CHAPTER XVII.

The virtue and perseverance of Gabrielle, who, with a severe

conscientiousness that set self at nought, endeavoured as much as

possible to recover the fatal lapse of her inexperienced youth, and with

an ever-watchful zeal, sedulously to preserve, even in its remotest

ramifications, society from being injured by her errors, reaped in so

much the reward of those virtues which glowed at her heart,

independently of its weakness, that Angelo became to her all that her

fond love, all that her delicate mind could desire; and could but the

past have been obliterated, he had been perfect--he appeared no longer

the wandering creature of temptation, the precipitate unguarded youth;

he was sobered into the domestic husband, the tender father, and the

faithful friend.

No longer now the ephemeral, but passionate admirer of every novel

face,--no longer to be attracted by the blandishments of the

meretricious part of the sex, or artifices of the wary prude, Gabrielle

began to behold in him the being she had long laboured to render him,

who becoming such, recompensed her for every misery, save one--the

eternal misery, the eternal remorse of her first error, and its dread

consequences, in having precipitated to his grave her high-soul’d,

honorable father!

She now saw realising, as hope with its fair finger pointed to a blest

perspective, the joyous certainty of protection for her children,

protection from him who best was entitled to grant it--to whom they owed

that they were called into existence.

The only shadow of error in the present conduct of Angelo was his

continued love of play, but that, so long as he preserved himself from

embarrassment, Gabrielle was disposed to deem as an amusement, rather

than a destructive habit, which, if pursued, almost invariably involves

in ruin. Short-sighted mortals that we are, this very propensity, viewed

by Gabrielle in a light so comparatively trivial, was of itself

sufficient to blast, in a single instant, those fairy fabrics of future

happiness for her children, on which her mind delighted to dwell.

Five years elapsed, and found Angelo still unchanged; at the

termination of this period, he remained what at its commencement he had

become. His disposition, and the fine qualities of his heart, which had

seemed but in their germ, appeared mellowed only by the fostering hand

of time; that which in sincere love and penitence he had commenced, had

grown insensibly into a conduct of system, and become dearest and most

congenial to his heart. Such is the influence and power of virtue, that

when once its dictates are in sincerity adopted, it becomes agreeable to

the heart of man, as it is best for the sanity of his soul, and for his

temporal happiness.

The young Felix, esteemed their highest treasure, and whose name had

been given him by the fond enthusiasm of a father, who considered that

he would constitute their highest happiness, increased daily in

strength and beauty; but while the doting eyes of the father could

discern in him no fault, the apprehensive eyes of the mother scrutinized

more deeply; she beheld him lovely and engaging, but beheld with

uneasiness an uncontrollable impetuousness of manner, a boldness and

presumption, with, most material fault of all, a tendency to deviate

from the truth in the occasional relation of events in which he might be

concerned.

But when Gabrielle expressed sometimes her anxious sentiments upon this

head, the partial father laughed, and would tell her that she refined

too much, that she must not look for excellence like her own, even in

her children; or otherwise, with more of exultation than regret,

attribute all to early indications of spirit and superior genius.

Earnestly desirous, at length, of having with her, without further

delay, her heart-cherished but long unseen daughter, Gabrielle, who had

till this period temporised with, and yielded reluctantly to the tender

intreaties of her excellent friend Madame Bertrand, still to retain her,

became now absolutely impatient, and resolved seriously to demand her,

and in such a way that should not have it in her power to evade her

further.

It was almost a year since Gabrielle had last heard from her, in answer

to a request that she would only quit Switzerland for a few months, and

be herself the guardian of her adopted child to her parents. In her

letter then, Madame Bertrand had informed her, that softened at length

by the long attachment and persevering solicitations of M. Boffuet, she

had at last consented to become his wife, and stated the event to have

taken place a few weeks previous to her writing. “Ah, dearest

Gabrielle,” observed this excellent friend, “it is no longer then

purely for the sake of society--or for the tender love I bear to Agnes,

that I desire to retain her, but from higher considerations.--Alas!

forgive me, if even _yet_ my mind is not satisfied to resign her to you!

