CLARISSA WAITS.
When Patience and Clarissa had got to their own room on the night
on which they had walked back from Mrs. Brownlow's house to Popham
Villa,--during all which long walk Clarissa's hand had lain gently
upon Ralph Newton's arm,--the elder sister looked painfully and
anxiously into the younger's face, in order that, if it were
possible, she might learn without direct enquiry what had been said
during that hour of close communion. Had Ralph meant to speak there
could have been no time more appropriate. And Patience hardly knew
what she herself wished,--except that she wished that her sister
might have everything that was good and joyous and prosperous. There
was never a look of pain came across Clary's face, but Patience
suffered some touch of inner agony. This feeling was so strong that
she sympathised even with Clary's follies, and with Clary's faults.
She almost knew that it would not be well that Ralph Newton should be
encouraged as a lover,--brilliant as were his future prospects, and
dear, as he was personally to them all. He was a spendthrift, and
it might be that his fine prospects would all be wasted before they
were matured. And then their father would so probably disapprove!
And then, again, it was so wrong that Clary's peace should have been
disturbed and yet no word said to their father. There was much that
was wrong;--but still so absolute was her clinging love for Clary
that she longed above all things that Clary should be made happy.
When Ralph's brother had declared himself as a suitor,--which he
had done boldly to Sir Thomas, after but a short intimacy with the
family,--Patience had given him all her sympathy. Sir Thomas, having
looked at his circumstances, had made him welcome to the house, and
to his daughter's hand,--if he could win her heart. The stage had
been open to him, and Patience had been his most eager friend. But
all that had passed away,--and Clary had been obstinate. "Patty,"
she had said, with some little arrogance, "he has made a mistake.
He should have fallen in love with you." "Clergymen are as fond of
pretty girls as other men," Patty had said, with a smile. "And isn't
my Patty as pretty and as delicate as a primrose?" Clary had said,
embracing her sister. Pretty Patience Underwood was not;--but for
delicacy,--that with which Patience Underwood was gifted transcended
poor Clarissa's powers of comparison. So it was between them, and now
there was this acknowledged passion for the spendthrift!
Patience could see that her sister was not unhappy when she came in
from her walk,--was not moody,--was not heart-broken. And yet it had
seemed to her, before the walk began, while they were sauntering
about Mrs. Brownlow's garden, that Ralph had devoted himself entirely
to the new cousin, and that Clarissa had been miserable. Surely if he
had spoken during the walk,--if he had renewed his protestations of
love, if he were now regarded by Clary as her accepted lover, Clary
would not keep all this as a secret! It could not be that Clary
should have surrendered herself to a lover, and that their father
was to be allowed to remain in ignorance that it was so! And yet
how could it be otherwise if Clary was happy now,--Clary who had
acknowledged that she loved this man, and had now been leaning on
his arm for an hour beneath the moonlight? But Patience said not a
word. She could not bring herself to speak when speech might pain her
sister.
When they had been some half hour in bed, there stole a whisper
across the darkness of the chamber from one couch to the other;
"Patty, are you asleep?" Patience declared that she was wide awake.
"Then I'll come to you,"--and Clary's naked feet pattered across
the room. "I've just something to say, and I'll say it better here."
Patience made glad way for the intruder, and knew that now she would
hear it all. "Patty, it is better to wait."
"What do you mean, dear?"
"I mean this. I think he does like me; I'm almost sure he does."
"He said nothing to-night?"
"He said a great deal,--of course; but nothing about that;--nothing
about that exactly."
"Oh, Clary, I'm afraid of him."
"What is the good of fear? The evil is, dear, I think he likes me,
but it may so well be that he cannot speak out. He is in debt, and
all that;--and he must wait."
"But that is so terrible. What will you do?"
"I will wait too. I have thought about it, and have determined.
What's the good of loving a man if one won't go through something for
him? I do love him,--with all my heart. I pray God I may never have a
husband, if I cannot be his wife." Patience shuddered in her sister's
embrace, as these bold words were spoken with energy. "I tell you,
Patty, just as I tell myself, because you love me so dearly."
"I do love you;--oh, I do love you."
"I do not think it can be unmaidenly to tell the truth to you and
to myself. How can I help telling it to myself? There it is. I feel
that I could kiss the very ground on which he stands. He is my
hero, my Paladin, my heart, my soul. I have given myself to him for
everything. How can I help myself?"
