CHAPTER X

Plenary Absolutions

The letter which Miss Mackenzie received was from old Mr Slow, her

lawyer; and it was a very unpleasant letter. It was so unpleasant

that it made her ears tingle when she read it and remembered that the

person to whom special allusion was made was one whom she had taught

herself to regard as her friend. Mr Slow's letter was as follows:

7 Little St Dunstan Court,

April, 186--.

DEAR MADAM,

I think it proper to write to you specially, about the

loan made by you to Messrs Rubb and Mackenzie, as the sum

lent is serious, and as there has been conduct on the part

of some one which I regard as dishonest. I find that what

we have done in the matter has been regulated rather by

the fact that you and Mr Mackenzie are brother and sister,

than by the ordinary course of such business; and I

perceive that we had special warrant given to us for this

by you in your letter of the 23rd November last; but,

nevertheless, it is my duty to explain to you that Messrs

Rubb and Mackenzie, or,--as I believe to be the case, Mr

Samuel Rubb, junior, of that firm,--have not dealt with

you fairly. The money was borrowed for the purpose of

buying certain premises, and, I believe, was laid out in

that way. But it was borrowed on the special understanding

that you, as the lender, were to have the title-deeds of

that property, and the first mortgage upon them. It was

alleged, when the purchase was being made, that the money

was wanted before the mortgage could be effected, and you

desired us to advance it. This we did, aware of the close

family connection between yourself and one of the firm.

Of course, on your instruction, we should have done this

had there been no such relationship, but in that case we

should have made further inquiry, and, probably, have

ventured to advise you. But though the money was so

advanced without the completion of the mortgage, it was

advanced on the distinct understanding that the security

proffered in the first instance was to be forthcoming

without delay. We now learn that the property is mortgaged

to other parties to its full value, and that no security

for your money is to be had.

I have seen both Mr Mackenzie and Mr Rubb, junior. As

regards your brother, I believe him to have been innocent

of any intention of the deceit, for deceit there certainly

has been. Indeed, he does not deny it. He offers to

give you any security on the business, such as the

stock-in-trade or the like, which I may advise you to

take. But such would in truth be of no avail to you as

security. He, your brother, seemed to be much distressed

by what has been done, and I was grieved on his behalf. Mr

Rubb,--the younger Mr Rubb,--expressed himself in a very

different way. He at first declined to discuss the matter

with me; and when I told him that if that was his way I

would certainly expose him, he altered his tone a little,

expressing regret that there should be delay as to the

security, and wishing me to understand that you were

yourself aware of all the facts.

There can be no doubt that deceit has been used towards

you in getting your money, and that Mr Rubb has laid

himself open to proceedings which, if taken against him,

would be absolutely ruinous to him. But I fear they would

be also ruinous to your brother. It is my painful duty

to tell you that your money so advanced is on a most

precarious footing. The firm, in addition to their present

liabilities, are not worth half the money; or, I fear I

may say, any part of it. I presume there is a working

profit, as two families live upon the business. Whether,

if you were to come upon them as a creditor, you could get

your money out of their assets, I cannot say; but you,

perhaps, will not feel yourself disposed to resort to such

a measure. I have considered it my duty to tell you all

the facts, and though your distinct authority to us to

advance the money absolves us from responsibility, I must

regret that we did not make further inquiries before we

allowed so large a sum of money to pass out of our hands.

I am, dear Madam,

Your faithful servant,

JONATHAN SLOW.

Mr Rubb's promised visit was to take place in eight or ten days from

the date on which this letter was received. Miss Mackenzie's ears, as

I have said, tingled as she read it. In the first place, it gave her

a terrible picture of the precarious state of her brother's business.

What would he do,--he with his wife, and all his children, if things

were in such a state as Mr Slow described them? And yet a month or

two ago he was giving champagne and iced puddings for dinner! And

then what words that discreet old gentleman, Mr Slow, had spoken

about Mr Rubb, and what things he had hinted over and above what he

had spoken! Was it not manifest that he conceived Mr Rubb to have

been guilty of direct fraud?

Miss Mackenzie at once made up her mind that her money was gone! But,

in truth, this did not much annoy her. She had declared to herself

once before that if anything was wrong about the money she would

regard it as a present made to her brother; and when so thinking of

it, she had, undoubtedly, felt that it was, not improbably, lost to

her. It was something over a hundred a year to be deducted from her

computed income, but she would still be able to live at the Paragon

quite as well as she had intended, and be able also to educate

Susanna. Indeed, she could do this easily and still save money, and,

therefore, as regarded the probable loss, why need she be unhappy?

