PAULINE
"A conspicuous flower,
Whom he had sensibility to love,
Ambition to attempt and skill to win."
Thus the next day and for many days to come Ringfield met the lady of
his dreams at breakfast and at dinner; her third meal was served
privately to her in her own room at a quarter to seven, and he wondered
why until he remembered her vocation. Though at present not acting she
evidently retained the habits of the profession, and for the first few
days she continued to wear the scarlet silken and spangled drapery in
which she had left the theatre, modified by different wraps and
scarves; then a trunk arrived and she appeared more discreetly and
soberly clad. One evening it became unusually warm for the season, and
stepping out on his balcony he perceived her seated on hers; he
returned her gracious and encouraging salutation, wholly different from
the self-conscious manner she affected at the dining-table, and he
hoped now to be able to take up the acquaintance where it had been
dropped. For his part he meant to ignore that miserable story of
Crabbe's; he would treat her as the lady she was and the sincere,
much-tried creature he thought her. Her mood just now chanced to be
charming, and as she rose, again wearing the gay dress of the theatre,
which showed her throat and elbows in their perfection, Ringfield, even
with his slight experience, knew that she was beautiful. That same
Nature which was so forced upon his notice in his new resting-place was
strong within him this evening, and he could not refuse to harbour
certain natural impulses of admiration and delight, especially as she
was unusually animated in voice, expression and gesture.
"Do you not think it dreadful, Mr. Ringfield, that poor Mme. Poussette
is alone with my brother all this time? Should I not be there too and
take my share in some way? Oh, not in this dress of course; I
understand your look. I have only put this on because it is cooler
than any other I have with me. See--I have pinned up the train around
me! I must not scandalize the country-folk! I may tell you this--the
people of the village think me very peculiar. In their opinion I might
mend my manners."
"Oh, _their_ opinion!" came from Ringfield with a smile.
"Well, even here, even in St. Ignace, there is a standard, you see."
"Of manners? Yes, I suppose so. And of morality, let us hope."
"You are not certain? What have you found out, what departure from the
standard in other places? _Mon--Dieu_! I hope not--you are thinking
of Montreal and the Hotel-Champlain!"
"The chief vice I have encountered here," returned Ringfield firmly,
"is drink, and as a result other things connected with it, ensuing
naturally."
Miss Clairville sat down suddenly, and as she did so her draperies
whorled about her till she looked like some crimson flower with her
dark head for its centre. "Oh!" she said under her breath, "surely
there are worse things than drink!" Some latent emotion betrayed
itself in her voice; small wonder, he thought, if Crabbe were really
anything to her.
"Certainly there are, but they are easier to deal with. There is my
difficulty, for I know I am going to find it very difficult to make an
impression, to work any lasting reform here."
"And you wish to?"
"I wish to if I can."
"I thought at first you were only a preacher."
He laughed. "Only a preacher! That conveys a great deal. You must
have but a poor idea of my vocation, of the saving grace and special
power of all true religion."
"Religion! But if religion can do so much, why would not Father Rielle
succeed as well as you?"
"Ah! there you have a problem, I admit. Perhaps, however, he has been
here too long; perhaps he is accustomed to the situation and is not so
deeply impressed by it. Besides, I am not so much concerned with the
habits of the rough fellows we see about here; as far as I can judge,
the lumbermen, mill-hands, labourers, and people of the village are
remarkably sober, considering the temptations and loneliness of the
life and certain contingencies which prevail. For example, when you
take two or three dozen uneducated men and isolate them for months in a
lumber camp, or a mine, or send them to work on remote booms and rafts,
depriving them of all family ties and Christian influences, and
removing them from all standards of conduct and character, what wonder
that you are confronted by this grave problem?
"But I was not thinking of such cases. I was thinking rather of a
successful man like Poussette, good-hearted, respected by all who know
him, and yet so weak! So weak in this respect that he neglects his
business and allows himself to be led into disgrace and humiliation
by----"
"I never knew Mr. Poussette drank!" exclaimed Miss Clairville
hurriedly. "I am quite surprised. He is such a kind man and a friend
of Henry's, and Father Rielle thinks highly of him, although he no
longer attends his church."
Ringfield was now satisfied that she had broken into his speech
purposely to avoid the mention of the Englishman's name, but he
determined to stand his ground.
"I was about to say that while I blame Poussette for his weakness I
blame still more the individual who in my opinion has led him on.
Living in the neighbourhood so long you must recognize the man I mean."
