CHAPTER XXIV

Sheridan waited until he heard the sound of the outer door closing; then

he rose and pushed a tiny disk set in the wall. Jackson appeared.

“Has Bibbs got home from work?”

“Mist' Bibbs? No, suh.”

“Tell him I want to see him, soon as he comes.”

“Yessuh.”

Sheridan returned to his chair and fixed his attention fiercely upon

the newspaper. He found it difficult to pursue the items beyond

their explanatory rubrics--there was nothing unusual or startling to

concentrate his attention:

“Motorman Puts Blame on Brakes. Three Killed when Car Slides.”

“Burglars Make Big Haul.”

“Board Works Approve Big Car-line Extension.”

“Hold-up Men Injure Two. Man Found in Alley, Skull Fractured.”

“Sickening Story Told in Divorce Court.”

“Plan New Eighteen-story Structure.”

“School-girl Meets Death under Automobile.”

“Negro Cuts Three. One Dead.”

“Life Crushed Out. Third Elevator Accident in Same Building Causes

Action by Coroner.”

“Declare Militia will be Menace. Polish Societies Protest to

Governor in Church Rioting Case.”

“Short $3,500 in Accounts, Trusted Man Kills Self with Drug.”

“Found Frozen. Family Without Food or Fuel. Baby Dead when

Parents Return Home from Seeking Work.”

“Minister Returned from Trip Abroad Lectures on Big Future of Our

City. Sees Big Improvement during Short Absence. Says No

European City Holds Candle.” (Sheridan nodded approvingly here.)

Bibbs came through the hall whistling, and entered the room briskly.

“Well, father, did you want me?”

“Yes. Sit down.” Sheridan got up, and Bibbs took a seat by the fire,

holding out his hands to the crackling blaze, for it was cold outdoors.

“I came within seven of the shop record to-day,” he said. “I handled

more strips than any other workman has any day this month. The nearest

to me is sixteen behind.”

“There!” exclaimed his father, greatly pleased. “What'd I tell you?

I'd like to hear Gurney hint again that I wasn't right in sending you

there--I would just like to hear him! And you--ain't you ashamed of

makin' such a fuss about it? Ain't you?”

“I didn't go at it in the right spirit the other time,” Bibbs said,

smiling brightly, his face ruddy in the cheerful firelight. “I didn't

know the difference it meant to like a thing.”

“Well, I guess I've pretty thoroughly vindicated my judgement. I guess I

HAVE! I said the shop'd be good for you, and it was. I said it wouldn't

hurt you, and it hasn't. It's been just exactly what I said it would be.

Ain't that so?”

“Looks like it!” Bibbs agreed, gaily.

“Well, I'd like to know any place I been wrong, first and last! Instead

o' hurting you, it's been the makin' of you--physically. You're a good

inch taller'n what I am, and you'd be a bigger man than what I am

if you'd get some flesh on your bones; and you ARE gettin' a little.

Physically, it's started you out to be the huskiest one o' the whole

family. Now, then, mentally--that's different. I don't say it unkindly,

Bibbs, but you got to do something for yourself mentally, just like

what's begun physically. And I'm goin' to help you.”

Sheridan decided to sit down again. He brought his chair close to his

son's, and, leaning over, tapped Bibbs's knee confidentially. “I got

plans for you, Bibbs,” he said.

Bibbs instantly looked thoroughly alarmed. He drew back. “I--I'm all

right now, father.”

“Listen.” Sheridan settled himself in his chair, and spoke in the tone

of a reasonable man reasoning. “Listen here, Bibbs. I had another blow

to-day, and it was a hard one and right in the face, though I HAVE been

expectin' it some little time back. Well, it's got to be met. Now I'll

be frank with you. As I said a minute ago, mentally I couldn't ever

called you exactly strong. You been a little weak both ways, most of

your life. Not but what I think you GOT a mentality, if you'd learn to

use it. You got will-power, I'll say that for you. I never knew boy or

man that could be stubborner--never one in my life! Now, then, you've

showed you could learn to run that machine best of any man in the shop,

in no time at all. That looks to me like you could learn to do other

things. I don't deny but what it's an encouragin' sign. I don't deny

that, at all. Well, that helps me to think the case ain't so hopeless as

it looks. You're all I got to meet this blow with, but maybe you ain't

as poor material as I thought. Your tellin' me about comin' within

seven strips of the shop's record to-day looks to me like encouragin'

