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1.--_Extracts from Mrs. Anderton's Journal._
_Aug._ 13, 1854.--Here we are, then, finally established at Notting
Hill. Jane laughs at us for coming to town just as every one else is
leaving it; but in my eyes, and I am sure in dear William's too, that
is the pleasantest time for us. Poor Willie, he grows more and more
sensitive to blame from any one, and has been sadly worried by this
discussion about our Dresden trip. The new professor to-morrow. I
wonder what he will be like.
_Aug._ 14.--And so _that_ is the new professor! I do not think I was
ever so astonished in my life. That little stout squab man, the most
powerful mesmerist in Europe! And yet he certainly is powerful, for he
had scarcely made a pass over me before I felt a glow through my whole
frame. There is something about him, too, when one comes to look at
him more closely, which puzzles me very much. He certainly is not the
common-place man he appears, though it would be difficult just now to
say what makes me so sure of it.
_Aug._ 25.--Quite satisfied now. How could I have ever thought the
Baron common-place! And yet, at first sight, his appearance is
certainly against him. He is not a man with whom I should like to
quarrel. I don't think he would have much compunction in killing any
one who offended him, or who stood in his way. How quietly he talks of
those horrid experiments in the medical schools, and the tortures they
inflict on the poor hospital patients. Willie says it is all nonsense,
and says all doctors talk so; but I can't help feeling that there is
something different about him. And yet he is certainly doing me good.
_Sept._ 1.--Better and better, and yet I cannot conquer the strange
feeling which is growing upon me about the Baron. He is certainly an
extraordinary man. What a grasp he takes of anything on which he rests
his hand even for a moment; and how perfectly he seems to disregard
anything that stands in his way. This morning I was at the window when
he came, and I was quite frightened when I saw him, as I thought, so
nearly run over. But I might have spared my anxiety, for my gentleman
just walked quietly on, while the poor horse started almost across the
road. Had it caught sight of those wonderful green eyes of his, that it
seemed so frightened? What eyes they are! You can hardly ever see them;
but when you do!--And yet the man is certainly doing me good.
_Sept._ 11.--So it is settled that the Baron is not to mesmerise me
himself any more. Am I sorry or glad? At all events, I hope they will
not now worry poor William....
_Sept._ 13.--First day of Mademoiselle Rosalie. Seems a nice person
enough; but it feels very odd to lie there on the sofa while some one
else is being mesmerised for one.
_Sept._ 15.--This new plan is beginning to answer. I think I feel the
mesmerism even more than when I was mesmerised myself, and this way
one gets all the pleasures and none of the disagreeables. It _is_ so
delicious. Looked back to-day at my Malvern journals. So odd to see how
I disliked the idea at first, and now I could hardly live without it.
_Sept._ 29.--I think we shall soon be able to do without the Baron
altogether. I am sure Rosalie and I could manage very well by
ourselves. What a wonderful thing this mesmerism is! To think that
the mere touch of another person's hand should soothe away pain, and
fill one with health and strength. Really, if I had not always kept
a journal, I should feel bound to keep one now, as a record of the
wonderful effects of this extraordinary cure. Got up this morning
with a nasty headache. No appetite for breakfast. Eyes heavy, and
pulse low. Poor William in terrible tribulation, when lo! in comes
little Mademoiselle Rosalie and the Baron. The gentleman makes a pass
or two--the lady pops her little, dry, monkey-looking paw upon my
forehead, and, _presto_! the headache has vanished, and I'm calling for
chocolate and toast!
_Sept._ 30.--A blank day. Headache again this morning, and looking out
anxiously for my little brown "good angel," when in comes the Baron,
with the news that she cannot come. Up all night with a dying lady, and
so fagged this morning that he is afraid she would do me more harm than
good. I am sure she cannot feel more fagged than I do, poor girl. But,
after all, in spite of the delight of doing so much good, what a life
it must be!
_Oct._ 1.--Rosalie here again. Headache vanished. Everything bright as
the October sun outside. I am getting quite fond of that girl. How I
wish she could speak something besides German....
