FROM GAY TO GRAVE.

Tea was a comfortable meal at Harton in the winter half of the year,

when the boys had fires in their rooms, at least, for social fellows who

clubbed together. Not but what it is cosy to linger over the meal with

a book in your hand, or propped up, as you sit alone at the corner of

the table, half turned to the hearth.

But Forsyth, Strachan, and Kavanagh liked to mess together, and

Strachan's room being the largest of the three, they selected that to

have their breakfast and tea in. All their cups, saucers, and so on,

were kept in a cupboard in that room, but toasting or such other light

cookery as their fags performed for them was done in their respective

apartments, for the avoidance of overcrowding and dispute amongst the

operators. Also, when bloaters, sprats, or sausages were in question,

it was well not to feed in the room in which the smell of preparation

was most powerful.

Though the half was drawing to its close, the evening board was

bountifully spread; for Forsyth's birthday had come off two days before,

and brought with it a token from home--a wicker token which the Lord

Mayor himself would not have despised. There was a ham, succulent and

tender; a tongue, fresh, not tinned, boiled, not stewed, of most

eloquent silence; a packet of sausages, a jar of marmalade, and, most

delicious of all, some potted shrimps. Harry knew, but did not tell,

that every one of those shrimps had been stripped of its shell by the

hands of Trix, who plumed herself, with unquestionable justice, upon her

shrimp-potting. Unfathomable is the depth of female devotion; fancy any

one being able to skin a shrimp, prawn, or walnut, and not eat it! The

shrimps, the sausages, were gone, the tongue was silent for ever, but

the ham and the marmalade remained.

The three friends were the oldest boys in the house, and almost in the

school. Two of them, Strachan and Kavanagh, were to leave at the end of

the half, and Forsyth was to do so after the next.

"Where's Kavanagh?" said the latter, coming into the room and sitting

down by the fire.

"At his tutor's," said Strachan; "he is bound to be in directly. Let

the tea brew a bit longer."

"It's uncommonly cold this evening; going to snow, I think. I hate snow

in February; there is no chance of real frost for skating, and it spoils

the football. Oh, here's Kavanagh."

The youth named strolled deliberately in at the moment, sat down at the

table, and began to shave off a slice of ham.

"Has the cold wind made you hungry, or has the effort to understand that

chorus in Euripides exhausted you?"

"I never try to understand what I firmly believe to have no meaning

whatever," drawled Kavanagh; "and I am never hungry. I consider it bad

form to be hungry; it shows that a fellow does not eat often enough.

Now the distinguishing mark of a gentleman is that he has too many meals

a day ever to feel hungry."

"I see; then you are only carving the ham for us."

"That does not exactly follow. Never jump to conclusions. A fire may

not actually require coals, yet you may put some on to keep it going; so

it is with a gentleman's stomach. You may take ham to appease hunger,

or you may take it to prevent the obtrusion of that vulgar sensation.

Not that I object to helping you fellows. The carving of ham is an art,

a fourpenny piece representing the maximum of thickness which the lean

should obtain. With a carving-knife and fork this ideal is not too easy

of attainment, but with these small blunt tools it requires a first-rate

workman to approach it. Now this slice, which I sacrifice on the altar

of friendship, is, I regret to say, fully as thick as a shilling."

At this moment a little boy, Kavanagh's fag, came into the room bearing

a muffin on a toasting-fork.

"Devereux!" said Kavanagh, severely, "do you know what Louis the

Fourteenth of France said when his carriage drew up, as he stepped

outside his front door?"

"No."

"He said, `I almost had to wait!' Now I, too, say to you that my tea is

poured out, my ham cut, and I almost had to wait. Not quite, happily

not quite, or the consequences to you would have been--terrible!"

The little boy did not look very frightened, in spite of the tone in

which the last word was uttered. Kavanagh had never been known wilfully

to hurt anything weaker than himself in his life. As he was tall and

strong, this is saying a great deal.

The two other fags grinned; one of them filled up the tea-pot, and then

Strachan said "Go!" and all three lower boys vanished in a twinkling to

prepare their own teas.

"We shall not have many more teas together," said Forsyth.

"No, but we may dinners," replied Strachan.

"Suppose we all get into the same regiment."

"The job is to get into any regiment at all," said Kavanagh. "There is

that abominable examination to be got over. Awfully clever and hard

reading fellows get beaten in it every time, I can tell you."

"Well, but I believe it is easier through the Militia than direct into

Sandhurst, is it not? And that is the way you and I are going to try.

