Our young woman accepted the expression. "He doesn't funk."

It only, however, half contented Fanny, who thoughtfully raised

her eyebrows. "He's prodigious; but what is there--as you've

'fixed' it--TO dodge? Unless," she pursued, "it's her getting

near him; it's--if you'll pardon my vulgarity--her getting AT

him. That," she suggested, "may count with him."

But it found the Princess prepared. "She can get near him here.

She can get 'at' him. She can come up."

"CAN she?" Fanny Assingham questioned.

"CAN'T she?" Maggie returned.

Their eyes, for a minute, intimately met on it; after which the

elder woman said: "I mean for seeing him alone."

"So do I," said the Princess.

At which Fanny, for her reasons, couldn't help smiling. "Oh, if

it's for THAT he's staying--!"

"He's staying--I've made it out--to take anything that comes or

calls upon him. To take," Maggie went on, "even that." Then she

put it as she had at last put it to herself. "He's staying for

high decency."

"Decency?" Mrs. Assingham gravely echoed.

"Decency. If she SHOULD try--!"

"Well--?" Mrs. Assingham urged.

"Well, I hope--!"

"Hope he'll see her?"

Maggie hesitated, however; she made no direct reply. "It's

useless hoping," she presently said. "She won't. But he ought

to." Her friend's expression of a moment before, which had been

apologised for as vulgar, prolonged its sharpness to her ear--

that of an electric bell under continued pressure. Stated so

simply, what was it but dreadful, truly, that the feasibility of

Charlotte's "getting at" the man who for so long had loved her

should now be in question? Strangest of all things, doubtless,

this care of Maggie's as to what might make for it or make

against it; stranger still her fairly lapsing at moments into a

vague calculation of the conceivability, on her own part, with

her husband, of some direct sounding of the subject. Would it be

too monstrous, her suddenly breaking out to him as in alarm at

the lapse of the weeks: "Wouldn't it really seem that you're

bound in honour to do something for her, privately, before they

go?" Maggie was capable of weighing the risk of this adventure

for her own spirit, capable of sinking to intense little

absences, even while conversing, as now, with the person who had

most of her confidence, during which she followed up the

possibilities. It was true that Mrs. Assingham could at such

times somewhat restore the balance--by not wholly failing to

guess her thought. Her thought, however, just at present, had

more than one face--had a series that it successively presented.

These were indeed the possibilities involved in the adventure of

her concerning herself for the quantity of compensation that Mrs.

Verver might still look to. There was always the possibility that

she WAS, after all, sufficiently to get at him--there was in fact

that of her having again and again done so. Against this stood

nothing but Fanny Assingham's apparent belief in her privation--

more mercilessly imposed, or more hopelessly felt, in the actual

relation of the parties; over and beyond everything that, from

more than three months back, of course, had fostered in the

Princess a like conviction. These assumptions might certainly be

baseless--inasmuch as there were hours and hours of Amerigo's

time that there was no habit, no pretence of his accounting for;

inasmuch too as Charlotte, inevitably, had had more than once, to

the undisguised knowledge of the pair in Portland Place, been

obliged to come up to Eaton Square, whence so many of her

personal possessions were in course of removal. She didn't come

to Portland Place--didn't even come to ask for luncheon on two

separate occasions when it reached the consciousness of the

household there that she was spending the day in London. Maggie

hated, she scorned, to compare hours and appearances, to weigh

the idea of whether there hadn't been moments, during these days,

when an assignation, in easy conditions, a snatched interview, in

an air the season had so cleared of prying eyes, mightn't

perfectly work. But the very reason of this was partly that,

haunted with the vision of the poor woman carrying off with such

bravery as she found to her hand the secret of her not being

appeased, she was conscious of scant room for any alternative

image. The alternative image would have been that the secret

covered up was the secret of appeasement somehow obtained,

somehow extorted and cherished; and the difference between the

two kinds of hiding was too great to permit of a mistake.

Charlotte was hiding neither pride nor joy--she was hiding

humiliation; and here it was that the Princess's passion, so

powerless for vindictive flights, most inveterately bruised its

tenderness against the hard glass of her question.

Behind the glass lurked the WHOLE history of the relation she had

so fairly flattened her nose against it to penetrate--the glass

Mrs. Verver might, at this stage, have been frantically tapping,

from within, by way of supreme, irrepressible entreaty. Maggie

had said to herself complacently, after that last passage with

her stepmother in the garden of Fawns, that there was nothing

left for her to do and that she could thereupon fold her hands.

But why wasn't it still left to push further and, from the point

of view of personal pride, grovel lower?--why wasn't it still

left to offer herself as the bearer of a message reporting to him

their friend's anguish and convincing him of her need?

She could thus have translated Mrs. Verver's tap against the

glass, as I have called it, into fifty forms; could perhaps have

translated it most into the form of a reminder that would pierce

deep. "You don't know what it is to have been loved and broken

with. You haven't been broken with, because in your RELATION what

can there have been, worth speaking of, to break? Ours was

everything a relation could be, filled to the brim with the wine

of consciousness; and if it was to have no meaning, no better

meaning than that such a creature as you could breathe upon it,

at your hour, for blight, why was I myself dealt with all for

deception? why condemned after a couple of short years to find

the golden flame--oh, the golden flame!--a mere handful of black

ashes?" Our young woman so yielded, at moments, to what was

insidious in these foredoomed ingenuities of her pity, that for

minutes together, sometimes, the weight of a new duty seemed to

rest upon her--the duty of speaking before separation should

constitute its chasm, of pleading for some benefit that might be

carried away into exile like the last saved object of price of

the emigre, the jewel wrapped in a piece of old silk and

negotiable some day in the market of misery.