_Oct._ 4.--It is quite extraordinary what a hold that poor girl,
Rosalie, is taking upon me. I am even beginning to dream of her at
night....
_Oct._ 6.--Headache again this morning, and a message that Rosalie
cannot come. How provoking that it is on the same day....
_Oct._ 12.--I think I shall really soon begin to know when poor Rosalie
has been over-worked. Headache again to-day, and I had a presentiment
that she would not be able to come....
_Oct._ 20.[1]--So now the Baron is going to leave us. Well, I am indeed
thankful that he can now so well be spared. Jane Morgan here to-day,
and of course laughing at the idea of mesmerism doing any good. She
could not deny, though, how wonderfully better I am, and indeed, but
for those tiresome headaches, which always seem to come just when poor
Rosalie is too tired to take them away, I am really quite well and
strong.
_Oct._ 31.--Something evidently wrong between poor Rosalie and the
Baron. She has evidently been crying, and I suppose it must be from
sympathy, but I feel exactly as if I had been crying too. Very little
satisfaction from the mesmerism to-day. It seems rather as if it had
given me some of poor Rosalie's depression. How I wish she could speak
English, or that I could speak German, and then I would find out what
is the matter. Perhaps she is to lose her work when the Baron goes.
Mem.: To ask him to-morrow.
_Nov._ 1.--No. He says he shall certainly take her with him to Germany,
and "he hopes that may have a beneficial effect." What can he mean? He
says she is quite well, but throws out mysterious insinuations as to
something being wrong with her. How I do wish I could speak German.
_Nov._ 3.--Still that uncomfortableness between the Baron and Rosalie.
I am sure there is something wrong, and that she wants to speak to me
about it, but is afraid of him. It certainly is strange that he should
never leave us alone. Mem.: To ask William to get him out of the way
for a little while to-morrow, though what good that will be when she
and I cannot understand each other, I hardly know after all....
_Nov._ 4.--What a day this has been! I feel quite tired out with the
excitement, and yet I cannot make up my mind to go to bed until I have
written it all down. In the first place, this is to be my last visit
from Rosalie, at all events till they come back from the continent.
I cannot help perceiving that William is not altogether sorry that
she is going. Dear fellow! I do really believe that he is more than
half jealous of my extraordinary feeling for her. And certainly it is
extraordinary that a woman quite in another class of life, of whom
one knows nothing, should have taken such a hold upon one. I suppose
it must be the mesmerism, which certainly is a very mysterious thing.
If it is so, it is at all events very fortunate it did not take that
turn with the Baron himself. Ugh! I can really begin to understand now
all the objections I thought so foolish and so tiresome three or four
months ago, before Rosalie first came. And yet, after all, I don't
think--in spite of mesmerism or anything else--one need ever have been
afraid of liking the Baron too much. I could quite understand being
afraid of him. Rosalie evidently is, and to own the truth so am I a
little, or I should not have been beaten in that way to-day. To-day
was my last _séance_ with Rosalie, and I had made up my mind to get
the Baron out of the way, and try and get something out of Rosalie.
They came at two o'clock as usual, and as I thought I would not lose a
chance, I had got dear William to lie in wait in his study, and call
to the Baron as he passed, in hopes that Rosalie would come up alone.