Her attitude did not in the least change, nor was her gay mood
impaired, but she did not reply, and the silence was a challenge to him.
"I mean the unfortunate Englishman who runs that grocery and liquor
shack across the road, who calls himself a gentleman, Crabbe, the
guide. You know him?"
"I have seen him."
"You _know_ him?"
Surprised, she answered less brightly: "Yes, I know him."
"You knew him better perhaps years ago? You knew him when he was
master of himself, when he first came here. He is, he tells me, an
English university man, and in the course of our conversation one day
he quoted from 'In Memoriam' in the intervals of a semi-drunken
confession."
He now had all her attention; she tried to maintain her proud air, but
something was working in her to the exclusion of all coquetry, all
dissimulation.
"If you know him so well, why--why come to me for information? Of
course any one living here, as you say, must have met him."
"But he has spoken to me of you as if he knew you very well, as if----"
He could not continue, and even in her own uneasiness she felt a pity
and tenderness for him.
"Why do you bother yourself about us--about him, I mean? Or me. I
shall be going away soon, I hope; you will not remain all your life in
such a little place as St. Ignace; try and forget what he has said."
"I cannot. It is with me day and night. Tell me if it is true!"
"Why should I tell you?"
"Because I must know. Because, if a lie, such a tale must be traced
back from where it came--the black imagination of a depraved and
incorrigible villain. Because if true, if true----" his voice failed
him, and although it was now quite dark, Miss Clairville could detect
great excitement in his usually calm and pleasantly austere manner.
She leant to him over the balcony.
"But I cannot tell you here! I cannot go to you; will you then come to
me? There will be none upstairs at this hour in this house; they are
all gone to see the boat come in at the wharf. There is her whistle
now! Would you mind coming very much, Mr. Ringfield? Do you think it
wrong of me to ask you?"
"Wrong, Miss Clairville?"
"Improper, I mean. Even here there are the _convenances_, the
proprieties."
"Proprieties! When we are talking of our immortal souls and of our
hopes of salvation! When truth is at stake, your character, your
future perhaps--think if that had been told to anyone else!" he
exclaimed half to himself.
"Then you will come?" Miss Clairville's tone was full of a radiant
incredulity. She leant still farther towards him, and her eyes burned
into the surrounding darkness of the night.
"I will come at once. I--if I meet anyone I can say that I am calling
on you to hear about your brother."
She smiled, then frowned, in the dark. Would it be her lot to teach a
good man subtlety? Should she tell the truth? She had not long to
wait or think about it, for in five minutes Ringfield was knocking at
her door. Nothing subtle as yet looked forth from his earnest eyes,
and the grasp with which he took and held her hand was that of the
pastor rather than that of the lover, but the night was dark and
heavily warm, and although there were stars in the sky he did not look
at them. Jupiter was just rising, giving a large mellow light like a
house lamp, round and strong, and casting a shadow, but the fall of a
sable lock on Miss Clairville's white neck was already more to him.
They were soon seated side by side on the balcony. She had regained
something other usual manner.
"You must not think that I am ungrateful for your interest in me," she
said. "I believe that you are a good man, a Christian I suppose you
call yourself, outside and above all creed, all ritual, the first I
have ever met. No, I am not forgetting Father Rielle. He did the best
he could for me, and Henry and others, but I could never follow the
rules of the Romish Church, although born and bred a Catholic. With
grand music one might stay in that communion, but not as our service is
rendered here. And then, the confession! That is all right when you
have nothing to confess, but not for me! Oh--Mr. Ringfield, why is it
I cannot confess to Father Rielle, but that I can or could to you?"
"Then that story is true?"
"What was the story? What did he say?"
They talked now in whispers, and Ringfield told her in four short and
to him abhorrent words. "He said--you were his wife."
Great was his relief when Pauline, starting from her seat, almost
screamed aloud her agitated reply.
"No, it is not true! I never married him. That is--at least--no, I
entirely deny it. I am _not_ his wife. I am _not_ married to him."
In his state of mind and inexperience he failed to notice the equivocal
nature of this denial. He heard the impassioned negatives; he saw
fear, resentment, and a sort of womanly repulsion in the frightened
gesture she flung upon the air, and what he wished to hear and prayed
to hear, that he heard. Crabbe then had deliberately lied perhaps,
considering his condition, he had only boastfully invented.