’Tis true, indeed, the constancy and attachment of D’Albini hath now

undergone very considerable test, and hath remained unshaken; he is

happy with you, and feels a pride in acknowledging by his conduct that

he is so.--Why, then--(for am I not your friend, and may speak freely),

why then hesitate to confirm to himself, far as by earthly ties it could

be confirmed, the happiness he now enjoys?”

“Why is it, that still wavering, procrastinating, irresolute, he prefers

to linger through life with you, in a feverish, unsatisfactory union,

valuing, esteeming, and loving you as a wife in all the dearest

attributes of one, _save the name_?

“How to himself can he be so denying and severe, as voluntarily to debar

himself of the greatest and most rational enjoyment which we are

empowered to make for ourselves here below--those dear and tender ties

which mortals are allowed to form, and to rivet, and which are

indissoluble even until death? Why should you not be to him in _effect_

that which you are in _spirit_? and, while his heart proudly avows you

by the name of wife, why should not the world confess you so in reality?

Not till that joyful moment takes place, oh! Gabrielle, not till

D’Albini places you on that eminence, so considered by society, honored

and revered, will my mind give full and complete accedence to his

sincerity. When I perceive that he no longer doubts _himself_, I shall

not doubt him either, and when I perceive that he loves his children

sufficiently to save them from unmeritted ignominy, then no longer

shall I hesitate to resign to him a daughter.”

So, in the very last epistle received from her, wrote the just and

rational Bertrand. Gabrielle in her heart allowed, and therefore was too

honest to deny, that she felt the severe, incontrovertible truth of her

observations, but still her confidence in Angelo was such, that no doubt

could for a moment harbour there. She wished to believe, that delicacy,

joined to a conviction of its being completely unnecessary as a stronger

tie, prevented him now from proposing to her the form of marriage.

“Angelo is so sincere a convert,” said she mentally, “that there is no

danger of his relapsing into error, however unshackled he may be. So

well do I know that noble nature, that sure am I, if he suspected within

himself the possibility of ever wandering, he would instantly unite

himself to me by the strongest of all possible bonds, in order to

operate as a check upon his conduct.”

But Gabrielle erred in this instance, from want of proper

discrimination, and erred likewise in thinking the best of the man she

loved. She erred in the first instance, because neither her education,

her knowledge of, or commerce with the world, placed before her mind, in

a point of view sufficiently strong, the absolute _necessity_ of

marriage between those persons who form an intercourse of sincere

attachment, who desire to live for each other, and who, in consequence

of such intercourse produce to the world human beings, who will call

them _parents_, and to whom therefore they owe it to involve them as

little as possible in the consequences of their mutual error, by sooner

or later endeavouring to give them that consideration in the world, to

which, from the mode of their birth, they would not be immediately

entitled.

She erred too, in her conception of Angelo; for he in effect _feared_

marriage, more than he _loved_ Gabrielle, or considered his children’s

estimation in society. Never had he even named marriage to her; he would

not either allow himself to revert to it even distantly, or in

perspective, in her presence or in solitude. From the libertine pursuits

of his early youth he had conceived a prejudice against it--from his

subsequent knowledge of the worst part of the sex, judging from them of

the whole, a disgust, and ultimately a dread.

It is one characteristic of the libertine, that he detests marriage, for

it is the immutable consequence attendant on the long pursuit of vicious

and ignoble pleasures, which unhinge the mind, and unfit the soul for

the calm delights of virtue. Thus, though the excellent conduct,

superior mind, and personal attractions of Gabrielle, rivetted to her in

unwearied fondness the heart of Angelo, yet had he once ventured to have

set the seal of eternal union upon that fondness, he would have felt

himself no longer an independent being; and the idea of a formal duty

would have pressed so heavily upon his mind, as to render irksome and

displeasing, that very conduct, which, pursued from inclination alone,

wore varied and unfading charms.