At any rate, then we can go into the same Militia regiment, and that

will give us two trainings, besides preliminary drills, and so forth, to

have some fun together. And Forsyth must come in too."

"I have not quite made up my mind to go into the army, or rather to try

for it, at all yet," said Forsyth. "It seems such a waste of time to

sap for it, and then be sold after all. I can never do half so well as

I fairly ought in an examination, because I take so long to remember

things I know quite well, even if I have plenty of time to think them

out. I can learn, but I can't cram, so I fear I should never be in it."

"Oh, have a shy, man; it is only going in for something else if you

fail. And there is no life like the army if you succeed."

"If we fail, we fail. `But screw your courage to the sticking-place,

and we'll not fail,'" quoted Kavanagh.

"Well, it is very tempting; perhaps I shall try," said Forsyth.

"Look here, then," said Strachan, "there are two vacancies amongst the

sub-lieutenants in the fourth battalion of the Blankshire, and my father

is a friend of the Colonel. I am to have one, and I have no doubt you,

Kavanagh, will get the other. There is almost sure to be another

vacancy before the next training, and if there is, don't you think your

friends would let you leave Harton at once, and take it? Then you could

serve one training this year, and another next year, and be ready to go

in for the Competitive at the same time that we do."

"Thanks, old fellow," said Forsyth. "I will talk it over with my people

when I go home at Easter, and will let you know as quickly as I can."

"That is settled then. Oh, we won't say good-bye yet awhile."

"It is a strange thing," said Kavanagh, who, having finished his tea,

had tilted his chair so that his back leaned against the wall, while his

feet rested on another chair, less for the comfort of the position, than

to afford him an opportunity of admiring his well-cut trousers, his

striped socks, and his dandy shoes; "it is a strange thing that there

should only be one career fit for a fellow to follow, and that it should

be impossible for a fellow to get into it."

"It sounds rather like a sweeping assertion that, doesn't it?" observed

Strachan, who was helping himself to marmalade.

"That is because you do not grasp the meaning which I attach to the word

_fellow_. I do not allude to the ordinary mortal, who might be a

lawyer, or a parson, or a painter, or fiddler, or anything, and who

might get any number of marks in an examination. I mean by fellows, the

higher order of beings, who are only worth consideration; I do not

define them, because that is impossible; you must know, or you mustn't

know, according to your belonging to them or not. Anyhow, there they

are, and everything and everybody else is only of value so far as he,

she, or it is conducive to their comfort and well-being. For them the

army is the only fit profession, and only a few of them can get enough

marks to enter it."

"Am I one of these extra superfines?" asked Strachan.

"You may be, perhaps, if you don't eat too much marmalade."

"Come, you are pretty fond of jam yourself, Kavanagh," cried Forsyth.

"Well, yes; we all have our little weaknesses."

"That reminds me," said Strachan, turning round and poking the fire.

"Our school career is drawing to a close, and I have never made my

confession. I committed a crime last November which I have never owned,

which no one suspects, but which weighs, whenever I think of it, on my

conscience."

"Unburden," said Kavanagh.

"Well, then, you may remember that the weather was very mild up to the

seventh of the month."

"Don't; but grant it. Go ahead."

"On the eighth of November it grew suddenly colder, and I got out my

winter things, and in the afternoon I changed. Having done so, I put my

pencil in the right-hand waistcoat pocket. There was something round

and hard there--a lozenge? No, a shilling, which had remained there

ever since I changed my winter clothes in the spring. Now at that time

we were reduced to anchovy paste for breakfast, and our bare rations for

tea. Money was spent, tick was scarce, stores were exhausted. Faithful

to a friendship which has all things in common. I went out to Dell's

and bought a pot of apricot jam for tea, the time for which had arrived.

As ill-luck would have it, both you fellows were detained at something

or another--French, I rather think. I had to go to my tutor myself at

seven, so I could not wait, and began my tea alone. Well, the jam was

good, very good, hanged good; I never ate such jam! Had I had quite a

third of it? Not quite, perhaps; I gave myself the benefit of the

doubt. But, then, the gap looked awful. Happy thought! I would turn

it out into a saucer, and you might take it for a sixpenny pot. After

all, not expecting any, you would be pleased with that. But it looked

rather more than a sixpenny pot, so I had a bit more to reduce. And

then--you would not come, and you knew nothing about it. Why make two

bites of a cherry? I finished it, threw the pot out of window, and held

my tongue. But oh! Next day, when Kavanagh received his weekly

allowance, and laid it out in treacle and sprats for the public good, I

did indeed feel guilty."