Before the morning was over she had succeeded in white-washing Mr

Rubb in her own mind. It is, I think, certainly the fact that women

are less pervious to ideas of honesty than men are. They are less

shocked by dishonesty when they find it, and are less clear in their

intellect as to that which constitutes honesty. Where is the woman

who thinks it wrong to smuggle? What lady's conscience ever pricked

her in that she omitted the armorial bearings on her silver forks

from her tax papers? What wife ever ceased to respect her husband

because he dealt dishonestly in business? Whereas, let him not go

to church, let him drink too much wine, let him go astray in his

conversation, and her wrath arises against these faults. But this

lack of feminine accuracy in the matter of honesty tends rather to

charity in their judgment of others, than to deeds of fraud on the

part of women themselves.

Miss Mackenzie, who desired nothing that was not her own, who

scrupulously kept her own hands from all picking and stealing, gave

herself no peace, after reading the lawyer's letter, till she was

able to tell herself that Mr Rubb was to be forgiven for what he had

done. After all, he had, no doubt, intended that she should have the

promised security. And had not he himself come to her in London and

told her the whole truth,--or, if not the whole truth, as much of

it as was reasonable to expect that he should be able to tell her

at an evening party after dinner? Of course Mr Slow was hard upon

him. Lawyers always were hard. If she chose to give Messrs Rubb and

Mackenzie two thousand five hundred pounds out of her pocket, what

was that to him? So she went on, till at last she was angry with Mr

Slow for the language he had used.

It was, however, before all things necessary that she should put Mr

Slow right as to the facts of the case. She had, no doubt, condoned

whatever Mr Rubb had done. Mr Rubb undoubtedly had her sanction for

keeping her money without security. Therefore, by return of post, she

wrote the following short letter, which rather astonished Mr Slow

when he received it--

Littlebath, April, 186--.

DEAR SIR,

I am much obliged by your letter about the money; but the

truth is that I have known for some time that there was

to be no mortgage. When I was in town I saw Mr Rubb at my

brother's house, and it was understood between us then

that the matter was to remain as it is. My brother and his

partner are very welcome to the money.

Believe me to be,

Yours sincerely,

MARGARET MACKENZIE.

The letter was a false letter; but I suppose Miss Mackenzie did not

know that she was writing falsely. The letter was certainly false,

because when she spoke of the understanding "between us," having just

mentioned her brother and Mr Rubb, she intended the lawyer to believe

that the understanding was between them three; whereas, not a word

had been said about the money in her brother's hearing, nor was he

aware that his partner had spoken of the money.

Mr Slow was surprised and annoyed. As regarded his comfort as a

lawyer, his client's letter was of course satisfactory. It absolved

him not only from all absolute responsibility, but also from the

feeling which no doubt had existed within his own breast, that he had

in some sort neglected the lady's interest. But, nevertheless, he was

annoyed. He did not believe the statement that Rubb and Mackenzie had

had permission to hold the money without mortgage, and thought that

neither of the partners had themselves so conceived when he had seen

them. They had, however, been too many for him--and too many also for

the poor female who had allowed herself to be duped out of her money.

Such were Mr Slow's feelings on the matter, and then he dismissed the

subject from his mind.

The next day, about noon, Miss Mackenzie was startled almost out of

her propriety by the sudden announcement at the drawing-room door

of Mr Rubb. Before she could bethink herself how she would behave

herself, or whether it would become her to say anything of Mr Slow's

letter to her, he was in the room.

"Miss Mackenzie," he said, hurriedly--and yet he had paused for a

moment in his hurry till the servant had shut the door--"may I shake

hands with you?"

There could, Miss Mackenzie thought, be no objection to so ordinary

a ceremony; and, therefore, she said, "Certainly," and gave him her

hand.

"Then I am myself again," said Mr Rubb; and having so said, he sat

down.

Miss Mackenzie hoped that there was nothing the matter with him, and

then she also sat down at a considerable distance.

"There is nothing the matter with me," said he, "as you are still so

kind to me. But tell me, have you not received a letter from your

lawyer?"

"Yes, I have."