information brought in at just about the right time. Now, then, I'm

goin' to give you a raise. I wanted to send you straight on up through

the shops--a year or two, maybe--but I can't do it. I lost Jim, and now

I've lost Roscoe. He's quit. He's laid down on me. If he ever comes back

at all, he'll be a long time pickin' up the strings, and, anyway, he

ain't the man I thought he was. I can't count on him. I got to have

SOMEBODY I KNOW I can count on. And I'm down to this: you're my last

chance. Bibbs, I got to learn you to use what brains you got and see if

we can't develop 'em a little. Who knows? And I'm goin' to put my time

in on it. I'm goin' to take you right down-town with ME, and I won't be

hard on you if you're a little slow at first. And I'm goin' to do the

big thing for you. I'm goin' to make you feel you got to do the big

thing for me, in return. I've vindicated my policy with you about the

shop, and now I'm goin' to turn right around and swing you 'way over

ahead of where the other boys started, and I'm goin' to make an appeal

to your ambition that'll make you dizzy!” He tapped his son on the knee

again. “Bibbs, I'm goin' to start you off this way: I'm goin' to

make you a director in the Pump Works Company; I'm goin' to make you

vice-president of the Realty Company and a vice-president of the Trust

Company!”

Bibbs jumped to his feet, blanched. “Oh no!” he cried.

Sheridan took his dismay to be the excitement of sudden joy. “Yes,

sir! And there's some pretty fat little salaries goes with those

vice-presidencies, and a pinch o' stock in the Pump Company with the

directorship. You thought I was pretty mean about the shop--oh, I know

you did!--but you see the old man can play it both ways. And so right

now, the minute you've begun to make good the way I wanted you to,

I deal from the new deck. And I'll keep on handin' it out bigger and

bigger every time you show me you're big enough to play the hand I deal

you. I'm startin' you with a pretty big one, my boy!”

“But I don't--I don't--I don't want it!” Bibbs stammered.

“What'd you say?” Sheridan thought he had not heard aright.

“I don't want it, father. I thank you--I do thank you--”

Sheridan looked perplexed. “What's the matter with you? Didn't you

understand what I was tellin' you?”

“Yes.”

“You sure? I reckon you didn't. I offered--”

“I know, I know! But I can't take it.”

“What's the matter with you?” Sheridan was half amazed, half suspicious.

“Your head feel funny?”

“I've never been quite so sane in my life,” said Bibbs, “as I have

lately. And I've got just what I want. I'm living exactly the right

life. I'm earning my daily bread, and I'm happy in doing it. My wages

are enough. I don't want any more money, and I don't deserve any--”

“Damnation!” Sheridan sprang up. “You've turned Socialist! You been

listening to those fellows down there, and you--”

“No, sir. I think there's a great deal in what they say, but that isn't

it.”

Sheridan tried to restrain his growing fury, and succeeded partially.

“Then what is it? What's the matter?”

“Nothing,” his son returned, nervously. “Nothing--except that I'm

content. I don't want to change anything.”

“Why not?”

Bibbs had the incredible folly to try to explain. “I'll tell you,

father, if I can. I know it may be hard to understand--”

“Yes, I think it may be,” said Sheridan, grimly. “What you say usually

is a LITTLE that way. Go on!”

Perturbed and distressed, Bibbs rose instinctively; he felt himself at

every possible disadvantage. He was a sleeper clinging to a dream--a

rough hand stretched to shake him and waken him. He went to a table and

made vague drawings upon it with a finger, and as he spoke he kept his

eyes lowered. “You weren't altogether right about the shop--that is,

in one way you weren't, father.” He glanced up apprehensively. Sheridan

stood facing him, expressionless, and made no attempt to interrupt.

“That's difficult to explain,” Bibbs continued, lowering his eyes again,

to follow the tracings of his finger. “I--I believe the shop might have

done for me this time if I hadn't--if something hadn't helped me to--oh,

not only to bear it, but to be happy in it. Well, I AM happy in it.

I want to go on just as I am. And of all things on earth that I don't

want, I don't want to live a business life--I don't want to be drawn

into it. I don't think it IS living--and now I AM living. I have the

healthful toil--and I can think. In business as important as yours I

couldn't think anything but business. I don't--I don't think making

money is worth while.”

“Go on,” said Sheridan, curtly, as Bibbs paused timidly.