"But you ate the sprats and treacle all the same, I expect."

"I did. I would not shirk my punishment, and flinch from the coals of

fire which were heaped on my head. I even enjoyed them. But my

conscience has been very sore, and feels better now than it has done for

a long time."

"You have not got absolution yet," said Forsyth.

"Not by long chalks," cried Kavanagh. "Jam! And apricot of all jams.

If you really want to wipe out the crime you must make restitution."

"Gladly; but would not that be difficult?"

"Not at all; you can do it in kind. At compound interest three pots

will clear you, I should say; or, if it don't run to that, say two."

"Two will do," echoed Forsyth. "Who's that at the door?"

"It's me," said a youth--dressed in a chocolate coat with brass

buttons--entering the room.

"Oh, happy Josiah!" exclaimed Kavanagh; "careless of rules, and allowing

your nominative and accusative cases to wander about at their own sweet

will; what pangs would be yours at mid-day to-morrow if you were a

scholar instead of a page, and said `_Hominem sum_,' or uttered any

other equivalent to your late remark! Shades of Valpy and Arnold--`It's

me!'"

"Mr Wheeler wants to see you at once," said Josiah, not listening to

the criticism on his grammar, and addressing Forsyth.

"My tutor wants to see me? What on earth about, I wonder?"

Obviously, the best way to satisfy his curiosity on this head was to go

at once, and this he did.

Mr Wheeler sat at the paper-laden desk in his private study, under the

brilliant light of a lamp with a green glass shade over it. There was

no other light in the room, which was consequently in shadow, while the

tutor was in a flood of illumination.

"Sit down, Forsyth," he said. "I am sorry to say I have bad news for

you from home."

"My mother!"

"No, no, my boy; bad enough, but not so bad as that. There are money

losses. Your father was connected with a bank, and it has been

unfortunate. It seems that it was a great shock to him, and he was not

in very good health. You may have known that?"

"Yes, sir, yes. I noticed that he looked ill when I went home at

Christmas."

"To be sure--yes. Then you will not be surprised at this sudden blow

having affected him very seriously?"

Harry could not take it all in at once; he had to sit silent awhile, and

let the meaning of his tutor's words sink in. At length he asked--"Is

he dead?" And the sound of his own voice uttering the word made him

give a sob.

"No," said Mr Wheeler; "he is very ill, and insensible, but living, and

while there is life there is hope, you know. People often recover from

fits, and this seems to be an attack of that nature. But it is as well

that you should go home at once. Put a few things together, and you

will catch the 8:30 train. A fly and your travelling money shall be

ready by the time you are."

"Thank you, sir," said Harry, and went back to his Dame's House in a

dazed state. Strachan and Kavanagh heard him come upstairs, and as he

went straight to his own room they followed him.

"Well, have you got the medal for alcaics?" asked Strachan, for they had

concluded that that was the news his tutor had for him. But seeing his

friend's face he stopped short.

"Something the matter, old fellow, I am afraid," he said. "Bad news

from home?"

"Yes," said Harry, in a voice he just kept from faltering. "I must go

home to-night; my father is ill."

"I am awfully sorry," said Strachan, uncomfortably, wanting to do

something to aid or cheer his friend, and unable to think what.

Kavanagh made no remark, but, seeing at a glance how the land lay, took

a candle to the box-room, caught up a travelling bag belonging to

Forsyth, and brought it down to him just as he was going to call Josiah

to find it for him.

It was not long before he got some things into it, and was ready to

start. A grip of the hand from each of his friends and he was gone.

What a bad time he had during that short journey; feverishly impatient,

and yet dreading to get to the end of it. It was an express train, and

he got to London in an hour, and was just in time for another on the

short line to his home. So he reached Holly Lodge by eleven. Before he

could ring the door opened. Trix was listening for the wheels, and ran

to let him in. She had been crying, but was very quiet.

"He is alive, but cannot see or hear," she said. "Come."

His mother was there, and two doctors, who looked very grave. One soon

left, but the other, who was the regular medical attendant and a friend,

remained, not, as he plainly said, that he could do anything for the

sick man, who was dying. And in the course of the night he passed away

without regaining consciousness.

But there is no good in dwelling upon that, or on the gloom of the next

few weeks. Poor Mr Forsyth had a heart disease, and when the Great

Transit Bank came to final smash, the agitation killed him then and

there.

