THE LAIRD'S AWAKENING
"Yet to be loved makes not to love again;
Not at my years, however it hold in youth."
Tennyson.
MYSIE stayed with Rowena till the afternoon of the following day, and
very unwillingly departed. She had hardly gone before another visitor
was announced, and this was Mr. Crawford whom Rowena had met on the
loch with Angus. He was full of her accident, and told her they had
hardly got to the shore themselves before the storm burst upon them.
"Upon my honour, I'd half a mind to row back and look for your
remains," he said. "We felt convinced you would be upset, and then we
saw a small boat go to your rescue. Donald was beside himself till he
heard you were none the worse for your immersion. It was risky being
upon the loch a day like that."
"Yes, that pleasure is over," said Rowena regretfully. "I shall no
longer be able to enjoy my punt, for it is now a forbidden pastime. If
General Macdonald had not happened to be at hand, it would have been
all up with me."
"Oh, he's the laird of Abertarlie, isn't he? I was dining at the
Grants' yesterday evening, and he was under discussion. A Miss Falconer
amused us very much. It seems she is teaching a small girl of his—more
as a pastime than anything else. She's one of these modern women—you
should have heard her take him off! He has those old-fashioned
mid-Victorian ideas of women, and wants his small daughter patterned
after their style. Miss Falconer is the wrong sort of person to do
that. She's an awfully good sort. Have you met her?"
"Yes," said Rowena; "but I have not seen much of her."
"How do you get through your time? You must be bored stiff, aren't you?"
"No," said Rowena, smiling at him. "I lie here and watch the eternal
patience of the hills, and get a little of the spirit of Nature to
solace me. Look over the loch now, did you ever see such a play of
light and shade? I have a never-ending panorama passing before my eyes.
I am Highland to my heart's core. You don't know the magic of our lochs
and glens. In your eyes they are only places where you can fish and
shoot; to us they are something more."
"I believe that," said Mr. Crawford sincerely. "There's a look in
the eyes of the Highland folk that is peculiar to their part of the
country. They gaze at their burns and their braes—like a lad gazes at
his first love!"
Rowena nodded. "And then there's such history behind them all. You
see our moors lying peacefully under the summer sunshine; we see them
alive, and bristling with conflicts and battles—the glens trodden by
refugees fleeing from death, the caves sheltering heroes, the lochs
full of legends and romance. We feel the atmosphere of the past
impregnating that of the present, and we love every blade of grass that
grows! To you the moors hold deer and grouse; beyond that you do not
go!"
"We are just matter-of-fact butchers!" said Mr. Crawford with a laugh.
"Now will you, in spite of my inferiority to a Highlander, bestow upon
me that book on your deer forests? You promised me the loan of it."
"It is here waiting for you," said Rowena, putting out her hand upon a
small parcel which lay on her book table by her side, "but I should say
you get little time for reading now."
"That's a fact—but I like a smoke and read after dinner."
They chatted away in very friendly fashion, and when Mr. Crawford
departed he determined he would come again very soon, for all men liked
Rowena, and not even her invalidism could make her uninteresting to
them.
General Macdonald made his appearance very soon again.
"I am being drawn into society now against my will," he said; "the
Grants insist upon my going to dine with them next week. Lady Grant
met me out to-day and won't take a refusal. She and Miss Falconer came
in and had some tea. I don't often entertain visitors, but they are an
exception. My small girl did not show up. She seems to disapprove of
Miss Falconer visiting her in the holidays, and though I sent her a
message to make her appearance, I saw her flying across the lawn, and
she has not come back when I left. I must punish her for disobedience.
I am not going to have my orders set aside. But punishments are not in
my line. Give me advice."
"Oh, don't ask me," said Rowena; "you will think me too indulgent. I
should give Mysie a good scolding and tell her whether she liked a
thing or not, do it she must, if you wish her to. A talk is sometimes
more efficacious than a punishment. Children are reasonable creatures.
When I was small, punishments were too common! We hardly took any
notice of them—Ted and I!"
"Yes," said General Macdonald slowly; "but I find she often worsts me
in a talk. She is apt to be argumentative, and then I lose my temper.
I've a hot one, as I dare say you know; and I'm not accustomed to deal
with children."
"I want to read you a lovely legend about your house," said Rowena,
trying to turn the subject. "I got it out of a book Mr. Macintosh gave
me."
The General's brow cleared. He and Rowena were soon absorbed in their
local history. It was about six o'clock, and a slight mist was sweeping
down from the moor. Rowena was in her green room, as the air was damp
and cold. Suddenly they heard a pony gallop along the drive outside,
and the next moment Mysie dashed open the door in a state of wild
excitement: She looked greatly taken aback at the sight of her father,
but in her impulsive fashion threw herself upon Rowena.
"I've come to you to tell you! I had to! I won't believe it, and you
must stop it, my darling prisoner, oh, you'll know how to!"
"What is the matter?" asked Rowena, laughing, yet regarding the child
with some sympathy. "Have you heard any more guns shooting your beloved
stags?"