This imagined service to the woman who could no longer help

herself was one of the traps set for Maggie's spirit at every

turn of the road; the click of which, catching and holding the

divine faculty fast, was followed inevitably by a flutter, by a

struggle of wings and even, as we may say, by a scattering of

fine feathers. For they promptly enough felt, these yearnings of

thought and excursions of sympathy, the concussion that couldn't

bring them down--the arrest produced by the so remarkably

distinct figure that, at Fawns, for the previous weeks, was

constantly crossing, in its regular revolution, the further end

of any watched perspective. Whoever knew, or whoever didn't,

whether or to what extent Charlotte, with natural business in

Eaton Square, had shuffled other opportunities under that cloak,

it was all matter for the kind of quiet ponderation the little

man who so kept his wandering way had made his own. It was part

of the very inveteracy of his straw hat and his white waistcoat,

of the trick of his hands in his pockets, of the detachment of

the attention he fixed on his slow steps from behind his secure

pince-nez. The thing that never failed now as an item in the

picture was that gleam of the silken noose, his wife's immaterial

tether, so marked to Maggie's sense during her last month in the

country. Mrs. Verver's straight neck had certainly not slipped

it; nor had the other end of the long cord--oh, quite

conveniently long!--disengaged its smaller loop from the hooked

thumb that, with his fingers closed upon it, her husband kept out

of sight. To have recognised, for all its tenuity, the play of

this gathered lasso might inevitably be to wonder with what magic

it was twisted, to what tension subjected, but could never be to

doubt either of its adequacy to its office or of its perfect

durability. These reminded states for the Princess were in fact

states of renewed gaping. So many things her father knew that she

even yet didn't!

All this, at present, with Mrs. Assingham, passed through her in

quick vibrations. She had expressed, while the revolution of her

thought was incomplete, the idea of what Amerigo "ought," on his

side, in the premises, to be capable of, and then had felt her

companion's answering stare. But she insisted on what she had

meant. "He ought to wish to see her--and I mean in some protected

and independent way, as he used to--in case of her being herself

able to manage it. That," said Maggie with the courage of her

conviction, "he ought to be ready, he ought to be happy, he ought

to feel himself sworn--little as it is for the end of such a

history!--to take from her. It's as if he wished to get off

without taking anything."

Mrs. Assingham deferentially mused. "But for what purpose is it

your idea that they should again so intimately meet?"

"For any purpose they like. That's THEIR affair."

Fanny Assingham sharply laughed, then irrepressibly fell back to

her constant position. "You're splendid--perfectly splendid." To

which, as the Princess, shaking an impatient head, wouldn't have

it again at all, she subjoined: "Or if you're not it's because

you're so sure. I mean sure of HIM."

"Ah, I'm exactly NOT sure of him. If I were sure of him I

shouldn't doubt--!" But Maggie cast about her.

"Doubt what?" Fanny pressed as she waited.

"Well, that he must feel how much less than she he pays--and how

that ought to keep her present to him."

This, in its turn, after an instant, Mrs. Assingham could meet

with a smile. "Trust him, my dear, to keep her present! But trust

him also to keep himself absent. Leave him his own way."

"I'll leave him everything," said Maggie. "Only--you know it's my

nature--I THINK."

"It's your nature to think too much," Fanny Assingham a trifle

coarsely risked.

This but quickened, however, in the Princess the act she

reprobated. "That may be. But if I hadn't thought--!"

"You wouldn't, you mean, have been where you are?"

"Yes, because they, on their side, thought of everything BUT

that. They thought of everything but that I might think."

"Or even," her friend too superficially concurred, "that your

father might!"

As to this, at all events, Maggie discriminated. "No, that

wouldn't have prevented them; for they knew that his first care

would be not to make me do so. As it is," Maggie added, "that has

had to become his last."

Fanny Assingham took it in deeper--for what it immediately made

her give out louder. "HE'S splendid then." She sounded it almost

aggressively; it was what she was reduced to--she had positively

to place it.

"Ah, that as much as you please!"

Maggie said this and left it, but the tone of it had the next

moment determined in her friend a fresh reaction. "You think,

both of you, so abysmally and yet so quietly. But it's what will

have saved you."

"Oh," Maggie returned, "it's what--from the moment they

discovered we could think at all--will have saved THEM. For

they're the ones who are saved," she went on. "We're the ones who

are lost."

"Lost--?"

"Lost to each other--father and I" And then as her friend

appeared to demur, "Oh yes," Maggie quite lucidly declared, "lost

to each other much more, really, than Amerigo and Charlotte are;

since for them it's just, it's right, it's deserved, while for us

it's only sad and strange and not caused by our fault. But I

don't know," she went on, "why I talk about myself, for it's on

father it really comes. I let him go," said Maggie.

"You let him, but you don't make him."

"I take it from him," she answered.

"But what else can you do?"

"I take it from him," the Princess repeated. "I do what I knew

from the first I SHOULD do. I get off by giving him up."

"But if he gives you?" Mrs. Assingham presumed to object.

"Doesn't it moreover then," she asked, "complete the very purpose

with which he married--that of making you and leaving you more

free?"

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