That was no use, however, for the Baron kept his stout little self
perseveringly between her and the staircase, and when I went--thinking
to be very clever--to the top of the staircase and called to her
to come up, it only gave him an excuse for breaking away from poor
William altogether, and coming straight up to me before her. I _was_
so provoked, I could hardly be civil. Well, of course the Baron was in
a great hurry, and we went to work at once with the mesmerising. When
that was done, we both tried to keep them talking, and I made signs to
William to get the Baron out of the way. I was really beginning to get
quite anxious about it, and kept on repeating over and over to myself
the two German words I had learned on purpose from Jane Morgan this
morning. It was no use, however, and I began to grow quite nervous;
and I am quite sure Rosalie saw what I was wanting, for she seemed to
get fidgety too, and then that made me more nervous still. At last the
Baron declared he must go, and they both got up to leave. William would
have given it up, but he says I looked so imploringly at him he could
not resist, so made one more effort by asking the Baron to come into
his study for a short private consultation. This he refused, saying
he had not time, but could say anything needful where we were. Then
William told me to take Rosalie into the next room, but the Baron would
not have that either, though he laughed when he said he could not trust
to a lady's punctuality in this case, but if I would leave Rosalie she
would not understand anything that was said. Of course this would not
do, and at last William, with more presence of mind and determination
than I should have thought him capable of, took him by the buttonhole
and fairly drew him away into the further window, where he began
whispering eagerly to him to draw off his attention. I suppose it was
the consciousness of a sort of stratagem, but my heart beat quite fast
as I brought out my two words, "_Gibst' was?_" and I could see that
hers was so too. She seemed surprised at my speaking to her in German,
and certainly I was no less so to hear her answer in English, with
a slight accent certainly, but still in quite plain English--"Don't
seem to listen. I am ..." and then she stopped suddenly and turned
quite pale, and I could feel all my own blood rush back to my heart
with such a throb! I looked up, and there were the Baron's eyes fixed
upon us. Poor Rosalie seemed quite frightened, and I declare I felt
so too. At all events, we neither of us ventured on another word, and
the next minute the Baron succeeded in fairly shaking off poor William
and taking his leave. So there is an end of my little romance about
Rosalie. I am _sure_ there was something in it. Why, if she had nothing
particular to say, should she have taken the trouble of learning that
little bit of English? and why--but I must not sit here all night
speculating about this, which after all is, I daresay, nothing at all.
It is positively just twelve o'clock.
_Nov._ 6.--How strange! There is certainly some mystery about Rosalie
and the Baron. I am quite certain I saw them in a cab together this
morning, and yet they were to cross on Saturday night and be in Paris
yesterday. I wonder whether they were late after all, and yet an hour
and a-half is surely time enough to London Bridge, and if he had missed
the train I should think he would have come to us yesterday. At all
events he might have gone early this morning. It is very odd....
_Nov._ 7.--I wonder whether any one ever had such a husband as I have
got. Yesterday he must needs worry himself with the idea that I am
fretting about the loss of my mesmerism,--as if I could possibly think
a moment about the loss of anything when I had got him with me. So
nothing would satisfy him but that we must go to the Haymarket to see
"Paul Pry" and the Spanish Dancers. I have not laughed so much for many
a long day. I don't like all that violent dancing, so we came away
directly after the absurd little farce--"How to Pay the Rent." How we
did laugh at it to be sure, and the absurdities of that little monkey,
Clark. Wright, too, in "Paul Pry," is quite inimitable. Dear William,
how good it was of him!....
_Dec._ 5.--Just going to the theatre again when news came of poor Harry
Morton's illness. My own dear William, how good he is to every one. And
so prompt, too. Touch his heart or his honour, and the Duke himself
could not be more quick and decided. The news only came as we were
dressing, and to-morrow we are off to Naples to meet poor Mr. Morton,
and nurse him.
_Dec._ 6.--There is no one like Willie. After all the scramble we have
had to get ready, he would not take me across when it was so rough. So
we have taken two dear little rooms, from day to day, because Willie
cannot bear the publicity of an hotel, and I am sure I hate it too, and
we are to wait till it is fine enough to cross.
_Dec._ 9.--Still here; but the wind has gone down almost suddenly
within the last three hours, and to-morrow morning I hope we really
shall cross. Dear William getting quite worried; I persuaded him to
take me to a lecture that was going on, and while we were there the
wind went down, and we have been packing up ever since. Twelve o'clock!
and William calling to me. I _must_ just put down about Mr.... Good
Heaven! What is the matter? I feel so ill--quite--
2.--_Statement of Dr. Watson._
My name is James Watson, and I am a physician of about thirty years'
standing. In 1854, I was practising at Dover. On the night of the 9th
of December in that year, I was sent for hurriedly to see a lady, of
the name of Anderton, who had been taken suddenly ill immediately after
her return from a lecture at the Town-hall, which she had attended with
her husband. The message was brought by the servant from the lodgings
where they were living. On our way to the house she told me that "the
lady was dying, and the poor gentleman quite distracted." On arriving
at the house I found Mr. Anderton supporting his wife in his arms.
