, Millie, he is so good to me, and he cried over Belle like

a child. I thought I loved him before, but when I saw those tears

I just worshipped him. He has a man's heart, like Roger. Now,

Millie, I'm going to keep these children as long as you'll let me,

and treat them as my own. I feel that the promise has been given

to me that they'll grow up to be a great comfort to us both."

On the evening after the funeral Mildred went to aid in the care

of Roger, and Mrs. Atwood greeted her with all the warmth and

tenderness that a daughter would have received. Even Mr. Atwood

drew his sleeve across his eyes as he said, "If you'll help us save

our boy, you'll find that I'm not as crabbed and crooked a stick

as I seem."

Mildred was shocked and her heart chilled with fear at the change

in Roger, but her hand upon his brow and her voice did more to

quiet him than all the physician's remedies. She became his almost

tireless watcher, and she said hopefully that the bracing autumn

winds rustled around the farmhouse like the wings of ministering

angels, and that they would bring life and health to the fever-stricken

man. They all wondered at her endurance, for while she looked so

frail she proved herself so strong. At last the crisis came, as it

had in Belle's case, but instead of waking to die he passed from

delirium into a quiet sleep, Mildred holding his hand, and when he

opened his eyes with the clear glance of intelligence, they first

looked upon her dear face. "Millie," he whispered.

She put her fingers upon her lips, smiled, and said, "I won't leave

you if you will be good and do all I say. You never failed me yet,

Roger, and you must not now."

"I'll surely get well if you stay with me, Millie," he answered

contentedly, and soon he slept again as quietly as a child.

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