"But, Clary,--you should repress this, not encourage it."
"It won't be repressed,--not in my own heart. But I will never,
never, never let him know that it has been so,--till he is all my
own. There may be a day when,--oh,--I shall tell him everything;
how wretched I was when he did not speak to me;--how broken-hearted
when I heard his voice with Mary; how fluttered, and half-happy,
and half-wretched when I found that I was to have that long walk
with him;--and then how I determined to wait. I will tell him
all,--perhaps,--some day. Good-night, dear, dear Patty. I could not
sleep without letting you know everything." Then she sprang out from
her sister's arms, and pattered back across the room to her own bed.
In two minutes Clarissa was asleep, but Patience lay long awake, and
before she slept her pillow was damp with her tears.
In the course of the following week Ralph was again at the villa. Sir
Thomas, as a matter of course, was away, but the three girls were at
home; and, as it happened, Miss Spooner had also come over to take
her tea with her friends. The hour that he spent there was passed
half indoors and half out, and certainly Ralph's attentions were
chiefly paid to Miss Bonner. Miss Bonner herself, however, was so
discreet in her demeanour, that no one could have suggested that any
approach had been made to flirtation. To tell the truth, Mary, who
had received no confidence from her cousin,--and who was a girl slow
to excite or give a confidence,--had seen some sign, or heard some
word which had created on her mind a suspicion of the truth. It was
not that she thought that Clary's heart was irrecoverably given to
the young man, but that there seemed to be just something with which
it might be as well that she herself should not interfere. She was
there on sufferance,--dependent on her uncle's charity for her daily
bread, let her uncle say what he might to the contrary. As yet she
hardly knew her cousins, and was quite sure that she was not known by
them. She heard that Ralph Newton was a man of fashion, and the heir
to a large fortune. She knew herself to be utterly destitute,--but
she knew herself to be possessed of great beauty. In her bosom,
doubtless, there was an ambition to win by her beauty, from some man
whom she could love, those good things of which she was so destitute.
She did not lack ambition, and had her high hopes, grounded on the
knowledge of her own charms. Her beauty, and a certain sufficiency
of intellect,--of the extent of which she was in a remarkable degree
herself aware,--were the gifts with which she had been endowed. But
she knew when she might use them honestly and when she ought to
refrain from using them. Ralph had looked at her as men do look who
wish to be allowed to love. All this to her was much more clearly
intelligible than to Clarissa, who was two years her senior. Though
she had seen Ralph but thrice, she already felt that she might have
him on his knees before her, if she cared so to place him. But there
was that suspicion of something which had gone before, and a feeling
that honour and gratitude,--perhaps, also, self-interest,--called
upon her to be cold in her manner to Ralph Newton. She had purposely
avoided his companionship in their walk home from Mrs. Brownlow's
house; and now, as they wandered about the lawn and shrubberies of
Popham Villa, she took care not to be with him out of earshot of
the others. In all of which there was ten times more of womanly
cleverness,--or cunning, shall we say,--than had yet come to the
possession of Clarissa Underwood.
Cunning she was;--but she did not deserve that the objectionable
epithet should be applied to her. The circumstances of her life had
made her cunning. She had been the mistress of her father's house
since her fifteenth year, and for two years of her life had had a
succession of admirers at her feet. Her father had eaten and drunk
and laughed, and had joked with his child's lovers about his child.
It had been through no merit of his that she had held her own among
them all without soiling either her name or her inner self. Captains
in West Indian regiments, and lieutenants from Queen's ships lying at
Spanish Point, had been her admirers. Proposals to marry are as ready
on the tongues of such men, out in the tropics, as offers to hand
a shawl or carry a parasol. They are soft-hearted, bold to face
the world, and very confident in circumstances. Then, too, they
are ignorant of any other way to progress with a flirtation which
is all-engrossing. In warm latitudes it is so natural to make an
offer after the fifth dance. It is the way of the people in those
latitudes, and seems to lead to no harm. Men and women do marry on
small incomes; but they do not starve, and the world goes on wagging.
Mary Bonner, however, whose father's rank had, at least, been higher
than that of her adorers, and who knew that great gifts had been
given to her, had held herself aloof from all this, and had early
resolved to bide her time. She was still biding her time,--with
patience sufficient to enable her to resist the glances of Ralph
Newton.
