CHAPTER XVIII

At seven o'clock on the last morning of that month, Sheridan, passing

through the upper hall on his way to descend the stairs for breakfast,

found a couple of scribbled sheets of note-paper lying on the floor. A

window had been open in Bibbs's room the evening before; he had left his

note-book on the sill--and the sheets were loose. The door was open, and

when Bibbs came in and closed it, he did not notice that the two sheets

had blown out into the hall. Sheridan recognized the handwriting and

put the sheets in his coat pocket, intending to give them to George

or Jackson for return to the owner, but he forgot and carried them

down-town with him. At noon he found himself alone in his office, and,

having a little leisure, remembered the bits of manuscript, took them

out, and glanced at them. A glance was enough to reveal that they were

not epistolary. Sheridan would not have read a “private letter” that

came into his possession in that way, though in a “matter of business”

he might have felt it his duty to take advantage of an opportunity

afforded in any manner whatsoever. Having satisfied himself that Bibbs's

scribblings were only a sample of the kind of writing his son preferred

to the machine-shop, he decided, innocently enough, that he would be

justified in reading them.

It appears that a lady will nod pleasantly upon some windy

generalization of a companion, and will wear the most agreeable

expression of accepting it as the law, and then--days afterward,

when the thing is a mummy to its promulgator--she will inquire out

of a clear sky: “WHY did you say that the people down-town have

nothing in life that a chicken hasn't? What did you mean?” And she

may say it in a manner that makes a sensible reply very difficult

--you will be so full of wonder that she remembered so seriously.

Yet, what does the rooster lack? He has food and shelter; he is

warm in winter; his wives raise not one fine family for him, but

dozens. He has a clear sky over him; he breathes sweet air; he

walks in his April orchard under a roof of flowers. He must die,

violently perhaps, but quickly. Is Midas's cancer a better way?

The rooster's wives and children must die. Are those of Midas

immortal? His life is shorter than the life of Midas, but Midas's

life is only a sixth as long as that of the Galapagos tortoise.

The worthy money-worker takes his vacation so that he may refresh

himself anew for the hard work of getting nothing that the rooster

doesn't get. The office-building has an elevator, the rooster

flies up to the bough. Midas has a machine to take him to his work;

the rooster finds his worm underfoot. The “business man” feels

a pressure sometimes, without knowing why, and sits late at wine

after the day's labor; next morning he curses his head because it

interferes with the work--he swears never to relieve that pressure

again. The rooster has no pressure and no wine; this difference is

in his favor.

The rooster is a dependent; he depends upon the farmer and the

weather. Midas is a dependent; he depends upon the farmer and the

weather. The rooster thinks only of the moment; Midas provides for

to-morrow. What does he provide for to-morrow? Nothing that the

rooster will not have without providing.

The rooster and the prosperous worker: they are born, they grub,

they love; they grub and love grubbing; they grub and they die.

Neither knows beauty; neither knows knowledge. And after all, when

Midas dies and the rooster dies, there is one thing Midas has had

and rooster has not. Midas has had the excitement of accumulating

what he has grubbed, and that has been his life and his love and

his god. He cannot take that god with him when he dies. I wonder

if the worthy gods are those we can take with us.

Midas must teach all to be as Midas; the young must be raised in

his religion--

The manuscript ended there, and Sheridan was not anxious for more.

He crumpled the sheets into a ball, depositing it (with vigor) in a

waste-basket beside him; then, rising, he consulted a Cyclopedia of

Names, which a book-agent had somehow sold to him years before; a

volume now first put to use for the location of “Midas.” Having read the

legend, Sheridan walked up and down the spacious office, exhaling

the breath of contempt. “Dam' fool!” he mumbled. But this was no new

thought, nor was the contrariness of Bibbs's notes a surpise to him; and

presently he dismissed the matter from his mind.

He felt very lonely, and this was, daily, his hardest hour. For a long

time he and Jim had lunched together habitually. Roscoe preferred a

club luncheon, but Jim and his father almost always went to a small

restaurant near the Sheridan Building, where they spent twenty minutes

in the consumption of food, and twenty in talk, with cigars. Jim came

for his father every day, at five minutes after twelve, and Sheridan

was again in his office at five minutes before one. But now that Jim no

longer came, Sheridan remained alone in his office; he had not gone out

to lunch since Jim's death, nor did he have anything sent to him--he

fasted until evening.