"Thank God!" he ejaculated, standing up and taking Miss Clairville's
finely formed white hand in both of his own. "Thank God!" he repeated,
and, with restored confidence and renewed enthusiasm in all good works,
he seized the opportunity to speak of what was in his heart. "Now you
must listen to me. I believe, I honestly believe, that by His all-wise
and all-knowing ruling I have been sent here to help you and be your
friend. That letter I wrote to you--you received it I know, for I
heard about it. I went West from a sense of duty. I was not required,
and again the sense of duty brought me back to St. Ignace and--you."
"Oh, not only me! You would have come back in any case. You say it
was Duty, not,--not----" Not Desire? If this were thought in some
vague and unapprehended shape, it was not spoken. Ringfield gave her
hand a strong and kindly pressure and let it fall.
"It was duty, yes, duty revealed to me by my Maker, to serve and obey
whom is not only my duty but my whole desire and pleasure."
"You really mean what you say in telling me this? It sounds like
things we read, like the little books they gave us at Sorel-en-haut.
_Mon Dieu_! but those little books! And one big one there was, a
story-book about a girl, all about a girl. A girl called Ellen, Ellen
something, I have forgotten."
"That must have been 'The Wide, Wide World'. And you read that while
you were at school!"
"Yes, when I was a young girl. I am afraid it didn't do me much good."
These interchanges of simple talk marked the progress of their
friendship. Any fact about her past or present life, no matter how
trivial, was of astonishing interest to him. And to her, the knowledge
that she was already and swiftly, passionately, purely dear to a being
of Ringfield's earnest mould and serious mien, so different to the
other man who had come into her life, gave a sense of delicious triumph
and joy. They continued to talk thus, in accents growing momentarily
more tender, of many things connected with her youth and his calling,
and the fact that they kept their voices down so intimately low lent
additional zest and delight to the situation. Only when Ringfield
alluded directly to Edmund Crabbe did she show uneasiness.
"You must give me the right to settle this affair with him," said her
visitor. "We cannot risk such statements being made to people of the
village, to such a man as Poussette, for example."
"Oh--Poussette!" Miss Clairville found it possible and even pleasant
now to laugh. "Do you not know then all about Mr. Poussette? He is in
love with me, too, or so he says. Yes, I have had a great deal of
bother with him. That poor Mme. Poussette! It is not enough that one
is faded and worn and has lost one's only little child, but one must
also be _wished dead_, out of the way by one's husband. Ah--you are
startled, _mais c'est la belle verité_! It is a good thing to be a
clergyman, like you, Mr. Ringfield; you are removed from all these
_bétises_, all these foolish imaginings. You do your work and look
neither to the right nor the left. How I wish I were like you! I only
pray, for I do pray sometimes, that no thought of me will ever darken
your young and ardent life; I only hope that no care for me will ever
turn you aside from your plain duty."
"Do not, please," broke in Ringfield, pushing back his chair so loudly
that she was obliged to beg more caution, "use that tone to me.
Twenty-six is not so very young. I should have spoken and felt as I
feel and as I speak when I was twenty. So Poussette is added to your
list of admirers! Will it be Father Rielle himself next, I wonder?
Oh, Miss Clairville--I was right! The theatre is no place for you. I
ask you to leave it, to forsake it for ever. This your opportunity.
Do not go back to it. I do not, it is true, know anything about it
from actual experience, but I can gather that it presents, must
present, exceptional temptations. Will you not be guided by me? Will
you not take and act upon my advice?"
"But the special troubles that beset me are here, not within the
theatre! If Poussette is silly, with his ridiculous attentions when he
thinks his wife is not looking, if the other person, if----"
"You mean this man Crabbe?"
She inclined her head; at the mention of the name all spirit seemed to
die out of her.
"If he maligns me, slanders and lies about me, that is here--here at
St. Ignace, and not at the theatre. Why, then, do you expect me to
return here for good? I come back too often as it is. I should leave
here altogether, but that some influence, some fate, always draws me
back."
"Whose influence? for with fate I will have nothing to do. God and a
man's self--with these we front the world, the flesh, and the Devil.
Crabbe's evil influence still! You knew him when he called himself by
another name?"
"Yes, Mr. Edmund Hawtree. We, we---- I suppose you would call it a
flirtation. He was very different then, as you may believe."
Jealousy leapt into Ringfield's breast, the first he had ever known,
and a common retort sprang to his lips.
"I should hope so! I cannot bear to think of your having known him
well under any circumstances. The man is low! Whether drunk or sober
he has nothing to commend him, and I believe him to be utterly
irreclaimable and lost."