Clarissa Underwood behaved very well on this evening. She gave a
merry glance at her sister, and devoted herself to Miss Spooner. Mary
was so wise and so prudent that there was no cause for any great
agony. As far as Clary could see, Ralph had quite as much to say to
Patience as to Mary. For herself she had resolved that she would
wait. Her manner to him was very pretty,--almost the manner of
a sister to a brother. And then she stayed resolutely with Miss
Spooner, while Ralph was certainly tempting Mary down by the
river-side. It did not last long. He was soon gone, and Miss Spooner
had soon followed him.
"He is very amusing," Mary said, as soon as they were alone.
"Very amusing," said Patience.
"And uncommonly good-looking. Isn't he considered a very handsome man
here?"
"Yes;--I suppose he is," said Patience. "I don't know that I ever
thought much about that."
"Of course he is," said Clarissa. "Nobody can doubt about it. There
are some people as to whom it is as absurd not to admit that they are
handsome as it would be to say that a fine picture is not beautiful.
Ralph is one such person,--and of course I know another."
Mary would not seem to take the allusion, even by a smile. "I always
thought Gregory much nicer looking," said Patience.
"That must be because you are in love with him," said Clarissa.
"There is a speaking brightness, an eloquence, in his eyes; and a
softness of feeling in the expression of his face, which is above all
beauty," continued Patience, with energy.
"Here's poetry," said Clarissa. "Eloquence, and softness, and eyes,
and feeling, and expressive and speaking brightness! You'd better say
at once that he's a god."
"I wish I knew him," said Mary Bonner.
"You'll know him before long, I don't doubt. And when you do, you'll
know one of the best fellows in the world. I'll admit as much as
that; but I will not admit that he can be compared to his brother in
regard to good looks." In all which poor Clarissa, who had nothing to
console her but her resolve to wait with courage, bore herself well
and gallantly.
Soon after this there arrived at Popham Villa the note from Gregory
Newton. As it happened, Sir Thomas was at home on that morning, and
heard the tidings. "If young Mr. Newton does come, get him to dine,
and I will take care to be at home," said Sir Thomas. Patience
suggested that Ralph,--their own Ralph,--should be asked to meet him;
but to this Sir Thomas would not accede. "It is not our business to
make up a family quarrel," he said. "I have had old Mr. Newton with
me once or twice lately, and I find that the quarrel still exists as
strong as ever. I asked him to dine here, but he refused. His son
chooses to come. I shall be glad to see him."
Gregory's letter had not been shown to Sir Thomas, but it was, of
course, shown to Clarissa. "How could I help it?" said she. From
which it may be presumed that Patience had looked as though Gregory
had been hardly treated. "One doesn't know how it is, or why it
comes, or what it is;--or why it doesn't come. I couldn't have taken
Gregory Newton for my husband."
"And yet he had all things to recommend him."
"I wish he had asked you, Patty!"
"Don't say that, dear, because there is in it something that annoys
me. I don't think of myself in such matters, but I do hope to see you
the happy wife of some happy man."
"I hope you will, with all my heart," said Clary, standing up,--"of
one man, of one special, dearest, best, and brightest of all men. Oh
dear! And yet I know it will never be, and I wonder at myself that I
have been bold enough to tell you." And Patience, also, wondered at
her sister's boldness.
Ralph Newton,--Ralph from the Priory,--did come down to the villa,
and did accept the invitation to dinner which was given to him. The
event was so important that Patience found it necessary to go up
to London to tell her father. Mary went with her, desirous to see
something of the mysteries of Southampton Buildings, while Clarissa
remained at home,--waiting. After the usual skirmishes with Stemm,
who began by swearing that his master was not at home, they made
their way into Sir Thomas's library. "Dear, dear, dear; this is
a very awkward place to bring your cousin to," he said, frowning.
Mary would have retreated at once had it not been that Patience held
her ground so boldly. "Why shouldn't she come, papa? And I had to
see you. Mr. Newton is to dine with us to-morrow." To-morrow was
a Saturday, and Sir Thomas became seriously displeased. Why had a
Saturday been chosen? Saturday was the most awkward day in the world
for the giving and receiving of dinners. It was in vain that Patience
explained to him that Saturday was the only day on which Mr. Newton
could come, that Sir Thomas had given his express authority for the
dinner, and that no bar had been raised against Saturday. "You ought
to have known," said Sir Thomas. Nevertheless, he allowed them to
leave the chamber with the understanding that he would preside at
his own table on the following day. "Why is it that Saturday is so
distasteful to him?" Mary asked as they walked across Lincoln's Inn
Fields together.