It was the time he missed Jim personally the most--the voice and eyes

and handshake, all brisk and alert, all business-like. But these things

were not the keenest in Sheridan's grief; his sense of loss went far

deeper. Roscoe was dependable, a steady old wheel-horse, and that was

a great comfort; but it was in Jim that Sheridan had most happily

perceived his own likeness. Jim was the one who would have been surest

to keep the great property growing greater, year by year. Sheridan had

fallen asleep, night after night, picturing what the growth would be

under Jim. He had believed that Jim was absolutely certain to be one of

the biggest men in the country. Well, it was all up to Roscoe now!

That reminded him of a question he had in mind to ask Roscoe. It was a

question Sheridan considered of no present importance, but his wife had

suggested it--though vaguely--and he had meant to speak to Roscoe about

it. However, Roscoe had not come into his father's office for several

days, and when Sheridan had seen his son at home there had been no

opportunity.

He waited until the greater part of his day's work was over, toward four

o'clock, and then went down to Roscoe's office, which was on a lower

floor. He found several men waiting for business interviews in an outer

room of the series Roscoe occupied; and he supposed that he would

find his son busy with others, and that his question would have to

be postponed, but when he entered the door marked “R. C. Sheridan.

Private,” Roscoe was there alone.

He was sitting with his back to the door, his feet on a window-sill, and

he did not turn as his father opened the door.

“Some pretty good men out there waitin' to see you, my boy,” said

Sheridan. “What's the matter?”

“Nothing,” Roscoe answered indistinctly, not moving.

“Well, I guess that's all right, too. I let 'em wait sometimes myself!

I just wanted to ask you a question, but I expect it'll keep, if you're

workin' something out in your mind!”

Roscoe made no reply; and his father, who had turned to the door, paused

with his hand on the knob, staring curiously at the motionless figure in

the chair. Usually the son seemed pleased and eager when he came to the

office. “You're all right, ain't you?” said Sheridan. “Not sick, are

you?”

“No.”

Sheridan was puzzled; then, abruptly, he decided to ask his question. “I

wanted to talk to you about that young Lamhorn,” he said. “I guess your

mother thinks he's comin' to see Edith pretty often, and you known him

longer'n any of us, so--”

“I won't,” said Roscoe, thickly--“I won't say a dam' thing about him!”

Sheridan uttered an exclamation and walked quickly to a position

near the window where he could see his son's face. Roscoe's eyes were

bloodshot and vacuous; his hair was disordered, his mouth was distorted,

and he was deathly pale. The father stood aghast.

“By George!” he muttered. “ROSCOE!”

“My name,” said Roscoe. “Can' help that.”

“ROSCOE!” Blank astonishment was Sheridan's first sensation. Probably

nothing in the world could have more amazed his than to find Roscoe--the

steady old wheel-horse--in this condition. “How'd you GET this way?” he

demanded. “You caught cold and took too much for it?”

For reply Roscoe laughed hoarsely. “Yeuh! Cold! I been drinkun all time,

lately. Firs' you notice it?”

“By George!” cried Sheridan. “I THOUGHT I'd smelt it on you a good deal

lately, but I wouldn't 'a' believed you'd take more'n was good for you.

Boh! To see you like a common hog!”

Roscoe chuckled and threw out his right arm in a meaningless gesture.

“Hog!” he repeated, chuckling.

“Yes, a hog!” said Sheridan, angrily. “In business hours! I don't object

to anybody's takin' a drink if you wants to, out o' business hours; nor,

if a man keeps his work right up to the scratch, I wouldn't be the one

to baste him if he got good an' drunk once in two, three years, maybe.

It ain't MY way. I let it alone, but I never believed in forcin' my way

on a grown-up son in moral matters. I guess I was wrong! You think them

men out there are waitin' to talk business with a drunkard? You think

you can come to your office and do business drunk? By George! I wonder

how often this has been happening and me not on to it! I'll have a look

over your books to-morrow, and I'll--”

Roscoe stumbled to his feet, laughing wildly, and stood swaying,

contriving to hold himself in position by clutching the back of the

heavy chair in which he had been sitting.

