As Ranulph had surmised, the ship was the Narcissus, and its first
lieutenant was Philip d’Avranche. The night before, orders had reached
the vessel from the Admiralty that soundings were to be taken at the
Ecrehos. The captain had at once made inquiries for a pilot, and Jean
Touzel was commended to him. A messenger sent to Jean found that he had
already gone to the Ecrehos. The captain had then set sail, and now,
under Jean’s skilful pilotage, the Narcissus twisted and crept through
the teeth of the rocks at the entrance, and slowly into the cove, reefs
on either side gaping and girding at her, her keel all but scraping
the serrated granite beneath. She anchored, and boats put off to take
soundings and explore the shores. Philip was rowed in by Jean Touzel.
Stepping out upon the beach of Mattre ‘Ile, Philip slowly made his way
over the shingle to the ruined chapel, in no good humour with himself or
with the world, for exploring these barren rocks seemed a useless whim
of the Admiralty, and he could not conceive of any incident rising from
the monotony of duty to lighten the darkness of this very brilliant
day. His was not the nature to enjoy the stony detail of his profession.
Excitement and adventure were as the breath of life to him, and since
he had played his little part at the Jersey battle in a bandbox eleven
years before, he had touched hands with accidents of flood and field in
many countries.
He had been wrecked on the island of Trinidad in a tornado, losing his
captain and his ship; had seen active service in America and in India;
won distinction off the coast of Arabia in an engagement with Spanish
cruisers; and was now waiting for his papers as commander of a ship
of his own, and fretted because the road of fame and promotion was so
toilsome. Rumours of war with France had set his blood dancing a little,
but for him most things were robbed of half their pleasure because they
did not come at once.
This was a moody day with him, for he had looked to spend it
differently. As he walked up the shingle his thoughts were hanging
about a cottage in the Place du Vier Prison. He had hoped to loiter in
a doorway there, and to empty his sailor’s heart in well-practised
admiration before the altar of village beauty. The sight of Guida’s face
the day before had given a poignant pulse to his emotions, unlike the
broken rhythm of past comedies of sentiment and melodramas of passion.
According to all logic of custom, the acuteness of yesterday’s
impression should have been followed up by today’s attack; yet here he
was, like another Robinson Crusoe, “kicking up the shingle of a cursed
Patmos”--so he grumbled aloud. Patmos was not so wild a shot after all,
for no sooner had he spoken the word than, looking up, he saw in the
doorway of the ruined chapel the gracious figure of a girl: and a book
of revelations was opened and begun.
At first he did not recognise Guida. There was only a picture before him
which, by some fantastic transmission, merged into his reveries. What he
saw was an ancient building--just such a humble pile of stone and rough
mortar as one might see on some lone cliff of the AEgean or on abandoned
isles of the equatorial sea. The gloom of a windowless vault was behind
the girl, but the filtered sunshine of late September fell on her head.
It brightened the white kerchief, and the bodice and skirt of a faint
pink, throwing the face into a pleasing shadow where the hand curved
over the forehead. She stood like some Diana of a ruined temple looking
out into the staring day.
At once his pulses beat faster, for to him a woman was ever the fountain
of adventure, and an unmanageable heart sent him headlong to the oasis
where he might loiter at the spring of feminine vanity, or truth, or
impenitent gaiety, as the case might be. In proportion as his spirits
had sunk into sour reflection, they now shot up rocket-high at the sight
of a girl’s joyous pose of body and the colour and form of the picture
she made. In him the shrewdness of a strong intelligence was mingled
with wild impulse. In most, rashness would be the outcome of such a
marriage of characteristics; but clear-sightedness, decision, and a
little unscrupulousness had carried into success many daring actions of
his life. This very quality of resolute daring saved him from disaster.
Impulse quickened his footsteps now. It quickened them to a run when
the hand was dropped from the girl’s forehead, and he saw again the face
whose image and influence had banished sleep from his eyes the night
before.
“Guida!” broke from his lips.
The man was transfigured. Brightness leaped into his look, and the
greyness of his moody eye became as blue as the sea. The professional
straightness of his figure relaxed into the elastic grace of an athlete.
He was a pipe to be played on: an actor with the ambitious brain of a
diplomatist; as weak as water, and as strong as steel; soft-hearted to
foolishness or unyielding at will.
Now, if the devil had sent a wise imp to have watch and ward of this
man and this maid, and report to him upon the meeting of their ways,
the moment Philip took Guida’s hand, and her eyes met his, monsieur the
reporter of Hades might have clapped-to his book and gone back to his
dark master with the message and the record: “The hour of Destiny is
struck.”