“It hasn't seemed to get anywhere, that I can see,” said Bibbs. “You

think this city is rich and powerful--but what's the use of its being

rich and powerful? They don't teach the children any more in the schools

because the city is rich and powerful. They teach them more than they

used to because some people--not rich and powerful people--have thought

the thoughts to teach the children. And yet when you've been reading

the paper I've heard you objecting to the children being taught anything

except what would help them to make money. You said it was wasting the

taxes. You want them taught to make a living, but not to live. When I

was a little boy this wasn't an ugly town; now it's hideous. What's the

use of being big just to be hideous? I mean I don't think all this has

meant really going ahead--it's just been getting bigger and dirtier and

noisier. Wasn't the whole country happier and in many ways wiser when it

was smaller and cleaner and quieter and kinder? I know you think I'm an

utter fool, father, but, after all, though, aren't business and politics

just the housekeeping part of life? And wouldn't you despise a woman

that not only made her housekeeping her ambition, but did it so noisily

and dirtily that the whole neighborhood was in a continual turmoil over

it? And suppose she talked and thought about her housekeeping all

the time, and was always having additions built to her house when she

couldn't keep clean what she already had; and suppose, with it all, she

made the house altogether unpeaceful and unlivable--”

“Just one minute!” Sheridan interrupted, adding, with terrible courtesy,

“If you will permit me? Have you ever been right about anything?”

“I don't quite--”

“I ask the simple question: Have you ever been right about anything

whatever in the course of your life? Have you ever been right upon

any subject or question you've thought about and talked about? Can you

mention one single time when you were proved to be right?”

He was flourishing the bandaged hand as he spoke, but Bibbs said only,

“If I've always been wrong before, surely there's more chance that I'm

right about this. It seems reasonable to suppose something would be due

to bring up my average.”

“Yes, I thought you wouldn't see the point. And there's another you

probably couldn't see, but I'll take the liberty to mention it. You been

balkin' all your life. Pretty much everything I ever wanted you to do,

you'd let out SOME kind of a holler, like you are now--and yet I can't

seem to remember once when you didn't have to lay down and do what I

said. But go on with your remarks about our city and the business of

this country. Go on!”

“I don't want to be a part of it,” said Bibbs, with unwonted decision.

“I want to keep to myself, and I'm doing it now. I couldn't, if I went

down there with you. I'd be swallowed into it. I don't care for money

enough to--”

“No,” his father interrupted, still dangerously quiet. “You've never had

to earn a living. Anybody could tell that by what you say. Now, let me

remind you: you're sleepin' in a pretty good bed; you're eatin' pretty

fair food; you're wearin' pretty fine clothes. Just suppose one o' these

noisy housekeepers--me, for instance--decided to let you do your own

housekeepin'. May I ask what your proposition would be?”

“I'm earning nine dollars a week,” said Bibbs, sturdily. “It's enough. I

shouldn't mind at all.”

“Who's payin' you that nine dollars a week?”

“My work!” Bibbs answered. “And I've done so well on that

clipping-machine I believe I could work up to fifteen or even twenty

a week at another job. I could be a fair plumber in a few months,

I'm sure. I'd rather have a trade than be in business--I should,

infinitely!”

“You better set about learnin' one pretty dam' quick!” But Sheridan

struggled with his temper and again was partially successful in

controlling it. “You better learn a trade over Sunday, because you're

either goin' down with me to my office Monday morning--or--you can go to

plumbing!”

“All right,” said Bibbs, gently. “I can get along.”

Sheridan raised his hands sardonically, as in prayer. “O God,” he said,

“this boy was crazy enough before he began to earn his nine dollars a

week, and now his money's gone to his head! Can't You do nothin' for

him?” Then he flung his hands apart, palms outward, in a furious gesture

of dismissal. “Get out o' this room! You got a skull that's thicker'n a

whale's thigh-bone, but it's cracked spang all the way across! You hated

the machine-shop so bad when I sent you there, you went and stayed sick

for over two years--and now, when I offer to take you out of it and give

you the mint, you holler for the shop like a calf for its mammy! You're

cracked! Oh, but I got a fine layout here! One son died, one quit, and

one's a loon! The loon's all I got left! H. P. Ellersly's wife had

a crazy brother, and they undertook to keep him at the house. First

morning he was there he walked straight though a ten-dollar plate-glass

window out into the yard. He says, 'Oh, look at the pretty dandelion!'

That's what you're doin'! You want to spend your life sayin', 'Oh, look

at the pretty dandelion!' and you don't care a tinker's dam' what you

bust! Well, mister, loon or no loon, cracked and crazy or whatever you

are, I'll take you with me Monday morning, and I'll work you and learn

you--yes, and I'll lam you, if I got to--until I've made something out

of you that's fit to be called a business man! I'll keep at you while

I'm able to stand, and if I have to lay down to die I'll be whisperin'

at you till they get the embalmin'-fluid into me! Now go on, and don't

let me hear from you again till you can come and tell me you've waked

up, you poor, pitiful, dandelion-pickin' SLEEP-WALKER!”

Bibbs gave him a queer look. There was something like reproach in it,

for once; but there was more than that--he seemed to be startled by his

father's last word.

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