Patience was silent for awhile, not knowing how to answer the
question, or how to leave it unanswered. But at last she preferred to
make some reply. "He does not like going to our church, I think."
"But you like it."
"Yes;--and I wish papa did. But he doesn't." Then there was a pause.
"Of course it must strike you as very odd, the way in which we live."
"I hope it is not I who drive my uncle away."
"Not in the least, Mary. Since mamma's death he has fallen into this
habit, and he has got so to love solitude, that he is never happy but
when alone. We ought to be grateful to him because it shows that he
trusts us;--but it would be much nicer if he would come home."
"He is so different from my father."
"He was always with you."
"Well;--yes; that is, I could be always with him,--almost always.
He was so fond of society that he would never be alone. We had a
great rambling house, always full of people. If he could see people
pleasant and laughing, that was all that he wanted. It is hard to say
what is best."
"Papa is as good to us as ever he can be."
"So was my papa good to me,--in his way; but, oh dear, the people
that used to come there! Poor papa! He used to say that hospitality
was his chief duty. I sometimes used to think that the world
would be much pleasanter and better if there was no such thing as
hospitality;--if people always eat and drank alone, and lived as
uncle does, in his chambers. There would not be so much money wasted,
at any rate."
"Papa never wastes any money," said Patience,--"though there never
was a more generous man."
Ralph Newton,--Ralph of the Priory,--came to dinner, and Miss Spooner
was asked to meet him. It might have been supposed that a party
so composed would not have been very bright, but the party at the
villa went off very satisfactorily. Ralph made himself popular with
everybody. He became very popular with Sir Thomas by the frank and
easy way in which he spoke of the family difficulties at Newton. "I
wish my namesake knew my father," he said, when he was alone with the
lawyer after dinner. He never spoke of either of these Newtons as his
cousins, though to Gregory, whom he knew well and loved dearly, he
would declare that from him he felt entitled to exact all the dues of
cousinship.
"It would be desirable," said Sir Thomas.
"I never give it up. You know my father, I dare say. He thought
his brother interfered with him, and I suppose he did. But a more
affectionate or generous man never lived. He is quite as fond of
Gregory as he is of me, and would do anything on earth that Gregory
told him. He is rebuilding the chancel of the church just because
Gregory wishes it. Some day I hope they may be reconciled."
"It is hard to get over money difficulties," said Sir Thomas.
"I don't see why there should be money difficulties," said Ralph. "As
far as I am concerned there need be none."
"Ralph Newton has made money difficulties," said Sir Thomas. "If
he had been careful with his own fortune there would have been no
question as to the property between him and your father."
"I can understand that;--and I can understand also my father's
anxiety, though I do not share it. It would be better that my
namesake should have the estate. I can see into these matters quite
well enough to know that were it to be mine there would occur exactly
that which my father wishes to avoid. I should be the owner of Newton
Priory, and people would call me Mr. Newton. But I shouldn't be
Newton of Newton. It had better go to Ralph. I should live elsewhere,
and people would not notice me then."
Sir Thomas, as he looked up at the young man, leaning back in his
arm-chair and holding his glass half full of wine in his hand, could
not but tell himself that the greater was the pity. This off-shoot
of the Newton stock, who declared of himself that he never could be
Newton of Newton, was a fine, manly fellow to look at,--not handsome
as was Ralph the heir, not marked by that singular mixture of
gentleness, intelligence, and sweetness which was written, not only
on the countenance, but in the demeanour and very step of Gregory;
but he was a bigger man than either of them, with a broad chest, and
a square brow, and was not without that bright gleam of the Newton
blue eye, which characterised all the family. And there was so much
of the man in him;--whereas, in manhood, Ralph the heir had certainly
been deficient. "Ralph must lie on the bed that he has made," said
Sir Thomas. "And you, of course, will accept the good things that
come in your way. As far as I can see at present it will be best for
Ralph that your father should redeem from him a portion, at least, of
the property. The girls are waiting for us to go out, and perhaps you
will like a cigar on the lawn."