When the tide of life beats high in two mortals, and they meet in
the moment of its apogee, when all the nature is sweeping on without
command, guilelessly, yet thoughtlessly, the mere lilt of existence
lulling to sleep wisdom and tried experience--speculation points all one
way. Many indeed have been caught away by such a conjunction of tides,
and they mostly pay the price.
But paying is part of the game of life: it is the joy of buying that we
crave. Go down into the dark markets of the town. See the long, narrow,
sordid streets lined with the cheap commodities of the poor. Mark
how there is a sort of spangled gaiety, a reckless swing, a grinning
exultation in the grimy, sordid caravanserai. The cheap colours of the
shoddy open-air clothing-house, the blank faded green of the coster’s
cart; the dark bluish-red of the butcher’s stall--they all take on a
value not their own in the garish lights flaring down the markets of
the dusk. Pause to the shrill music of the street musician, hear the
tuneless voice of the grimy troubadour of the alley-ways; and then hark
to the one note that commands them all--the call which lightens up faces
sodden with base vices, eyes bleared with long looking into the dark
caverns of crime:
“Buy--buy--buy--buy--buy!”
That is the tune the piper pipes. We would buy, and behold, we must pay.
Then the lights go out, the voices stop, and only the dark tumultuous
streets surround us, and the grime of life is ours again. Whereupon we
go heavily to hard beds of despair, having eaten the cake we bought, and
now must pay for unto Penalty, the dark inordinate creditor. And anon
the morning comes, and then, at last, the evening when the triste
bazaars open again, and the strong of heart and nerve move not from
their doorways, but sit still in the dusk to watch the grim world go
by. But mostly they hurry out to the bazaars once more, answering to the
fevered call:
“Buy--buy--buy--buy--buy!”
And again they pay the price: and so on to the last foreclosure and the
immitigable end.
One of the two standing in the door of the ruined chapel on the Ecrehos
had the nature of those who buy but once and pay the price but once; the
other was of those who keep open accounts in the markets of life. The
one was the woman and the other was the man.
There was nothing conventional in their greeting. “You remembered me!”
he said eagerly, in English, thinking of yesterday.
“I shouldn’t deserve to be here if I had forgotten,” she answered
meaningly. “Perhaps you forget the sword of the Turk?” she added.
He laughed a little, his cheek flushed with pleasure. “I shouldn’t
deserve to be here if I remembered--in the way you mean,” he answered.
Her face was full of pleasure. “The worst of it is,” she said, “I never
can pay my debt. I have owed it for eleven years, and if I should live
to be ninety I should still owe it.”
His heart was beating hard and he became daring. “So, thou shalt save
my life,” he said, speaking in French. “We shall be quits then, thou and
I.”
The familiar French thou startled her. To hide the instant’s confusion
she turned her head away, using a hand to gather in her hair, which the
wind was lifting lightly.
“That wouldn’t quite make us quits,” she rejoined; “your life is
important, mine isn’t. You”--she nodded towards the Narcissus--“you
command men.”
“So dost thou,” he answered, persisting in the endearing pronoun.
He meant it to be endearing. As he had sailed up and down the world,
a hundred ports had offered him a hundred adventures, all light in
the scales of purpose, but not all bad. He had gossiped and idled and
coquetted with beauty before; but this was different, because the nature
of the girl was different from all others he had met. It had mostly been
lightly come and lightly go with himself, as with the women it had
been easily won and easily loosed. Conscience had not smitten him
hard, because beauty, as he had known it, though often fair and of good
report, had bloomed for others before he came. But here was a nature
fresh and unspoiled from the hand of the potter Life.
As her head slightly turned from him again, he involuntarily noticed the
pulse beating in her neck, the rise and fall of her bosom. Life--here
was life unpoisoned by one drop of ill thought or light experience.
“Thou dost command men too,” he repeated.
She stepped forward a little from the doorway and beyond him, answering
back at him:
“Oh, no, I only knit, and keep a garden, and command a little home,
that’s all.... Won’t you let me show you the island?” she added quickly,
pointing to a hillock beyond, and moving towards it. He followed,
speaking over her shoulder:
“That’s what you seem to do,” he answered, “not what you do.” Then he
added rhetorically: “I’ve seen a man polishing the buckle of his shoe,
and he was planning to take a city or manoeuvre a fleet.”