But Gabrielle judged not thus, her opinion was regulated by her love,

and by her wishes: pursuant to her determination she wrote to Madame

Bertrand, and insisted that it was now absolutely necessary that Angelo

should behold his daughter, that no more time should be permitted to

elapse ere she took strong hold of his affections, which could be only

done by appearing before him, and remaining constantly under his own

eyes.

“I have two children,” added Gabrielle; “the one that is not with me is

no less dear to my heart than the one that is continually in my sight;

but with Angelo it may be otherwise, for he has never even seen his

daughter, while I, though I should never behold her more, bear her sweet

infant features in my mind,--remember, as though it were but yesterday,

those bitter hours when you held her in your arms, when I gazed on her

indeed, but did not see her; and remember too, what, never while life

endures I can forget, the scene of horror and despair in which I gave

her birth, and which is impressed upon my heart in characters that are

indelible.

“Let me then once more embrace that beloved child, my dear and valued

friend; let me hasten to present her to her father, and communicate to

his heart a portion of the tenderness which animates my own--let us no

longer defer a moment which has been already deferred too long, and

which implicates so deeply her future welfare. I shall expect that my

kind Bertrand will no longer attempt to influence my present wish, by

those well-meant and rational objections, which, however I may in a

degree admit their propriety, must no longer sway me, as they are

answered in my mind by considerations which outbalance them.”

To this letter Gabrielle expected a prompt and acquiescent reply, while

Angelo, with his natural impetuosity, fixed his ardent hopes upon the

prospect of speedily embracing a daughter, whom he longed to behold.

Several weeks elapsed however, and no answer arrived; Gabrielle allayed

her impatience, in the fond hope that Madame Bertrand was prepairing for

her a delightful surprise, and that she would suddenly appear before

them with the anxiously-expected Agnes. But when at length such a time

elapsed, as to render the indulgence of this hope no longer rational,

Gabrielle, half indignant at a conduct which when assuming to itself the

right of dictating to her best and dearest feelings, and of combating

those intentions which she felt the importance of fulfilling, appeared

rather an abuse, than a prerogative of friendship, prepared to address

her again, but in style more decisive a letter suddenly arrived, which

at once ended their hopes by plunging them in despair--it was as

follows:

“Oh, beloved Gabrielle, in what language dare I address you! how

break to you the dreadful event which I have to disclose!--Oh!

would that some intuitive suspicion might give you a glance of the

fatal truth, and spare me a task beyond that of confirming it:--but

I must proceed--I must have mercy upon the dreadful suspense and

agony you endure at this moment. Know then that your child, your

Agnes--do I live to say it--I know not what at this period may be

her fate!

“Let me endeavor, if possible, to collect my distracted thoughts,

and detail to you as I can, the events of the last six months. I

informed you that I had become the wife of Boffuet---- Ah!

miserable for me was the day that I did so. Can you believe it,

Gabrielle, that persevering attachment, those perpetual attentions

were not directed to me, but to those trifling possessions which I

called mine.

“To be brief, scarce had the laws of marriage rendered his my

slender property, than the man changed, and changed not gradually,

but at once. Soon was I deprived of my few accustomed comforts,

debarred even of necessaries, and by the line of conduct which the

selfish and hypocritical Boffuet assumed immediately that he

obtained a right to dictate to mine, it appeared as though he was

desirous of hastening me to the grave, that he might have

uncontrolled possession of all, but without the necessity of being

likewise encumbered with me. Ah! when a woman at my time of life

marries, and exchanges the certain comfort that was her’s, for a

precarious addition, resulting from the society of a husband, what

has she to expect in reality, but useless regret and bitter

repentance?