He seemed greatly agitated, and cried, "For God's sake be quick--I
think she has got the cholera!" Mrs. Anderton was on the couch in her
dressing-room, partially undressed, but with two or three blankets
thrown over her, as she seemed shivering with the cold. There was a
good fire in the room, but notwithstanding this and the blankets, her
hands and feet were both quite chilly.[2] I asked Mr. Anderton why
she had not been got to bed, to which he replied, that she had been
vomiting, until within a very few moments, so violently, that they had
been unable to move her. Almost immediately on my arrival the vomiting
re-commenced, though there appeared to be now hardly anything left in
the stomach to come away. The retching continued with unabated violence
for more than an hour after the stomach had been evidently completely
emptied, and was accompanied with great purging and severe cramps both
in the stomach and the extremities. I at once sent to my house for a
portable bath I happened to have hired for my own wife's use, and,
on its arrival, placed Mrs. Anderton in it at a temperature of 98°,
having previously added 3/4lb. of mustard. While waiting for the bath,
I administered thirty drops of laudanum in a wine-glassful of hot
brandy-and-water, but without, in any degree, checking the purging,
which continued almost incessantly, and was of a most watery character.
It was accompanied also by violent pains and great swelling of the
_epigastrium_. A fresh dose of opium was equally unsuccessful, nor was
any amelioration of symptoms produced by the exhibition of prussic
acid and creosote. On removing the patient from the warm bath, I had
her carefully placed in bed, shortly after which she began to perspire
profusely, but without any relief to the other symptoms.... I now
began to fear that some deleterious substance had been unconsciously
swallowed, the more especially as the patient had, up to the very
moment of her seizure, been in unusually good health. I therefore
made careful examinations with the view to detecting the presence of
arsenic; and instituted, by the aid of Mr. Anderton, the strictest
inquiries as to whether there was in the house any preparation
containing this or any other irritant poison. Nothing of the kind
could, however, be found, nor were such tests, as I was at the time
in a position to apply, able to detect anything of the kind to which
my suspicions were directed. Deliberate poisoning proved, moreover,
on consideration, entirely out of the question, as there could be no
doubt of Mr. Anderton's devoted attachment to his wife, and the people
of the house were entire strangers to her. Moreover, the length of
time since any food had been taken was almost conclusive against such
a supposition. Mrs. Anderton had dined at six o'clock, and between
that hour and midnight, when the attack came on, had eaten nothing but
a biscuit and part of a glass of sherry-and-water, the remainder of
which was in the glass upon the dressing-room table when I arrived.
Since then I have removed portions of all the matters tested, as well
as the remaining wine-and-water, and have had them thoroughly examined
by a scientific chemist, but equally without result. I am compelled,
therefore, to believe that the symptoms arose from some natural though
undiscovered cause. Possibly from a sudden chill in coming from the
heated rooms into the night air, though this seems hardly compatible
with the fact that she never complained of cold during the long drive
home, and that she was seated comfortably in her dressing-room, making
her customary entries in her journal, when the attack came on. Another
very suspicious circumstance was that, afterwards mentioned by her, of
a strong metallic taste in the mouth, a symptom sometimes occasioned,
and in conjunction likewise with the others noticed in her case, by
the exhibition of excessive doses of antimony in the form of emetic
tartar. This medicine, however, had never been prescribed for her, nor
was there any possibility of her having had access to any in mistake.
