Mary was the picture of a lady flustered. She stood with one hand
closing the gate behind her, and she had turned to go in the direction
Bibbs was walking. There appeared to be nothing for it but that they
should walk together, at least as far as the New House. But Bibbs had
paused in his slow stride, and there elapsed an instant before either
spoke or moved--it was no longer than that, and yet it sufficed for each
to seem to say, by look and attitude, “Why, it's YOU!”
Then they both spoke at once, each hurriedly pronouncing the other's
name as if about to deliver a message of importance. Then both came to
a stop simultaneously, but Bibbs made a heroic effort, and as they began
to walk on together he contrived to find his voice.
“I--I--hate a frozen fish myself,” he said. “I think three miles was too
long for you to put up with one.”
“Good gracious!” she cried, turning to him a glowing face from which
restraint and embarrassment had suddenly fled. “Mr. Sheridan, you're
lovely to put it that way. But it's always the girl's place to say it's
turning cooler! I ought to have been the one to show that we didn't know
each other well enough not to say SOMETHING! It was an imposition for
me to have made you bring me home, and after I went into the house I
decided I should have walked. Besides, it wasn't three miles to the
car-line. I never thought of it!”
“No,” said Bibbs, earnestly. “I didn't, either. I might have said
something if I'd thought of anything. I'm talking now, though; I must
remember that, and not worry about it later. I think I'm talking, though
it doesn't sound intelligent even to me. I made up my mind that if I
ever met you again I'd turn on my voice and keep it going, no mater what
it said. I--”
She interrupted him with laughter, and Mary Vertrees's laugh was one
which Bibbs's father had declared, after the house-warming, “a cripple
would crawl five miles to hear.” And at the merry lilting of it Bibbs's
father's son took heart to forget some of his trepidation. “I'll be any
kind of idiot,” he said, “if you'll laugh at me some more. It won't be
difficult for me.”
She did; and Bibbs's cheeks showed a little actual color, which Mary
perceived. It recalled to her, by contrast, her careless and irritated
description of him to her mother just after she had seen him for the
first time. “Rather tragic and altogether impossible.” It seemed to her
now that she must have been blind.
They had passed the New House without either of them showing--or
possessing--any consciousness that it had been the destination of one of
them.
“I'll keep on talking,” Bibbs continued, cheerfully, “and you keep on
laughing. I'm amounting to something in the world this afternoon. I'm
making a noise, and that makes you make music. Don't be bothered by my
bleating out such things as that. I'm really frightened, and that makes
me bleat anything. I'm frightened about two things: I'm afraid of what
I'll think of myself later if I don't keep talking--talking now, I
mean--and I'm afraid of what I'll think of myself if I do. And besides
these two things, I'm frightened, anyhow. I don't remember talking as
much as this more than once or twice in my life. I suppose it was always
in me to do it, though, the first time I met any one who didn't know me
well enough not to listen.”
“But you're not really talking to me,” said Mary. “You're just thinking
aloud.”
“No,” he returned, gravely. “I'm not thinking at all; I'm only making
vocal sounds because I believe it's more mannerly. I seem to be the
subject of what little meaning they possess, and I'd like to change it,
but I don't know how. I haven't any experience in talking, and I don't
know how to manage it.”
“You needn't change the subject on my account, Mr. Sheridan,” she said.
“Not even if you really talked about yourself.” She turned her
face toward him as she spoke, and Bibbs caught his breath; he was
pathetically amazed by the look she gave him. It was a glowing look,
warmly friendly and understanding, and, what almost shocked him, it was
an eagerly interested look. Bibbs was not accustomed to anything like
that.
“I--you--I--I'm--” he stammered, and the faint color in his cheeks grew
almost vivid.
She was still looking at him, and she saw the strange radiance that came
into his face. There was something about him, too, that explained how
“queer” many people might think him; but he did not seem “queer” to Mary
Vertrees; he seemed the most quaintly natural person she had ever met.
He waited, and became coherent. “YOU say something now,” he said. “I
don't even belong in the chorus, and here I am, trying to sing the funny
man's solo! You--”
“No,” she interrupted. “I'd rather play your accompaniment.”
“I'll stop and listen to it, then.”
“Perhaps--” she began, but after pausing thoughtfully she made a
gesture with her muff, indicating a large brick church which they were
approaching. “Do you see that church, Mr. Sheridan?”
“I suppose I could,” he answered in simple truthfulness, looking at her.
“But I don't want to. Once, when I was ill, the nurse told me I'd better
say anything that was on my mind, and I got the habit. The other reason
I don't want to see the church is that I have a feeling it's where
you're going, and where I'll be sent back.”
She shook her head in cheery negation. “Not unless you want to be. Would
you like to come with me?”
“Why--why--yes,” he said. “Anywhere!” And again it was apparent that he
spoke in simple truthfulness.