“To proceed however; I could have borne perhaps with patience the

infamy of his conduct, though unlooked for towards myself alone,

but that which struck me to the heart, which destroyed me nearly,

was the gloomy and illiberal eye with which he regarded my idolized

Agnes. His contracted soul, ever thirsting for gold, desired to

appropriate wholly to himself that sum which you forced on me in

his presence, at your departure, and which, in an unguarded moment,

I had acknowledged to have preserved still untouched for our Agnes.

“At the same time that he desired to appropriate to himself this

little sum, which fondly I had anticipated at my death to double

and treble, by the whole of what I possessed, he still could not

endure that the innocent child should remain beneath the roof.

Every little indulgence, each little dainty that my fond love had

procured for her, drew from his heart so many drops of blood; but

perceiving that his base and grovelling insinuations produced no

effect upon me, he quickly abridged, and soon entirely deprived me

of the means of continuing a conduct which had ever constituted my

chief delight. Each day he became a meaner and more vulgar tyrant;

each day he loudly arraigned me for my folly and obstinacy, in

persisting to burthen him with the support of a child whose parents

were willing and anxious to receive her.

“Oh, Gabrielle! Gabrielle, now do I hear--now do I feel your

reproaches, those bitter reproaches which your noble heart

involuntarily makes me, that under such circumstances when last I

wrote, I should still have refused to deliver up your child--but

oh, spare, I implore you spare me! I now see, alas, that I carried

my zeal for the future welfare of that child to an unpardonable

length, that it would have been more prudent, and more just, to

have yielded to your requests, but unhappily I conceived that you

were more enthusiastic than reflective; led away more by your

desire to behold your child, than by your conviction of the

propriety of withdrawing her from me--and that it was better our

Agnes should suffer some slight discomforts in her childhood, than

become perhaps the victim of neglect and misfortune at maturer

years. But ah! let me speak the whole truth, and acknowledge what

conscience at this moment whispers--it is, that the more miserable

I became, the more I needed the cheering and beloved society of the

only being near, who felt an interest for me.

“At length the conduct of Boffuet grew so intolerable as to render

existence almost a curse to me.--He assumed an absolute right not

only over all I possessed, but the right to direct my slightest

movements and actions. His cheerless penury became such as to chill

me to the heart; his savage parsimony exceeded conception; and on

the innocent Agnes he looked daily with deepened gloom and

malignity; the beloved girl dreaded to approach him, tears were

almost always in her lovely eyes; my heart died within me to behold

her youthful sorrows, yet to have expostulated with a being

obdurate and insensible as Boffuet, would, I felt, only aggravate

our mutual unhappiness.

“One day, ah,--let me hasten to conclude, one day for a few moments

I quitted the cottage in order to breathe at liberty, for even that

I could not do in presence of Boffuet. I left our Agnes playing in

the garden, while the savage Boffuet, was as I conceived, immured

in his room, hatching fresh plans to torture and distress. Finding

herself alone, and as she believed unobserved, the innocent child,

from whom every little indulgence was restricted, busily began to

gather some grapes, to satisfy with glee her childish appetite.

Instantly Boffuet, who from a window in his chamber could perceive

all that passed in the garden, descended furiously, and seizing

Agnes by the arm--inflicted on her--can I, dare I speak it to a

tender mother, when even my own heart rises at the thought, the

brutal chastisement of several blows! This done, he quitted the

garden to procure, as he said, a whip, which hung in his chamber,

still further to inflict on her such punishment as should make her

remember the criminality of theft.

“Abominable, base, and pretended construction; theft in her own

mansion--in the mansion of her infancy, where all it contained had

by me been long and fondly recognised as her’s; it was the loss of

the grapes, and not the theft which the grovelling and malignant

soul of Boffuet led him to revenge.