At Mr. Anderton's request, however, I exhibited the remedies used in
such a case, as port wine, infusion of oak-bark, &c., but with as
little effect as the other medicines. Indeed, the remedies of whatever
kind were precluded from exercising their full action by the extreme
irritability of the stomach, by which they were ejected almost as soon
as swallowed. This being the case, I abandoned any further attempt at
the exhibition of the heavy doses I had hitherto employed, or indeed
of drugs of any kind, and confined myself, until the irritation of the
_epigastrium_ should have been in some measure allayed, to a treatment
I have occasionally found successful in somewhat similar cases; the
administration, that is to say, of simple soda-water in repeated doses
of a teaspoonful at a time. I have often found this to remain with good
effect upon the stomach when everything else was at once rejected, nor
was I disappointed in the present case. About an hour after commencing
this treatment, the first violence of the symptoms began to subside,
and by the next afternoon the case had resolved itself into an ordinary
one of severe _gastroenteritis_ which I then proceeded to treat in the
regular manner. After quite as short a period as I could possibly have
expected, this also was subdued, leaving the patient, however, in a
state of great prostration, and subject to night-perspirations of a
most lowering character. I now began to throw in tonics, and to resort,
though very cautiously, to more invigorating diet. Under this treatment
she continued steadily to improve, though the perspirations still
continued, and her constitution cannot be said to have at all recovered
the severe shock it had sustained by the month of April, 1855, when
they left Dover, by my recommendation, for change of air. Since that
time I have not seen her. I am quite unable to account for the seizure
from any cause but that of a chill; an hypothesis which, I must admit,
rests its authority almost solely on the fact that no other can be
found.
3.--_Extracts from Mrs. Anderton's Journal_--_Continued._
_Jan._ 20, 1855.--At last I get back once more to my old brown
friend.[3] Dear old thing, how pleasant its old face seems! Very little
to-day though; only a word or two, just to say it is done. Oh, how it
tries one!
_Jan._ 25.--My own dear husband's birthday; and, thank Heaven! I am
once more able to sit with him. Oh! how kind he has been through all
these weary weeks, when I have been so fretful and impatient. Why
should suffering make one cross? God knows, I _have_ suffered. I never
thought to live through that terrible night. It makes me shudder to
think of it. And, then, that horrid, deathlike, leaden taste--that was
worst of all. Well, thank God! I am better now, but so weak. I am quite
tired with writing even these few lines....
_Feb._ 12.--How weak I still am! Walked out to-day with dear William
for the first time upon the pier, but had scarcely got to the end of
it, when I felt so tired I was obliged to sit down while poor William
went to fetch a chair to take me home.
_Feb._ 13. I have been quite startled to-day. I was talking to Dr.
Watson about my being so tired yesterday, and about how very weak I
still was, and how ill I had been--and, at last, he let slip that, at
the time, he thought I had been poisoned. It gave me quite a turn, and
then he tried to make us talk of something else, but I could not get it
out of my head, and kept coming back and back to it, and wondering who
could have had any possible interest in poisoning poor me. And so we
went on talking; and, at last, Dr. Watson said something which let out
that at first he had suspected--William! my own William! my precious,
precious husband! Oh! I thought I should have choked on the spot. I
don't know what I said, but I do know I could not have said too much,
and poor William tried to laugh it off, and said: "Who else would have
gained anything by it? Would he not have had that miserable 25,000_l_.?
and besides him, there was no one but the Charities in India, and they
could not have done it, because they would not exist till we were
gone;" but I could see how he winced at the idea, and I felt as though
my blood were really boiling in my veins. And then that man--oh! how
thankful I shall be when we can get away from him--tried to persuade
me that he had not really thought it. I should think not, indeed! and
that he soon saw it was impossible, and all that; and at last, I fairly
burst out crying with passion, and ran out of the room. And--and--I
could cry now to think of my poor dear Willie being--and I shall,
too, if I go on thinking about it any longer, so I will write no more
to-night.
_Feb._ 15.--No journal yesterday, I really could not trust myself to
write. And poor Willie, though he tried to laugh at it, I could see how
bitterly he felt the imputation. Good Heaven! think if that wretched
man had really charged him with it. It would have killed him. I know it
would, and he would rather have died a thousand times. Well, I must not
think of it any more. Only, once more, thank Heaven! we shall soon be
going away.
