III.

With the exception of the time spent in the dining-room, the young

people saw little of Sir Iltyd. That he liked Dartmouth and enjoyed

his society were facts he did not pretend to disguise. But the habits

of years were too strong, and he always wandered back to his books. He

did not trouble himself about proprieties. Weir had grown up and ruled

the castle all these years without a chaperon, and he had lived out

of the world too long to suggest the advisability of one now. His

daughter and her lover experienced no yearning for supervision, and

the free, untrammelled life was a very pleasant one, particularly to

Dartmouth, who always gave to novelty its just meed of appreciation.

At this period, in fact, Dartmouth's frame of mind left nothing to be

desired. In the first place, it was a delightful experience to find

himself able to stand the uninterrupted society of one woman from

morning till night, day after day, without a suggestion of fatigue.

And in the second, he found her a charming study. It is true that he

was very much in love, very sincerely and passionately in love; but

at the same time, his brain had been trained through too many years to

the habit of analysis; he could no more help studying Weir and drawing

her on to reveal herself than he could help loving her. She was not a

difficult problem to solve, individual as she was, because she was so

natural. Her experience with the world had been too brief to give her

an opportunity to encase herself in any shell which would not fall

from her at the first reaction to primitive conditions; and above all,

she was in love.

In the love of a woman there is always a certain element of

childishness, which has a reflex, if but temporary action upon her

whole nature. The phenomenon is due partly to the fact that she is

under the dominant influence of a wholly natural instinct, partly to

the fact that the object of her love is of stronger make than herself,

mentally, spiritually, and physically. This sense of dependence and

weakness, and, consequently, of extreme youth, remains until she

has children. Then, under the influence of peculiarly strong

responsibilities, she gives her youth to them, and with it the

plasticity of her nature.

At present Weir was in the stage where she analyzed herself for her

lover's benefit, and confided to him every sensation she had ever

experienced; and he encouraged her. He had frequently encouraged other

women to do the same thing, and in each case, after the first few

chapters, he had found it a good deal of a bore. The moment a woman

falls in love, that moment she becomes an object of paramount interest

in her own eyes. All her life she has regarded herself from the

outside; her wants and needs have been purely objective; consequently

she has not known herself, and her spiritual nature has claimed but

little of her attention. But under the influence of love she plunges

into herself, as it were, and her life for the time being is purely

subjective. She broadens, expands, develops, concentrates; and her

successive evolutions are a perpetual source of delight and absorbing

study. Moreover, her sense of individuality grows and flourishes,

and becomes so powerful that she is unalterably certain--until it is

over--that her experience is an isolated and wholly remarkable

one. Naturally she must talk to someone; she is teeming with her

discoveries, her excursions into the heretofore unexplored depths

of human nature; the necessity for a confidant is not one to be

withstood, and who so natural or understanding a confidant as her

lover? If the lover be a clever man and an analyst, he is profoundly

interested at first, particularly if she have some trick of mind which

gives her, or seems to give her, the smack of individuality. If he be

a true lover, and a man with any depth of feeling and of mind, he

does not tire, of course; but otherwise he eventually becomes either

oppressed or frightened; he either wishes that women would not take

themselves so seriously and forget to be amusing, or her belief in her

peculiar and absolute originality communicates itself to him, and he

does not feel equal to handling and directing so remarkable a passion.

There was no question about the strength and verity of Dartmouth's

love for Weir, and he had yet to be daunted by anything in life;

consequently he found his present course of psychological research

without flaw. Moreover, the quaintness of her nature pervaded all

her ideas. She had an old-fashioned simplicity and directness which,

combined with a charming quality of mind and an unusual amount of

mental development, gave her that impress of originality which he had

recognized and been attracted by. He was gratified also to find that

the old-time stateliness, almost primness, which had been to him

from the first her chiefest exterior charm did not disappear with

association. She might sit on a rock muffled to her ears in furs, and

with her feet dangling in the air, and yet manage to look as dignified

as a duchess. She might race with him on horseback and clamber down a

cliff with the thoughtlessness of a child, but she always looked as

if she had been brought up on a chessboard. Dartmouth used to tell her

that her peculiarly erect carriage and lofty fashion of carrying her

head gave her the effect of surveillance over an invisible crown with

an unreliable fit, and that she stepped like the maiden in the fairy

tale who was obliged to walk upon peas. He made a tin halo one day,

and put it suddenly on her head when her back was turned, and she

avenged herself by wearing it until he went down on his knees and

begged her to take it off. When she sat in her carved high-back chair

at the head of her father's table, with the deep collar and cuffs

of linen and heavy lace to which she was addicted, and her dark,

sensuous, haughty, tender face motionless for the moment, against the

dark background of the leather, she looked like a Vandyke; and at such

times Dartmouth's artistic nature was keenly responsive, and he forgot

to chaff.

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