"And he has done all in his power to blacken me? I know it. Tell me,

Miss Mackenzie, has he not blackened me? Has he not laid things to

my charge of which I am incapable? Has he not accused me of getting

money from you under false pretences,--than do which, I'd sooner have

seen my own brains blown out? I would, indeed."

"He has written to me about the money, Mr Rubb."

"Yes; he came to me, and behaved shamefully to me; and he saw

your brother, too, and has been making all manner of ignominious

inquiries. Those lawyers can never understand that there can be

anything of friendly feeling about money. They can't put friendly

feelings into their unconscionable bills. I believe the world would

go on better if there was no such thing as an attorney in it. I

wonder who invented them, and why?"

Miss Mackenzie could give him no information on this point, and

therefore he went on:

"But you must tell me what he has said, and what it is he wants us to

do. For your sake, if you ask us, Miss Mackenzie, we'll do anything.

We'll sell the coats off our backs, if you wish it. You shall never

lose one shilling by Rubb and Mackenzie as long as I have anything to

do with the firm. But I'm sure you will excuse me if I say that we

can do nothing at the bidding of that old cormorant."

"I don't know that there's anything to be done, Mr Rubb."

"Is not there? Well, it's very generous in you to say so; and you

always are generous. I've always told your brother, since I had the

honour of knowing you, that he had a sister to be proud of. And, Miss

Mackenzie, I'll say more than that; I've flattered myself that I've

had a friend to be proud of. But now I must tell you why I've come

down to-day; you know I was to have been here next week. Well, when

Mr Slow came to me and I found what was up, I said to myself at once

that it was right you should know exactly--exactly--how the matter

stands. I was going to explain it next week, but I wouldn't leave you

in suspense when I knew that that lawyer was going to trouble you."

"It hasn't troubled me, Mr Rubb."

"Hasn't it though, really? That's so good of you again! Now the

truth is--but it's pretty nearly just what I told you that day after

dinner, when you agreed, you know, to what we had done."

Here he paused, as though expecting an answer.

"Yes, I did agree."

"Just at present, while certain other parties have a right to hold

the title-deeds, and I can't quite say how long that may be, we

cannot execute a mortgage in your favour. The title-deeds represent

the property. Perhaps you don't know that."

"Oh yes, I know as much as that."

"Well then, as we haven't the title-deeds, we can't execute the

mortgage. Perhaps you'll say you ought to have the title-deeds."

"No, Mr Rubb, I don't want to say anything of the kind. If my money

can be of any assistance to my brother--to my brother and you--you

are welcome to the use of it, without any mortgage. I will show you a

copy of the letter I sent to Mr Slow."

"Thanks; a thousand thanks! and may I see the letter which Mr Slow

wrote?"

"No, I think not. I don't know whether it would be right to show it

to you."

"I shouldn't think of doing anything about it; that is, resenting it,

you know. Only then we should all be on the square together."

"I think I'd better not. Mr Slow, when he wrote it, probably did not

mean that I should show it to you."

"You're right; you're always right. But you'll let me see your

answer."

Then Miss Mackenzie went to her desk, and brought him a copy of the

note she had written to the lawyer. He read it very carefully, twice

over; and then she could see, when he refolded the paper, that his

eyes were glittering with satisfaction.

"Miss Mackenzie, Miss Mackenzie," he said, "I think that you are an

angel!"

And he did think so. In so much at that moment he was at any rate

sincere. She saw that he was pleased, and she was pleased herself.

"There need be no further trouble about it," she said; and as she

spoke she rose from her seat.

And he rose, too, and came close to her. He came close to her,

hesitated for a moment, and then, putting one hand behind her waist,

though barely touching her, he took her hand with his other hand. She

thought that he was going to kiss her lips, and for a moment or two

he thought so too; but either his courage failed him or else his

discretion prevailed. Whether it was the one or the other, must

depend on the way in which she would have taken it. As it was, he

merely raised her hand and kissed that. When she could look into his

face his eyes were full of tears.

"The truth is," said he, "that you have saved us from ruin;--that's

the real truth. Damn all lying!"

She started at the oath, but in an instant she had forgiven him

that too. There was a sound of reality about it, which reconciled

her to the indignity; though, had she been true to her faith as a

Stumfoldian, she ought at least to have fainted at the sound.