_April_ 7.--Back once more at home, thank Heaven! But how slow, how
very slow this convalescence, as they call it, is. Oh! shall I ever be
well again, as I was last year before that horrid day at Dover!
_May_ 3.--So we are to leave England for a time, and try the German
baths. I am almost thankful for it. I have grown very fond, too, of
this dear little luxurious house, though I could hardly say why. It is
like my wonderful fancy for Rosalie. Ah, poor Rosalie! I wonder where
she is now, and when they will return. I cannot help thinking she might
do me some good. But, as I was saying; fond as I am of this dear little
house, I shall be really glad to leave it for a time, and see what
change of air will do for me. If I could only get rid of those terrible
night perspirations. It is they that pull me down so, and make me so
weak and miserable. Oh! what would I not give to be well once more, if
it were only to get rid of the memory of that time.
_July_ 7.--Safe at Baden Baden; and too early as yet for the majority
of the English pleasure-seekers. What a delicious place it is; I
declare I quite feel myself better already....
_Sept._ 11.--Really almost well again. Quite a comfortable talk to-day
with dear Willie about that foolish Dr. Watson; the first time the
subject has been mentioned between us, since that day when I got into
such a passion about it. Poor man, he was hardly worth going into a
rage about. We heard to-day of his having made some terrible blunder in
the new place he has gone to, and lost all his practice by killing some
poor old woman through it. It was this made us talk of his poisoning
notion, and oh! how glad I was to see that dear Willie had quite got
over his nervousness about it. We had quite a long talk; and, at last,
he promised me faithfully never to say a word more about it to any one.
_Oct._ 10.--Home again at last, and in our own dear little house. And
really I feel once more as well and strong as this time last year. Dear
William, too, how happy he is; the shadow seems quite to have passed
away. God grant it may not return.
_Oct._ 30.--An eventful day. All the morning at the Crystal Palace, and
just as we returned who should walk in but the Baron R**! It was just a
year since he left us, but he had not altered in the very least. I do
not think that short, square figure, with the impenetrable rosy face,
and the large white hands, and those wonderful great green eyes that
you can so rarely catch, and when you have caught, so invariably wish
you had let alone, can ever change. I am afraid I was not very cordial
to him. I ought to be, for he has done great things for me; and yet
somehow when I saw him, I felt quite a cold shudder run all through
me. Dear William saw it, and asked if I was ill, and when I laughed
and said, "No, it was only some one walking over my grave," I could
not help fancying that for a moment the Baron's lips seemed to turn
quite white, and I just caught one glance from those awful eyes that
seemed as if it would read me through and through. And yet after all
it may have been only fancy, for the next moment he was talking in his
rich, quiet voice as though nothing could ever disturb him. So Rosalie
is gone. That is clear at all events, though what has exactly become
of her I cannot quite so well understand. From all I can make out, she
seems, poor girl, to have married very foolishly, and it was that that
was the matter between them when they went away last year. The Baron
seemed indeed to hint at something even worse, but he would not speak
out plainly, and I would defy any one to make that man say one word
more than he may choose. Poor Rosalie, I hope she has not come to any
harm.
_Nov._ 1.--Another visit from the Baron, to say good-bye before his
return to--his wife! How strange that we should never have heard of her
before, and even now I cannot make out whether he has married since he
left us or whether he was always so. Certainly that man is a mystery,
and just now it pleases him to talk especially in enigmas. He does not
seem disposed, however, to put up with vague information on our part. I
thought he would never have done questioning poor William and me about
my illness, and at last he drew it out of me--not out of William, dear
fellow--what that foolish Dr. Watson had said. After all I am not sorry
I told him, for it was quite a relief to hear him speak so strongly of
the absurdity of such an idea, and I am sure it was a comfort to poor
William. He--the Baron--spoke very strongly too about the danger of
setting such ideas about, and particularly cautioned dear Willie not to
mention it to any one. I knew he would not have done so any way, but
this will make him more comfortable.