It was clear to every one there to see that this other Newton greatly
admired the West Indian cousin. And Mary, with this newcomer, seemed
to talk on easier terms than she had ever done before since she had
been at Fulham. She smiled, and listened, and was gracious, and made
those pleasant little half-affected sallies which girls do make to
men when they know that they are admired, and are satisfied that it
should be so. All the story had been told to her, and it might be
that the poor orphan felt that she was better fitted to associate
with the almost nameless one than with the true heir of the family.
Mr. Newton, when he got up to leave them, asked permission to come
again, and left them all with a pleasant air of intimacy. Two boats
had passed them, racing on the river, almost close to the edge of
their lawn, and Newton had offered to bet with Mary as to which would
first reach the bridge. "I wish you had taken my wager, Miss Bonner,"
he said, "because then I should have been bound to come back at once
to pay you." "That's all very well, Mr. Newton," said Mary, "but I
have heard of gentlemen who are never seen again when they lose."
"Mr. Newton is unlike that, I'm sure," said Clary; "but I hope he'll
come again at any rate." Newton promised that he would, and was fully
determined to keep his promise when he made it.
"Wouldn't it be delightful if they were to fall in love with each
other and make a match of it?" said Clary to her sister.
"I don't like to plot and plan such things," said Patience.
"I don't like to scheme, but I don't see any harm in planning. He is
ever so nice,--isn't he?"
"I thought him very pleasant."
"Such an open-spoken, manly, free sort of fellow. And he'll be very
well off, you know."
"I don't know;--but I dare say he will," said Patience.
"Oh yes, you do. Poor Ralph, our Ralph, is a spendthrift, and I
shouldn't wonder if this one were to have the property after all.
And then his father is very rich. I know that because Gregory told
me. Dear me! wouldn't it be odd if we were all three to become Mrs.
Newtons?"
"Clary, what did I tell you?"
"Well; I won't. But it would be odd,--and so nice, at least I think
so. Well;--I dare say I ought not to say it. But then I can't help
thinking it,--and surely I may tell you what I think."
"I would think it as little as I could, dear."
"Ah, that's very well. A girl can be a hypocrite if she pleases,
and perhaps she ought. Of course I shall be a hypocrite to all
the world except you. I tell you what it is, Patty;--you make me
tell you everything, and say that of course you and I are to tell
everything,--and then you scold me. Don't you want me to tell you
everything?"
"Indeed I do;--and I won't scold you. Dear Clary, do I scold you?
Wouldn't I give one of my eyes to make you happy?"
"That's quite a different thing," said Clarissa.
Three days afterwards Mr. Ralph Newton;--it is hoped that the reader
may understand the attempts which are made to designate the two young
men;--Mr. Ralph Newton appeared again at Popham Villa. He came in
almost with the gait of an old friend, and brought some fern leaves,
which he had already procured from Hampshire, in compliance with a
promise which he had made to Patience Underwood. "That's what we
call the hart's tongue," said he, "though I fancy they give them all
different names in different places."
"It's the same plant as ours, Mr. Newton,--only yours is larger."
"It's the ugliest of all the ferns," said Clary.
"Even that's a compliment," said Newton. "It's no use transplanting
them in this weather, but I'll send you a basket in October. You
should come down to Newton and see our ferns. We think we're very
pretty, but because we're so near, nobody comes to see us." Then he
fell a-talking with Mary Bonner, and stayed at the villa nearly all
the afternoon. For a moment or two he was alone with Clarissa, and at
once expressed his admiration. "I don't think I ever saw such perfect
beauty as your cousin's," he said.
"She is handsome."
"And then she is so fair, whereas everybody expects to see dark eyes
and black hair come from the West Indies."
"But Mary wasn't born there."
"That doesn't matter. The mind doesn't travel back as far as that.
A negro should be black, and an American thin, and a French woman
should have her hair dragged up by the roots, and a German should be
broad-faced, and a Scotchman red-haired,--and a West Indian beauty
should be dark and languishing."
"I'll tell her you say so, and perhaps she'll have herself altered."
"Whatever you do, don't let her be altered," said Mr. Newton. "She
can't be changed for the better."
"I am quite sure he is over head and ears in love," said Clarissa to
Patience that evening.