For he was quite ruined. It was not only the money he had invested in

the bank which was gone, but, as a large shareholder, he was responsible

for the enormous sums due to those who had dealt with the bank.

Harry thought at first that they were penniless, and wondered almost in

despair how he should be able to support his mother and sister. For he

had learned no trade, he was not a skilled artisan, and mere manual

labour and clerk-work are, he knew, very poorly paid.

But when Mrs Forsyth had recovered sufficiently from the first shock of

her grief to grapple with the cares of every-day life, she showed him

that it was not so bad as he had feared.

"There is my five thousand pounds," she said--"my very own, which I had

before marriage, and which is secured to me. Two hundred and fifty

pounds a year I get from it, and it has always been a little pocket-

money which I had, without going to your dear father for every penny.

And now we must manage to live upon it."

Of course they had to go into a very small house, and could not take the

whole of that. And Harry did not go back to Harton, but began to try at

once for immediate employment which might bring some little grist to the

mill. And he was more fortunate than young fellows generally are when

starting on that heart-breaking search, for he had something to go upon.

He went straight to the London representative of the Egyptian house of

business with which his father had been connected, told his story, and

asked for employment.

"But your father was bought out fully, and you have no claim on us, you

know," said the merchant.

"I make no claim, sir," replied Harry; "I ask a favour. I don't know

why you should employ me more than anybody else, but still I thought the

connection might interest you. My father had a hand in establishing the

business, and I had a hope that that might weigh with you, if you have

found it a good one."

"Well, you have had a hard trial, and it is to your credit that you want

to go to work at once instead of sitting down in despair. The worst of

it is that you have been educated at Harton, and can know nothing of

what is useful in an office. What sort of hand do you write?"

"A shocking bad one, I fear, but any one can read it. And I am not so

very bad at figures. And I am ready to learn. Won't you give me a

chance, and pay me nothing till I am useful?"

"There is one thing, at any rate, you have learned at Harton," said the

other, with a smile, "and that is to speak up boldly, and to speak out

plainly. I was a friend of your poor father's, and shall be glad to

help you, since you are reasonable and see matters in their right light.

But you must not expect much."

So Harry was taken into the office as a clerk just for a month on trial.

And he showed so much zeal and intelligence that he was taken into

regular employment at the end of it, and received a five-pound note for

his work during the time of probation. And the joy and triumph with

which he brought home this, the first money he had ever earned, to his

mother and sister in the evening, cheered them all up in a manner to

which they had been strangers since ruin and death had fallen upon the

household.

Many castles did they build in the air that evening, but they were not

extravagant, their highest present ambition being to have the whole

cottage, which was but eight-roomed, to themselves, and to keep two

maids instead of one. And this, if Harry's salary rose to a hundred and

fifty, they thought they might manage. Of course it was a dreary life

for him after what he had been accustomed to, but he made the best of

it, and really interested himself in Egyptian trade, till he became a

connoisseur in gum. His principal recreation was shooting at the

Wimbledon butts on Saturday afternoons, he having joined a volunteer

corps for that purpose. He had done so at Harton, and was the best shot

there. He now had to compete with the best in the world, but he had a

marvellous eye, and up to three hundred yards could hold his own with

anybody. At any rate he won enough in prizes to pay all his expenses,

and a little over.

Even when their resources looked lowest, he never thought of selling the

sapphires his mysterious uncle had given him. He did not look upon them

as his own till the ten years were up, or to be used for any purpose but

that of going to find him. They, together with the silver case

containing the parchment and the ring, were locked up in his old-

fashioned, brass-bound desk which he kept in his bedroom. Nobody, not

even Trix, knew anything about them.

That was the one secret the brother and sister did not share. Beatrice

was disrespectful to her Mohammedan relative, and always called him

Uncle Renegade till Harry read Byron's "Siege of Corinth" aloud one

evening. After that she called him Uncle Alp.

But Harry Forsyth was destined to go to Egypt without needing his uncle.

He became more and more trusted by the firm which employed him, and at

last it was determined to send him out to the house at Cairo on

important business. His absence was a desolation for Mrs Forsyth and

Beatrice; but it meant money for one thing, and, what was far more

important in the mother's estimation, it was a change for Harry from the

gloomy monotony of a London office. As for the future she was under no

concern. She knew of Richard Burke's will, and that her children at all

events would be comfortably provided for by it, though she herself might

not outlive her elder brother.

Harry, as he was actually going to the country to which his uncle had

prophesied he would, took to wearing his ring, and carried the silver

case in an inner waistcoat pocket. The sapphires he left in his desk.

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