“Whether, however, it was the terror inspired by the anticipation

of cruel chastisement, or the resentment inspired by that already

received, for Agnes had been nourished in the bosom of tenderest

indulgence, and was ever unused to the voice of reproof even, till

the infamous Boffuet made it familiar to her ear, I know not; but

when he returned into the garden, he could no where perceive the

object of his savage and intemperate wrath; vexed to the soul, and

boiling with disappointed rage, he sought the cottage throughout,

swearing that when she appeared, he would make her repent of her

temerity in attempting to escape him.

“He returned then to his chamber, as a tyger disappointed of prey

would return to its den. Hour after hour elapsed, and Agnes did not

appear; her escape, which when I learnt I had first been tempted to

rejoice in, I now began to view with sensations of the deepest

alarm; towards night, when she did not return, my anxiety knew no

bounds, I ran about distracted from cottage to cottage, I called

her among the mountains, I shrieked forth her name in the valleys;

I bent over the edge of the steep, and looked for her mangled form

down the dizzying abyss; I heard not her voice, I saw her not, I

beheld no traces of her.

“I returned home, like a maniac, and losing all terror of the

tyrant Boffuet in the agony which rent my heart, I flew to his

chamber, and upbraided him in the bitterest language my feelings

could suggest, of having driven my child, the rightful owner of the

cottage in which he lived, of having driven her from her home,

which but for him she never would have quitted. Savage with fury,

and impatient at reproaches to which he was unaccustomed, he

started up, and swore that if I did not instantly retire, he would

thrust me out of the house, which I should never enter more, adding

that although I presumed to consider it as mine, it was so no

longer, but lawfully appertained to him, and that no one should

remain in it that was not agreeable to him.

“Mad with indignation and contending feelings, I rushed from his

presence, and sought again, in the dead of the night, the beloved

innocent I had lost; my tender child, my consoling and accustomed

dear little companion.---- But alas! alas! my search was vain; so

it has continued from that fatal day. I have received no tidings of

her, I have no more beheld that sweet face but in my dreams--what

do I say--ah! she is never from my side!

“Oh, God! how do I tremble to think what may be at this moment her

fate--has she fallen down the steep rock, and perished in the

bottomless abyss; or bewildered, and unable to retrace her path,

has she, in the labyrinths of some gloomy forest, become the victim

of famine, or prey of ferocious beasts!----

“These dreadful ideas by turns pervade my brain; I start from

sleep, and think I behold her falling down the precipice, torn and

mangled by its rugged sides!--that tender form!--then do my cries

resound through the cottage, and sleep for that night flies my

eyes. Oh, Gabrielle! reproach, upbraid, abhor me, yet pity me--but

if you cannot, learn, that though my death will not restore to you

your child, that, hastened by a broken heart, it will soon expiate

my involuntary offence.

“I need not add, that should ere that now wished event the remotest

glimmer of hope present itself, to let me think that yet she lives,

or tidings of her fate arise, that instantly I will transmit to you

the intelligence, however slight, however vague. I forgot to

mention to you, among the list of incalculable horrors and

privations brought on me by my imprudent marriage, that every

little ornamental trifle with which my love had delighted, for the

magnificence of our solitude alone, to deck my idol, the grasping

hand of the narrow-soul’d Boffuet gradually and entirely

confiscated; one thing however, and one alone, was saved from his

hungry avarice, it was that valuable treasure, that medallion,

which at parting with your babe you fastened round her neck, and

which contained in it documents, (as you justly considered them) so

accurate, and so material, respecting the family of her father, and

through him of her’s. Boffuet, who knew something of it, enquired

of me concerning it; I told him it was lost, and after that,

conceiving that the best mode of preserving it would be to place it

in the bosom of our daughter, for no depository of mine was

respected by him, I did so, and easily managed to conceal from

view, by her dress, the chain which attached it.