"In this world perhaps. But not necessarily in the next? Do you
decline, then, to continue the work of reformation?"
He winced, and upon recalling what he had said saw his error. "No, I
retract that. He is human, therefore a soul to be saved, as one of
God's creatures, but whether the man can be reinstated in society is a
doubtful matter. You are right to defend him, and I am sad only when I
grudge you those memories of him. You knew him then so very well?"
She understood the pleading tone and she endeavoured to be candid, but
how explain certain things to a man of Ringfield's calibre? To
another, a glance, a smile, the inflection of a word, of a syllable,
and all would be clear. How was she to frame an explanation which
should receive his tacit and grave but unenlightened approval? How far
he could conjecture, disassociate, dissect, limit and analyse, weigh
and deduct, the various progresses in a crude amalgamation people call
Love, she did not know, and there lay her difficulty.
"I will tell you what I can. I was quite young when I met Mr. Hawtree,
'Crabbe,' as he is now known. It is his second name. He had been
unfortunate in money affairs, I understood, and had not been trained to
any kind of work. It was after I returned from Sorel that I found him
here. He frequently came to visit Henry; they described themselves as
gentlemen together, and I suppose they were not wise company for one
another, but at first I did not take any notice. He fell in love with
me, and talked a great deal to me, improving my English as he called
it, and you can understand how little opportunity I had had of reading
or continuing my studies. I have no talent for the _ménage_; besides,
Henry's methods had been long in practice, and I could not unchange
them, at the age of nineteen! Mr. Hawtree and I were thus thrown very
much together, yet one thing kept occurring which made me very
miserable. I found out that he was drinking, and Henry too! Then
another thing--my bad temper. Ah! how I suffered, suffered, in those
days with that man, Mr. Ringfield!"
"I can well believe it."
"And he with me! Perhaps some other kind of woman would have suited
him better, a timid, angelic, gentle little being who would have
appealed to him more. When we quarrelled he grew like all you English,
haughty and sneering--ah! when I think of it! And I changed to a
fury--the Clairville temper--and gave back even more, even worse, than
I got. But do not let us talk any more about it! You have discovered
what I would have hidden, and for my part I get on better when I make
myself forget it and him altogether."
He was silent; new and conflicting ideas clashed in his brain, while
very close to him in the warm, fragrant night sat this alluring, sorely
tried and lonely creature, who soon found the silence insupportable.
To keep talking was safe; to be long silent impossible, since they
seemed to draw nearer and nearer with every moment, and soon it would
either be Ringfield's hand upon that dark lock he perceived adorning
her white neck, or her head with its crown of hair stealing tenderly
towards his shoulder. From such a precipitation of events they were
saved by timely recollection of their position and the sounds which
reached them from the road. The boat was leaving again, and they knew
they had been thus together for an hour. Ringfield rose.
"There is now only the man himself to be seen and made to understand
that such stories about you must cease. I shall speak to him at once,
to-night perhaps, certainly to-morrow."
At this she quailed and could not control herself; she laid her hands
on his arm and all the delicate art of the actress was called upon to
assist her pleading.
"Oh!" she cried, "do you not see that it is better left alone? You
take my word--you take my word of honour with you this night--I was
never married to that man. Let it rest there. Do not speak with him
about me. I could not bear it! I should be so ill, so worried, so
unhappy. We scarcely see each other now; let it all be dropped and
forgotten. He--he--exaggerated, forgets---- Oh! I do not know how to
put it, but you must not speak of it. He did not know what he was
saying, you know that yourself."
"That was what I thought at first, certainly."
They remained standing; eye on eye and her firm hands still clasping
his arm. "You will promise me?"
He reflected a moment and then gave her his promise.
"On this condition, that if he speaks of it again, to my knowledge, to
anyone, anywhere, I must then confront him and prove it a lie on your
own showing."
Miss Clairville, only too glad to have gained her point, readily
acceded, and Ringfield at once withdrew, fortunately without meeting
anyone on the stairs or verandah. And now once more for him prospects
were partly fair. Pauline's denial satisfied him; easily deceived on
such a score, he knew nothing of intermediate stages of unlicensed and
unsanctified affection. In his opinion women were either good or bad,
married or unmarried, and to find this coveted one free was enough.
The problem was how to manage the future; whether he would ever be in a
position to marry, for it had come to that, and whether Miss Clairville
would consent to leave the stage; as far as he was concerned the sooner
the better.