"I hardly know what I am saying, Miss Mackenzie, and I beg your

pardon; but the fact is you could sell us up if you pleased. I didn't

mean it when I first got your brother to agree as to asking you for

the loan; I didn't indeed; but things were going wrong with us, and

just at that moment they went more wrong than ever; and then came the

temptation, and we were able to make everything right by giving up

the title-deeds of the premises. That's how it was, and it was I that

did it. It wasn't your brother; and though you may forgive me, he

won't."

This was all true, but how far the truth should be taken towards

palliating the deed done, I must leave the reader to decide; and the

reader will doubtless perceive that the truth did not appear until

Mr Rubb had ascertained that its appearance would not injure him. I

think, however, that it came from his heart, and that it should count

for something in his favour. The tear which he rubbed from his eye

with his hand counted very much in his favour with Miss Mackenzie;

she had not only forgiven him now, but she almost loved him for

having given her something to forgive. With many women I doubt

whether there be any more effectual way of touching their hearts

than ill-using them and then confessing it. If you wish to get the

sweetest fragrance from the herb at your feet, tread on it and bruise

it.

She had forgiven him, and taken him absolutely into favour, and he

had kissed her hand, having all but embraced her as he did so; but

on the present occasion he did not get beyond that. He lacked the

audacity to proceed at once from the acknowledgment of his fault to

a declaration of his love; but I hardly think that he would have

injured himself had he done so. He should have struck while the iron

was hot, and it was heated now nearly to melting; but he was abashed

by his own position, and having something real in his heart, having

some remnant of generous feeling left about him, he could not make

such progress as he might have done had he been cool enough to

calculate all his advantages.

"Don't let it trouble you any more," Miss Mackenzie said, when he had

dropped her hand.

"But it does trouble me, and it will trouble me."

"No," she said, with energy, "it shall not; let there be an end of

it. I will write to Tom, and tell him that he is welcome to the

money. Isn't he my brother? You are both welcome to it. If it has

been of service to you, I am very happy that it should be so. And

now, Mr Rubb, if you please, we won't have another word about it."

"What am I to say?"

"Not another word."

It seemed as though he couldn't speak another word, for he went to

the window and stood there silently, looking into the street. As he

did so, there came another visitor to Miss Mackenzie, whose ringing

at the doorbell had not been noticed by them, and Miss Baker was

announced while Mr Rubb was still getting the better of his feelings.

Of course he turned round when he heard the lady's name, and of

course he was introduced by his hostess. Miss Mackenzie was obliged

to make some apology for the gentleman's presence.

"Mr Rubb was expected next week, but business brought him down to-day

unexpectedly."

"Quite unexpectedly," said Mr Rubb, making a violent endeavour to

recover his equanimity.

Miss Baker looked at Mr Rubb, and disliked him at once. It should be

remembered that she was twenty years older than Miss Mackenzie, and

that she regarded the stranger, therefore, with a saner and more

philosophical judgment than her friend could use,--with a judgment on

which the outward comeliness of the man had no undue influence; and

it should be remembered also that Miss Baker, from early age, and by

all the association of her youth, had been taught to know a gentleman

when she saw him. Miss Mackenzie, who was by nature the cleverer

woman of the two, watched her friend's face, and saw by a glance that

she did not like Mr Rubb, and then, within her own bosom, she called

her friend an old maid.

"We're having uncommonly fine weather for the time of year," said Mr

Rubb.

"Very fine weather," said Miss Baker. "I've called, my dear, to know

whether you'll go in with me next door and drink tea this evening?"

"What, with Miss Todd?" asked Miss Mackenzie, who was surprised at

the invitation.

"Yes, with Miss Todd. It is not one of her regular nights, you know,

and her set won't be there. She has some old friends with her,--a Mr

Wilkinson, a clergyman, and his wife. It seems that her old enemy and

your devoted slave, Mr Maguire, knows Mr Wilkinson, and he's going to

be there."

"Mr Maguire is no slave of mine, Miss Baker."

"I thought he was; at any rate his presence will be a guarantee that

Miss Todd will be on her best behaviour, and that you needn't be

afraid."

"I'm not afraid of anything of that sort."

"But will you go?"

"Oh, yes, if you are going."

"That's right; and I'll call for you as I pass by. I must see her

now, and tell her. Good-morning, Sir;" whereupon Miss Baker bowed

very stiffly to Mr Rubb.

"Good-morning, Ma'am," said Mr Rubb, bowing very stiffly to Miss

Baker.