“As your beloved Agnes had never beheld you, and as I constantly

brought you before her young mind, in such points of view as to

make you, though unseen, enthusiastically loved and appreciated by

her, this only gift of your’s, and which I represented to have

been valued by you above all price, acquired in her eyes likewise,

a value and a consequence beyond compare, as having been bestowed

by you, at a time and moment so affecting.--Thus inestimable as

appeared to her this sacred gift, she seconded, with the utmost

solicitude, my endeavours to conceal it from Boffuet, and trembled

if his savage eyes but looked towards her.

“Oh, had it but pleased Heaven that this beloved child had been

spared to me, I should, as I often fondly anticipated, have had the

happiness of presenting to you a daughter, whose long residence

with me you would have had no reason to regret, and whose tender

love, and profound respect toward you, you would have recognised in

as high a degree as though she had dwelt with you from her

infancy.

“But such was not to be my fate! ah! the thought that this induces,

again unnerves me; tears gush to my eyes, and scarcely can I

perceive the characters I trace.--Ah, where is the hand of my

Agnes, to subjoin as usual a few lines to my letter; where is that

sweet countenance that peeping over my shoulder, used to smile at a

requisition that made her proud?--where that harmonious voice that

carolled among the mountains, and which often my rapt fancy traces

in the breeze, now in gentle swell, now like the sweet murmuring

sound of an Eolian harp? alas! you have no longer a daughter, I

have no longer a child--I can say no more--but pity, pity, and, if

you can, forgive me.

“CECILE BERTRAND.”

What was now the anguish and dismay of Gabrielle, who with a dreadful

impatience had read this long letter to an end, in the vain hope, at

every break and each succeeding line, to discover a ray of hope to save

her from absolute despair.--But no, her loved Agnes, the hoarded

treasure, which, like a miser, she considered that she possessed,

although she did not enjoy, which so long she had fondly anticipated to

claim, was gone, was vanished! a moment had blighted her best hopes, had

rendered vain to the object for whom she had risqued so much, the firm

perseverance with which she had endured distress, danger, grief, and

mortification; had rendered vain too the reward with which her courage

and sufferings had been crowned, in securing the protection she had

sought, the protection of a father for her cherished child!--The

reflection was too much, and her acute agony burst forth in loud cries,

which summoned Angelo, in trembling anticipation of ill, to her

apartment.

Gabrielle could only hold out to him the fatal letter; she could not

speak: Angelo glanced hastily over it; he read the relation of that

terrible disaster which caused her distraction, and forgetting his own

grief in the wilder agony of her’s, he made every attempt to soothe and

to console her; the idea which pressed heaviest on the mind of

Gabrielle, vented itself in the repeated exclamation of, “Oh! if still

she lives, what will be her fate, wandering about the world,

unprotected, unclaimed?”

Angelo had never seen his child, consequently his affliction was less

severe than that of her mother, which for some time appeared insensible

to every representation that could be made. He resolved, however, as the

only step now to be pursued, to set on foot every possible enquiry, not

in England indeed, for there they must have been fruitless, but in

Switzerland, on its borders; in Rome, Naples, &c. first writing to

Madame Bertrand for an exact description of the person of Agnes, and the

dress she wore at her departure; and afterwards writing severally to

such of his friends and acquaintances as were resident at these places,

intreating them to diffuse enquiry, and make it as general as they

possessed the power of doing, but with the exception of concealing such

circumstances as it might be both indelicate and unnecessary to divulge

in the pursuit.

This then was immediately entered upon, and followed up with a spirit

and an interest, such as shewed the high degree of estimation in which

Angelo was held by all who had an opportunity of knowing him. This

active perseverance too tended in a degree to divert the bitter anguish

of Gabrielle, by mingling it with the fever of hope, while its suspense

and agitation prevented her from sinking into absolute despair.

All however proved vain; at the end of several months they found

themselves at the precise point from which they had sat out, in total

and complete ignorance of the fate of their child. Nothing now was left

for the parents but the most hopeless and melancholy conjecture, and no

alternative but that of trusting to time for some developement of this

most mysterious and lamentable occurrence.

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