She noticed that he had dropped the thou, and, much as its use had
embarrassed her, the gap left when the boldness was withdrawn became
filled with regret, for, though no one had dared to say it to her
before, somehow it seemed not rude on Philip’s lips. Philip? Yes, Philip
she had called him in her childhood, and the name had been carried on
into her girlhood--he had always been Philip to her.
“No, girls don’t think like that, and they don’t do big things,” she
replied. “When I polish the pans”--she laughed--“and when I scour my
buckles, I just think of pans and buckles.” She tossed up her fingers
lightly, with a perfect charm of archness.
He was very close to her now. “But girls have dreams, they have
memories.”
“If women hadn’t memory,” she answered, “they wouldn’t have much, would
they? We can’t take cities and manoeuvre fleets.” She laughed a little
ironically. “I wonder that we think at all or have anything to think
about, except the kitchen and the garden, and baking and scouring and
spinning”--she paused slightly, her voice lowered a little--“and
the sea, and the work that men do round us.... Do you ever go into a
market?” she added suddenly.
Somehow she could talk easily and naturally to him. There had been no
leading up to confidence. She felt a sudden impulse to tell him all
her thoughts. To know things, to understand, was a passion with her. It
seemed to obliterate in her all that was conventional, it removed her
far from sensitive egotism. Already she had begun “to take notice” in
the world, and that is like being born again. As it grows, life ceases
to be cliche; and when the taking notice is supreme we call it genius;
and genius is simple and believing: it has no pride, it is naive, it is
childlike.
Philip seemed to wear no mark of convention, and Guida spoke her
thoughts freely to him. “To go into a market seems to me so wonderful,”
she continued. “There are the cattle, the fruits, the vegetables, the
flowers, the fish, the wood; the linen from the loom, the clothes that
women’s fingers have knitted. But it isn’t just those things that you
see, it’s all that’s behind them--the houses, the fields, and the boats
at sea, and the men and women working and working, and sleeping and
eating, and breaking their hearts with misery, and wondering what is to
be the end of it all; yet praying a little, it may be, and dreaming a
little--perhaps a very little.” She sighed, and continued: “That’s as
far as I get with thinking. What else can one do in this little island?
Why, on the globe Maitre Damian has at St. Aubin’s, Jersey is no bigger
than the head of a pin. And what should one think of here?”
Her eyes were on the sea. Its mystery was in them, the distance, the ebb
and flow, the light of wonder and of adventure too. “You--you’ve been
everywhere,” she went on. “Do you remember you sent me once from Malta a
tiny silver cross? That was years ago, soon after the Battle of Jersey,
when I was a little bit of a girl. Well, after I got big enough I used
to find Malta and other places on Maitre Damian’s globe. I’ve lived
always there, on that spot”--she pointed towards Jersey--“on that
spot one could walk round in a day. What do I know! You’ve been
everywhere--everywhere. When you look back you’ve got a thousand
pictures in your mind. You’ve seen great cities, temples, palaces, great
armies, fleets; you’ve done things: you’ve fought and you’ve commanded,
though you’re so young, and you’ve learned about men and about many
countries. Look at what you know, and then, if you only think, you’ll
laugh at what I know.”
For a moment he was puzzled what to answer. The revelation of the
girl’s nature had come so quickly upon him. He had looked for freshness,
sweetness, intelligence, and warmth of temperament, but it seemed to
him that here were flashes of power. Yet she was only seventeen. She had
been taught to see things with her own eyes and not another’s, and she
spoke of them as she saw them; that was all. Yet never but to her mother
had Guida said so much to any human being as within these past few
moments to Philip d’Avranche.
The conditions were almost maliciously favourable, and d’Avranche was
simple and easy as a boy, with his sailor’s bonhomie and his naturally
facile spirit. A fateful adaptability was his greatest weapon in life,
and his greatest danger. He saw that Guida herself was unconscious of
the revelation she was making, and he showed no surprise, but he caught
the note of her simplicity, and responded in kind. He flattered her
deftly--not that she was pressed unduly, he was too wise for that. He
took her seriously; and this was not all dissimulation, for her every
word had glamour, and he now exalted her intellect unduly. He had never
met girl or woman who talked just as she did; and straightway, with the
wild eloquence of his nature, he thought he had discovered a new heaven
and a new earth. A spell was upon him. He knew what he wanted when he
saw it. He had always made up his mind suddenly, always acted on the
intelligent impulse of the moment. He felt things, he did not study
them--it was almost a woman’s instinct. He came by a leap to the goal
of purpose, not by the toilsome steps of reason. On the instant his
headlong spirit declared his purpose: this was the one being for him in
all the world: at this altar he would light a lamp of devotion, and keep
it burning forever.