When the lady was gone, Mr Rubb sat himself again down on the sofa,

and there he remained for the next half-hour. He talked about the

business of the firm, saying how it would now certainly be improved;

and he talked about Tom Mackenzie's family, saying what a grand thing

it was for Susanna to be thus taken in hand by her aunt; and he asked

a question or two about Miss Baker, and then a question or two about

Mr Maguire, during which questions he learned that Mr Maguire was not

as yet a married man; and from Mr Maguire he got on to the Stumfolds,

and learned somewhat of the rites and ceremonies of the Stumfoldian

faith. In this way he prolonged his visit till Miss Mackenzie began

to feel that he ought to take his leave.

Miss Baker had gone at once to Miss Todd, and had told that lady that

Miss Mackenzie would join her tea-party. She had also told how Mr

Rubb, of the firm of Rubb and Mackenzie, was at this moment in Miss

Mackenzie's drawing-room.

"I'll ask him to come, too," said Miss Todd. Then Miss Baker had

hesitated, and had looked grave.

"What's the matter?" said Miss Todd.

"I'm not quite sure you'll like him," said Miss Baker.

"Probably not," said Miss Todd; "I don't like half the people I meet,

but that's no reason I shouldn't ask him."

"But he is--that is, he is not exactly--"

"What is he, and what is he not, exactly?" asked Miss Todd.

"Why, he is a tradesman, you know," said Miss Baker.

"There's no harm that I know of in that," said Miss Todd. "My uncle

that left me my money was a tradesman."

"No," said Miss Baker, energetically; "he was a merchant in

Liverpool."

"You'll find it very hard to define the difference, my dear," said

Miss Todd. "At any rate I'll ask the man to come;--that is, if it

won't offend you."

"It won't in the least offend me," said Miss Baker.

So a note was at once written and sent in to Miss Mackenzie, in which

she was asked to bring Mr Rubb with her on that evening. When the

note reached Miss Mackenzie, Mr Rubb was still with her.

Of course she communicated to him the invitation. She wished that it

had not been sent; she wished that he would not accept it,--though

on that head she had no doubt; but she had not sufficient presence

of mind to keep the matter to herself and say nothing about it.

Of course he was only too glad to drink tea with Miss Todd. Miss

Mackenzie attempted some slight manoeuvre to induce Mr Rubb to go

direct to Miss Todd's house; but he was not such an ass as that; he

knew his advantage, and kept it, insisting on his privilege of coming

there, to Miss Mackenzie's room, and escorting her. He would have

to escort Miss Baker also; and things, as he thought, were looking

well with him. At last he rose to go, but he made good use of the

privilege of parting. He held Miss Mackenzie's hand, and pressed it.

"You mustn't be angry," he said, "if I tell you that you are the best

friend I have in the world."

"You have better friends than me," she said, "and older friends."

"Yes; older friends; but none,--not one, who has done for me so much

as you have; and certainly none for whom I have so great a regard.

May God bless you, Miss Mackenzie!"

"May God bless you, too, Mr Rubb!"

What else could she say? When his civility took so decorous a shape,

she could not bear to be less civil than he had been, or less

decorous. And yet it seemed to her that in bidding God bless him with

that warm pressure of the hand, she had allowed to escape from her an

appearance of affection which she had not intended to exhibit.

"Thank you; thank you," said he; and then at last he went.

She seated herself slowly in her own chair near the window,--the

chair in which she was accustomed to sit for many solitary hours, and

asked herself what it all meant. Was she allowing herself to fall in

love with Mr Rubb, and if so, was it well that it should be so? This

would be bringing to the sternest proof of reality her philosophical

theory on social life. It was all very well for her to hold a bold

opinion in discussions with Miss Baker as to a "man being a man

for a' that," even though he might not be a gentleman; but was she

prepared to go the length of preferring such a man to all the world?

Was she ready to go down among the Rubbs, for now and ever, and give

up the society of such women as Miss Baker? She knew that it was

necessary that she should come to some resolve on the matter, as

Mr Rubb's purpose was becoming too clear to her. When an unmarried

gentleman of forty tells an unmarried lady of thirty-six that she is

the dearest friend he has in the world, he must surely intend that

they shall, neither of them, remain unmarried any longer. Then

she thought also of her cousin, John Ball; and some vague shadow

of thought passed across her mind also in respect of the Rev. Mr

Maguire.

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