_April_ 3.--Such a delightful day and so tired. I never saw Richmond
look so lovely, and how dear Willie and I did enjoy ourselves in that
lovely park. But oh! I am so sleepy. Not a word more.
_April_ 5.--Another lovely day--strolling about Lord Holland's Park
all the morning, and this evening some music in our own dear little
drawing-room. How happy--how very happy--good Heaven, what is this?
That old horrible leaden taste: and oh, so deadly sick....
_April_ 6.--Thank Heaven the attack seems to have passed away. Oh,
how it frightened me. Thank Heaven, too, I was able to keep the worst
from dear William, and he did not know how like it was to that other
dreadful time.
_April_ 20.--Again that horrible sickness, and worse--oh, far
worse--still, that awful deadly leaden taste. Worse this time, too,
than the last. In bed all day yesterday. Poor Willie terribly anxious.
Pray Heaven it may not come again.
_May_ 6.--Another attack. God help me! if this should go on, I do not
know what will become of me. Already I am beginning to feel weaker and
weaker. Poor Willie!--these last three days have been terrible ones for
him. However, the doctor says it will all pass off. Pray Heaven it may!
_May_ 25.--More sickness, more derangement, more of that horrible
leaden taste. The doctor himself is beginning to look uncomfortable,
and I can see that poor Willie's mind is reverting to that terrible
suggestion a year ago. Thank Heaven I have as yet managed to conceal
from him and from Dr. Dodsworth that horrid deadly taste which made
such an impression on Dr. Watson. Oh, when will this end!
_June_ 10.--A horrible suspicion is taking possession of me. What can
this mean? I look back through my journal, and it is every fortnight
that this fearful attack returns. The 5th and 18th of April--3rd and
21st of May--and now again the 7th of this month. And that terrible
leaden taste which is now almost constantly in my mouth; and with every
attack my strength failing--failing--O God, what can it be?
_June_ 26.--Another fortnight--another attack. There _must_ be foul
play somewhere. And yet who could--who would do such a thing? Thank
Heaven I have still concealed from my poor William that worst symptom
of all, the horrible leaden taste which is now never out of my mouth.
My precious Willie, how kind, how good he is to me....
_July_ 12.--I cannot hold out much longer now. Each time the attack
returns I lose something of the little, the very little strength that
is left. God help me, I feel now that I must go.... The Baron came
to-day, and for a moment my poor boy's face lighted up with hope again.
They had a long discussion before the doctor would consent to consult
with him, but after that, they seemed to change the medicines. But
something must have gone wrong, for I have never seen Dr. Dodsworth
look so grave.
_Aug._ 1.--I think the end is drawing very near now. This last attack
has weakened me more than ever, and I write this in my bed. I shall
never rise from it again. My poor, poor Willie.... Three days I have
been in bed now, but I have taken nothing from any hand but his.
_Aug._ 17.--This is, I think, almost the last entry I shall make.
Another fortnight and I shall be too weak to hold the pen--if, indeed,
I am still here.
_Sept._ 5.--Another attack. Strange how this weary body bears up
against all this pain. Would that it were over; and yet my poor, poor
boy.... He too, is almost worn out; night and day he never leaves me...
I take the things from his hand, but I cannot taste them now--nothing
but lead....
_Sept._ 27.[3]--Farewell my husband--my darling--my own precious
Willie. Think of me--come soon to me. God bless you--God comfort
you--my darling--my own.
_In the hand of Mr. Anderton._
This day my darling died. Oct. 12th, 1856. W. A.
[Footnote 1: Compare Section II., 2 and 5.]
[Footnote 2: This portion of Dr. Watson's statement, relating entirely
to the symptoms of Mrs. Anderton's case, though some details are
excluded, necessarily contains much that must be interesting only
to the medical profession and disagreeable to the general reader.
The following paragraph may therefore be passed over, merely noting
that the symptoms were such as would be compatible with antimonial
poisoning.]
[Footnote 3: Apparently the journal, which is bound in brown Russian
leather.]