"Oh, it's a hundred times worse!"
"I wonder where you have been, since I summoned you to tea?" said
General Macdonald rather severely.
Mysie stood up, twisting her small hands together in agony. "I knewed
you would be angry," she said; "but I just felt I couldn't be smiling
at Miss Falconer. I was tired out of her. And she always says she hates
grown-ups and children mixed together. Oh, Dad, don't be angry but if
it's true, I shall run away from you. I shall go back to Nan, and if
she won't have me, I shall hunt for a water kelpie and let him drown
me, or I shall go round and round the fairies' hill till they take me
in."
"Tell us what the trouble is."
Rowena had drawn the hot excited child to her, and was holding one of
her little hands in hers. Then Mysie burst into a passion of tears.
"Dad is going to marry Miss Falconer. They all say so. She's coming to
live with us for ever! And—b-b-b-be my stepmother! Oh, stop it, stop
it, won't you? Miss Falconer says women can always manage men; do try
to manage Dad and make him not do it. I can't live in the house with
Miss Falconer for my stepmother. I told you how I hate her! I do! I do!
She tries to make me cry, so that she can laugh at me."
Rowena looked across at General Macdonald rather helplessly. But if
Mysie was excited, he became more so. Rising impatiently from his
chair, with a warm flush in his thin brown cheeks and blazing eyes, he
thundered forth:
"Stop this foolish nonsense at once, child! Who has been putting such a
preposterous idea into your head?"
"They've all been saying it. Mrs. Dalziel and Angus, and even Nan; and
Miss Falconer is always saying what she would do if she was mistress! I
can't bear to think of it!"
"How did you come here?" he asked hotly.
"On the pony. Dad, don't be angry with me. I'm sorry I disobeyed you.
It was Elsie who was doing my hair; she said of course I was to go down
and see my new mamma, and I wouldn't believe her, and then I went to
Mrs. Dalziel in the kitchen, and she said that folks were saying so,
and I rushed away to Nan and Angus, and they've been saying it too;
and then I went away into the woods and I was miser-rubble; and then
I thought I'd come to my darling prisoner, and she might prevent you
doing it!"
"Now look here! You go straight back on your pony and tell Mrs. Dalziel
that if I hear she is circulating such mischievous gossip and lies, she
will leave my service at once. I have no intention of marrying. And
then go off to Angus and tell him and his wife the same. Off with you
at once!"
A thunder-cloud was on his brow, but Mysie stopped sobbing, and then
she flung herself on her father and wound her small arms round him.
"I'll be good, I'll be good—if you never give me a mother! Oh, I'm so
very, very glad you aren't going to marry her."
Her father turned sharply away from her.
When she had disappeared, he paced the room in angry silence. Rowena
waited. Like Mysie, the relief of realizing her fears were groundless,
brought strange content to her soul. At last she spoke.
"Well, we seem to have had a storm over nothing."
"It's not a trivial matter to me," said the General sharply. "It's
unspeakably annoying. I, who have kept away from women ever since
my poor wife's death until I came here, and to find that I can't be
friendly with my child's governess without this confounded gossip
starting! It's outrageous! Marry a girl like that! A girl who is young
enough to be my daughter!"
"Perhaps you praised her to others as much as you did to me," said
Rowena demurely. "You should be more cautious. I am sorry for the
annoyance it has caused you, but no harm has been done. Mysie will
forget it."
"I shall send the child to school and shut up the house."
"And run away? Don't do that! Ignore such gossip—but I do advise you to
change your governess."
"I shall never have another. I am more annoyed than I can say. I
have a great mind to send Mrs. Dalziel straight away. She ought
to be thoroughly ashamed of herself. An elderly respectable woman
like her, to chatter of me and my governess to my child! It's
abominable—iniquitous!"
Rowena waited till he had calmed down.
Presently he turned to her with a rueful face.
"And now you see how I lose my temper! What am I to do? Am I not to
show any kindly feeling for any woman that comes across my path without
having it said that I mean to marry her?"
Rowena began to laugh. She could not help it.
"I beg your pardon. I know it is no laughing matter to you; I do
sometimes realize that men are the sheep, and women the wolves. And it
is rather awkward being asked to counsel you. Because you know that I
have an aversion to Miss Falconer, so that my views must be prejudiced.
Of course, my advice is to decline any further educational help from
her. She does not consider herself your governess, but a friend who
loves teaching so much that she is taking Mysie in hand out of sheer
kindness of heart. I hope you will dine with the Grants next week; then
you will see Miss Falconer from another point of view."
"Lady Grant told me I ought to be very grateful to her," General
Macdonald said more quietly. "I suppose I have acted like a fool.
However, no more governesses for me; Mysie shall go to a boarding
school at once."
Then he stopped in his restless pacing up and down the room. Looking at
Rowena with a fierce frown he said:
"May I ask if you have heard these ridiculous reports? It would have
been only kind if you had warned me."