“Hoo--hoorah!” he cried. “'S my principles, too. Be drunkard all you

want to--outside business hours. Don' for Gossake le'n'thing innerfere

business hours! Business! Thassit! You're right, father. Drink! Die!

L'everything go to hell, but DON' let innerfere business!”

Sheridan had seized the telephone upon Roscoe's desk, and was calling

his own office, overhead. “Abercrombie? Come down to my son Roscoe's

suite and get rid of some gentlemen that are waitin' there to see him in

room two-fourteen. There's Maples and Schirmer and a couple o' fellows

on the Kinsey business. Tell 'em something's come up I have to go over

with Roscoe, and tell 'em to come back day after to-morrow at two.

You needn't come in to let me know they're gone; we don't want to be

disturbed. Tell Pauly to call my house and send Claus down here with a

closed car. We may have to go out. Tell him to hustle, and call me at

Roscoe's room as soon as the car gets here. 'T's all!”

Roscoe had laughed bitterly throughout this monologue. “Drunk in

business hours! Thass awf'l! Mus'n' do such thing! Mus'n' get drunk,

mus'n' gamble, mus'n' kill 'nybody--not in business hours! All right any

other time. Kill 'nybody you want to--'s long 'tain't in business

hours! Fine! Mus'n' have any trouble 't'll innerfere business. Keep your

trouble 't home. Don' bring it to th' office. Might innerfere business!

Have funerals on Sunday--might innerfere business! Don' let your wife

innerfere business! Keep all, all, ALL your trouble an' your meanness,

an' your trad--your tradegy--keep 'em ALL for home use! If you got die,

go on die 't home--don' die round th' office! Might innerfere business!”

Sheridan picked up a newspaper from Roscoe's desk, and sat down with his

back to his son, affecting to read. Roscoe seemed to be unaware of his

father's significant posture.

“You know wh' I think?” he went on. “I think Bibbs only one the fam'ly

any 'telligence at all. Won' work, an' di'n' get married. Jim worked,

an' he got killed. I worked, an' I got married. Look at me! Jus' look at

me, I ask you. Fine 'dustriss young business man. Look whass happen' to

me! Fine!” He lifted his hand from the sustaining chair in a deplorable

gesture, and, immediately losing his balance, fell across the chair

and caromed to the floor with a crash, remaining prostrate for several

minutes, during which Sheridan did not relax his apparent attention to

the newspaper. He did not even look round at the sound of Roscoe's fall.

Roscoe slowly climbed to an upright position, pulling himself up

by holding to the chair. He was slightly sobered outwardly, having

progressed in the prostrate interval to a state of befuddlement less

volatile. He rubbed his dazed eyes with the back of his left hand.

“What--what you ask me while ago?” he said.

“Nothin'.”

“Yes, you did. What--what was it?”

“Nothin'. You better sit down.”

“You ask' me what I thought about Lamhorn. You did ask me that. Well, I

won't tell you. I won't say dam' word 'bout him!”

The telephone-bell tinkled. Sheridan placed the receiver to his ear and

said, “Right down.” Then he got Roscoe's coat and hat from a closet and

brought them to his son. “Get into this coat,” he said. “You're goin'

home.”

“All ri',” Roscoe murmured, obediently.

They went out into the main hall by a side door, not passing through the

outer office; and Sheridan waited for an empty elevator, stopped it, and

told the operator to take on no more passengers until they reached

the ground floor. Roscoe walked out of the building and got into the

automobile without lurching, and twenty minutes later walked into his

own house in the same manner, neither he nor his father having spoken a

word in the interval.

Sheridan did not go in with him; he went home, and to his own room

without meeting any of his family. But as he passed Bibbs's door he

heard from within the sound of a cheerful young voice humming jubilant

fragments of song:

WHO looks a mustang in the eye?...

With a leap from the ground

To the saddle in a bound.

And away--and away!

Hi-yay!

It was the first time in Sheridan's life that he had ever detected

any musical symptom whatever in Bibbs--he had never even heard him

whistle--and it seemed the last touch of irony that the useless fool

should be merry to-day.

To Sheridan it was Tom o' Bedlam singing while the house burned; and he

did not tarry to enjoy the melody, but went into his own room and locked

the door.

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