“Then come--if you care for organ music. The organist is an old friend
of mine, and sometimes he plays for me. He's a dear old man. He had
a degree from Bonn, and was a professor afterward, but he gave up
everything for music. That's he, waiting in the doorway. He looks like
Beethoven, doesn't he? I think he knows that, perhaps and enjoys it a
little. I hope so.”
“Yes,” said Bibbs, as they reached the church steps. “I think Beethoven
would like it, too. It must be pleasant to look like other people.”
“I haven't kept you?” Mary said to the organist.
“No, no,” he answered, heartily. “I would not mind so only you should
shooer come!”
“This is Mr. Sheridan, Dr. Kraft. He has come to listen with me.”
The organist looked bluntly surprised. “Iss that SO?” he exclaimed.
“Well, I am glad if you wish him, and if he can stant my liddle playink.
He iss musician himself, then, of course.”
“No,” said Bibbs, as the three entered the church together. “I--I played
the--I tried to play--” Fortunately he checked himself; he had been
about to offer the information that he had failed to master the
jews'-harp in his boyhood. “No, I'm not a musician,” he contented
himself with saying.
“What?” Dr. Kraft's surprise increased. “Young man, you are fortunate!
I play for Miss Vertrees; she comes always alone. You are the first. You
are the first one EVER!”
They had reached the head of the central aisle, and as the organist
finished speaking Bibbs stopped short, turning to look at Mary Vertrees
in a dazed way that was not of her perceiving; for, though she stopped
as he did, her gaze followed the organist, who was walking away from
them toward the front of the church, shaking his white Beethovian mane
roguishly.
“It's false pretenses on my part,” Bibbs said. “You mean to be kind to
the sick, but I'm not an invalid any more. I'm so well I'm going back
to work in a few days. I'd better leave before he begins to play, hadn't
I?”
“No,” said Mary, beginning to walk forward. “Not unless you don't like
great music.”
He followed her to a seat about half-way up the aisle while Dr. Kraft
ascended to the organ. It was an enormous one, the procession of pipes
ranging from long, starveling whistles to thundering fat guns; they
covered all the rear wall of the church, and the organist's figure,
reaching its high perch, looked like that of some Lilliputian magician
ludicrously daring the attempt to control a monster certain to overwhelm
him.
“This afternoon some Handel!” he turned to shout.
Mary nodded. “Will you like that?” she asked Bibbs.
“I don't know. I never heard any except 'Largo.' I don't know anything
about music. I don't even know how to pretend I do. If I knew enough to
pretend, I would.”
“No,” said Mary, looking at him and smiling faintly, “you wouldn't.”
She turned away as a great sound began to swim and tremble in the air;
the huge empty space of the church filled with it, and the two people
listening filled with it; the universe seemed to fill and thrill with
it. The two sat intensely still, the great sound all round about them,
while the church grew dusky, and only the organist's lamp made a
tiny star of light. His white head moved from side to side beneath it
rhythmically, or lunged and recovered with the fierceness of a duelist
thrusting, but he was magnificently the master of his giant, and it sang
to his magic as he bade it.
Bibbs was swept away upon that mighty singing. Such a thing was wholly
unknown to him; there had been no music in his meager life. Unlike
the tale, it was the Princess Bedrulbudour who had brought him to the
enchanted cave, and that--for Bibbs--was what made its magic dazing. It
seemed to him a long, long time since he had been walking home drearily
from Dr. Gurney's office; it seemed to him that he had set out upon a
happy journey since then, and that he had reached another planet, where
Mary Vertrees and he sat alone together listening to a vast choiring of
invisible soldiers and holy angels. There were armies of voices about
them singing praise and thanksgiving; and yet they were alone. It was
incredible that the walls of the church were not the boundaries of
the universe, to remain so for ever; incredible that there was a smoky
street just yonder, where housemaids were bringing in evening papers
from front steps and where children were taking their last spins on
roller-skates before being haled indoors for dinner.
He had a curious sense of communication with his new friend. He knew
it could not be so, and yet he felt as if all the time he spoke to her,
saying: “You hear this strain? You hear that strain? You know the dream
that these sounds bring to me?” And it seemed to him as though she
answered continually: “I hear! I hear that strain, and I hear the new
one that you are hearing now. I know the dream that these sounds bring
to you. Yes, yes, I hear it all! We hear--together!”
And though the church grew so dim that all was mysterious shadow except
the vague planes of the windows and the organist's light, with the white
head moving beneath it, Bibbs had no consciousness that the girl sitting
beside him had grown shadowy; he seemed to see her as plainly as ever in
the darkness, though he did not look at her. And all the mighty chanting
of the organ's multitudinous voices that afternoon seemed to Bibbs to be
chorusing of her and interpreting her, singing her thoughts and singing
for him the world of humble gratitude that was in his heart because she
was so kind to him. It all meant Mary.