“This is my day,” he said to himself. “I always knew that love would
come down on me like a storm.” Then, aloud, he said to her: “I wish I
knew what you know; but I can’t, because my mind is different, my life
has been different. When you go into the world and see a great deal, and
loosen a little the strings of your principles, and watch how sins and
virtues contradict themselves, you see things after a while in a kind of
mist. But you, Guida, you see them clearly because your heart is clear.
You never make a mistake, you are always right because your mind is
right.”
She interrupted him, a little troubled and a good deal amazed: “Oh, you
mustn’t, mustn’t speak like that. It’s not so. How can one see and learn
unless one sees and knows the world? Surely one can’t think wisely if
one doesn’t see widely?”
He changed his tactics instantly. The world--that was the thing? Well,
then, she should see the world, through him, with him.
“Yes, yes, you’re right,” he answered. “You can’t know things unless you
see widely. You must see the world. This island, what is it? I was born
here, don’t I know! It’s a foothold in the world, but it’s no more; it’s
not afield to walk in, why, it’s not even a garden. No, it’s the little
patch of green we play in in front of a house, behind the railings,
before we go out into the world and learn how to live.”
They had now reached the highest point on the island, where a flagstaff
stood. Guida was looking far beyond Jersey to the horizon line. There
was little haze, the sky was inviolably blue. Far off against the
horizon lay the low black rocks of the Minquiers. They seemed to her,
on the instant, like stepping-stones. Beyond would be other
stepping-stones, and others and others still again, and they would all
mark the way and lead to what Philip called the world. The world! She
felt a sudden little twist of regret at her heart. Here she was like a
cow grazing within the circle of its tether--like a lax caterpillar on
its blade of grass. Yet it had all seemed so good to her in the past;
broken only by little bursts of wonder and wish concerning that outside
world.
“Do we ever learn how to live?” she asked. “Don’t we just go on from one
thing to another, picking our way, but never knowing quite what to do,
because we don’t know what’s ahead? I believe we never do learn how to
live,” she added, half-smiling, yet a little pensive too; “but I am so
very ignorant, and--”
She stopped, for suddenly it flashed upon her: here she was baring
her childish heart--he would think it childish, she was sure he
would--everything she thought, to a man she had never known till to-day.
No, no, she was wrong; she had known him, but it was only as Philip,
the boy who had saved her life. And the Philip of her memory was only a
picture, not a being; something to think about, not something to speak
with, to whom she might show her heart. She flushed hotly and turned her
shoulder on him. Her eyes followed a lizard creeping up the stones. As
long as she lived she remembered that lizard, its colour changing in the
sun. She remembered the hot stones, and how warm the flag-staff was when
she stretched out her hand to it mechanically. But the swift, noiseless
lizard running in and out of the stones, it was ever afterwards like a
coat-of-arms upon the shield of her life.
Philip came close to her. At first he spoke over her shoulder, then he
faced her. His words forced her eyes up to his, and he held them.
“Yes, yes, we learn how to live,” he said. “It’s only when we travel
alone that we don’t see before us. I will teach you how to live--we
will learn the way together! Guida! Guida!”--he reached out his hands
to wards her--“don’t start so! Listen to me. I feel for you what I have
felt for no other being in all my life. It came upon me yesterday when
I saw you in the window at the Vier Prison. I didn’t understand it. All
night I walked the deck thinking of you. To-day as soon as I saw your
face, as soon as I touched your hand, I knew what it was, and--”
He attempted to take her hand now. “Oh, no, no!” she exclaimed, and drew
back as if terrified.
“You need not fear me,” he burst out. “For now I know that I have but
two things to live for: for my work”--he pointed to the Narcissus--“and
for you. You are frightened of me? Why, I want to have the right to
protect you, to drive away all fear from your life. You shall be the
garden and I shall be the wall; you the nest and I the rock; you the
breath of life and I the body that breathes it. Guida, my Guida, I love
you!”
She drew back, leaning against the stones, her eyes riveted upon his,
and she spoke scarcely above a whisper.
“It is not true--it is not true. You’ve known me only for one day--only
for one hour. How can you say it!” There was a tumult in her breast; her
eyes shone and glistened; wonder, embarrassed yet happy wonder, looked
at him from her face, which was touched with an appealing, as of the
heart that dares not believe and yet must believe or suffer.
“It is madness,” she added. “It is not true--how can it be true!”