"Oh, nobody likes to repeat gossip. I am not a mischief-maker," said
Rowena a little impatiently. "I did hear something after Miss Falconer
had presided over a luncheon-party at your house; but people always
like to make up matches. Romance appeals to all of us. Take it lightly."
"No one can say I have said or done anything to warrant such talk," the
General said huffily. "Well, I shan't be good company for you to-day,
so I had better go. I'll shut up the house and go abroad. Why, the next
thing will be that they will gossip over my coming to see you!"
"Oh, I think I am safe, as an invalid," said Rowena, looking at him
with her laughing eyes.
General Macdonald met her glance, and smiled in spite of himself. Then
he held out his hand.
"Good-bye for the present."
"And don't go and pack up and flee from gossip," said Rowena; "for you
get that everywhere. It's best to have a thick skin and ignore it. My
love to Mysie, and don't vent your anger upon her."
"You do think me a brute!"
"No, only a helpless man."
Rowena was left with the last word. Shags immediately received her
confidence when the General was gone.
"The fair falcon is beaten, Shags! And I'm enough of a heathen still
to rejoice in her discomfiture. I hate humbug and insincerity. Thank
goodness Mysie will escape out of her clutches. What a storm in a
tea-cup! But I shall miss his visits if he goes. He wants a wife to
laugh at him and rub off his angles—to give him a little petting, and
make him realize that he is a very human man, and not a cast-iron
statue to be worshipped, but never to be approached at close quarters!
I wish he had a little more humour! I wonder if he would be boring if
one lived with him!"
She was rather surprised in two days' time to get a letter from General
Macdonald, the first that she had ever received.
"DEAR MISS ARBUTHNOT,—"
"I thought you would like to know how things are going with us. I quite
accidentally met Miss Falconer out the other day. She had called at
the house for a book of hers, and we met as she was returning to the
Grants. I suppose I ought to be glad the matter has been taken out of
my hands. She began to talk about Mysie at once, then said that her
people wanted her to give up teaching—that Lady Grant did not like her
living alone, and was trying to persuade her to leave the cottage and
come and stay with them for a long visit. I told her I quite agreed
with Lady Grant, and that I could easily make other plans for Mysie.
It seemed so easy—the whole thing—that I was surprised when she seemed
so disconcerted; said she was afraid I was not satisfied with her. I
told her I thought she had done wonders with Mysie, and so she has in
the way of teaching her manners and self-control. We parted friends, I
hope. I told her I should be sending Mysie to school."
"Mysie herself is a radiant piece of goods at present. I suppose she
looks forward to a long holiday, but she does not seem to have liked
Miss Falconer. I cannot fathom the reason of her dislike. I am having
an old pal of mine to stay for a fortnight's shooting. May I bring him
over to see you one day?"
"Yours,"
"HUGH MACDONALD."
A few days after this Rowena was rather surprised to get a visit from
Miss Falconer. She arrived in the Grants' car.
"I took the opportunity of coming to see you," Miss Falconer explained,
"as Lady Grant wanted to call upon the Macintoshes at Abertarlie. It
will be a good-bye visit. I am leaving this part. I only meant to stay
in my cottage for the summer, and of course I never meant to take up
my job of teaching beyond that time, though the dear general seemed to
think that I was a fixture here. I flatter myself that even in these
couple of months I have made an impression upon his wild little tomboy.
She has brains. It is a pity they are not going to be developed in the
right way."
"You don't think that school will develop them?"
"Not a private school—but don't let us talk of education. I am off it.
Do you know Mr. Crawford? He has taken your brother's shooting. We have
seen a great deal of each other lately. He is always at the Grants'.
I don't know why I tell you this, but you're a sympathetic person.
Yesterday we came to the conclusion that we liked each other, and I am
engaged."
"My congratulations," said Rowena warmly. "I always felt that marriage
was more your vocation than teaching. I know him, and should think he's
a very good sort."
"Why do you think marriage my vocation?"
"Because you were so bent on persuading me that you were superior to
its attractions," said Rowena, laughing, "and those sort of natures are
the first to succumb."
Miss Falconer did not look very pleased.
"We are agreed on the equalities of the sexes," she said. "He is not
narrow and old-fashioned and prejudiced, like that dear friend of
yours, Mysie's father. Of all dull, commonplace, uninteresting men,
he takes the cake, as they say! I'm thankful to have severed all
connection with him."
"He is simple-minded," said Rowena quietly, "and easily taken in. He
does not understand diplomacy."
The glance that Jeannie Falconer flashed towards her was not friendly.
"Oh," she said, "how I pity you! This Highland life would kill me. I
have had only a few months of it, but it has sapped all the energy out
of me already. I have told Herbert that London must be our permanent
home, and he quite agrees. I am thankful that he is English to the
core."
She did not stay much longer. Rowena was amused by her visit, but her
heart felt as light as a feather. Never till now had she realized how
thoroughly she had believed in the gossip of the neighbourhood.