22 October.

This morning I sent the letter to Clara. To-morrow I shall have a

reply, or perhaps Clara herself will come tonight. In the afternoon

they sent me a second despatch from Kromitzki. It expresses as much

despair as a few words can contain. Things seem to have turned out

very badly, indeed; even I did not think ruin would come so quickly.

Some unexpected circumstances must have intervened that even Kromitzki

could not have foreseen. The loss I incur does not make a great

difference to me; I shall always be what I was,--but Kromitzki? Why

should I deceive myself? There lurks somewhere in a corner of my heart

a certain satisfaction at his ruin,--if only for the reason that these

two will be now entirely dependent on us; that is, upon my aunt, who

is the administrator of the Ploszow estate, and myself. In the mean

while I do not intend to reply at all. If I changed my intention

it would be to send him my congratulation at the expected family

increase. Later on it will be different. I will secure their future;

they shall have enough to live upon and more.

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