Yet it all had the look of reality--the voice had the right ring, the
face had truth, the bearing was gallant; the force and power of the man
overwhelmed her.
She reached out her hand tremblingly as though to push him back. “It
cannot be true,” she said. “To think--in one day!”
“It is true,” he answered, “true as that I stand here. One day--it is
not one day. I knew you years ago. The seed was sown then, the flower
springs up to-day, that is all. You think I can’t know that it is love I
feel for you? It is admiration; it is faith; it is desire too; but it is
love. When you see a flower in a garden, do you not know at once if you
like it or no? Don’t you know the moment you look on a landscape, on a
splendid building, whether it is beautiful to you? If, then, with these
things one knows--these that haven’t any speech, no life like yours or
mine--how much more when it is a girl with a face like yours, when it
is a mind noble like yours, when it is a touch that thrills, and a voice
that drowns the heart in music! Guida, believe that I speak the truth.
I know, I swear, that you are the one passion, the one love of my life.
All others would be as nothing, so long as you live, and I live to look
upon you, to be beside you.”
“Beside me!” she broke in, with an incredulous irony fain to be
contradicted, “a girl in a village, poor, knowing nothing, seeing no
farther”--she looked out towards Jersey--“seeing no farther than the
little cottage in the little country where I was born.”
“But you shall see more,” he said, “you shall see all, feel all, if you
will but listen to me. Don’t deny me what is life and breathing and
hope to me. I’ll show you the world; I’ll take you where you may see and
know. We will learn it all together. I shall succeed in life. I shall
go far. I’ve needed one thing to make me do my best for some one’s sake
beside my own; you will make me do it for your sake. Your ancestors
were great people in France; and you know that mine, centuries ago, were
great also--that the d’Avranches were a noble family in France. You and
I will win our place as high as the best of them. In this war that’s
coming between England and France is my chance. Nelson said to me the
other day--you have heard of him, of young Captain Nelson, the man
they’re pointing to in the fleet as the one man of them all?--he said
to me: ‘We shall have our chance now, d’Avranche.’ And we shall. I have
wanted it till to-day for my own selfish ambition--now I want it for
you. When I landed on this islet a half-hour ago, I hated it, I hated my
ship, I hated my duty, I hated everything, because I wanted to go where
you were, to be with you. It was Destiny that brought us both to this
place at one moment. You can’t escape Destiny. It was to be that I
should love you, Guida.”
He reached out to take her hands, but she put them behind her against
the stones, and drew back. The lizard suddenly shot out from a hole and
crossed over her fingers. She started, shivered at the cold touch, and
caught the hand away. A sense of foreboding awaked in her, and her eyes
followed the lizard’s swift travel with a strange fascination. But she
lifted them to Philip’s, and the fear and premonition passed.
“Oh, my brain is in a whirl!” she said. “I do not understand. I know
so little. No one has ever spoken to me as you have done. You would
not dare”--she leaned forward a little, looking into his face with
that unwavering gaze which was the best sign of her straight-forward
mind--“you would not dare to deceive--you would not dare. I have--no
mother,” she added with simple pathos.
The moisture came into his eyes. He must have been stone not to be
touched by the appealing, by the tender inquisition, of that look.
“Guida,” he said impetuously, “if I deceive you, may every fruit of life
turn to dust and ashes in my mouth! If ever I deceive you, may I die a
black, dishonourable death, abandoned and alone! I should deserve that
if I deceived you, Guida.”
For the first time since he had spoken she smiled, yet her eyes filled
with tears too.
“You will let me tell you that I love you, Guida--it is all I ask now:
that you will listen to me?”
She sighed, but did not answer. She kept looking at him, looking as
though she would read his inmost soul. Her face was very young, though
the eyes were so wise in their simplicity.
“You will give me my chance--you will listen to me, Guida, and try to
understand--and be glad?” he asked, leaning closer to her and holding
out his hands.
She drew herself up slightly as with an air of relief and resolve. She
put a hand in his.
“I will try to understand--and be glad,” she answered.
“Won’t you call me Philip?” he said.
The same slight, mischievous smile crossed her lips now as eleven years
ago in the Rue d’Egypte, and recalling that moment, she replied:
“Yes, sir--Philip!”
At that instant the figure of a man appeared on the shingle beneath,
looking up towards them. They did not see him. Guida’s hand was still in
Philip’s.
The man looked at them for a moment, then started and turned away. It
was Ranulph Delagarde.
They heard his feet upon the shingle now. They turned and looked; and
Guida withdrew her hand.